"You so look like a baby right now." He whispered softly in my ears. It was kind of very embarra.s.sing to hear that I was a baby from him."You are a baby!" I refuted in response. At that moment, I raised my head on his shoulder and found that everyone was staring at us in silence. I had said it very loudly. My face must have become as red as a tomato in a split second. I was so good at embarra.s.sing myself all the time and he gets to act cool. Lady luck was so unfair to me.
"You"re the one who"s acting like one," Black whispered again ignoring all those gazes that were upon us as if only we two existed in the world.
"Perhaps I"m acting.. but just today, okay? You are the one who always acts like a baby." I replied but this time in a very low voice. I didn"t want to attract any more attention. Though I could feel stares, I could only deny their existence in my heart.
"A very big baby..." I murmured.
"Do all babies feel this good when you hold them?" My Black continued on that topic. "I don"t think so to be honest."
"Everyone"s looking at us..." I informed him so that he would deal with the surrounding people first.
"So you don"t like being looked. Well, that"s alright." Black said to me and then turned around to look at the students that had gathered around us. By that time some people had started chatting amongst themselves about the mystical thing that had happened a while ago. Some had frightened gaze while others looked at him in amazement and fascination.
"You may leave now." My Black said loudly. His tone was firm and determined as if he was commanding then instead of asking them politely. There was a certain aura in his voice that people couldn"t stop themselves from instinctively obeying. Even I felt like obeying him.
"Aren"t you afraid that this appearance of yours will be spread everywhere? I don"t mind being known because of this but I don"t think you would want to spread your whereabouts." I was concerned about him. Some bad demons are coming after him. He might be the strongest angel but he doesn"t like bloodshed and I wouldn"t like to see him do things he didn"t want to do.
"Awe... My angel is so caring." Black teased me but yea, it was the truth. I couldn"t deny.
But instead of doing something to other people like what he did to those police officers when he was driving too fast, my Black turned to the other side of the hall and spoke again.
"You all should leave too." And the rest of people followed his order.
Perhaps he wanted the whole world to know about him. I didn"t ask him again. Who knows, I might be very famous the next day. It was such a headache. I didn"t want the peaceful home of mine to be surrounded by chaos. But there was again nothing I could do.
"How do you think that we remained in hiding for so long among humans?" Black pulled me out of my thoughts.
"I dunno." Whatever it may be, there would have been something. There are so many cameras and other things around for security since the last century. Something like a video or a photo of an angel would be spread around the world if one were to appear just like how angels fell from clouds a few months ago. We were bound to know about angels. But we didn"t know anything about them or any otherworldly beings like devils or fairies. Was everything concealed by the government and the people in power?
"Gaia had forbidden interference of angels because Gaia thought that humans were too young. To be honest, Gaia is quite young. But others still respect her choices and allow her decision. Therefore, we can enter this world but we have to be inconspicuous and in hiding. We cannot reveal our status or interfere in the lives of people around."
"If something happens, like what happened today, Gaia will try to stop it by means like erasing the memories of people who know about our existence, fixing the damage and other things. Just like how Gaia prevented me from killing that guy. So everything will remain in the natural flow. People will be a little perplexed at first but they will soon forget everything." Black explained it to me and it actually made sense.
"Am I right, Gaia?" Black spoke softly this time but I knew these words weren"t for me.
"Are you talking to the lifestream?" Black responded after a short moment.
"No. Did you forget? I can"t talk to lifestream anymore. I don"t know if I can"t listen to them or they won"t talk to me anymore. Even mother has been punishing me by not talking to me. But they should be listening to me, right? So sometimes I try my luck."
Inside his words were sadness and longing. Everyone would be sad if their mother stopped talking to them. I"d really do anything to make my mom notice me if she was angry and I too would suffer from this emotional pain if my mom refused to talk to me. And he was going through such pain. He was suffering from anger, loneliness and many other things that I didn"t know about yet. My poor Black. I instinctively caressed his hair as I was lost in my own thoughts. I wished I could do something and help him talk to his mother.
"It"s not right. Why would everyone remember the incidence of angels falling from the sky? Why would Gaia not erase memories of everyone?" I had a sudden thought.
"Perhaps this incident was too big. But that"s unlikely. Perhaps Gaia wanted to uplift the ban. Perhaps Gaia didn"t want to do so. I don"t know for certain. At the very least, the whole truth is not yet out."
"Does it mean that if you go away, I would forget about you?" It was such a scary thought. "Does it mean that what happened to me when I was a kid was because Gaia erased my memories?" If that is true then Gaia can erase my memories anytime and I won"t even know that my Black even existed. Wasn"t that too cruel?
"You can say that what happened to you long ago was done by lifestream, more or less."
"Will I forget you again?" I was really scared this time. I clenched him tightly, subconsciously. I really didn"t want to let him go away. I didn"t want his memories to fade away. I didn"t want my life to become incomplete again.
"No. It won"t happen. I allow you to know my existence. Gaia won"t forcefully do something that an individual won"t like. Take as an example, someone met a demon and had some bitter experience, that person would want to forget it and Gaia will help but if someone doesn"t want to forget, Gaia will not make things difficult. We too can get along with people to collaborate and they won"t forget our existence until they stay true to their words. And that"s why we have pacts and contracts of the lifestream." Black explained to me and I was contented and happy. The fear that I had was removed from my heart by the roots.
"And even if Gaia would want to do so forcefully with you, I won"t let her. You see, Gaia can"t stop me either." Black said. I realized how that bubble like protection of light on Oliver disappeared when he had shouted and warned Gaia what he might do.
I felt warm in my heart. Such was my lover, my man, who ready to go against the world just for me and literally against the world. Such was my angel, whom even the lifestream feared. Such was my man, who was just... the best.
His words felt like he was saying, "What if it"s the world? If you want to do something to the one who belongs to me, you"d have to go through me and I"ll make sure you"ll regret it."
I felt so safe and secure in his embrace. I felt that I wouldn"t ever need to worry about anything else as long as he was by my side. I only had to worry about him though because even though he had power and strength, he was just a baby to me.