Reading afterward the written words, the fine invisible links, the colour and the music, are treacherously supplied by the imagination, which is at once the best friend and the worst enemy. How is one to know that only a small part of it has been written, that the best of it, far past writing, lingers still unborn?
Long afterward, when the original picture has faded as though it had never been, one may read his printed work, and wonder, in abject self-abas.e.m.e.nt, by what miracle it was ever printed. He has trusted to some unknown psychology which strongly savours of the Black Art to reproduce in the minds of his readers the picture which was in his, and from which these fragmentary, marginal notes were traced. Only the words, the dead, meaningless words, stripped of all the fancy which once made them fair, to make for the thousands the wild, delirious bliss that the writer knew! To write with the tears falling upon the page, and afterward to read, in some particularly poignant and searching review, that "the book fails to convince!" Happy is he whose written pages reproduce but faintly the glow from whence they came. For "whoso with blood and tears would dig Art out of his soul, may lavish his golden prime in pursuit of emptiness, or, striking treasure, find only fairy gold, so that when his eyes are purged of the spell of morning, he sees his hands are full of withered leaves."
A meadow-lark, rising from a distant field, dropped golden notes into the still, sunlit air, then vanished into the blue s.p.a.ces beyond. A bough of apple bloom, its starry petals anch.o.r.ed only by invisible cobwebs, softly shook white fragrance into the gra.s.s. Then, like a vision straight from the golden city with the walls of pearl, came Elaine, the beautiful, her blue eyes laughing, and her scarlet lips parted in a smile.
Harlan"s heart sang within him. His trembling hands grasped feverishly at the sheaf of copy-paper which had waited for this, week in and week out.
The pencil was ready to his hand, and the words fairly wrote themselves:
_It came to pa.s.s that when the year was at the Spring, the Lady Elaine fared forth upon the Heart"s Quest. She was mounted upon a snowy palfrey, whose trappings of scarlet and silver gleamed brightly in the sun. Her gown was of white satin, wondrously embroidered in fine gold thread, which was no less gold than her hair, falling in unchecked splendour about her._
_Blue as sapphires were the eyes of Elaine, and her fair cheek was like that of an apple-blossom. Set like a rose upon pearl was the dewy, fragrant sweetness of her mouth, and her breath was like that of the rose itself. Her hands--but how shall I write of the flower-like hands of Elaine? They--_
The door-bell pealed portentously through the house, echoing and re-echoing through the empty rooms. No answer. Presently it rang again, insistently, and Elaine, with her snowy palfrey, whisked suddenly out of sight.
Gone, except for these few lines! Harlan stifled a groan and the bell rang once more.
Heavens! Where was Dorothy? Where was Mrs. Smithers? Was there no one in the house but himself? Apparently not, for the bell rang determinedly, and with military precision.
"March, march, forward march!" grumbled Harlan, as he ran downstairs, the one-two, one-two-three being registered meanwhile on the bell-wire.
It was not a pleasant person who violently wrenched the door open, but in spite of his annoyance, Harlan could not be discourteous to a lady. She was tall, and slender, and pale, with blue eyes and yellow hair, and so very fragile that it seemed as though a pa.s.sing zephyr might almost blow her away.
"How do you do," she said, wearily. "I thought you were never coming."
"I was busy," said Harlan, in extenuation. "Will you come in?" She was evidently a friend of Dorothy"s, and, as such, demanded proper consideration.
The invitation was needless, however, for even as he spoke, she brushed past him, and went into the parlour. "I"m so tired," she breathed. "I walked up that long hill."
"You shouldn"t have done it," returned Harlan, standing first on one foot and then on the other. "Couldn"t you find the stage?"
"I didn"t look for it. I never had any ambition to go on the stage," she concluded, with a faint smile. "Where is Uncle Ebeneezer?"
"No friend of Dorothy"s," thought Harlan, shifting to the other foot.
"Uncle Ebeneezer," he said, clearing his throat, "is at peace."
"What do you mean?" demanded the girl, sinking into one of the haircloth chairs. "Where is Uncle Ebeneezer?"
"Uncle Ebeneezer is dead," explained Harlan, somewhat tartly. Then, as he remembered the utter ruin of his work, he added, viciously, "never having known him intimately, I can"t say just where he is."
She leaned back in her chair, her face as white as death. Harlan thought she had fainted, when she relieved his mind by bursting into tears. He was more familiar with salt water, but, none the less, the situation was awkward.
There were no signs of Dorothy, so Harlan, in an effort to be consoling, took the visitor"s cold hands in his. "Don"t," he said, kindly; "cheer up.
You are among friends."
