"Dearest Tommy," wrote Angela, and followed with a solid paragraph of very affectionate greeting. She went on:--
Well, Tommy, I promised to write you how things were, after we got settled down. I must say the outlook is rather discouraging at times--and home isn"t what it was as you remember it! Do you remember what fun we used to have even in Hunter"s Run--driving in to "the b.a.l.l.s"--and how fine it was in Mitch.e.l.lton as long as you were there? Well, everything is _sadly_ changed now! Wallie, I"m afraid, hasn"t improved as he gets older, he seems to rarely or never think of anybody but himself--and, of course, having fun is simply something he _doesn"t care for_! He shuts himself up in his room every night, making horrible mixtures in a "sink" he"s put in--that smell up the whole house, and never _dreams_ of contributing to the housekeeping expenses--though he"s been raised now to _ten dollars a week_! Father is sadly changed, he gets quieter and quieter all the time.
Sometimes I"m really worried about him, he"s so _indifferent_!
He never jokes any more, and doesn"t try to get any patients, though I _know_ he could get lots with his reputation. He seems despondent, Tommy, and sometimes doesn"t even come in for his office-hour--and the other day he lost a patient that way that the Finchmans sent, she waited half an hour and then went! But though he may have liked the country life better; and let us all _vegetate_; that can"t be it--for he certainly made no objection when the family _consensus_ seemed to be that we should move here! Of course, we have to face the fact that he and mother aren"t very _congenial_, it is her problem, and while I wouldn"t criticize mother for worlds and she certainly does her duty as wife and mother--I do think it"s a _great mistake_ for her to always make her att.i.tude a sort of _reproach_, saying how "she"s sacrificed herself to him" and all--you know what I mean--
Mother really gets along better than any of us--especially as I now do _all_ the work of the entire house!
The young writer paused, staring chillily at the register. She rarely looked out the window now, hers being the blank certainty that there would be nothing to see. Moreover, it was dusk. So, rising presently, she lighted the gas, and resumed her sad sisterly letter.
Of her mother she wrote in some detail: of the various friends of her girlhood she had renewed acquaintance with, and how she was always exchanging calls with Cousin This or Martha That, who was So-and-So before she married. To Angela, it had really seemed funny how all these connections of her mother"s, whose social possibilities they had so often discussed before they left Mitch.e.l.lton, had resolved themselves into dejected old ladies who had had unhappy marriages, and whose children had also had unhappy marriages, as a rule, or were in some other way unavailable as friends. Out of five families thus exhumed by Mrs. Flower, positively only one unattached young person had emerged, and this one, named Jennie Finchman (!), while certainly well-meaning, was a shy, anxious, painfully homely little thing who had never had a good time in her life, and gave all her pocket-money to a mission in the Dutch East Indies.
Well, Tommy [continued Angela], I"ve tried to give you a picture of the new home like I promised--and I only wish it was more encouraging! As for myself--the only outside person I had to help me was Cousin Mary Wing, and she is a "New Woman," as I wrote you in my Thanksgiving Day letter, and doesn"t go with anybody but _advanced older_ people!--and, besides, she got into a terrible sc.r.a.pe, poor dear, and was dismissed from the school! Cousin Mary, it"s only fair to say, has done more for me than anybody else, introducing me to her older woman friends--who have called on me, and several have invited me to teas, lectures, and etc.! But, of course, none of them were _social_ people really, or at least of the younger set--and I practically haven"t been invited to a single party, except "dove ones"! The one exception was a meeting of an "advanced club," where I met several attractive men, who have been as nice to me as you could _possibly expect_.
But the truth is, Tommy, money counts a great deal more here than it did in Mitch.e.l.lton; all the girls who are prominent socially have wealthy families behind them! I think I would hold up the family end quite well on very little--but I have hardly a decent "rag to my back," my _clothes_ let everybody know I am a person of _no importance_, so the little inner circle sees no reason to take me up,--mother and I have figured that with only _fifty dollars_ I could get a really nice new suit, and a simple evening dress as well,--and perhaps hat and shoes, all of which I _sorely need_! But, of course, poor father simply hasn"t got such a sum, and Wallie puts all his in the bank--for college next year, he has $240 there now! Tommy, you know I don"t mean to accuse the family of being selfish,--father told us in advance that we would be poorer here,--but besides that--n.o.body in the family but you ever seemed to _understand_ that a girl can"t accomplish anything unless she is given some sort of a _chance_. Even mother doesn"t understand, she just thinks "things happen"! She is always telling how in _her_ day men would work hard all day "superintending the farms"--and then at night ride twenty miles on horseback, to just talk for an hour to some girl of no special attractions! I can"t make her see that men simply _aren"t like that_ any more.
