With the following evening came the dinner; and I as a guest, a nervous, self-conscious guest, who started at every footstep. I was presented to the King, who eyed me curiously. Seeing that I wore a medal such as his Chancellor gives to men who sometimes do his country service, he spoke to me and inquired how I had obtained it. It was an affair similar to the Balkistan; only there was not an army, but a mob.
The Princess was enchanting. I grew reckless, and let her read my eyes more than once; but she pretended not to see what was in them. At dinner a toast was given to his Majesty. It was made with those steins I showed you, Jack.
The Princess said softly to me, kissing the rim of the stein she held: "My toast is not to the King, but to the gentleman!" I had both steins bundled up and left with the host, together with my address.
It was not long after that the eventful moment for our flight arrived.
I knew that I was basely to abuse the hospitality of the King. But what is a King to a man in love? Presently we two were alone in the garden, the Princess and myself. She was whispering instructions, telling me that I was a man of courage.
"It is not too late to back out," she said.
"I would face a thousand kings rather," I replied.
We could see at the gate the carriage which was to take us to the station. Now came the moment when I was tried by the crucible and found to be dross. I committed the most foolish blunder of my life.
My love suddenly overleapt its bounds. In a moment my arms were around her lithe body; my lips met hers squarely. After it was done she stood very still, as if incapable of understanding my offence. But I understood. I was overwhelmed with remorse, love, and regret. I had made impossible what might have been.
"Your Highness," I cried, "I could not help it! Before G.o.d I could not! It is because I love you better than anything in the world--you cannot be of it!--and all this is impossible, this going away together."
Her bosom heaved, and her eyes flashed like a heated summer sky.
"I will give you one minute to leave this place," she said, her tones as even and as cold as sudden repression of wrath could make them. "I trusted you, and you have dared to take advantage of what seemed my helplessness. It is well indeed for you that you committed this outrage before it is too late. I should have killed you then. I might have known. Could ever a woman trust a man?" She laughed contemptuously. "You would have made me a thing of scorn; and I trusted you!"
"As G.o.d is my judge," I cried, "my respect for you is as high as heaven itself. I love you; is there nothing in that? I am but human. I am not a stone image. And you have tempted me beyond all control. Pardon what I have done; it was not the want of respect--."
"Spare me your protestations. I believe your minute is nearly gone,"
she interrupted.
And then--there was a crunch on the gravel behind us. The Princess and I turned in dismay. We had forgotten all about the anonymous note.
Two officers were approaching us, and rapidly. The elder of the two came straight to me. I knew him to be as inexorable as his former master, the victor of Sedan. The Princess looked on mechanically.
"Come," said the Count, in broken English; "I believe your carriage is at the gate."
I glanced at the Princess. She might have been of stone, for all the life she exhibited.
"Come; the comedy is a poor one," said the Count.
I followed him out of the garden. My indifference to personal safety was due to a numbness which had taken hold of me.
"Get in," he said, when we reached the carriage. I did so, and he got in after me. The driver appeared confused. It was not his fare, according to the agreement. "To the city," he was briefly told. "Your hotel?" turning to me. I named it. "Do you understand German?"
"But indifferently," I answered listlessly.
"It appears that you understand neither the language nor the people.
Who are you?"
"That is my concern," I retorted. I was coming about, and not unnaturally became vicious.
"It concerns me also," was the gruff reply.
"Have your own way about it."
"How came you by that medal?" pointing to my breast.
"Honestly," said I.
"Honestly or dishonestly, it is all the same." He made a move to detach it, and I caught his hand.
"Please don"t do that. I am extremely irritable; and I might throw you out of the window. I can get back to my hotel without guidance."
"I am going to see you to your lodgings," a.s.serted the Count, rubbing his wrist, for I had put some power into my grasp.
"Still, I might take it into my head to throw you out."
"You"d better not try."
"Are you afraid?"
"Yes. There would be a scandal. Not that I would care about the death of a miserable adventurer, but it might possibly reflect upon the virtue of her Highness the Princess Hildegarde."
"What do you want?" I growled.
"I want to see if your pa.s.sports are proper so that you will have no difficulty in pa.s.sing over the frontier."
"Perhaps it would be just as well to wake the American Minister?" I suggested.
"Not at all. If you were found dead there might be a possibility of that. But I should explain to him, and he would understand that it was a case without diplomatic precedent."
"Well?"
"You are to leave this country at once, sir; that is, if you place any value upon your life."
"Oh; then it is really serious?"
"Very. It is a matter of life and death--to you. Moreover, you must never enter this country again. If you do, I will not give a pfennig for your life."
He found my pa.s.sports in good order. I permitted him to rummage through some of my papers.
"Ach! a d.a.m.ned scribbler, too!" coming across some of my notes.
"Quite right, Herr General," said I. I submitted because I didn"t care.
My luggage was packed off to the station, where he saw that my ticket was for Paris.
"Good morning," he said, as I entered the carriage compartment. "The devil will soon come to his own; ach!"
"My compliments to him when you see him!" I called back, not to be outdone in the matter of courtesy.
"And that is all, Jack," concluded Hillars. "For all these months not an hour has pa.s.sed in which I have not cursed the folly of that moment.
Instead of healing under the balm of philosophy, the wound grows more painful every day. She did not love me, I know, but she would have been near me. And if the King had taken away her princ.i.p.ality, she would have needed me in a thousand ways. And it is not less than possible that in time she might have learned the lesson of love. But now--if she is the woman I believe her to be, she never could love me after what has happened. And knowing this, I can"t leave liquor alone, and don"t want to. In my cups I do not care."