"I have no friends," she answered, between sobs. "I lost the last when my dear mother died. She made me promise, during her last illness, that if anything happened to her, I would come to Uncle Ebeneezer. She said she had never imposed upon him and that he would gladly take care of me, for her sake. I was ill a long, long time, but as soon as I was able to, I came, and now--and now----"
"Don"t," said Harlan, again, awkwardly patting her hands, and deeply touched by the girl"s distress. "We are your friends. You can stay here just as well as not. I am married and----"
Upon his back, Harlan felt eyes. He turned quickly, and saw Dorothy standing in the door--quite a new Dorothy, indeed; very tall, and stately, and pale.
Through sheer nervousness, Mr. Carr laughed--an unfortunate, high-pitched laugh with no mirth in it. "Let me present my wife," he said, sobering suddenly. "Mrs. Carr, Miss----"
Here he coughed, and the guest, rising, filled the pause. "I am Elaine St.
Clair," she explained, offering a white, tremulous hand which Dorothy did not seem to see. "It is very good of your husband to ask me to stay with you."
"Very," replied Dorothy, in a tone altogether new to her husband. "He is always doing lovely things for people. And now, Harlan, if you will show Miss St. Clair to her room, I will speak with Mrs. Smithers about luncheon, which should be nearly ready by this time."
"Thunder," said Harlan to himself, as Dorothy withdrew. "What in the devil do I know about "her room"? Have you ever been here before?" he inquired of the guest.
"Never in my life," answered Miss St. Clair, wiping her eyes.
"Well," replied Harlan, confusedly, "just go on upstairs, then, and help yourself. There are plenty of rooms, and cribs to burn in every blamed one of "em," he added, savagely, remembering the look in Dorothy"s eyes.
"Thank you," said Miss St. Clair, diffidently; "it is very kind of you to let me choose. Can some one bring my trunk up this afternoon?"
"I"ll attend to it," replied her host, brusquely.
She trailed noiselessly upstairs, carrying her heavy suit case, and Harlan, not altogether happy at the prospect, went in search of Dorothy.
At the kitchen door he paused, hearing voices within.
"They"ve usually et by themselves," Mrs. Smithers was saying. "Is this a new one, or a friend of yours?"
The sentence was utterly without meaning, either to Harlan or Dorothy, but the answer was given, as quick as a flash. "A friend, Mrs. Smithers--a very dear old friend of Mr. Carr"s."
""Mr. Carr"s,"" repeated Harlan, miserably, tiptoeing away to the library, where he sat down and wiped his forehead. ""A very dear old friend.""
Disconnectedly, and with p.r.o.nounced emphasis, Harlan mentioned the place which is said to be paved with good intentions.
The clock struck twelve, and it was just eleven when he had begun on _The Quest of the Lady Elaine_. ""One crowded hour of glorious life is worth"--what idiot said it was worth anything?" groaned Harlan, inwardly.
"Anyway, I"ve had the crowded hour. "Better fifty years of Europe than a cycle of Cathay""--the line sang itself into his consciousness. "Europe be everlastingly condemned," he muttered. "Oh, how my head aches!"
He leaned back in his chair, wondering where "Cathay" might be. It sounded like a nice, quiet place, with no "dear old friends" in it--a peaceful spot where people could write books if they wanted to. "Just why," he asked himself more than once, "was I inspired to grab the shaky paw of that human sponge? "Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean"--oh, the devil! She must have a volume of Tennyson in her grip, and it"s soaking through!"
Mrs. Smithers came out into the hall, more sepulchral and grim-visaged than ever, and rang the bell for luncheon. To Harlan"s fevered fancy, it sounded like a s.e.xton tolling a bell for a funeral. Miss St. Clair, with the traces of tears practically removed, floated gracefully downstairs, and Harlan, coming out of the library with the furtive step of a wild beast from its lair, met her inopportunely at the foot of the stairs.
She smiled at him in a timid, but friendly fashion, and at the precise moment, Dorothy appeared in the dining-room door.
"Harlan, dear," she said, in her sweetest tones, "will you give our guest your arm and escort her out to luncheon? I have it all ready!"
Miss St. Clair clutched timidly at Harlan"s rigid coat sleeve, wondering what strange custom of the house would be evident next, and the fog was thick before Mr. Carr"s eyes, when he took his accustomed seat at the head of the table. As a sign of devotion, he tried to step on Dorothy"s foot under the table, after a pleasing habit of their courtship in the New York boarding-house, but he succeeded only in drawing an unconscious "ouch" and a vivid blush from Miss St. Clair, by which he impressed Dorothy more deeply than he could have hoped to do otherwise.
"Have you come far, Miss St. Clair?" asked Dorothy, conventionally.
"From New York," answered the guest, taking a plate of fried chicken from Harlan"s shaky hand.
"I know," said Dorothy sweetly. "We come from New York, too." Then she took a bold, daring plunge. "I have often heard my husband speak of you."
"Of me, Mrs. Carr? Surely not! It must have been some other Elaine."
"Perhaps," smiled Dorothy, shrugging her shoulders. "No doubt I am mistaken, but you may have heard of me?"