The concluding paragraph of the letter merely described the writer"s own daily round, especially touching on the dull walks, so rarely broken by a familiar face, which remained almost her only form of recreation. Here Angela decided to put in one sentence in a less reserved vein, which she did: "Well, Tommy, if you mean to make any thank-offerings to "the poor"
this Christmas, you know where they will be _most appreciated_!" But, as she loved her brother devotedly, it was also natural for her to return to a sweet and generous note in farewell: "For your sake, Tommy, I am glad you aren"t here, with all the trials and hardships, but out in the world having a happy life of your own!"
The completion, stamping, and sending-off of the letter to Tommy left Angela with a sense of definite accomplishment. It was as if something pleasant had happened in the family at last, or at least was going to happen very soon. Unfortunately, however, this agreeable feeling, having such small relation to reality, was born but to sicken and die. Time proceeded with no pleasanter happenings than before, and a letter from Daniel Jenney, of Mitch.e.l.lton--whose ring had caused the trouble--became a positive event.
By now, no doubt, the first natural excitement of "going to the city" to live had subsided. Enthusiastic antic.i.p.ations had been rubbed bare by hard actuality, poverty, Finchmans, and so on. By this time also the young home-maker had systematized her housekeeping, as she herself said, and commonly ordered from butcher and grocer by means of Mrs.
Doremus"s telephone, three doors away. With experience, too, Angela had cut down the daily area of cleaning and polishing, from her first youthful excesses. Small incentive there was to rub your fingers to the bone on a house which was hopeless from the start, and which practically n.o.body but her mother"s sad friends ever set foot in. Thus--and also through the all but eccentric indifference of the men of her family to beauty and charm--Angela had more time than ever for thinking. And the more she thought, the more clearly she saw that social progress in a strange city was solely a matter of what might be called favorable self-advertis.e.m.e.nt, and that this sort of advertis.e.m.e.nt, in her case at least, was solely a matter of just a little money.
But where was money to come from? Little could be expected from Tommy, even at the best. As for the housekeeping allowance (on which home-makers properly rely for some personal "pickings"), that held out, alas, yet frailer hopes. So closely had her father and mother calculated the budget, indeed, that in three months she had squeezed but five dollars and a half out of it: this, though she had early investigated the cheaper cuts of meat and learned the desirability of never paying cash.
"Oh," thought the girl, again and again,--"if father"d _only_ get some patients!"
Mary Wing"s pretty sitting-room had, indeed, established definitely in Angela"s mind the close connection between money and work in an office.
But, for the sound reasons explained by her to Cousin Mary, Angela could never consider work in an office as a possibility for herself. What, really, would become of the Home, while she went rushing daily to an office, to make money for her personal adornment? Besides, she could not but see that Cousin Mary was herself proof of the fact that going to an office had a very unfortunate effect upon a girl. Argue as you liked, the fact remained that, even in this so-called advanced age, the normal, sweet, attractive girls, the girls who were prominent socially, were never office-girls.
In short, how to get money without working for it? That, truly, was the great question confronting every nice girl, every womanly woman....
To Angela, it gradually came to seem that nothing pleasant was ever to happen to her again. Not only that, but the pleasantest sort of things seemed to be happening all the time to everybody else.
Returning Mary Wing"s call one day, in the hope of news (Cousin Mary"s disgrace was being generously forgiven, now that the Badwoman had gone away), Angela picked up two items that depressed her curiously. One was that Donald Manford had got that position he was trying for in Wyoming: that meant that one member of the coterie would vanish for good within three months" time. The other item concerned a remarkable series of articles about Cousin Mary that were coming out in the magazines all of a sudden, and which Cousin Mary said were written by Mr. Garrott, though admitting that his name wasn"t signed to them. The Finchmans, whom Angela had met on the street, said, "How do you like having a celebrity for a cousin?" Cousin Mary, for her part, seemed to like being a celebrity immensely. Angela had never seen her in such high spirits; it really seemed in bad taste, considering the recent past. And, of course, Angela wondered a little if Mr. Garrott, the departed, wouldn"t have written something about her, too, but for the misunderstanding.
