"Prepare yourself, Charles, my dear fellow! I much fear it"s "Bandwomen"!"
It was a long time before he was alone again.
There were moments in every writer"s life, of course, when he was obliged to wish frankly that he didn"t have to have a secretary. What a writer most wanted at times was solitude, just a chance to sit quietly and think things over.
A great while Judge Blenso had pottered about under his little red "Nothing But Business, Please" sign. Now he was posting elaborate entries in his secretary"s book, now he sang sweetly to himself over wrapping-paper, paste, and twine. For if his sedentary employer"s failure to blow up, this time, had momentarily nonplussed the Judge, the sight of the letter from "Willc.o.x"s Weekly" had raised him to the highest spirits again at once. That distant people, entire strangers, were actually proving willing to exchange real money for words written by Charles there, and typed by him, Judge Blenso,--here was a delightful thing, full of novelty and promise. And nothing would do, of course, but that he must start the rejected novel out upon another journey to New York without loss of a moment"s time. Business _before_ pleasure, rain _or_ shine. That was _his_ way.
But he went at last, to make his toilet for the express-office. And Charles, alone, sat taking stock, with no more exultation.
Blank and Finney"s letter had proved to be twin-sister to the remembered letter from Willc.o.x Brothers Company. That is to say, it was rejection, flat and unqualified. But this time, after the first shock, Charles had perceived that he did not seem to be much surprised. It appeared that his expectation of the old novel had, after all, died violently on that other day. It was almost as if he himself had come to despise the old novel, because the publishers despised it--as if that were any reason...
From the mantel he had plucked a thick ledger ent.i.tled (on a neatly typed label), THE RECORD. This ledger was the great work of Judge Blenso"s life, and large enough for twenty authors. Here the Judge set down, with much pains and a striking a.s.sortment of colored inks, the detailed progress of each of Charles"s ma.n.u.scripts: "When Finished,"
"When Sent Out," "Where Sent," "Editor"s Decision," "Editor"s Comments if Any," "Remarks," etc. On these pages, the essential part of "Bondwomen"s" career (officially known as Entry 2) was thus recorded:--
_Comments _Decision._ if Any._
1. Willc.o.x Brothers Company Adverse. Declined for financial reasons.
2. Blank and Finney do. do.
The Record now showed nine entries, including the novel. Entry I was "The Truth About Jennie," which the Judge had insisted on posting in, to give a tone of success to his work at the outset. Entries 3, 4, 5, and 6 were short stories; Entries 7, 8, and 9, the write-ups of Mary. The pages devoted to the write-ups made, as we know, stimulating reading, but with the fiction entries the case was otherwise. Here under "Comments if Any," the words "See printed form, on file," appeared with monotonous, indeed sickening, regularity. The Record did show, indeed, that the "Universal," in rejecting Entry 5,--"When Amy Left Home,"--had written a personal letter furnishing the Judge with this "Comment": "Excellently written, but claimed unsuited to his present needs. Let him hear from us again." Otherwise, rejection was unmitigated.
A scant showing for the work of four years, look at it how you would.
One examining these coldly dispa.s.sionate annals would probably say, offhand, that there was but one form of writing Charles King Garrott was qualified to do: that was the write-up form. He had just read his two letters again, his acceptance and his rejection, side by side. Unusual and peculiar it seemed that the only writing he had sold for money, since "Jennie," was this series of articles designed to bring fame to Mary Wing. Of course, as far as that went, a man would like a little fame for himself, now and then....
"Why, I"m a fool to think I can write!" groaned the young man, suddenly.
"I"m wasting my life! I ought to be carrying bricks up a ladder."
His fall from complacence was, indeed, complete. However, every writer knows these little ups and downs. It may be, that Charles did not believe his bitter words, even then. And now his secretary reentered, checking thought.
"Well! Now for the express!"
Judge Blenso wore a new English mackintosh and an olive felt hat, rakishly turned up in front. No board of social investigators could have commended him for spending virtually all his wage upon his back; but the results seemed always to justify him none the less.
"And, my dear fellow!--you shouldn"t worry, as the expression goes!
Bandwomen"s a charmin" novel, a charmin" sweet love-story, and James Potter Sons"ll be sure to take it--gad, by the first mail!"
Having seen it with his own eyes in Willc.o.xes" famous letter, the Judge was now finally convinced that "Bandwomen" was the correct t.i.tle of Entry 2, just as he had said in the beginning. Further argument being useless, the young man returned a vague reply.
"And there"s that other idea of mine, too," said the Judge genially, halting with his package under his arm--"bringing your sketches of Miss Wing out in book form! Put in Entry 1, too "Jennie"s Truth," if we liked--make a regular holiday giftbook! Gad, you know, Miss Wing"s little pupils at the school would give us a whackin" sale!"
He went out blithe upon his duty. After an interval, the adoring voice of Mrs. Herman floated up, beseeching him to put on his ar"tics.
At the Studio table Charles sat, struggling to get down to work. He had put away The Record, put away embittered thoughts. But he did not get down to work with much success all the same, the reason being that his great Subject, unluckily, was no longer clear in his mind.
From the table-drawer he had produced a stack of ma.n.u.script, an inch high; and now he sat, not reading it, but merely disapproving it _en ma.s.se_. The stack was his premature effort to begin, really to begin his new novel--six chapters of the new novel written, fifteen thousand words. Launching upon this draft an hour after he finished Mary the Freewoman, he had pushed on, night after night, at first with confident rapidity. Latterly, he had become conscious of an increasing sense of resistance. And now he knew that all this was mere waste stuff, accomplishing nothing but to show him what not to write.
