"I should like to come myself, too; ... but still I must have some errand."
Eli lay silent for a while, as if she was turning over something in her mind. "I believe," she said, "mother has something to ask you about." ...
They both felt the room was becoming very hot; he wiped his brow, and he heard her rise in the bed. No sound could be heard either in the room or down-stairs, save the ticking of the clock on the wall. There was no moon, and the darkness was deep; when he looked through the green window, it seemed to him as if he was looking into a wood; when he looked towards Eli he could see nothing, but his thoughts went over to her, and then his heart throbbed till he could himself hear its beating. Before his eyes flickered bright sparks; in his ears came a rushing sound; still faster throbbed his heart: he felt he must rise or say something. But then she exclaimed,
"How I wish it were summer!"
"That it were summer?" And he heard again the sound of the cattle-bells, the horn from the mountains, and the singing from the valleys; and saw the fresh green foliage, the Swart-water glittering in the sunbeams, the houses rocking in it, and Eli coming out and sitting on the sh.o.r.e, just as she did that evening. "If it were summer," she said, "and I were sitting on the hill, I think I could sing a song."
He smiled gladly, and asked, "What would it be about?"
"About something bright; about--well, I hardly know what myself." ...
"Tell me, Eli!" He rose in glad excitement; but, on second thoughts, sat down again.
"No; not for all the world!" she said, laughing.
"I sang to you when you asked me."
"Yes, I know you did; but I can"t tell you this; no! no!"
"Eli, do you think I would laugh at the little verse you have made?"
"No, I don"t think you would, Arne; but it isn"t anything I"ve made myself."
"Oh, it"s by somebody else then?"
"Yes."
"Then, you can surely say it to me."
"No, no, I can"t; don"t ask me again, Arne!"
The last words were almost inaudible; it seemed as if she had hidden her head under the bedclothes.
"Eli, now you"re not kind to me as I was to you," he said, rising.
"But, Arne, there"s a difference ... you don"t understand me ... but it was ... I don"t know ... another time ... don"t be offended with me, Arne! don"t go away from me!" She began to weep.
"Eli, what"s the matter?" It came over him like sunshine. "Are you ill?" Though he asked, he did not believe she was. She still wept; he felt he must draw nearer or go quite away. "Eli." He listened. "Eli."
"Yes."
She checked her weeping. But he did not know what to say more, and was silent.
"What do you want?" she whispered, half turning towards him.
"It"s something--"
His voice trembled, and he stopped.
"What is it?"
"You mustn"t refuse ... I would ask you...."
"Is it the song?"
"No ... Eli, I wish so much...." He heard her breathing fast and deeply ... "I wish so much ... to hold one of your hands."
She did not answer; he listened intently--drew nearer, and clasped a warm little hand which lay on the coverlet.
Then steps were heard coming up-stairs; they came nearer and nearer; the door was opened; and Arne unclasped his hand. It was the mother, who came in with a light. "I think you"re sitting too long in the dark," she said, putting the candlestick on the table. But neither Eli nor Arne could bear the light; she turned her face to the pillow, and he shaded his eyes with his hand. "Well, it pains a little at first, but it soon pa.s.ses off," said the mother.
Arne looked on the floor for something which he had not dropped, and then went down-stairs.
The next day, he heard that Eli intended to come down in the afternoon. He put his tools together, and said good-bye. When she came down he had gone.
XIII.
MARGIT CONSULTS THE CLERGYMAN.
Up between the mountains, the spring comes late. The post, who in winter pa.s.ses along the high-road thrice a week, in April pa.s.ses only once; and the highlanders know then that outside, the snow is shovelled away, the ice broken, the steamers are running, and the plough is struck into the earth. Here, the snow still lies six feet deep; the cattle low in their stalls; the birds arrive, but feel cold and hide themselves. Occasionally some traveller arrives, saying he has left his carriage down in the valley; he brings flowers, which he examines; he picked them by the wayside. The people watch the advance of the season, talk over their matters, and look up at the sun and round about, to see how much he is able to do each day. They scatter ashes on the snow, and think of those who are now picking flowers.
It was at this time of year, old Margit Kampen went one day to the parsonage, and asked whether she might speak to "father." She was invited into the study, where the clergyman,--a slender, fair-haired, gentle-looking man, with large eyes and spectacles,--received her kindly, recognized her, and asked her to sit down.
"Is there something the matter with Arne again?" he inquired, as if Arne had often been a subject of conversation between them.
"Oh, dear, yes! I haven"t anything wrong to say about him; but yet it"s so sad," said Margit, looking deeply grieved.
"Has that longing come back again!"
"Worse than ever. I can hardly think he"ll even stay with me till spring comes up here."
"But he has promised never to go away from you."
"That"s true; but, dear me! he must now be his own master; and if his mind"s set upon going away, go, he must. But whatever will become of me then?"
"Well, after all, I don"t think he will leave you."
"Well, perhaps not; but still, if he isn"t happy at home? am I then to have it upon my conscience that I stand in his way? Sometimes I feel as if I ought even to ask him to leave."
"How do you know he is longing now, more than ever?"
"Oh,--by many things. Since the middle of the winter, he hasn"t worked out in the parish a single day; but he has been to the town three times, and has stayed a long while each time. He scarcely ever talks now while he is at work, but he often used to do. He"ll sit for hours alone at the little up-stairs window, looking towards the ravine, and away over the mountains; he"ll sit there all Sunday afternoon, and often when it"s moonlight he sits there till late in the night."