Publishedat 28th of August 2019 09:01:47 PMChapter 145
Hyuk woke up from his rest and sneaked back home at around 3 a . m . in the morning .
"Oppa . . . ?" Yeo Ri mumbled, still half-asleep . She had bags under her eyes which showed just how long she had stayed up to wait for her brother .
" . . . " Hyuk stifled his voice after he realised that it was Yeo Ri . He hadn"t expect her to still be awake at this hour . "What are you doing? Go back to sleep," he harshly scolded her with a low voice .
"What about you, Oppa? Why were you so la—" Yeo Ri"s eyes widened as her eyes finally adjusted to the dark . She could somewhat make out his battered body .
Hyuk stood with slackened shoulders, one hand supporting his pained torso . Careful so as to not stumble around, he held himself up by leaning against the wall with one arm .
Yeo Ri hurriedly came to his side to help him . But just as she touched his arm, he pushed her away .
"Don"t touch me!" He hissed .
Hurt flashed in Yeo Ri"s large eyes . She bit her lips, looking as if she was about to cry .
The sight made something in Hyuk twist painfully, but he bore with the pain . "Stop it . You can"t . You have to stop this," he whispered to himself in his mind .
"S-sorry," Yeo Ri stuttered . She lowered her head guiltily, thinking that she might have touched an injury . "Do you need help, Oppa? I-I can go find the first aid kit—"
"Don"t bother . I want to rest . Just go back to sleep . I don"t need your help," he coldly said . Every word he spoke felt like a stab to himself, but he had to do this . He couldn"t get any closer to her . He had to put a stop to his confusing emotions before he did something unforgivable .
"O . . . okay," Yeo Ri reluctantly agreed . She was worried about him, but Hyuk was firmly refusing her help . She could only nod and accept his choice . She wanted to approach him but Hyuk was closing himself off . The wall between them was so thick and strong; she didn"t know how to bypa.s.s it anymore .
As she slowly followed Hyuk back to their room, she wondered what had changed . Although Hyuk was brusque before, he was even colder to her lately . Not only that, he started to come home late and most of the time, he"d be hurt . The wounds were sometimes even worse than when their father had beat him, and it scared her . The thought of Hyuk getting hurt or dying made her heart hurt so much that she wanted to burst into tears . She was so, so worried . Hyuk was slowly descending to his destruction and she had no idea how to stop it .
"Hic—"
Yeo Ri m.u.f.fled her sobs under the cover of her blanket . However, Hyuk could hear her clearly . He was right beside her, after all .
Hyuk squeezed his eyes shut .
"Ignore it," he silently chanted . "Don"t turn around . Don"t look at her . "
He was dying to turn around and wipe away her tears, but he couldn"t . He wouldn"t . This was too painful, but it had to be done . The feelings he had for her shouldn"t have existed and he must suppress it at all cost . These feelings have to be killed, he told himself .
He had made her cry . Those tears were his fault . He didn"t have any rights to console her . If it wasn"t for his d*mnable incestuous heart, she would not have to suffer so much . These thoughts swirled in his mind, making it even more unbearable for him . At that moment, Hyuk felt that the pain in his heart was even more painful than his physical pain .
After a while, Yeo Ri"s sobs died down . She fell asleep with tears still running down her cheeks .
Hyuk finally turned around to face her .
Her cheeks were flushed and stained with tear marks . Her eyes were puffy and red . The aftereffects of crying would probably last for a while, and people would definitely question why she would look so terrible in the morning . He was sure that Gun would fuss over the girl after seeing her gloominess later .
Although she looked so terrible, Hyuk couldn"t help but think about how much he wanted to kiss her .
D*mn him and his twisted, l.u.s.tful mind .