""Aye wakin o"!"--Do ye think, noo, we sall ha" knowledge in the next warld o" them we loved on earth? I askit that same o" Rab Burns ance; an" he said, puir chiel, he "didna ken ower well, we maun bide and see";--bide and see--that"s the gran" philosophy o" life, after a". Aiblins folk"ll ken their true freens there; an" there"ll be na mair luve coft and sauld for siller--
"Gear and tocher is needit nane I" the country whaur my luve is gane.
"Gin I had a true freen the noo! to gang down the wynd, an" find if it war but an auld Abraham o" a blue-gown, wi" a bit crowd, or a fizzle-pipe, to play me the Bush aboon Traquair! Na, na, na; it"s singing the Lord"s song in a strange land, that wad be; an" I hope the application"s no irreverent, for ane that was rearit amang the hills o" G.o.d, an" the trees o" the forest which he hath planted.
"Oh the broom, and the bonny yellow broom, The broom o" the Cowden-knowes.
"Hech, but she wud lilt that bonnily!
"Did ye ever gang listering saumons by nicht? Ou, but it"s braw sport, wi"
the scars an" the birks a" glowering out blude-red i" the torchlight, and the bonnie hizzies skelping an" skirling on the bank--
"There was a gran" leddy, a bonny leddy, came in and talked like an angel o"
G.o.d to puir auld Sandy, anent the salvation o" his soul. But I tauld her no" to fash hersel. It"s no my view o" human life, that a man"s sent into the warld just to save his soul, an" creep out again. An" I said I wad leave the savin" o" my soul to Him that made my soul; it was in richt gude keepin" there, I"d warrant. An" then she was unco fleyed when she found I didna haud wi" the Athanasian creed. An" I tauld her, na; if He that died on cross was sic a ane as she and I teuk him to be, there was na that pride nor spite in him, be sure, to send a puir auld sinful, guideless body to eternal fire, because he didna a"thegither understand the honour due to his name."
"Who was this lady?"
He did not seem to know; and Katie had never heard of her before--"some district visitor" or other.
"I sair mis...o...b.. but the auld creeds are in the right anent Him, after a".
I"d gie muckle to think it--there"s na comfort as it is. Aiblins there might be a wee comfort in that, for a poor auld worn-out patriot. But it"s ower late to change. I tauld her that, too, ance. It"s ower late to put new wine into auld bottles. I was unco drawn to the high doctrines ance, when I was a bit laddie, an" sat in the wee kirk by my minnie an" my daddie--a richt stern auld Cameronian sort o" body he was, too; but as I grew, and grew, the bed was ower short for a man to stretch himsel thereon, an" the plaidie ower strait for a man to fauld himself therein; and so I had to gang my gate a" naked in the matter o" formulae, as Maister Tummas has it."
"Ah! do send for a priest, or a clergyman!" said Katie, who partly understood his meaning.
"Parson? He canna pit new skin on auld scars. Na bit stickit curate-laddie for me, to gang argumentin" wi" ane that"s auld enough to be his gran"father. When the parsons will hear me anent G.o.d"s people, then I"ll hear them anent G.o.d.
"--Sae I"m wearing awa, Jean, To the land o" the leal--
"Gin I ever get thither. Katie, here, hauds wi" purgatory, ye ken! where souls are burnt clean again--like baccy pipes--
"When Bazor-brigg is ower and past, Every night and alle; To Whinny Muir thou comest at last, And G.o.d receive thy sawle.
"Gin hosen an" shoon thou gavest nane Every night and alle; The whins shall pike thee intil the bane, And G.o.d receive thy sawle.
"Amen. There"s mair things aboon, as well as below, than are dreamt o"
in our philosophy. At least, where"er I go, I"ll meet no long nose, nor short nose, nor snub nose patriots there; nor puir gowks stealing the deil"s tools to do G.o.d"s wark wi". Out among the eternities an" the realities--it"s no that dreary outlook, after a", to find truth an"
fact--naught but truth an" fact--e"en beside the worm that dieth not, and the fire that is not quenched!"
"G.o.d forbid!" said Katie.
"G.o.d do whatsoever shall please Him, Katie--an" that"s aye gude like Himsel". Shall no the Judge of all the earth do right--right--right?"
And murmuring that word of words to himself, over and over, more and more faintly, he turned slowly over, and seemed to slumber--
Some half hour pa.s.sed before we tried to stir him. He was dead.
And the candles waned grey, and the great light streamed in through every crack and cranny, and the sun had risen on the Tenth of April. What would be done before the sun had set?
What would be done? Just what we had the might to do; and therefore, according to the formula on which we were about to act, that mights are rights, just what we had a right to do--nothing. Futility, absurdity, vanity, and vexation of spirit. I shall make my next a short chapter. It is a day to be forgotten--and forgiven.
CHAPTER x.x.xIV.
THE TENTH OF APRIL.
And he was gone at last! Kind women, whom his unknown charities had saved from shame, laid him out duly, and closed his eyes, and bound up that face that never would beam again with genial humour, those lips that would never again speak courage and counsel to the sinful, the oppressed, the forgotten. And there he lay, the old warrior, dead upon his shield; worn out by long years of manful toil in The People"s Cause; and, saddest thought of all, by disappointment in those for whom he spent his soul.