A chance meeting with Mr. Tilletts, on the way home from this visit, hardly helped much. The seeking widower, afoot for once, had seemed hurried; he merely paused for a hasty word or two, and then was on his way again.
"Considering I haven"t a soul to help me, I think I"ve done remarkably well," the girl protested once more, as if answering an inner voice, to her mother next day. "We"ve been here only a little while, and I have three men-friends already."
"Who is the third?" inquired Mrs. Flower.
When Angela mentioned Mr. Tilletts, her mother said, laconically: "He has never called."
"Men don"t call any more, mother, I"ve said again and again! It"s practically gone out."
Not feeling very well to-day, she lay in an old wrapper atop the sway-backed bed. Mrs. Flower sat, for company, by the outlooking window, dutifully st.i.tching at a frilly "waist" which Angela had begun, but not finished. But her mother was a beautiful seamstress and really enjoyed an occasional task.
"Besides," said Angela, listlessly making a dimple in her pretty cheek with the end of a bone-handled b.u.t.ton-hook, "I think Mr. Tilletts will call. He specially asked to--only a little while ago."
Mrs. Flower, after a speaking silence, observed: "Donald Manford never sent you the post-card from Wyoming."
"Well--all the time in the world hasn"t pa.s.sed yet, mother!"
"Your Cousin Ellie Finchman says he is deeply interested in this Miss Carson. She hears he has made her an offer."
"How could Mrs. Finchman possibly know that, mother? Besides, _I_ don"t care! I like Mr. _Tilletts_ better than Mr. Manford!"
Coming to bloom in the age of Chivalry, Angela"s mother had enjoyed a great deal of "attention" before she decided to bestow herself upon the worthy Doctor. Hence it was const.i.tutional with her to take a belittling position toward less successful young women, including even her own daughter. Equally natural was it for Angela, with no such opportunities as her mother had had, to hold fast to what successes she had, and even, it may be, for memory to magnify them somewhat. And yet, in the freemasonry of women, she never resented her mother"s coolly judicial summaries, and in this case, frankly felt the maternal slap to be justified. Really, Mr. Manford had never paid her any direct attentions, which perhaps had something or other to do with her admiring him so little as yet.
On this day, the lonely young girl"s spirits seemed to touch their nadir. How _could_ anything pleasant happen? There was no imaginable way.
"Oh, mother!" she exclaimed, with an exasperation rare to her. "Why, _why_, couldn"t you and father give us _one_ relation that would help us? Did you ever _hear_ of any poor people before that didn"t have a _single_ rich relation?"
Then she cried out: "Oh, _please_ don"t mention Mrs. Ashburton!"
It was surely the most natural, reasonable, and human complaint in the world. In family talk, it had an established standing, too, having first been formulated far back at Hunter"s Run. But now it was as if Angela had flung her challenge in the teeth of fate once oftener than fate could stand.
On the very next day, in brief, the fairy G.o.dmother came rolling up to the door.
We read how it is always darkest just before the dawn. Angela, who knew that pleasant things rarely just happened, indoors, had gone out, so it was that she missed the direct distribution of gifts. But, as it chanced, she had been having her first really good time, since the earlier part of the bridge-party. In fact, on Washington Street, at about the same time and place, she had met Mr. Tilletts again; and now he was not hurried at all. It pleasantly developed that Mr. Tilletts"s doctor had ordered him to stop riding around in his great car, and that henceforth he would be walking constantly. Moreover, the genial gallant, after a considerable promenade, had taken Angela to tea at Mrs.
Ha.s.seltine"s famous shop, and, at parting--sure enough--made a provisional engagement to call "one evening this week." Altogether, the coterie seemed in a fair way to pick up a new member, after all.
Whether fascinating or overplump, Widower Tilletts unquestionably possessed the magic power, wielded by man alone, to restore the self-esteem of a neglected young girl. Angela opened the front door of home in a livelier humor than had been hers for weeks. And so entering, she found her mother standing in the hall, and heard at once tidings which, though not for her exactly, yet made her forget herself altogether.
