To-day, something her niece had said about Donnybrook Fair--for Anna, too, was a child of the old sod--seemed to swell out with a fair wind the sails of her visionary bark. She closed her mind to all familiar shapes and strained back--way, way back, concentrating all her powers in an effort of will. For a bit she seemed to hover in populous s.p.a.ce. This did not disturb her; she had experienced the same thing before. It simply meant that she had mounted pretty well up to the fountain-head.
The figures, when they did come, would be the ones she most desired.
At last, they began to take shape, tenuously at first, then of fuller body, each bringing its own setting, its own atmospheric suggestion--whether of dove-feathered Irish cloud and fresh greensward, sudden downpour, or equally sudden clearing, with continual leafy drip, drip, drip, in the midst of brilliant sunshine.
For Margaret O"Brien, ardent summer sunlight seemed suddenly to pervade the cool, orderly little bed-chamber. Then, "Here she is!" and a wee girl of four danced into view, wearing a dress of pink print, very tight at the top and very full at the bottom. She led the way to a tiny new house whence issued the cheery voice of hammers. Lumber and tools were lying round; from within came men"s voices. The small girl stamped up the steps and looked in. Then she made for the narrow stair.
"Where"s Margaret gone to?" said one of the men. "The upper floor"s not finished. It"s falling through the young one will be."
"Peggy!" called the older man. "Come down here with you."
There was a delighted squeal. The pink dress appeared at the head of the stairs. "Oh, the funny little man, daddy! Such a funny little old man with a high hat! Come quick, let you, and see him."
The two men ran to the stairs.
"Where is he?"
She turned back and pointed. Then her face fell. "Gone! the little man is gone!"
Her father laughed and picked her up in his arms. "How big was he, Peg?
As big as yourself, I wonder?"
"No, no! Small."
"As big as the baby?"
She considered a moment. "Yes, just as big as that. But a man, da."
"Well, why aren"t you after catching him and holding him for ransom?
"Tis pots and pots o" gold they"ve hidden away, the little people, and will be paying a body what he asks to let them go."
She pouted, on the verge of tears. "I want him to come back."
"I mistrust he won"t be doing that, the leprechaun. Once you take your eye away, it"s off with him for good and all."
Margaret O"Brien hugged herself with delight. _That_ was a new one; she had never got back that far before. Yet how well she remembered it all!
She seemed to smell the woody pungency of the lumber, the limey odor of white-wash from the field-stone cellar.
The old woman"s dream went on. Out of the inexhaustible storehouse of the past, she summoned, one by one, her much-loved memories. There was a pig-tailed Margaret in bonnet and shawl, trudging to school one wintry day. She had seen many wintry school-days, but this one stood out by reason of the tears she had shed by the way. She saw the long benches, the slates, the charts, the tall teacher at his desk. With a swelling of the throat, she saw the little girl sob out her declaration: "I"m not for coming no more, Mr. Wilde."
"What"s that, Margaret? And why not? Haven"t I been good to you?"
Tears choked the child. "Oh, Mr. Wilde, it"s just because you"re so terrible good to me. They say you are trying to make a Protestant out of me. So I"ll not be coming no more."
The tall man drew the little girl to his knee and rea.s.sured her.
Margaret O"Brien could review that scene with tender delight now. She had not been forced to give up her beloved school. Mr. Wilde had explained to her that her brothers were merely teasing her because she was so quick and such a favorite.
A little Margaret knelt on the cold stone floor at church and stared at the pictured saints or heard the budding branches rustle in the orchard outside. Another Margaret, a little taller, begged for a new sheet of ballads every time her father went to the fair.--There were the long flimsy sheets, with closely printed verses. These you must adapt to familiar tunes. This Margaret, then, swept the hearth and stacked the turf and sang from her bench in the chimney-corner. Sometimes it was something about "the little old red coat me father wore," which was "All b.u.t.tons, b.u.t.tons, b.u.t.tons, b.u.t.tons; all b.u.t.tons down before"; or another beginning,--
"O, dear, what can the matter be?
Johnnie"s so long at the fair!
He promised to buy me a knot of blue ribbon To tie up my bonny brown hair."
Then there was a picture of the time the fairies actually bewitched the churn, and, labor as you might, no b.u.t.ter would form, not the least tiny speck. Margaret and her mother took the churn apart and examined every part of it. Nothing out of the way. "Tis the fairies is in it," her mother said. "All Souls" Day a-Friday. Put out a saucer of cream the night for the little people, let you." A well-grown girl in a blue cotton frock, the long braids of her black hair whipping about her in the windy evening, set out the cream on the stone flags before the low doorway, wasting no time in getting in again. The next day, how the b.u.t.ter "came"! Hardly started they were, when they could feel it forming. When Margaret washed the dasher, she "kept an eye out" for the dark corners of the room, for the air seemed thronged and murmurous.
