Fatigued past all endurance, shaken, demoralised, everything in her was giving way now. She only knew that he had come to her out of the night"s deathly desolation-that she had crept to him for shelter, was clinging to him. Nothing else mattered in the world. Her weary hands could touch him, hold fast to him who had been lost and was found again; her tear-wet face rested against his; the blessed surcease from fear was benumbing her, quieting her, soothing, relaxing, rea.s.suring her.
Only to rest this way-to lie for the moment unafraid-to cease thinking, to yield every sense to heavenly lethargy-to forget-to forget the dark world"s sorrows and her own.
The high planets shed their calm light upon her hair, silvering her slender neck and the hand holding to his sleeve, and the steel edge of his sabre hilt, and a gilded b.u.t.ton at his throat. And all else lay in shadow, wrapping them close together in obscurity.
At times he thought she was asleep, and scarcely moving, bent nearer; but always felt the nervous closing of her fingers on his sleeve.
And at last sleep came to her, deadening every sense. Cautiously he took her hand; the slim fingers relaxed; body and limbs were limp, senses clouded, as he lifted her in his arms and rose.
"Don"t-go," she murmured drowsily.
"No, dear."
Through the darkness, moving with infinite care, he bore her under the stars and stepped noiselessly across the veranda, entered, and laid her on his cot.
"Philip," she murmured.
But he whispered to her that she must sleep, that he would be near her, close to her. And she sighed deeply, and her white lids closed again and rested unstirring on her pallid cheeks.
So she slept till the stars faded, then, awaking, lifted her head, bewildered, drawing her hand from his; and saw the dawn graying his face where he sat beside her.
She sat up, rigid, on the blanket, the vivid colour staining her from throat to brow; then memory overwhelmed her. She covered her eyes with both arms and her head dropped forward under the beauty of her disordered hair.
Minute succeeded minute; neither spoke nor moved. Then, slowly, in silence, she looked up at him and met his gaze. It was her confession of faith.
He could scarcely hear her words, so tremulously low was the voice that uttered them.
"Dr. Benton told me everything. Take me back. The world is empty without you. I"ve been through the depths of it-my heart has searched it from the ends to the ends of it... . And finds no peace where you are not-no hope-no life. All is desolation without you. Take me back."
She stretched out her hands to him; he took them, and pressed them against his lips; and looking across at him, she said:
"Love me-if you will-as you will. I make no terms; I ask none. Teach me your way; your way is mine-if it leads to you; all other paths are dark, all other ways are strange. I know, for I have trodden them, and lost myself. Only the path you follow is lighted for me. All else is darkness. Love me. I ask no terms."
"Ailsa, I can offer none."
"I know. You have said so. That is enough. Besides, if you love me, nothing else matters. My life is not my own; it is yours. It has always been yours-only I did not know how completely. Now I have learned... . Why do you look at me so strangely? Are you afraid to take me for yourself? Do you think I do not know what I am saying? Do you not understand what the terror of these days without you has done to me? The inclination which lacked only courage lacks it no longer. I know what you have been, what you are. I ask nothing more of life than you."
"Dear," he said, "do you understand that I can never marry you?"
"Yes," she said steadily. "I am not afraid."
In the silence the wooden shutter outside the window swung to with a slam in the rising breeze which had become a wind blowing fitfully under a wet gray sky. From above the roof there came a sudden tearing sound, which at first he believed to be the wind. It increased to a loud, confusing, swishing whistle, as though hundreds of sabres were being whirled in circles overhead.
Berkley rose, looking upward at the ceiling as the noise grew in volume like a torrent of water flowing over rocks.
Ailsa also had risen, laying one hand on his arm, listening intently.
"What is it?" she breathed.
"It is the noise made by thousands of bullets streaming through the air above us. It sounds like that in the rifle-pits. Listen!"
The strange, bewildering sound filled the room. And now, as the wind shifted, the steady rattle of musketry became suddenly audible. Another sound, sinister, ominous, broke on their ears, the clang of the seminary bell.
"Is it an attack on this place?" she asked anxiously. "What can we do? There are no troops here! I-I must go to my sick boys--"
Her heart stood still as a cannon thundered, followed by the fearful sound of the sh.e.l.l as it came tearing toward them. As it neared, the noise grew deafening; the air vibrated with a rushing sound that rose to a shriek.
Ailsa"s hands grasped his arm; her ears seemed bursting with the abominable sound; pain darted through her temples, flashing into agony as a heavy jar shook the house, followed by a dazzling light and roar.
Boom! Boom! came the distant, sullen thunder, followed by the unmistakable whir of a Parrott sh.e.l.l. Suddenly shrapnel sh.e.l.ls began to come over, screaming, exploding, filling the air with the rush and clatter of bullets.
"Lie down," he said. "You can"t go out in this. It will veer off in a few moments, when they find out that they"re sh.e.l.ling our hospitals."
"I"ve got to go," she repeated; "my boys won"t understand why I don"t come."
She turned and opened the door; he caught her in his arms, and she looked up and kissed him.
"Good-bye, dear," she whispered. "You mustn"t detain me--"
"You shall not go outside--"
"I"ve got to. Be reasonable, dear. My sick are under fire."
The bugle was sounding now; his arms fell from her waist; she smiled at him, stepped outside, and started to run; and found him keeping pace between her and the west.
"You should not do that!" she panted, striving to pa.s.s him, but he kept his body in line with the incoming missiles. Suddenly he seized her and dropped flat with her as a sh.e.l.l plunged downward, exploding in a white cloud laced with flame through which the humming fragments scattered.
As they rose to their knees in the dust they saw men gathering-soldiers of all arms, infantry, dismounted cavalrymen, hospital guards, limping convalescents, officers armed" with rifles, waggon drivers, negroes.
"They"re attacking our works at Cedar Springs," said an officer wearing one hand in a sling. "This hospital is in a bad place."
Ailsa clapped both hands over her ears as a sh.e.l.l blew up at the angle of an outhouse and the ground rocked violently; then, pale but composed, she sprang inside the hospital door and ran for her ward.
It was full of pungent smoke; a Parrott sh.e.l.l had pa.s.sed through a window, carrying everything away in its path, and had burst, terrifying the sick men lying there, but not injuring anybody.
And now a flare of light and a crash outside marked the descent of another sh.e.l.l. The confusion and panic among the wounded was terrible; ward-masters, nurses, surgeons, ran hither and thither, striving to quiet the excited patients as sh.e.l.l after sh.e.l.l rushed yelling overhead or exploded with terrific force, raining its whirring iron fragments over roof and chimney.
Ailsa, calm and collected in the dreadful crisis, stood at the end of the ward, directing the unnerved stretcher bearers, superintending the carrying out of cots to the barns, which stood in the shelter of the rising ground along the course of the little stream.
Letty appeared from the corridor behind her; and Ailsa smiled and kissed her lightly on the cheek; and the blood came back to the girl"s face in a pa.s.sion of grat.i.tude which even the terror of death could not lessen or check.
"Ailsa-darling-" she whispered; then shuddered in the violence of an explosion that shattered the window-gla.s.s beside her,
"We"re taking them to the old barns, Letty," said Ailsa, steadying her voice. "Will you take charge here while I go to Colonel Arran?"
"They"ve taken him out," whispered Letty. "That ward is on fire. Everybody is out. W-what a cruel thing for our boys! Some of them were getting well! Can you come now?"
"As soon as they carry out young Spencer. He"s the last... . Look from the window! They"re trying to put out the fire with water in buckets. O-h!" as a sh.e.l.l struck and the flame flashed out through a geyser of sand and smoke.