Are You Addicted?

Below the cramped single bed, laid two identical shoes.

Gu Hai was lying sideways. He saw Bai Luo Yin lying on his stomach, his arms and legs stretched out so comfortably, while his shirt was folded up, exposing his wide back. As the moonlight shone onto him, Bai Luo Yin’s exposed skin was just like those bean curd that Aunt Zhou made. It looked so soft and delicate, Gu Hai couldn’t help but to reach his hand out to touch it, it was smooth and firm.

Bai Luo Yin turned his head over. His eyes were half-closed and half-opened. His facial expression was indifferent.

Gu Hai breathed, while stretching his hand out unconsciously. Bai Luo Yin seemed to realize what he was going to do, then he suddenly grabbed Gu Hai’s hand.

“Do you know why did I scold you today?”

Okay. The judgment has finally begun. Gu Hai knew that Bai Luo Yin won’t let go of this matter easily.

“Because I didn’t tell you where did I go these past two days?”

Bai Luo Yin opened his eyes. They were like a dark flower, blooming silently at night.

“It’s because when you’re feeling down, you didn’t choose to come to me.”

It’s a simple sentence, nevertheless, when Gu Hai heard it, his heart was overcome with an overwhelming [1] feeling. He didn’t expect that Bai Luo Yin would be silently concerned about him, it’s just the same as his feelings for Bai Luo Yin. Perhaps it is merely an emotion showing in the eyes, yet he can already see through the most hidden corner in the other person’s heart. Perhaps it is only a smile, yet it can influence his mood for the whole day…. This kind of tacit understanding is almost as if it is innate. It doesn’t have anything to do with the period of time, since the very beginning, it has already ignited like a flame.

After he calmed his heart with much difficulty, Gu Hai said, “I’m afraid that it will affect your mood.”

“That is the main reason why I scolded you today,” Bai Luo Yin furrowed his eyebrows, his hand lightly hit against the bed sheet, “You don’t even see me as your friend at all. Let’s just be strangers then!”

Upon seeing Bai Luo Yin’s aggrieved and indignant expression, both of Gu Hai’s eyes lit up. He realized that, when Bai Luo Yin shows his true emotions, everything that he does is always lively and fascinating.

“You are thinking too much. I don’t see you as a stranger.”

“So, what is this?”

Gu Hai really wanted to say, how can I willingly trouble you with my worries?! However, those words are far too contentious, how can he say it out loud! He’s afraid that if he were to say it for real, that old clock will fall and hit him again.

“Don’t ask any more questions. From now on, if I have something I need to do, I will definitely tell you everything. Okay?”

In spite of everything, Bai Luo Yin is not the kind of person who bears a grudge, so when he heard Gu Hai and didn’t say a word, it means that he had agreed.

Both of them stayed silent for a long time, suddenly Gu Hai felt that he can just be honest with Bai Luo Yin about his family background. Previously, he wouldn’t dare to say it, because he couldn’t see clearly what are Bai Luo Yin’s feelings towards him. But after Bai Luo Yin uttered those words today, it really touched him, so he took the initiative to confess it himself.

“Actually, I have something I hid from you.”

Bai Luo Yin snickered, “Do you want to say that you’re actually not from this neighborhood and the house you’re living in right now is actually rented?”

“Eh…..” Gu Hai was dumbfounded, his upper body went stiff, “How did you know?”

“The old couple who lives besides your rented house, one is my granduncle, and one is my grandaunt.”

Gu Hai, “……..”

“Do you also want to tell me that, your family is actually very rich?”

When he heard these words, Gu Hai felt cold sweat gliding along his back to his nape, he was truly dumbfounded. He didn’t expect that when he disappeared for two days, all of a sudden everything about him has already been exposed. Even though he has planned everything carefully for a long time, but

Bai Luo Yin is still able to see his flaws.

What to do? Tonight won’t be the last night for me to stay together with Bai Luo Yin, right?

Starting tomorrow, will he treat me as a stranger when we meet?

“Don’t you want to ask, how do I know?”

