She opened her door and looked out. When she saw Jerrold she came to him, slowly, supporting herself by the gallery rail. Her eyes were sore with crying and there was a flushed thickening about the edges of her mouth.
"So you"ve come back," she said. "You might go in and tell me how he is."
"Haven"t you seen him?"
"Of course I"ve seen him. But I"m afraid, Jerrold. It was awful, awful, the haemorrhage. You can"t think how awful. I daren"t go in and see it again. I shouldn"t be a bit of good if I did. I should only faint, or be ill or something. I simply can not bear it."
"You mustn"t go in," he said.
"Who"s with him?"
"Eliot and Anne."
"Anne?"
"Yes."
"Jerrold, to think that Anne should be with him and me not."
"Well, she"ll be all right. She can stand things."
"It"s all very well for Anne. He isn"t _her_ husband."
"You"d better go away, Mother."
"Not before you tell me how he is. Go in, Jerrold."
He knocked and went in.
His father was sitting up in his white, slender bed, raised on Eliot"s arm. He saw his face, strained and smoothed with exhaustion, sallow white against the pillows, the back-drawn-mouth, the sharp, peaked nose, the iron grey hair, pointed with sweat, sticking to the forehead. A face of piteous, tired patience, waiting. He saw Eliot"s face, close, close beside it by the edge of the pillow, grave and sombre and intent.
Anne was crossing the room from the bed to the washstand. Her face was very white but she had an air of great competence and composure. She carried a white basin br.i.m.m.i.n.g with a reddish froth. He saw little red specks splashed on the sleeve of her white linen gown. He shuddered.
Eliot made a sign to him and he went back to the door where his mother waited.
"Is he better?" she whispered. "Can I come in?"
Jerrold shook his head. "Better not--yet."
"You"ll send for me if--if--"
"Yes."
He heard her trailing away along the gallery. He went into the room. He stood at the foot of the bed and stared, stared at his father lying there in Eliot"s arms. He would have liked to have been in Eliot"s place, close to him, close, holding him. As it was he could do nothing but stand and look at him with that helpless, agonized stare. He _had_ to look at him, to look and look, punishing himself with sight for not having seen.
His eyes felt hot and brittle; they kept on filling with tears, burned themselves dry and filled again. His hand clutched the edge of the footrail as if only so he could keep his stand there.
A stream of warm air came through the open windows. Everything in the room stood still in it, unnaturally still, waiting. He was aware of the pattern of the window curtains. Blue parrots perched on brown branches among red flowers on a white ground; it all hung very straight and still, waiting.
Anne looked at him and spoke. She was standing beside the bed now, holding the clean basin and a towel, ready.
"Jerrold, you might go and get some more ice. It"s in the bucket in the bath-room. Break it up into little pieces, like that. You split it with a needle."
He went to the bath-room, moving like a sleepwalker, wrapped in his dream-like horror. He found the ice, he broke it into little pieces, like that. He was very careful and conscientious about the size, and grateful to Anne for giving him something to do. Then he went back again and took up his station at the foot of the bed and waited. His father still lay back on his pillow, propped by Eliot"s arm. His hands were folded on his chest above the bedclothes.
Anne still stood by the bed holding her basin and her towel ready. From time to time they gave him little pieces of ice to suck.
Once he opened his eyes, looked round the room and spoke. "Is your mother there?"
"Do you want her?" Eliot said.
"No. It"ll only upset her. Don"t let her come in."
He closed his eyes and opened them again.
"Is that Anne?"
"Yes. Who did you think it was?"
"I don"t know...I"m sorry, Anne."
"Darling--" the word broke from a tender inarticulate sound she made.
Then: "Jerrold--," he said.
Jerrold came closer. His father"s right arm unfolded itself and stretched out towards him along the bed.
Anne whispered, "Take his hand." Jerrold took it. He could feel it tremble as he touched it.
"It"s all right, Jerry," he said. "It"s all right." He gave a little choking cough. His eyes darkened with a sudden anxiety, a fear. His hand slackened. His head sank forward. Anne came between them. Jerrold felt the slight thrust of her body pushing him aside. He saw her arms stretched out, and the white gleam of the basin, then, the haemorrhage, jet after jet. Then his father"s face tilted up on Eliot"s arm, very white, and Anne stooping over him tenderly, and her hand with the towel, wiping the red foam from his lips.
Then eyes glazed between half-shut lids, mouth open, and the noise of death.
Eliot"s arm laid down its burden. He got up and put his hand on Jerrold"s shoulder and led him out of the room. "Go out into the air,"
he said. "I"ll tell Mother."
Jerrold staggered downstairs, and through the hall and out into the blinding sunshine.
Far down the avenue he could hear the whirring of the car coming back from Cheltenham; the lines of the beech trees opened fan-wise to let it through. He saw Colin sitting up beside Scarrott.
Above his head a lattice ground and clattered. Somebody was going through the front rooms, shutting the windows and pulling down the blinds.
Jerrold turned back into the house to meet Colin there.
Upstairs his father"s door opened and shut softly and Anne came out. She moved along the gallery to her room. Between the dark rails he could see her white skirt, and her arm, hanging, and the little specks of red splashed on the white sleeve.
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