Time pa.s.sed with me, and I saw the sorrows of others. Sometimes I thought of the myrtle-covered graves, and the children that slept beneath. Oh! how quiet they must be, they utter no cry, they shed no tears.
Time pa.s.sed, and an angel slept in my bosom, close to my heart. Need I say that I was happy when she nestled there? that her voice was music to my soul, and her smile the very presence of beauty? Need I say it was joy when she called me, Mother? Then I lived for the present; all the sorrow that I had seen around me, was forgotten.
G.o.d called that angel to her native heaven, and I wept. Now was the mystery of the myrtle-covered graves open before my sight. I had seen the going forth of a little life that was part of my own, I remembered the hard sighs that convulsed that infant breast. I knew that the grave was meant to hide from us, silence and pallor, desolation and decay. I was in the world, no longer a garden of flowers, where I sought from under the myrtle for the bright eyes and the velvet cheeks. I was in the world, and death was there too; it was by my side. I gave my darling to the earth, and felt for myself the bitterness of tears.
Thus must it ever be--by actual suffering must the young be persuaded of the struggle that is before them--well is it when there is one to say, "G.o.d is here."
CHAPTER IX.
We must bring Uncle Bacchus"s wife before our readers. She is a tall, dignified, bright mulatto woman, named Phillis; it is with the qualities of her heart and mind, rather than her appearance, that we have to do. Bayard Taylor, writing from Nubia, in Upper Egypt, says:--"Those friends of the African race, who point to Egypt as a proof of what that race has done, are wholly mistaken. The only negro features represented in Egyptian sculpture are those of the slaves and captives taken in the Ethiopian wars of the Pharaohs. The temples and pyramids throughout Nubia, as far as Abyssinia, all bear the hieroglyphics of these monarchs. There is no evidence in all the valley of the Nile that the negro race ever attained a higher degree of civilization than is at present exhibited in Congo and Ashantee. I mention this, not from any feeling hostile to that race, but simply to controvert an opinion very prevalent in some parts of the United States."
It seemed impossible to know Phillis without feeling for her sentiments of the highest respect. The blood of the freeman and the slave mingled in her veins; her well-regulated mind slowly advanced to a conclusion; but once made, she rarely changed it.
Phillis would have been truly happy to have obtained her own freedom, and that of her husband and children: she scorned the idea of running away, or of obtaining it otherwise than as a gift from her owner. She was a firm believer in the Bible, and often pondered on the words of the angel, "Return and submit thyself to thy mistress." She had on one occasion accompanied her master and Mrs. Weston to the North, where she was soon found out by some of that disinterested cla.s.s of individuals called Abolitionists. In reply to the question, "Are you free?" there was but a moment"s hesitation; her pride of heart gave way to her inherent love of truth, "I"ll tell no lie," she answered; "I am a slave!"
"Why do you not _take_ your freedom?" was the rejoinder. "You are in a free state; they cannot force you to the South, if you will take the offers we make you, and leave your master."
"You are Abolitionists, I "spose?" asked Phillis.
"We are," they said, "and we will help you off."
"I want none of your help," said Phillis. "My husband and children are at home; but if they wasn"t, I am an honest woman, and am not in the habit of _taking_ any thing. I"ll never _take_ my freedom. If my master would give it to me, and the rest of us, I should be thankful. I am not going to begin stealing, and I fifty years of age."
An eye-witness described the straightening of her tall figure, and the indignant flashing of her eye, also the discomfited looks of her northern friends.
I have somewhere read of a fable of Iceland. According to it, lost souls are to be parched in the burning heat of Hecla, and then cast for ever to cool in its never-thawing snows. Although Phillis could not have quoted this, her opinions would have applied it. For some reason, it was evident to her mind (for she had been well instructed in the Bible) that slavery was from the first ordained as a curse. It might, to her high spirit, have been like burning in the bosom of Hecla; but taking refuge among Abolitionists was, from the many instances that had come to her knowledge, like cooling in its never-thawing snows.
At the time that we introduced her to the reader, she was the mother of twelve children. Some were quite young, but a number of them were grown, and all of them, with the exception of one, (the namesake of his father,) inherited their mother"s energy of character. She had accustomed them to constant industry, and unqualified obedience to her directions; and for this reason, no one had found it necessary to interfere in their management.
