He nudged the switch and sat down.
His face was gray.
"I don"t like to bother you," said Jordan, "but what shall we do about them?"
Docchi glanced at the telecom. "They" were uncomfortably close and considerably more numerous than the last time he had looked.
"Take evasive action," he said wearily. "Swing close to Earth and use the planet"s gravity to give us a good push. We"ve got to keep out of their hands until people have time to react."
"I think you ought to know--" began Cameron. There was an odd tone to his voice.
"Save it for later," said Docchi. "I"m going to sleep." His body sagged. "Jordan, wake me up if anything important happens. And remember that you don"t have to listen to this fellow unless you want to."
Jordan nodded and touched the controls. Nona, leaning against the gravital panel, paid no attention to the scene. She seemed to be listening to something n.o.body else could hear. That was nothing new, but it broke Docchi"s heart whenever he saw it. His breath drew in almost with a sob as he left the control room.
The race went on. Backdrop: planets, stars, darkness. The little flecks of light that edged nearer didn"t seem cheerful to Jordan. His lips were fixed in a straight, hard line. He could hear Docchi come in behind him.
"Nice speech," said Cameron.
"Yeah." Docchi glanced at the telecom. The view didn"t inspire further comment.
"That"s the trouble, it was just a speech. It didn"t do you any good.
My advice is to give up before you get hurt."
"It would be."
Cameron stood at the threshold. "I may as well tell you," he said reluctantly. "I tried to before the broadcast, as soon as I found out what you were going to do. But you wouldn"t listen."
He came into the control compartment. Nona was huddled in a seat, motionless, expressionless. Anti was absent.
"You know why the Medicouncil refused to let you go?"
"Sure," said Docchi.
"The general metabolism of accidentals is further from normal than that of creatures we dredge from the bottom of the sea. Add to that an enormously elongated life span and you ought to see the Medicouncil"s objection."
"Get to the point!"
"Look at it this way," Cameron continued almost desperately. "The Centauri group contains quite a few planets. From what we know of cosmology, intelligent life probably exists there to a greater or lesser extent. You will be our representatives to them. What _they_ look like isn"t important; it"s their concern. But our amba.s.sadors have to meet certain minimum standards. They at least--d.a.m.n it, don"t you see that they at least have to _look_ like human beings?"
"I know you feel that way," said Jordan, rigid with contempt.
"I"m not talking for myself," Cameron said. "I"m a doctor. The medicouncilors are doctors. We graft on or regenerate legs and arms and eyes. We work with blood and bones and intestines. We know what a thin borderline separates normal people from--from you.
"Don"t you understand? They"re perfect, perhaps too much so. They can"t tolerate even small blemishes. They rush to us with things like hangnails, pimples, simple dandruff. Health--or rather the appearance of it--has become a fetish. They may think they"re sympathetic to you, but what they actually feel is something else."
"What are you driving at?" whispered Docchi.
"Just this: if it were up to the Medicouncil, you would be on your way to the Centauri group. But it isn"t. The decision always had to be referred back to the Solar System as a whole. And the Medicouncil can"t go counter to the ma.s.s of public opinion."
Docchi turned away in loathing.
"Don"t believe me," said Cameron. "You"re not too far from Earth. Pick up the reaction to your broadcast."
Worriedly, Jordan looked at Docchi.
"We may as well find out," said Docchi. "It"s settled now, one way or the other."
They searched band after band. The reaction was always the same.
Obscure private citizen or prominent one, man or woman, they all told how sorry they were for the accidentals, but--
"Turn it off," said Docchi at last.
"Now what?" Jordan asked numbly.
"You have no choice," said the doctor.
"No choice," repeated Docchi dully. "No choice but to give up. We misjudged who our allies were."
"We knew you had," said Cameron. "It seemed better to let you go on thinking that way while you were on the asteroid. It gave you something to hope for. It made you feel you weren"t alone. The trouble was that you got farther than we thought you would ever be able to."
"So we did," Docchi said. His lethargy seemed to lift a little. "And there"s no reason to stop now. Jordan, pick up the ships behind us.
Tell them we"ve got Cameron on board. A hostage. Play him up as a hero. Basically, he"s not with those who are against us."
Anti came into the control compartment. Cheerfulness faded from her face. "What"s the matter?" she asked.
"Jordan will explain to you. I"ve got to think."
Docchi closed his eyes. The ship lurched slightly, though the vibration from the rockets did not change. There was no reason for alarm; the flight of a ship was never completely steady. Docchi paid no attention.
At last he opened his eyes. "If we were properly fueled and provisioned," he said without much hope, "I would be in favor of the four of us heading for Alpha or Proxima. Maybe even Sirius. It wouldn"t matter where, since we wouldn"t intend to come back. But we can"t make it with our small fuel reserve. If we can shake the ships behind us, we might be able to hide until we can steal the necessary fuel and food."
"What"ll we do with Doc?" asked Jordan.
"We"d have to raid an unguarded outpost, of course. Probably a small mining asteroid. We can leave him there."
"Yeah," said Jordan. "A good idea, _if_ we can run away from our personal escort of bloodhounds. Offhand, that doesn"t seem very likely. They didn"t come any closer when I told them we had Doc with us, but they didn"t drop back--"
He stopped and raised his eyes to the telecom. He blinked, not believing what he saw.
"They"re gone!" His voice broke with excitement.
Almost instantly Docchi was beside him. "No," he corrected. "They"re still following, but they"re very far behind." Even as he looked, the pursuing ships visibly lost ground.
"What"s our relative speed?" asked Jordon. He looked at the dials himself, frowned, tapped them as if the needles had gone crazy.