Are You Addicted?

“Son, you can ride my bike to school, I’ll go to work with the shuttle bus.”

An old-fashioned bicycle was parked in front of Bai Luo Yin and You Qi, Bai Luo Yin gripped the handlebars then called You Qi, “Get on.”

“I’ll give you a ride, it’s been a long time for me since the last time I rode a bike, I want to try.”

“Can you do it?” Bai Luo Yin had some doubts.

You Qi pounded his own chest, “No problem.”

Bai Luo Yin sat, half-believing and half-doubting, when You Qi started to pedal with his foot, the bike began to sway violently. Bai Luo Yin’s body swayed left and right too, following the bike’s movement. He saw a drainage ditch in front of them, so Bai Luo Yin swiftly jumped down from the bike, he wanted to grab the rear kickstand but he couldn’t, so You Qi drove himself into the ditch.

Fortunately, the ditch wasn’t wide, so the bike didn’t fall into the ditch, but the firm handlebars stabbed that st.u.r.dy, solid lower part of You Qi.

When Bai Luo Yin came over towards You Qi, he crossed his legs while crouching on the ground, with a painful expression upon his face.

“I said that I’ll drive you, but you still insist to try it, does it hurt badly?”

You Qi waved his hand, “Don’t talk to me yet.”

Bai Luo Yin found it both funny and embarra.s.sing.

Finally, Bai Luo Yin helped the injured You Qi to get up and continued to ride the bike.

Gu Hai had been staying at his aunt’s luxurious house for these past two days. Because it’s quite far from the school, he planned to move there for a few days and then move out, to take a look at the interior design of the house nearby China World Trade Center. If he’s satisfied with it, then he intend to move back by himself from now on.

The taxi was driving smoothly on the road, the scenery outside the window changed at every step.

Soon enough, it pa.s.sed through the road towards the school.

He hadn’t seen Bai Luo Yin for the whole two days, Gu Hai continuously restrained the secret longing that welled up inside his heart. He went to school as if nothing had happened, he went back to his aunt’s house as if nothing had happened, as if there’s nothing different in his life, even though the reality is definitely far from it.

The car stopped at the intersection, Gu Hai saw Aunt Zou’s store from the window, it was full of customers. Aunt Zhou’s silhouette could be faintly seen from the gap between the door curtains. It’s only been two days, but Gu Hai already misses Aunt Zou’s home-cooked food, just by sitting in the car, he could smell the sweet fragrance gradually entering the car, floating in the air.

“We’re almost arrived.” The driver reminded Gu Hai to prepare the money.

Gu Hai quickly searching for small change, and when he was about to give it to the driver, he saw two people from outside the window.

Bai Luo Yin was with You Qi, they were talking and laughing, while pushing the bike together, pa.s.sing through the school gate.

Flames of anger started to burn in Gu Hai’s heart, pain and wrath intertwined inside his mind. He stared at Bai Luo Yin’s back firmly, he stared at Bai Luo Yin’s face that looked as if nothing had happened, his unconstrained feelings once again attacked his entire body. So, it turns out that the one who feels unhappy is only me, the one who cares is only me, I’m just a companion to him, nothing more, even if I’m replaced with someone else, it’s still the same for him.

The car had already stopped, the driver stretched his hand out to receive the money from Gu Hai, but he didn’t move.

“What happened?”

The driver was bewildered, why does this person’s face suddenly change? It’s not because he rode an unlicensed taxi, right?

“Nothing, I just don’t want to go to school anymore, please bring me back home.”

“Going back home?” The driver asked Gu Hai closely, “Did you forget your bag at home?”

Gu Hai didn’t say a word, his grave and stern expression that could be seen from the rearview mirror was extremely scary.

The driver was being sensible, he didn’t ask anymore and he just made a U-turn to go back home.

After staying home for two days, Bai Luo Yin felt like he’s ready to face Gu Hai normally, but after he went inside the cla.s.sroom, he found out that it’s still very difficult.

The seat behind him was empty, from the first until the last period.

Obviously no one sat behind him, but Bai Luo Yin was very sensitive towards the sound that came from behind, who shifted the desk after cla.s.s, who opened the back door before cla.s.s, all of them made Bai Luo Yin’s heart to tighten, this course of events, seems to go really, really slow.

However, it’s only when Gu Hai wasn’t here, supposed if Gu Hai really came back, Bai Luo Yin couldn’t imagine what situation he would get into.

He never experienced these feelings before, thus he was unable to deal with it easily, cruel words had been voiced out, yet his heart couldn’t withdraw it anymore.

“This is Gu Hai’s homework, he doesn’t come so I’ll give it to you.”

Bai Luo Yin casually flipped through the book, there were Chinese cla.s.sic phrases that Gu Hai wrote from his memory. At first glance, he thought it’s his own handwriting, but when he looked at it again, he discovered slight differences. Each word is written stroke by stroke, it showed the writer’s patience, earnest and unwavering efforts. If Bai Luo Yin didn’t know clearly what he wrote, these words would’ve fooled him completely.

The feelings that involved, the reason why they hate to part with each other, it’s because both of their lives are tangled too deeply, too closely.

Not only Gu Hai’s handwriting, but many of Bai Luo Yin’s customs and habits had started to intertwine with Gu Hai’s.

