"I thought--I thought," she murmured stupidly, "I thought you liked me."
"I can"t tell you how I admire you. I"m not going to praise you to your face, but I simply never met anyone like you. From the very first moment I saw you, it was the same. It"s something in your face, Anna---- Anna, will you be my wife?"
The actual question was put in a precise, polite, somewhat conventional tone. To Anna he was never more himself than at that moment.
She could not speak; she could not a.n.a.lyse her feelings; she could not even think. She was adrift. At last she stammered: "We"ve only known each other----"
"Oh, dear," he exclaimed masterfully, "what does that matter? If it had been a dozen years instead of one, that would have made no difference." She drew her hand timidly away, but he took it again.
She felt that he dominated her and would decide for her. "Say yes."
"Yes," she said.
She saw pictures of her career as his wife, and resolved that one of the first acts of her freedom should be to release Agnes from the more ignominious of her father"s tyrannies.
They walked home almost in silence. She was engaged, then. Yet she experienced no new sensation. She felt as she had felt on the way down, except that she was sorely perturbed. There was no ineffable rapture, no ecstatic bliss. Suddenly the prospect of happiness swept over her like a flood.
At the gate she wished to make a request to him, but hesitated, because she could not bring herself to use his Christian name. It was proper for her to use his Christian name, however, and she would do so, or perish.
"Henry," she said, "don"t tell anyone here." He merely kissed her once more. She went straight upstairs.
CHAPTER XI
THE DOWNFALL
In order to catch the Liverpool steamer at Douglas it was necessary to leave Port Erin at half-past six in the morning. The freshness of the morning, and the smiles of the Alderman and his wife as they waved G.o.d-speed from the doorstep, filled Anna with a serene content which she certainly had not felt during the wakeful night. She forgot, then, the hours pa.s.sed with her conscience in realising how serious and solemn a thing was this engagement, made in an instant on the previous evening. All that remained in her mind, as she and Henry walked quickly down the road, was the tonic sensation of high resolves to be a worthy wife. The duties, rather than the joys, of her condition, had lain nearest her heart until that moment of setting out, giving her an anxious and almost worried mien which at breakfast neither Henry nor the Suttons could quite understand. But now the idea of duty ceased for a time to be paramount, and she loosed herself to the pleasures of the day in store. The harbour was full of low wandering mists, through which the brown sails of the fishing-smacks played at hide-and-seek.
High above them the round forms of immense clouds were still carrying the colours of sunrise. The gentle salt wind on the cheek was like the touch of a life-giver. It was impossible, on such a morning, not to exult in life, not to laugh childishly from irrational glee, not to dismiss the memory of grief and the apprehension of grief as morbid hallucinations. Mynor"s face expressed the double happiness of present and antic.i.p.ated pleasure. He had once again succeeded, he who had never failed; and the voyage back to England was for him a triumphal progress. Anna responded eagerly to his mood. The day was an ecstasy, a bright expanse unstained. To Anna in particular it was a unique day, marking the apogee of her existence. In the years that followed she could always return to it and say to herself: "That day I was happy, foolishly, ignorantly, but utterly. And all that I have since learnt cannot alter it--I was happy."
When they reached Shawport Station a cab was waiting for Anna. Unknown to her, Henry had ordered it by telegraph. This considerateness was of a piece, she thought, with his masterly conduct of the entire journey--on the steamer, at Liverpool, in the train; nothing that an experienced traveller could devise had been lacking to her comfort.
She got into the cab alone, while Mynors, followed by a boy and his bag, walked to his rooms in Mount Street. It had been arranged, at Anna"s wish, that he should not appear at Manor Terrace till supper-time. Ephraim opened for her the door of her home. It seemed to her that he was pleased.
"Well, father, here I am again, you see."
"Ay, la.s.s." They shook hands, and she indicated to the cabman where to deposit her tin-box. She was glad and relieved to be back. Nothing had changed, except herself, and this absolute sameness was at once pleasant and pathetic to her.
"Where"s Agnes?" she asked, smiling at her father. In the glow of arrival she had a vague notion that her relations with him had been permanently softened by absence.
"I see thou"s gotten into th" habit o" flitting about in cabs," he said, without answering her question.
"Well, father," she said, smiling yet, "there was the box. I couldn"t carry the box."
"I reckon thou couldst ha" hired a lad to carry it for sixpence."
She did not reply. The cabman had gone to his vehicle.
"Art"na going to pay th" cabby?"
"I"ve paid him, father."
"How much?"
She paused. "Eighteen-pence, father." It was a lie; she had paid two shillings.
She went eagerly into the kitchen, and then into the parlour, where tea was set for one. Agnes was not there. "Her"s upstairs," Ephraim said, meeting Anna as she came into the lobby again. She ran softly upstairs, and into the bedroom. Agnes was replacing ornaments on the mantelpiece with mathematical exact.i.tude; under her arm was a duster.
The child turned, startled, and gave a little shriek.
"Eh, I didn"t know you"d come. How early you are!"
They rushed towards each other, embraced, and kissed. Anna was overcome by the pathos of her sister"s loneliness in that grim house for fourteen days, while she, the elder, had been absorbed in selfish gaiety. The pale face, large, melancholy eyes, and long, thin arms, were a silent accusation. She wondered that she could ever have brought herself to leave Agnes even for a day. Sitting down on the bed, she drew the child on her knee in a fury of love, and kissed her again, weeping. Agnes cried too, for sympathy.
"Oh, my dear, dear Anna, I"m so glad you"ve come back!" She dried her eyes, and in quite a different tone of voice asked: "Has Mr. Mynors proposed to you?"
Anna could not avoid a blush at this simple and astounding query. She said: "Yes." It was the one word of which she was capable, under the circ.u.mstances. That was not the moment to tax Agnes with too much precocity and abruptness.
"You"re engaged, then? Oh, Anna, does it feel nice? It must. I knew you would be!"
"How did you know, Agnes?"
"I mean I knew he would ask you, some time. All the girls at school knew too."
"I hope you didn"t talk about it," said the elder sister.
"Oh, no! But they did; they were always talking about it."
"You never told me that."
"I--I didn"t like to. Anna, shall I have to call him Henry now?"
"Yes, of course. When we"re married he will be your brother-in-law."
"Shall you be married soon, Anna?"
"Not for a very long time."
"When you are--shall I keep house alone? I can, you know---- I shall never dare to call him Henry. But he"s awfully nice; isn"t he, Anna?
Yes, when you are married, I shall keep house here, but I shall come to see you every day. Father will have to let me do that. Does father know you"re engaged?"
"Not yet. And you mustn"t say anything. Henry is coming for supper.
And then father will be told."
"Did he kiss you, Anna?"
"Who--father?"
"No, silly! Henry, of course--I mean when he"d asked you?"
"I think you are asking all the questions. Suppose I ask you some now.