Pride was a large ingredient in Phillis"s composition. Although her husband presented one of the blackest visages the sun ever shone upon, Phillis appeared to hold in small esteem the ordinary servants on the plantation.
She was constantly chiding her children for using their expressions, and tried to keep them in the house with white people as much as possible, that they might acquire good manners. It was quite a grief to her that Bacchus had not a more genteel dialect than the one he used. She had a great deal of family pride; there was a difference in her mind between family servants and those employed in field labor. For "the quality" she had the highest respect; for "poor white people" only a feeling of pity. She had some n.o.ble qualities, and some great weaknesses; but as a _slave!_ we present her to the reader, and she must be viewed as such.
Miss Janet was, in her eyes, perfection. Her children were all the better for her kind instructions. Her youngest child, Lydia, a girl of six or seven years old, followed the old lady everywhere, carrying her key and knitting-basket, looking for her spectacles, and maintaining short conversations in a confidential tone.
One of Phillis"s chiefest virtues was, that she had been able to bring Bacchus into subjection, with the exception of his love for an occasional spree. Spoiled by an indulgent master, his conceit and wilfulness had made him unpopular with the servants, though his high tone of speaking, and a certain pretension in his manner and dress, was not without its effect. He was a sort of patriarch among waiters and carriage-drivers; could tell anecdotes of dinners where Washington was a guest; and had been familiar with certain t.i.tled people from abroad, whose shoes he had had the honor of polishing. The only person in whose presence he restrained his braggadocio style was Phillis. Her utter contempt for nonsense was too evident.
Bacchus was the same size as his master, and often fell heir to his cast-off clothes. A blue dress-coat and buff vest that he thus inherited, had a great effect upon him, bodily and spiritually. Not only did he swagger more when arrayed in them, but his prayers and singing were doubly effective. He secretly prided himself on a likeness to Mr. Weston, but this must have been from a confusion of mind into which he was thrown, by constantly a.s.sociating himself with Mr. Weston"s coats and pantaloons.
He once said to Phillis, "You might know master was a born gentleman by de way his clothes fits. Dey don"t hang about him, but dey "pears as if dey had grow"d about him by degrees; and if you notice, dey fits me in de same way. Pity I can"t wear his shoes, dey"s so soft, and dey don"t creak. I hates boots and shoes all time creakin, its so like poor white folks when they get dressed up on Sunday. I wonders often Miss Anna don"t send me none of master"s old ruffled shirts. "Spose she thinks a servant oughtn"t to wear "em. I was a wishin last Sunday, when I gin in my "sperience in meetin, that I had one of master"s old ruffled shirts on. I know I could a "scoursed them n.i.g.g.e.rs powerful. Its a hard thing to wear a ruffled shirt.
Dey sticks out and pushes up to people"s chins--I mean people dat aint born to wear "em. Master wears "em as if he was born in "em, and I could too. I wish you"d put Miss Janet up to gittin one or two for me. Miss Janet"s mighty "bliging for an ole maid; "pears as if she liked to see even cats happy. When an ole maid don"t hate cats, there aint nothin to be feared from "em."
Phillis ruled her husband in most things, but she indulged him in all his whims that were innocent. She determined he should have, not an old ruffled shirt, but a new one. She reported the case to Miss Janet, who set two of her girls to work, and by Sat.u.r.day night the shirt was made and done up, and plaited. Bacchus was to be pleasantly surprised by it next morning appearing on the top of his chest.
It happened that on this identical Sunday, Bacchus had (as the best of men will sometimes) got up wrong foot foremost, and not having taken the trouble to go back to bed, and get up again, putting the right foot out first, he continued in the same unhappy state of mind. He made, as was his wont, a hasty toilet before breakfast. He wore an old shirt, and a pair of pantaloons that did not reach much above his hips. One of his slippers had no instep; the other was without a heel. His grizzly beard made him look like a wild man of the woods; a certain sardonic expression of countenance contributed to this effect. He planted his chair on its remaining hind leg at the cabin door, and commenced a systematic strain of grumbling before he was fairly seated in it.
"I believe in my soul," Phillis heard him say, "dat ole Aunt Peggy al"ars gits up wrong on a Sabbath mornin. Will any one hear her coughin? My narves is racked a listenin to her. I don"t see what she wants to live for, and she most a hundred. I believe its purpose to bother me, Sabbath mornins.