True, he was aged; no one knew how old. He had said, more than eighty years; but we had shortened his life, and we knew it. He would never see that deliverance for which he had been toiling ever since the days when as a boy he had listened to Tooke and Cartwright, and the patriarchs of the people"s freedom. Bitter, bitter were our thoughts, and bitter were our tears, as Crossthwaite and I stood watching that beloved face, now in death refined to a grandeur, to a youthful simplicity and delicacy, which we had never seen on it before--calm and strong--the square jaws set firm even in death--the lower lip still clenched above the upper, as if in a divine indignation and everlasting protest, even in the grave, against the devourers of the earth. Yes, he was gone--the old lion, worn out with many wounds, dead in his cage. Where could we replace him? There were gallant men amongst us, eloquent, well-read, earnest--men whose names will ring through this land ere long--men who had boon taught wisdom, even as he, by the sinfulness, the apathy, the ingrat.i.tude, as well as by the sufferings of their fellows. But where should we two find again the learning, the moderation, the long experience, above all the more than women"s tenderness of him whom we had lost? And at that time, too, of all others! Alas! we had despised his counsel: wayward and fierce we would have none of his reproof; and now G.o.d has withdrawn him from us; the righteous was taken away from the evil to come. For we knew that evil was coming. We felt all along that we should _not_ succeed. But we were desperate; and his death made us more desperate; still at the moment it drew us nearer to each other. Yes--we were rudderless upon a roaring sea, and all before us blank with lurid blinding mist: but still we were together, to live and die; and as we looked into each other"s eyes, and clasped each other"s hands above the dead man"s face, we felt that there was love between us, as of Jonathan and David, pa.s.sing the love of woman.
Few words pa.s.sed. Even our pa.s.sionate artizan-nature, so sensitive and voluble in general, in comparison with the cold reserve of the field-labourer and the gentleman, was hushed in silent awe between the thought of the past and the thought of the future. We felt ourselves trembling between two worlds. We felt that to-morrow must decide our destiny--and we felt rightly, though little we guessed what that destiny would be!
But it was time to go. We had to prepare for the meeting, We must be at Kennington Common within three hours at furthest; and Crossthwaite hurried away, leaving Katie and me to watch the dead.
And then came across me the thought of another deathbed--my mother"s--How she had lain and lain, while I was far away--And then I wondered whether she had suffered much, or faded away at last in a peaceful sleep, as he had--And then I wondered how her corpse had looked; and pictured it to myself, lying in the little old room day after day, till they screwed the coffin down--before I came!--Cruel! Did she look as calm, as grand in death as he who lay there? And as I watched the old man"s features, I seemed to trace in them the strangest likeness to my mother"s. The strangest likeness! I could not shake it off. It became intense--miraculous. Was it she, or was it he, who lay there? I shook myself and rose. My loins ached, my limbs were heavy; my brain and eyes swam round. I must be over fatigued by excitement and sleeplessness. I would go down stairs into the fresh air, and shake it off.
As I came down the pa.s.sage, a woman, dressed in black, was standing at the door, speaking to one of the lodgers. "And he is dead! Oh, if I had but known sooner that he was even ill!"
That voice--that figure-surely, I knew them!--them, at least, there was no mistaking! Or, was it another phantom of my disordered brain! I pushed forward to the door, and as I did so, she turned and our eyes met full. It was she--Lady Ellerton! sad, worn, transformed by widow"s weeds, but that face was like no other"s still. Why did I drop my eyes and draw back at the first glance like a guilty coward? She beckoned me towards her, went out into the street, and herself began the conversation, from which I shrank, I know not why.
"When did he die?"
"Just at sunrise this morning. But how came you here to visit him? Were you the lady who, as he said, came to him a few days since?"
She did not answer my question. "At sunrise this morning?--A fitting time for him to die, before he sees the ruin and disgrace of those for whom he laboured. And you, too, I hear, are taking your share in this projected madness and iniquity?"
"What right have you," I asked, bristling up at a sudden suspicion that crossed me, "to use such words about me?"
"Recollect," she answered, mildly but firmly, "your conduct, three years ago, at D * * * *."
"What," I said, "was it not proved upon my trial, that I exerted all my powers, endangered my very life, to prevent outrage in that case?"
"It was proved upon your trial," she replied, in a marked tone; "but we were informed, and alas! from authority only too good, namely, from that of an ear-witness, of the sanguinary and ferocious language which you were not afraid to use at the meeting in London, only two nights before the riot."
I turned white with rage and indignation.
"Tell me," I said--"tell me, if you have any honour, who dared to forge such an atrocious calumny! No! you need not tell me. I see well enough now.
He should have told you that I exposed myself that night to insult, not by advocating, but by opposing violence, as I have always done--as I would now, were not I desperate--hopeless of any other path to liberty. And as for this coming struggle, have I not written to my cousin, humiliating as it was to me, to beg him to warn you all from me, lest--"