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“What do you want to do coming here?” Bai Luo Yin said indifferently like usual.

Jiang Yuan’s heart writhed, “Son, I….”

“If you come here only to make trouble, just go back, today no one would give you a chance to act atrociously.” Bai Luo Yin interrupted Jiang Yuan’s words.

She was extremely shocked and grieved, she didn’t expect, Bai Luo Yin could use this “act atrociously” words to her. Even if she made mistakes in those years, but after all she’s still Bai Luo Yin’s mother, when a mother is scolded disrespectfully in such way, she will need a strong enduring mental capacity to endure!

“Why did you seek people to smash Aunt Zhou’s breakfast stall?”

Jiang Yuan’s hand gripped her leather handbag tightly, “Luoyin, please listen to what Mom’s saying, that woman is not sincerely good to you. You’re still young, you don’t know that people’s heart is very complex, she’s good to you because she has her own purpose. I am a woman, I know best about woman’s mentality. If she doesn’t have any purpose, she won’t pour her everything all out like this.”

“Then tell me, what does she wants? Our family’s money, do we have it? Our family’s power and influence, do we have it? If she only wants dad, that alone is enough for me to accept her.”

Jiang Yuan took a deep breath and asked, “Now that you can accept your father’s second marriage, why can’t you accept mine? Do you think I don’t have any rights to pursue my own happiness? Do you think all women’s happiness has to be so narrow like hers?”

“I didn’t say I’m not accepting it.” Bai Luo Yin coldly laughed, “When did I say that I dont accept it?”

“Then why do you always have this att.i.tude to mom?”

“Because we’re not in the same path.”

Jiang Yuan suffered extreme pain in her heart, her facial expression was grey like a layer of soil, to an extent that she didn’t even realized that Gu Hai came over.

“Why did you come?”

Another voice pa.s.sed through from behind.

Bai Luo Yin’s thoughts immediately shifted, he didn’t understand how Gu Hai could ask that kind of question.

Gu Hai walked directly toward Jiang Yuan, then he stared at her closely with cold and arrogant gaze.

“What do you want coming here?”

With Gu Hai’s understanding and guess, he could only think that Jiang Yuan intentionally come to make a trouble, so she’s starting from Bai Luo Yin.

Bai Luo Yin’s shocked eyes glanced towards Gu Hai, “You…. you know her?”

“Yes.” Gu Hai held Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder in his arms, his lip was kept close to the side of Bai Luo Yin’s ear, it looked as if he was whispering, but actually whole people on the street would still able to hear it, “She’s my father’s new wife, a filthy woman with gorgeous outer clothing. She couldn’t persuade me, so she wants to get help from other people. Don’t talk to her, let’s go.”

Gu Hai used his strength to pull Bai Luo Yin, but he didn’t move at all.

Jiang Yuan didn’t know whether she should cry or smile.

“You… two…. actually know each other?”

Bai Luo Yin had already understood thoroughly, but Gu Hai was still in the dark.

Jiang Yuan one handedly grasped a hand, then agitated endlessly, “It’s really good that you know each other, I was so worried that you two wouldn’t be able to get along, whenever I think about having a family dinner reunion, I was afraid that you two would do something bad once you see each other. But this is good…. This is good…”

When Gu Hai heard Jiang Yuan’s words, he felt as if she was speaking nonsense, but when he heard it again, he somewhat got a clue.

Jiang Yuan still saw a puzzled expression on Gu Hai’s face, then she gripped his hands tightly, there was a thread of happiness pa.s.sed through her voice, “Silly boy, you still dont understand yet? This is my son whom I always mentioned to you, I said that you two both have similar temperament, you two definitely will be able get along well, you see, what I said is true, right?”

Gu Hai, “…..”

Like a thunder from a clear sky! And its roar on top of head! Bitter and hateful! Liver and guts cut into pieces!

Its like sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, all the joys and sorrows of life became a mixed feelings……

Why is it him? No matter what, it shouldn’t be him right?

Bai Luo Yin took Jiang Yuan’s hands off from him, then took a large strides and walked back to Aunt Zhou’s snack bar, he went upstairs without saying anything, took his own bag and then went outside.

“Son, what happened?”

Bai Han Qi saw gloomy expression on Bai Luo Yin’s face, he hurriedly went down and ran after him in confusion.

Bai Luo Yin stopped his walk, he looked at the dark cavity of Bai Han Qi’s eyes.

“Dad, I’m okay, I’ll just go out for a bit.”

The face of Bai Han Qi showed worries, “Where are you going? Say, your Aunt’s shop is going to open formally.”

“Dad, I just want to go back home and take some stuffs, I’ll return back here in a moment.”

After the talk, without giving any chance for Bai Han Qi to question any further, Bai Luo Yin ran outside the shop quickly with vigorous strides.

Gu Hai was dazed for a moment, when he looked at the view of Bai Luo Yin’s back, his heart sank, then he chased after Bai Luo Yin at a fast pace.

“Yin Zi!”

Gu Hai shouted from behind.

Bai Luo Yin didn’t give any response, uncontainable anger and unwillingness can be seen from his back, he couldn’t accept this reality, it doesn’t matter how good Gu Hai’s family financial condition is, even if his father was a general secretary, he wouldn’t have any objection, but why he had to be Gu Wei Ting’s son? It’s the family that Bai Luo Yin despised the most, why Gu Hai had to be a part of that family?