Well, but what to write then? What did he really want to say? It was absurd; but he did not know. It really seemed that he saw too much to settle, with enthusiasm, upon anything. By constant accessions of fresh understanding, his centre of balance, his novel"s chief prerequisite, was kept in a continuous state of flux....
Of "material" on the Unrest, Charles possessed a superfluity; of "plots," of "significant characters" and "ill.u.s.trative incidents," his head was fuller than his pencil would ever write. His problem, of course, had always been for the fixed point of view and the moral "line." No longer could he be satisfied with that crude, simple line which had contented him in his first book, which still contented the other fellows: the line which "proved," as _Lily Stender_ proved, that economic independence was the automatic salvation of women. He knew that wasn"t the whole story now. As for writing a book to show that Woman"s Place was the Home, of course that had never crossed his mind, even when most strongly gripped by conservative reactions. His quest was for a framework which should develop conflicting values on a far finer scale.
Of course, what he should have liked to show was a wholly admirable woman: one who combined all the sane competence and human worth of the best new women, with the soft faculty for supplying beauty and charm of her old-fashioned sister. But that day in Mary"s office had left him with the honest suspicion that such a G.o.ddess did not exist, and couldn"t. From the other direction also, as noted, his delicate scales had been joggled, with unsettling literary effects. The too hasty ma.n.u.script on the writing-table by no means followed the "line" the author had first plotted, prior to his meditations in the Green Park, after the bridge-party. No, in this draft the Home-Maker was married and had three children in Chapter One. Through all, the desire to rebuke the egoism of the day had persisted, as clearly the point of view most inviting to him, fullest of possibilities. And now Miss Trevenna, in some way, had disturbed and unsettled him there too....
The rain beat against the Studio windows. The green-shaded lamp burned dully on the author"s table. Big Bill, without surcease, ticked off the author"s minutes. Charles rubbed the bridge of his nose, pondering deeply. Just now, as he turned the pages of his private book--where the essay form had long since been abandoned, where appeared the most surprising vacillations of authoritative opinion--he had made a somewhat striking discovery. It had suddenly come upon him that "Notes on Women"
had, gradually but distinctly, dwindled down into "Notes on Mary,"
"Notes on Angela Flower," and "Notes on Flora Trevenna." In short, it appeared that, in the most unconscious way, he had been seeking to extract his "line" from his own story, as it were, from "life."
The discovery came upon the young man as most arresting and significant.
"And I don"t know where I stand, that"s just the trouble! I ought to wait awhile," he thought, aloud. "See how it all works out.... Things"ll be turning up...."
On which--once more--Judge Blenso"s picturesque head came sticking through the Studio door, and Judge Blenso"s rich voice said, officially:--
"Young gentleman here with a letter, Mr. Garrott. Admit him?"
Returning to actuality with a slight start, Charles replied, "Admit him--certainly!" A day for letters, indeed!
Forthwith, the Judge standing aside, the young gentleman stepped into the Studio. A grave-looking young gentleman he proved to be, of some sixteen years, perhaps, with a dome-like forehead, a resolute mouth, and thick spectacles. He entered in silence, in silence held out the missive referred to.
"Good-evening," said Charles. "Thank you. This comes from--?"
"My sister, Angela Flower."
The young man"s heart seemed to drop a little.
"Ah, yes! And--ah--is there--an answer?--"
"I"ll wait and see," said Wallie Flower, following instructions, in a deep, calm voice.
"Ah, yes. Sit down a moment, won"t you?"
He essayed a bright negligence which he was far from feeling: this thing had come suddenly. No amount of scientific argument, no recollection of sharp rebukes received, had ever convinced Charles that he had cut a fine figure in the affair on the sofa. Indeed, the very ease with which he had avoided all further consequences of his Rash Act, by the purely mechanical device of street-cars, had deepened, rather than diminished his consciousness of obligations unfulfilled, of caddishness, in short.
To salute a girl tenderly after her bridge-party, and then never go within a mile of her again--well, that _was_ a little crude, say what you would.
Hence Mr. Garrott, opening Angela"s envelope with the blurred "Mr.,"
antic.i.p.ated bitter reproaches, antic.i.p.ated being termed a brute again, and called on to be honorable without further delay. Hence again, as his eye leapt over the neat lines, and found only sweet forgiveness and generous friendliness, he felt a sudden upstarting of relief and grat.i.tude. A more perfect note had never been written! Why, the charming girl wasn"t expecting anything of him at all!
Or, rather, nothing at all worth mentioning. On a second glance through the perfect note, the hypercritical young man did observe an expression or two not up to the general standard, perhaps. "I did not think it would be so long before I would see you again." "When you are not so busy, you must come in to see me." On the whole, it could be argued that it was rather a mistake to put those sentences in. Fine as the note was, it would have been a little finer still without them. Yet, under the circ.u.mstances, what more natural? And of course, as far as that went, he and the city traction system had the issue in their hands.
So Charles looked up buoyantly at the bearer of good tidings, to speak.
The bearer, however, had clearly forgotten his presence. He had remained standing, three feet from the table-end, and was found to be gazing, in the most pointed manner, at the old Studio lamp. The grave face of Miss Angela"s brother plainly expressed amus.e.m.e.nt, and a certain good-natured contempt.
"h.e.l.lo!" said Charles, diverted. "Anything wrong there?"
Without turning, the boy answered with a small dry chuckle: "Yes.