Gu Hai said with bitter heart, his tone was somewhat weird, “How do you know?”

“When school had just started, I saw your driver coming to pick you up on the school gate every day.”

Gu Hai, “……”

“Besides that, when you just moved to the seat behind me, I saw you wearing a Breguet limited edition watch on your wrist.”

“……”

Gu Hai suddenly dropped his head on his pillow, his heart was beating fast. If you already knew since that time, then you should’ve said something! I sold those phone, laptop, wrist.w.a.tch at a low price, now who’s going to compensate my loss? I endured all those hard days, now who’s going to make it up for me? So all this time you were actually watching me act, if I didn’t confess to you today, you would still treat me like a fool, right?

Gu Hai gazed sharply at Bai Luo Yin, Bai Luo Yin only glanced at the dews outside, but he was clearly laughing at him in secret.

“You want to laugh? Fine, I’ll let you laugh!”

Gu Hai pounced on Bai Luo Yin fiercely like a tiger, they were tossing around from one side to the other side without pausing, until both of them were finally out of breath, but Gu Hai still wouldn’t come down from Bai Luo Yin’s body.

Bai Luo Yin laughed until his ears were red, but his att.i.tude was still unyielding.

“You still dare to treat me harshly? Say, who’s tricking whom first?”

“Okay, I admit it’s my fault, I deliberately hid the truth from you before! But you also have a mistake, you covered up a criminal, it is absolutely intolerable. How about this, I won’t argue with you anymore, but don’t you drift apart from me because of this matter, and I’ll call it even!”

Bai Luo Yin didn’t say a word.

There was a little bit of uncertainty in Gu Hai’s heart, he kicked Bai Luo Yin’s leg, “You aren’t really angry, right?”

“Am I a person who likes to get angry?” Bai Luo Yin glanced at Gu Hai. “Why did you treat me like a girl? Those words that I said when I was drunk, are meant for their family only! I don’t hate rich people, there are so many BMWs and Mercedes-Benz on the streets, do I have to smash them all one by one?”

Gu Hai pinched Bai Luo Yin’s face with force, “Why didn’t you say it earlier?”

Bai Luo Yin kicked Gu Hai to release himself from his hold, “You don’t even give me any chance to say it!”

……..

It felt really good when he no longer has burden in his heart, he doesn’t have to live secretively anymore.

The more Gu Hai think about it, the more excited he becomes, he turned to Bai Luo Yin to chat with him, willing to share his own joy. However, he discovered that Bai Luo Yin’s eyes were already closed, his eyelashes were fluttering as if his eyeb.a.l.l.s were moving up and down irregularly in front of him, seems like Bai Luo Yin will soon enter into a dream.

But he was still laying on his stomach.

Gu Hai patted Bai Luo Yin’s back lightly and whispered softly, “Yin Zi, Yin Zi, don’t fall asleep first, turn over here then sleep. With the way you’re sleeping, it will constrict your heart.”

Bai Luo Yin was in a deep sleep, hearing Gu Hai’s words he thought, of course I’m doing what’s comfortable for me.

Gu Hai couldn’t bear to see it anymore, Gu Hai stretched his hand to grab Bai Luo Yin’s shoulder, and at the same time he turned him over. But in less than two seconds, Bai Luo Yin turned his body back again, he really likes to sleep on his stomach. Gu Hai turned Bai Luo Yin over again, but Bai Luo Yin would turn back again…. Those two had been turning repeatedly like a pancake for ten minutes full.

Then, Gu Hai became impatient, he thought, how can this kid be so disobedient like this? Fine, if the soft way is no good, I’ll do it the hard way then.  Hence, he cruelly spanked Bai Luo Yin’s b.u.t.t.

Just how strong is Gu Hai’s palm? What kind of average person can endure it?! Bai Luo Yin groaned, then suddenly opened his eyes, his eyeb.a.l.l.s looked like a fierce tiger had jumped out from them, as if wanting to scratch Gu Hai’s face.

