The walls, grey with age, appeared yellow in the light of the candles and lanterns that were used for illumination. Blankets, and bits of canvas and carpet had been tacked over the apertures where once stained gla.s.s windows and huge oaken doors had been. These precautions were necessary to prevent the lights from shining outside the building and betraying our location to the hospital-loving eyes of German bombing "planes whose motors we could hear even at that minute, humming in the black sky above us.
Our American wounded were lying on stretchers all over the floor. Near the door, where I entered, a number of pews had been pushed to one side and on these our walking wounded were seated. They were smoking cigarettes and talking and pa.s.sing observations on every fresh case that came through the door. They all seemed to be looking at me.
My appearance must have been sufficient to have shocked them. I was hatless and my hair was matted with blood. The red-stained bandage around my forehead and extending down over my left cheek did not hide the rest of my face, which was unwashed, and consequently red with fresh blood.
On my left side I was completely bare from the shoulder to the waist with the exception of the strips of white-cloth about my arm and shoulder. My chest was splashed with red from the two body wounds. Such was my entrance. I must have looked somewhat grewsome because I happened to catch an involuntary shudder as it pa.s.sed over the face of one of my observers among the walking wounded and I heard him remark to the man next to him:
"My G.o.d, look what they"re bringing in."
Hartzell placed me on a stretcher on the floor and went for water, which I sorely needed. I heard some one stop beside my stretcher and bend over me, while a kindly voice said:
"Would you like a cigarette, old man?"
"Yes," I replied. He lighted one in his own lips and placed it in my mouth. I wanted to know my benefactor. I asked him for his name and organisation.
"I am not a soldier," he said; "I am a non-combatant, the same as you.
My name is Slater and I"m from the Y. M. C. A."
That cigarette tasted mighty good. If you who read this are one of those whose contributions to the Y. M. C. A. made that distribution possible, I wish to herewith express to you my gratefulness and the gratefulness of the other men who enjoyed your generosity that night.
In front of what had been the altar in the church, there had been erected a rudely constructed operation table. The table was surrounded with tall candelabrum of bra.s.s and gilded wood. These ornate accessories had been removed from the altar for the purpose of providing better light for the surgeons who busied themselves about the table in their long gowns of white--stained with red.
I was placed on that table for an examination and I heard a peculiar conversation going on about me. One doctor said, "We haven"t any more of it." Then another doctor said, "But I thought we had plenty." The first voice replied, "Yes, but we didn"t expect so many wounded. We have used up all we had." Then the second voice said, "Well, we certainly need it now. I don"t know what we"re going to do without it."
From their further conversation I learned that the subject under discussion was anti-teta.n.u.s serum--the all-important inoculation that prevents lockjaw and is also an antidote for the germs of gas gangrene.
You may be sure I became more than mildly interested in the absence of this valuable boon, but there was nothing I could say that would help the case, so I remained quiet. In several minutes my composure was rewarded. I heard hurried footsteps across the flagstoned flooring and a minute later felt a steel needle penetrating my abdomen. Then a cheery voice said:
"It"s all right, now, we"ve got plenty of it. We"ve got just piles of it. The Red Cross just shot it out from Paris in limousines."
After the injection Hartzell informed me that the doctors could do nothing for me at that place and that I was to be moved further to the rear. He said ambulances were scarce but he had found a place for me in a returning ammunition truck. I was carried out of the church and somewhere in the outer darkness was lifted up into the body of the truck and laid down on some straw in the bottom. There were some fifteen or twenty other men lying there beside me.
The jolting in this springless vehicle was severe, but its severity was relieved in some of our cases by the quieting injections we had received. The effects of these narcotics had worn off in some of the men and they suffered the worse for it. One of them continually called out to the truck driver to go slower and make less jolting. To each request the driver responded that he was going as slow as he could. As the jolting continued the man with the complaining nerves finally yelled out a new request. He said:
"Well, if you can"t make it easier by going slow, then for G.o.d"s sake throw her into high and go as fast as you can. Let"s get it over as quick as we can."
Lying on my back in the truck with a raincoat as a pillow, I began to wonder where we were bound for. I opened my eye once and looked up toward the roof of the leafy tunnel which covered the road. Soon we pa.s.sed out from beneath the trees bordering the roadside and I could see the sky above. The moon was out and there were lots of stars. They gave one something to think about. After all, how insignificant was one little life.
In this mood, something in the jolting of the camion brought to my mind the metre and words of George Amicks" wistful verses, "The Camion Caravan," and I repeat it from memory:
"Winding down through sleeping town Pale stars of early dawn; Like ancient knight with squire by side, Driver and helper now we ride-- The camion caravan.
"In between the rows of trees Glare of the mid-day sun; Creeping along the highway wide, Slowly in long defile, we ride-- The camion caravan.
"Homeward to _remorque_ and rest, Pale stars of early night; Through stillness of the eventide, Back through the winding town we ride-- The camion caravan."
Sometime during the dark hours of the early morning we stopped in the courtyard of a hospital and I was taken into another examination room illuminated with painfully brilliant lights. I was placed on a table for an examination, which seemed rather hurried, and then the table was rolled away some distance down a corridor. I never understood that move until some weeks later when a Lieutenant medical officer told me that it was he who had examined me at that place.
"You"re looking pretty fit, now," he said, "but that night when I saw you I ticketed you for the dead pile. You didn"t look like you could live till morning."
His statement gave me some satisfaction. There is always joy in fooling the doctor.
Hartzell, who still accompanied me, apparently rescued me from the "dead pile" and we started on another motor trip, this time on a stretcher in a large, easier-riding ambulance. In this I arrived shortly after dawn at the United States Military Base Hospital at Neuilly-sur-Seine, on the outskirts of Paris.