After this picture, came always the same tall girl still in the same blue frock, this time with a shawl on her head. She brought in potatoes from the sheltered heaps that wintered out in the open. From one pailful she picked out a little flat stone, rectangular and smoother and more evenly proportioned than any stone she had ever seen.
"What a funny stone!" she said to her mother.
Her mother left carding her wool to look. "You may well say so. "Tis one of the fairies" tables. Look close and you"ll be turning up their little chairs as well."
It was as her mother said. Margaret found four smaller stones of like appearance, which one might well imagine to be stools for tiny dolls.
"Shall I be giving them to little Bee for playthings?"
"You will not. You"ll be putting them outside. In the morning, though you may be searching the countryside, no trace of them will you find, for the fairies will be taking them again."
So Margaret stacked the fairy table and chairs outside. Next morning, she ran out half reluctantly, for she was afraid she would find them and that would spoil the story. But, no! they were gone. She never saw them again, though she searched in all imaginable places. Nor was that the last potato heap to yield these mysterious stones.
Margaret, growing from scene to scene, appeared again in a group of laughing boys and girls.
"What"ll we play now?"
"Let"s write the ivy test."
"Here"s leaves."
Each wrote a name on a leaf and dropped it into a jar of water. Next morning, Margaret, who had misgivings, stole down early and searched for her leaf. Yes, the die was cast! At the sight of its bruised surface, ready tears flooded her eyes. She had written the name of her little grandmother, and the condition of the leaf foretold death within the year. The other leaves were unmarred. She quickly destroyed the ill-omened bit of ivy and said nothing about it, though the children clamored. "There"s one leaf short. Whose is gone?" "Mine is there!" "Is it yours, John?" "Is it yours, Esther?" But Margaret kept her counsel, and, within the year, the little grandmother was dead. Of course, she was old, though vigorous; yet Margaret would never play that game again.
It was like gambling with fate.
And still the girls kept swinging past. Steadily, all too swiftly, Margaret shot up to a woman"s stature; her skirts crept down, her braids ought to have been bobbed up behind. She let them hang, however, and still ran with the boys, questing the bogs, climbing the apple trees, storming the wind-swept hills. Her mother would point to her sister Mary, who, though younger, sat now by the fire with her "spriggin"
[embroidery] for "the quality." Mary could crochet, too, and had a fine range of "shamrogue" patterns. So the mother would chide Margaret.
"What kind of a girl are you, at all, to be ever lepping and tearing like a redshanks [deer]? "Tis high time for you to be getting sensible and learning something. Whistles and scouting-guns is all you"re good for, and there"s no silver in them things as far as I can see."
What fine whistles she contrived out of the pithy willow shoots in the spring! And the scouting-guns hollowed out of elder-stalks, which they charged with water from the brook by means of wadded sticks, working piston-wise! They would hide behind a hedge and bespatter enemies and friends alike. Many"s the time they got their ears warmed in consequence or went supperless to bed, pretending not to see the table spread with baked potatoes,--"laughing potatoes," they called them, because they were ever splitting their sides,--besides delicious b.u.t.termilk, freshly-laid eggs, oat-cakes and fresh b.u.t.ter. "A child without supper is two to breakfast," their mother would say, smiling, when she saw them "tackle" their stirabout the next day.
How full of verve and life were all these figures! That glancing creature grow old? How could such things be! The sober pace of maturity even seemed out of her star. Yet here she was, growing up, for all her reluctance. An awkward gossoon leaned over the gate in the moonlight, though she was indoors, ready to hide. But n.o.body noticed her alarm.
"There"s that long-legged McMurray lad again; scouting after Mary, I"ll be bound," said her mother, all unawares.
But it was not Mary that he came for, though she married him just the same, and came out to America with their children some years after her sister"s lone pilgrimage.
The intrusion of Jerry McMurray signaled the grounding of her dream-bark on the shoals of reality. Who cared about the cut-and-dried life of a grown woman? Enchantment now lay behind her, and, if the intervals between periods of pain permitted, she again turned an expectant face toward the old childish visions. Sometimes she could make the trip twice over without being overtaken by suffering. But her intervals of comfort grew steadily shorter; frequently she was interrupted before she could get rightly launched on her delight. And always there seemed to be one vision more illusive than the rest which she particularly longed to recapture. At last, chance words of Anna"s put her on its trail in this wise.
When she was not, as her niece said, "in her trance, wool-gathering"
Anna did her best to distract her, sending the children in to ask "would she have a sup of tea now," or a taste of wine jelly. One day, after the invalid had spent a bad night, she brought in her new long silk coat for her aunt"s inspection, for the old woman had always been "tasty" and "dressy," and had made many a fine gown in her day. The sharp old eyes lingered on the rich and truly striking braid ornament that secured the loose front of the garment.
"What"s that plaster?" she demanded, disparagingly.