My b.u.t.t was sore for a while, but it still seems to work well enough.
We made it back to the rest of the Marines without either of us getting hit again.
I never found out who that wounded guy was. I"ve been told he was a second lieutenant, but I never had a chance to track him down.
The other Marines said I saved his life. But it wasn"t just me. Getting all those guys to safety was a joint effort; we all worked together.
The Corps was grateful that I had helped rescue their people, and one of the officers put me in for a Silver Star.
According to the story I heard, the generals sitting at their desks decided that, since no Marines had gotten Silver Stars during the a.s.sault, they weren"t going to award one to a SEAL. I got a Bronze Star with a V (for valor in combat) instead.
Makes me smirk just to think about it.
Medals are all right, but they have a lot to do with politics, and I am not a fan of politics.
All told, I would end my career as a SEAL with two Silver Stars and five Bronze Medals, all for valor. I"m proud of my service, but I sure as h.e.l.l didn"t do it for any medal. They don"t make me any better or less than any other guy who served. Medals never tell the whole story. And like I said, in the end they"ve become more political than accurate. I"ve seen men who deserved a lot more and men who deserved a lot less rewarded by higher-ups negotiating for whatever public cause they were working on at the time. For all these reasons, they are not on display at my house or in my office.
My wife is always encouraging me to organize or frame the paperwork on them and display the medals. Political or not, she still thinks they are part of the story of my service.
Maybe I"ll get around to it someday.
More likely, I won"t.
My uniform was covered with so much blood from the a.s.sault that the Marines got one of their own for me. From that point on, I looked like a Marine in digi cami.
It was a little weird to be wearing someone else"s uniform. But it was also an honor to be considered a member of the team to the point where they"d outfit me. Even better, they gave me a fleece jacket and a fleece beanie-it was cold out there.
Taya:
After one deployment, we were driving in the car and Chris said, just out of the blue, "Did you know there is a certain kind of smell when someone dies in a particular way?"
And I said, "No. I didn"t know that."
And gradually I got the story.
It was suitably gruesome.
Stories would just come out. A lot of times, he said things to see what I could handle. I told him I really, truly did not care what he did in wartime. He had my unconditional support. Still, he needed to go slow, to test the waters. I think he needed to know I wouldn"t look at him differently, and perhaps more than that, he knew he would deploy again and he didn"t want to scare me.
As far as I can see it, anyone who has a problem with what guys do over there is incapable of empathy. People want America to have a certain image when we fight. Yet I would guess if someone were shooting at them and they had to hold their family members while they bled out against an enemy who hid behind their children, played dead only to throw a grenade as they got closer, and who had no qualms about sending their toddler to die from a grenade from which they personally pulled the pin-they would be less concerned with playing nicely.
Chris followed the ROEs because he had to. Some of the more broad-spectrum ROEs are fine. The problem with the ROEs covering minutiae is that terrorists really don"t give a s.h.i.t about the Geneva Convention. So picking apart a soldier"s every move against a dark, twisted, rule-free enemy is more than ridiculous; it"s despicable.
I care about my husband and other Americans coming home alive. So other than being concerned for his safety, I truly wasn"t afraid to hear anything he wanted to share. Even before I heard the stories, I don"t think I was ever under illusions that war is pretty or nice.
When he told me the story about killing someone up close, all I thought was, Thank G.o.d he"s okay.
Then I thought, You"re kind of a bad-a.s.s. Wow.
Mostly, we didn"t talk about killing, or the war. But then it would intrude.
Not always in a bad way: one day, Chris was getting his oil changed at a local shop. Some men were in the lobby with him. The guy behind the counter called Chris"s name. Chris paid his bill and sat back down.
One of the guys waiting for his own vehicle looked at him and said, "Are you Chris Kyle?"
And Chris said, "Yeah."
"Were you in Fallujah?"
"Yeah."
"Holy s.h.i.t, you"re the guy who saved our a.s.s."
The guy"s father was there and he came over to thank Chris and shake his hand. They were all saying, "You were great. You got more kills than anyone."
Chris got embarra.s.sed and very humbly said, "Y"all saved my a.s.s, too."
And that was it.
Photos
Stick "em up, Yankee ...
Young hunters and their prey. My brother (left) is still one of my best friends.
I"ve been a cowboy pretty much from birth. Look at those fine boots I wore as a four-year-old.
Here I am in junior high, practicing with my Ithaca pump shotgun. Ironically, I"ve never been much of a shot with a scattergun.
You"re not a real cowboy until you learn to la.s.so ...
And I eventually got to where I was halfway decent at it.
It"s a rough way to make a living, but I"ll always be a cowboy at heart.
All kitted up with my Mk-12 sniper rifle, the gun I was carrying when I rescued the trapped Marines and reporters in Fallujah.
Fallujah in "04. Here I am with my .300 WinMag and some of the snipers I worked with. One was a SEAL, the others were Marines. (You can tell their service by the camis.)
The sniper hide we used when covering the Marines staging for the a.s.sault on Fallujah. Note the baby crib turned on its side.
General Peter Pace, the head of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, hands me the Grateful Nation Award from JINSA, the Jewish Inst.i.tute for National Security Affairs. JINSA gave me the award in 2005 in recognition of my service and achievements in Fallujah.
Charlie Platoon of SEAL Team 3 during the Ramadi deployment. The only faces that are shown are Marc Lee"s (left), Ryan Job"s (middle), and mine (right).
Marc Lee leading the platoon on patrol in Ramadi. With the help of the Marines, we were able to use the river to launch several ops against insurgents.