When they walked together on the street and see a familiar scene, they will laugh together; when they’re eating together, you just put what you don’t like into my bowl, I will put what I don’t like into your bowl; they always wear each other slippers by mistake and take the wrong towel; after waking up in the morning, they will wear each other’s jacket and the smell of each other’s bodies will linger for the whole day…

Bai Luo Yin flipped until the last pages and he saw three pages filled with small, closely written words.

One page was filled completely with “白 (Bai)”, one page was filled completely “洛 (Luo)”, and one page was filled completely with “因 (Yin)”.

When people are practicing calligraphy, they would often write what appears in their heads unconsciously, just like when we hear a song, we will hum that song for the whole day. Bai Luo Yin didn’t dare to think what was inside Gu Hai’s mind while writing those words that made him could write three pages of words with such an intense feelings.

After cla.s.s, Dan Xiao Xuan asked Bai Luo Yin.

“Where did Gu Hai go?”

“I don’t know.”

“You actually don’t know where he is?” Dan Xiao Xuan exaggerated with a bit of lovely charms, “Aren’t both of you taking turns in coming to cla.s.s? You come today and he will come tomorrow. Every day both of you send one person as a representative, and when you go home you would combine the lessons together….”

“Gu Hai came to school yesterday?”

Dan Xiao Xuan nodded her head, “Yes, last two days when you weren’t here, he came.”

Bai Luo Yin’s expression changed, he didn’t say a word.

After the second lesson ended, the cla.s.s representative walked towards Bai Luo Yin.

“This is Gu Hai’s school safety book, because he’s not here, please help him to sign it.”

Bai Luo Yin hesitated a bit, but he still helped Gu Hai to sign it.

After school, a school council came to find Bai Luo Yin.

“This is an express package for Gu Hai, I don’t know why they sent it to the school, help him to keep it.”

……

When Li Shuo and Zhou Shi Hu came to the private club to find Gu Hai, he was drinking alone by himself to drown his sorrows.

One person on each side, speaking nonsense, just like caring brothers.

“Da Hai, break up is break up, previously when you were still together, I didn’t dare to say this, what are that Jin Lu Lu’s good points? Is she beautiful? Does she have a hot body? You can find so many girls like her on the street, does she deserve someone like you?”

“Right, she acts pretentious for the whole day, she also takes advantages of other people every time, pretending…. pretending to be what she isn’t, I really hate listening to her talking, if not because of you, I would’ve feel annoyed with her for many times already!”

“Da Hai, you should’ve broke up with her earlier, just look at the waitresses around us, they’re much more beautiful, unlike her, right?”

“That’s right, just look at our qualification, which girl doesn’t want to be chased by you!”

Both of them was like, you say one sentence and I say one sentence, no one knows how many bottles of wine that Gu Hai had drunk, his crimson eyeb.a.l.l.s gazed at both of their nonstop wiggling lips. The golden leaf on the wall became more and more dazzling, the wine cup in his hand became more and more blurry, his eyes were wandering around, didn’t know where his mind is going, misery and longing followed along the wine pouring down his throat.

Li Shuo was about to go out and call for a waiter, suddenly he was pushed down by Gu Hai, until the fell on the sofa.

“Da Hai, what happened with you?” Li Shou was dumbfounded.

Gu Hai, as if he didn’t hear him, pinched Li Shuo’s cheeks with both of his hands, shouted and asked him in agony, “Am I no good to you? Who else have I, Gu Hai, treated this good before?”

“Okay, okay.” Li Shuo went along with him, “You’ve never treated anyone else as good as you did ︿to me.”

“Then, why did you have to say such cruel words to me?”

Li Shuo transformed himself as Jin Lulu, and forced himself to say, “Because I’m cheap, I’m f.u.c.king cheap!”

“Who did you say is cheap?” Gu Hai pulled Li Shuo’s hair that was on his forehead to the back of his head and bit his forehead, “Who let you say that you are cheap?”

“Ouch, Da Hai! When did you learn to bite?” Li Shuo complained in tears.

Zhou Shi Hu simply burst into loud laughter on one side.

Gu Hai was still suffering and grieving like before, sometimes he would mutter to himself, sometimes he would curse in anger, not saying anything else except these couple of words, why are you so cruel? Don’t you miss me?

Zhou Shi Hu sighed ruefully, “This Jin Lulu is really a disaster!”

“Yin Zi,” Gu Hai suddenly hugged Li Shuo tightly, “I miss you.”

Yin Zi?

Both Li Shuo and Zhou Shi Hu were momentarily stunned, why does this name sound so familiar in their ears?

Gu Hai didn’t give any time for Li Shuo and Zhou Shi Hu to react, he suddenly ripped Li Shuo’s shirt and bit his chest, causing Li Shuo to scream in pain.

“You don’t care about me, right? You don’t take me seriously, right? Today I’ll f.u.c.k you, if you have the guts, don’t even utter a word! If today I can’t f.u.c.k you until you become docile to me, I won’t be called Gu Hai!”

“I don’t have any guts!!!” Li Shuo looked up to the sky while uttering a long and loud cry, “Hu Zi!! Hu Zi!! Quick, come and save me!!”

Are you Addicted?