Gu Hai soon realized that he used too much his own strength, he hastily rubbed those two round meat very cautiously, coaxing him, “Okay, okay, I’m not going to hit you anymore. Go to sleep.”

Bai Luo Yin’s eyes became more and more dim, and he fell asleep not long after that.

In the middle of the night, Gu Hai woke up because he was freezing, he glanced at the person beside him, he was sleeping so soundly! He saw all of the blankets were piled up on top of Bai Luo Yin’s body, just like a half-meter tall snail sh.e.l.l.

This kind of situation had happened several times in the past, Gu Hai discovered that Bai Luo Yin was usually listless and didn’t speak very much, but on the contrary he is skilled in s.n.a.t.c.hing blankets. Say, supposed if he was really cold, yet both of his legs were stuck out, while his blanket is on top of his back like a big ball, whether you’re covered or not with blanket is just the same, so why do you have to you s.n.a.t.c.h everything?

Just like the few nights before, Gu Hai spread the blanket, covered Bai Luo Yin well, and then pulled some of the blanket for himself.

Then, Gu Hai also discovered that Bai Luo Yin slept on his stomach again!

Gu Hai wondered, does he always sleep like this since 10 years ago? Did no one take care of him? Sleeping on his stomach for the whole night every day, yet he can still grow up until this big? It’s truly a medical science miracle [2]. However when he thought about it again, Bai Luo Yin once said, since his parents divorced, he had always lived with his father, how can that man take care of a child? Gu Hai still slept with his mother for around three to four years, meanwhile Bai Luo Yin had definitely slept alone ever since he was still a small child, otherwise how can he toss around on the bed like this [3]?

Thinking about it, Gu Hai didn’t need extra effort to turn Bai Luo Yin over, he immediately stretched his arm, and held Bai Luo Yin.

Tonight Bai Luo Yin slept very soundly, when Gu Hai pulled him into an embrace, he didn’t give any response, the heat of his deep and heavy breath were all over Gu Hai’s face.

Gu Hai looked at the face within his reach. The more he sees it, the more good looking it becomes; the more he looks at it, his feelings for Bai Luo Yin becomes fonder, unconsciously he rubbed Bai Luo Yin’s cheeks with his finger.

Then, he himself was dumbfounded.

What am I doing, frolicking with a man’s body indecently in the middle of the night?

My fondness for him, isn’t it slightly beyond normal already?

Gu Hai realized, every time he’s with Bai Luo Yin, his heart never functioned properly. It’s like there are two operation programs running in his belly, one program is for when he’s with other people, and when he is with Bai Luo Yin, it will automatically switch to the other program, how do they even switch, it is strange as h.e.l.l, even for himself.

Early in the morning, Bai Luo Yin woke up comfortably, only to find that he was sleeping in Gu Hai’s arms..

d.a.m.n it! He hugged me again!

Bai Luo Yin was about to give him a punch, but his hand was frozen midair.

This guy is sleeping very peacefully, it’s fascinatingly safe and sound, the only thing missing is squeezing him into a cradle. Anyone who sees this handsome, strong and masculine man sleeping so innocently and naively, surely won’t have the heart to hit him! Bai Luo Yin stared blankly at him for a while, suddenly a strange thought popped on his mind, when this guy is sleeping, he is really attractive, supposed if he doesn’t wake up forever, it will be much better…….

The little devil inside Gu Hai’s heart jumped out and screamed: “Hey hey hey! If I don’t wake up forever that means I’m dead!”

Translator’s Note:

[1] ‘an overwhelming feeling’: the literal translation is ‘overturning seas and rivers’ (an idiom).

[2] ‘Sleeping on his stomach for the whole night every day, yet he can still grow up until this big? It’s truly a medical science miracle.’: sleeping on your stomach strains your neck and cause your spine to arch unnaturally. Both will lead to pain on the lower back and neck.

[3] ‘Bai Luo Yin had definitely slept alone ever since he was still a small child, otherwise how can he toss around on the bed like this?’: one of the emotional reasons why people sleep restlessly (tossing around in bed) is because they might feel lonely, worried or depressed.

Are you Addicted?