There were more hurried examinations and soon I was rolled down a corridor on a wheeled table, into an elevator that started upward. Then the wheeled table raced down another long corridor and I began to feel that my journeyings were endless. We stopped finally in a room where I distinctly caught the odour of ether. Some one began removing my boots and clothes. As that some one worked he talked to me.
"I know you, Mr. Gibbons," he said. "I"m from Chicago also. I am Sergeant Stephen Hayes. I used to go to Hyde Park High School. We"re going to fix you up right away."
I learned from Hayes that I was lying in a room adjoining the operating chamber and was being prepared for the operating table. Some information concerning the extent of my injuries and the purpose of the operation would have been comforting and would have relieved the sensation of utter helpless childishness that I was experiencing.
I knew I was about to go under the influence of the anesthetic and that something was going to be done to me. I had every confidence that whatever was done would be for the best but it was perfectly natural that I should be curious about it. Was the operation to be a serious one or a minor one? Would they have to remove my eye? Would they have to operate on my skull? How about the arm? Would there be an amputation?
How about the other eye? Would I ever see again? It must be remembered that in spite of all the examinations I had not been informed and consequently had no knowledge concerning the extent of my injuries. The only information I had received had been included in vague remarks intended as soothing, such as "You"re all right, old man." "You"ll pull through fine." "You"re coming along nicely." But all of it had seemed too professionally optimistic to satisfy me and my doubts still remained.
They were relieved, however, by the pressure of a hand and the sound of a voice. In the words spoken and in the pressure of the hand, there was hardly anything different from similar hand pressures and similar spoken phrases that had come to me during the night, yet there was everything different. This voice and this hand carried supreme confidence. I could believe in both of them. I felt the hand pressure on my right shoulder and the mild kindly voice said:
"Son, I am going to operate on you. I have examined you and you are all right. You are going to come through fine. Don"t worry about anything."
"Thank you, very much," I said, "I like your voice. It sounds like my father"s. Will you tell me your name?"
"I am Major Powers," the kindly voice said. "Now just take it easy, and I will talk to you again in a couple of hours when you feel better."
The speaker, as I learned later, was Major Charles Powers, of Denver, Colorado, one of the best-known and best-loved surgeons in the West. A man far advanced in his profession and well advanced in his years, a man whose life has not been one of continual health, a man who, upon America"s entry of the war, sacrificed the safety of the beneficial air rarity of his native Denver to answer the country"s call, to go to France at great personal risk to his health--a risk only appreciated by those who know him well. It was Major Powers who operated upon the compound fracture in my skull that morning.
My mental note-taking continued as the anesthetist worked over me with the ether. As I began breathing the fumes I remember that my senses were keenly making observations on every sensation I experienced. The thought even went through my mind that it would be rather an unusual thing to report completely the impressions of coma. This suggestion became a determination and I became keyed up to everything going on about me.
The conversation of the young doctor who was administering the anesthetic interested me unusually. He was very busy and business-like and although I considered myself an important and most interested party in the entire proceedings, his conversation ignored me entirely. He not only did not talk to me, but he was not even talking about me. As he continued to apply the ether, he kept up a running fire of entirely extraneous remarks with some other person near the table. I did not appreciate then, as I do now, that I was only one of very, very many that he had anesthetised that morning and the night before, but at the time his seeming lack of all interest in me as me, piqued me considerably.
"Are you feeling my pulse?" I said. I could not feel his hand on either of my wrists, but I asked the question princ.i.p.ally to inject myself into the conversation in some way or other, preferably in some way that would call him to account, as I had by this time aroused within me a keen and healthy dislike for this busy little worker whom I could not see but who stood over me and carried on conversations with other people to my utter and complete exclusion. And all the time he was engaged in feeding me the fumes that I knew would soon steal away my senses.
"Now, never you mind about your pulse," he replied somewhat peevishly.
"I"m taking care of this." It seemed to me from the tone of his voice that he implied I was talking about something that was none of my business and I had the distinct conviction that if the proceedings were anybody"s business, they certainly were mine.
"You will pardon me for manifesting a mild interest in what you are doing to me," I said, "but you see I know that something is going to be done to my right eye and inasmuch as that is the only eye I"ve got on that side, I can"t help being concerned."
"Now, you just forget it and take deep breaths, and say, Charlie, did you see that case over in Ward 62? That was a wonderful case. The bullet hit the man in the head and they took the lead out of his stomach. He"s got the bullet on the table beside him now. Talk about bullet eaters--believe me, those Marines sure are."
I hurled myself back into the conversation.
"I"ll take deep breaths if you"ll loosen the straps over my chest," I said, getting madder each minute. "How can I take a full breath when you"ve got my lungs strapped down?"
"Well, how"s that?" responded the conversational anesthetist, as he loosened one of the straps. "Now, take one breath of fresh air--one deep, long breath, now."
I turned my head to one side to escape the fumes from the stifling towel over my face and made a frenzied gulp for fresh air. As I did so, one large drop of ether fell on the table right in front of my nose and the deep long breath I got had very little air in it. I felt I had been tricked.
"You"re pretty cute, old timer, aren"t you?" I remarked to the anesthetist for the purpose of letting him know that I was on to his game, but either he didn"t hear me, or he was too interested in telling Charlie about his hopes and ambitions to be sent to the front with a medical unit that worked under range of the guns. He returned to a consideration of me with the following remark:
"All right, he"s under now; where"s the next one?"
"The h.e.l.l I am," I responded hastily, as visions of knives and saws and gimlets and brain chisels went through my mind. I had no intention or desire of being conscious when the carpenters and plumbers started to work on me.