“Bai Luo Yin!” Gu Hai howled from behind.

Bai Luo Yin still continued to walk away without turning his head back.

Gu Hai took a few big steps to chase Bai Luo Yin and then he grabbed Bai Luo Yin’s arm.

“Didn’t you hear me shouting for you?”

Both of them stopped on an empty street, it was the first time their eyes showed those kind of meaningful glance to each other.

“I heard you.”

“Then why did you ignore me?”

Bai Luo Yin felt he had nothing to say, he turned his body around and wanted to leave, but Gu Hai stopped him forcefully.

“Get lost!” Bai Luo Yin shouted.

This “get lost” and the countless “get lost” he received from Bai Luo Yin prior to this one did not have the same feeling. Gu Hai felt like his heart was twisted inside.

“You want me to get lost? Why the h.e.l.l should I get lost?” Gu Hai shook Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder.

Bai Luo Yin firmly grabbed Gu Hai’s collar, “You’re a liar!”

“What did I lie to you?” Gu Hai was unable to restrain his anger, “I just knew it today too. Didn’t you hear Jiang Yuan’s tone? I absolutely have no idea that she is your mother. What did I lie to you?”

You cheated my feelings…

Gu Hai breathed heavily and stared at Bai Luo Yin with his pair of crimson eyes. There was only one spot inside his heart that’s still intact, and that spot belongs exclusively for Bai Luo Yin alone. But now, it’s going to be ruptured soon.

Bai Luo Yin walked again.

Gu Hai pursued him relentlessly and both of them continued to ran until they eventually arrived at the doorstep of the house.

Bai Luo Yin opened the door and he immediately wanted to close them again, but Gu Hai kicked open the doors with his foot, the loud noise and the shock swayed the jujube trees nearby.

“Bai Luo Yin, what do you want?”

Gu Hai pinned Bai Luo Yin on a wall in the yard with one push, Gu Hai clenched his teeth and stressed each word that came out from his mouth, “Am I not good to you? Do you think you’re the only one who felt wronged? I’m telling you, your mother and my father had a clandestine affair for so many years and my mother died mysteriously! The one who should be mad is me, the one who should be saying ‘get lost’ is me!”

Blue veins on Bai Luo Yin’s forehead keep pulsating, the part of his neck that was gripped by Gu Hai slowly began to turn into a dark red, full of hatred.

“Right…. Everything you said is right. Then, why are you not leaving? Just go, and both of us will be happy!”

“You are asking why I am not leaving?” Gu Hai shouted himself hoa.r.s.e, “Supposed if I can bear to leave you, would I not have done it? No matter how big my hatred for your mother is, it will never reach a thousandth of my feelings for you! Bai Luo Yin, I won’t stop you even if you hate my dad, but why do you have to link that to me? Don’t you think you are very cruel like this?”

Bai Luo Yin grabbed Gu Hai’s hand and gradually took it away from his body.

“Gu Hai, I don’t have hatred towards you. I dont have hatred towards your family too. It’s just that I can’t accept you, I can’t accept your entire family. Because I also have my own family, and your family is the pain for my family, our family just can’t let it go. Your dad can ignore my mother’s past, because he didn’t suffer anything, but my dad can’t…”

Bit by bit, Gu Hai’s heart fell into the abyss.

“So you mean, I have to leave no matter what?”

Bai Luo Yin turned his body around, “I’ll go and help you pack your things.”

“Bai Luo Yin, so you’re really going to be cruel like this?”

From the past until now, Bai Luo Yin never felt that the road from the door to his room was that long.

Gu Hai’s voice calmed down, but his calm demeanor could somewhat raise people’s hackle.

“No need to pack away my things. I don’t want them. Help me pa.s.s a message to Aunt Zhou, congratulation for the grand opening!”

The sound of Gu Hai’s footsteps gradually got further away. Bai Luo Yin felt as if more than half of his life has been torn apart by reality.

Gu Hai walked along this familiar road, he recalled each and every one the memories that carved within the tracks left by the rolling wheels. He felt pain as if his heart was being twisted by a knife. Yesterday, he broke up with Jin Lulu and he didn’t have this kind of feeling. A bare pain began to spread from his heart to his entire body, even the pores are crying in agony….

……

Bai Luo Yin went out from his rooms, Grandma Bai was in the middle of stooping towards the water.

“Let’s eat mouse for dinner!”[1] Grandma Bai shouted excitedly.

Grandpa Bai beside her just laughed continuously until he coughed.

Bai Luo Yin didn’t even have any slightest expression on his face.

Grandma Bai grabbed the bucket, then clumsily moved to Bai Luo Yin’s front side, excitedly said, ” Me and your grandpa wrapped two buckets of mouse (dumplings) [1], tonight we’re cooking mouse, the ones Da Hai loves to eat most!”

Since Gu Hai became Grandma Bai’s interpreter, he became the first one that Grandma Bai called correctly.

Translator Note:

[1] Grandma Bai wanted to say 饺孿 (Jiao Zi= dumplings) but she said 耗孿 (Hao Zi= mouse) instead.

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