Mrs. Ashburton had been, and gone. Mrs. Ashburton was going to send Wallie to college, at once. Mrs. Ashburton was going to give Wallie _five hundred dollars a year_, till he had got his education.
This oft-cited lady, at last the waver of the magic wand, was Mrs.
Flower"s first cousin. Close friends in their girlhood, their ways had long ago parted; and, since Dr. and Mrs. Flower"s visit to New York in 1896, amenities between them had hardly gone beyond an exchange of cards at Christmas. But now it happened that Mrs. Ashburton, _en route_ to a balmier clime than hers, had "broken her trip" here, after the frequent way of tourists, and, having duly viewed the sights of the city from a cab window through the morning, had bethought her to look up her resident kin. So the rich relation came to the little house on Center Street.
By chance, it was Sat.u.r.day afternoon, and Wallie was alone in the house.
It seemed that an experiment he had been working on for days had just turned out a failure, and he had opened all the windows and the front door by way of letting out the smell. But even then he did not see the lady standing on the steps, so intent was he on the large gla.s.s retort in his hand. His face was quite white, and beaded with perspiration. So Mrs. Ashburton had described it to Mrs. Flower, who came in to find her just leaving for hotel and train. She had asked: "What are you looking at that brown liquid so hard for?" "That"s it; it"s brown," Wallie had muttered, still without looking at her. "You mean it ought to have turned out white?" said she. "No, green," said Wallie, frowning and squinting. "Where"d the chlorine go to?" "Why do you care so much?" Mrs.
Ashburton asked, more and more interested. "Why do I _care_?" he said, scornfully; and then, as if becoming conscious of her, personally, for the first time, he turned his spectacles on her and said calmly: "You wouldn"t understand, ma"am. A--a problem here.... Well, I don"t understand it myself." And then, losing her again, as it were, he actually endeavored to shut the door, with the lady outside. Mrs.
Ashburton had had to push against it, she said, and put her foot in the crack, to attract his notice. "I"m your cousin--_your cousin!_--Mrs.
Ashburton!" she cried. "And I want to come in and talk to you, please."
And this she had done, with the amazing result mentioned above.
Angela felt that the family tide had turned at last. She would scarcely have been human if it had not occurred to her how easily she might have been the one to be struck by the golden lightning; but such pa.s.sing notions in no sense marred her sincere, though vicarious, joy over this great news. Moreover, it did seem, of course, that such a sum as five hundred dollars could not percolate into a family at any point without raising the whole level of prosperity very appreciably; and it was with whole-hearted happiness that she skipped upstairs to congratulate her lucky brother in the little bedroom she would not have to clean or "make" any more.
"Something _very_ nice is going to happen to _me_ soon, too!" she thought gayly, as she undressed that night. "I feel it in my bones!"
Her mind naturally slanted toward her favorite brother, with an intuitive increase of hopefulness. And, true enough, it was from generous Tommy that the more personal blessings presently came, though in a form that had not entered Angela"s dreams.
Tommy"s reply to her sisterly letter promised at first, indeed, to be as disappointing as Mr. Garrott"s had been, and for the same reason: it omitted the essential thing. Angela, having shaken the letter, and then shuffled the pages, early discovered that there was no thank-offering in it. Similarly, Tommy"s sentences seemed to contain nothing more substantial than affectionate regrets: setting forth what a struggle he had trying to keep up with the set that Nina had always moved in; how he was five thousand dollars in debt now, getting deeper, and never had a nickel to jingle for himself, and that was the G.o.d"s truth; how it had always been his dream to do something big for his sister, and certainly would do the same when old Mottesheard (Nina"s father) died; how the old chap hung on in a way you wouldn"t believe....
Angela read with a certain sense of chill. Truly womanly, she, of course, never questioned the superior claims of wives. And yet it did seem a little hard that Tommy (who made a large salary as a bond salesman, or something like that) should lavish everything on a girl he had never heard of three years ago, while she, his own sister--
And then, turning into the fourth page, she came on a pa.s.sage which checked all minor-key reflections instantly. In their place, rose and grew a startled astonishment. Tommy, noting what she had written about her long, dull walks, was offering to _give her an automobile_.