Here, Phillis, who"s this bin here, diggin up my sweet-williams I planted?--cuss dese children--"
"The children had nothing to do with it," said Phillis. "Master wanted some roots to give to Mr. Kent and he asked me for "em. I dug "em up and they"re all the better for being thinned out."
"I wish master"d mind his own business, and not be pryin and pilferin "bout other people"s gardens; givin my flowers to that yallow-headed Abolitioner.
I"ll speak my mind to him about it, any how."
"You"d better," said Phillis, drily.
"I will so," said Bacchus; "I"d rather he"d a burned "em up. Kent"s so cussed mean, I don"t b"lieve he"d "low his flowers ground to grow in if he could help hisself. If Miss Nannie"d let him, he"d string them n.i.g.g.e.rs of hers up, and wallop their gizzards out of "em. I hate these Abolitioners. I knows "em,--I knows their pedigree."
"Much you know about "em," said Phillis, who was shaking the dew drops off her "morning glory."
"I knows enuff of "em--I reckon Miss Nannie do, about dis time. De ole gentleman did right, any how, when he lef "em all to her--if he hadn"t, dat feller would a sold "em all off to Georgia "fore this, and a runn"d off wid de money."
"Well," said Phillis, "you"d better mind your own affairs; come in and eat your breakfast, if you want any, for I aint going to keep it standin there all day, drawing the flies."
Bacchus kicked his slippers off and stumbled into a chair beside the table.
"I"ll swar," said he, after a glance at the fried ham and eggs, "if ever a man had to eat sich cookin as dis. Why didn"t you fry "em a little more?"
Phillis not minding him, he condescended to eat them all, and to do justice to the meal in general.
"The old fool," thought Phillis, amused and provoked; "talkin of master"s pilferin--never mind, I"ve put his ruffled shirt out, and he"ll get in a good humor when he sees it, I reckon."
Having finished his breakfast, Bacchus put an enormous piece of tobacco in his mouth, and commenced sharpening a small-sized scythe, that he called a razor. In doing so, he made a noise like a high-pressure steamboat, now and then breathing on it, and going in a severe fit of coughing with every extra exertion. On his table was a broken piece of looking-gla.s.s, on the quicksilver side of which, Arthur had, when a child, drawn a horse. Into this Bacchus gave a look, preparatory to commencing operations. Then, after due time spent in lathering, he hewed down at each shave, an amount of black tow that was inconceivable. After he had done, he gathered up his traps, and stowed them away in the corner of his chest.
Phillis sat outside the door, smoking; looking in at the window, occasionally, to observe the effect of the first sight of the new shirt.
She saw him turn toward the little red painted bureau, on which she had laid out his clean clothes, starting with surprise and pleasure, when his eye first took in the delightful vision. Cortez, when he stood conqueror of Mexico, did not feel the glow of satisfaction that thrilled through Bacchus"s heart as he gently patted the plaited ruffles and examined the wristbands, which were st.i.tched with the utmost neatness. He got weak in the knees with pleasure, and sat down on the chest in the corner, to support with more ease this sudden accession of happiness, while his wife was reaping a harvest of gratification at the success of her efforts toward his peace of mind. All at once she saw a change pa.s.s over his visage.
Bacchus recollected that it would not do for him so suddenly to get into a good humor; besides, he reflected it was no more than Phillis"s duty to make him ruffled shirts, and she ought to have been so doing for the last twenty years. These considerations induced him not to show much pleasure on the occasion, but to pretend he was not at all satisfied with the style and workmanship of the article in question.
"Why, lord a ma.s.sy," said he, "Phillis, what do you call dis here? t"aint a shirt? at fust I thought "twas one of Miss Janet"s short night gowns you"d been a doing up for her."
Phillis smoked on, looking inquiringly into the distant hills.
"Phillis, you don"t mean me to wear dis here to meetin? T"aint fit. Dese wristbands is made out o" cotton, and I b"lieves in my soul Aunt Peggy done dis st.i.tchin widout any spectacles."
Phillis knocked the ashes out of her pipe, and puffed on.
"Look here, Phillis," said Bacchus, going to the door as fast as the uncertain condition of his pantaloons would allow him, "did you "spose I was sich a fool as to wear dis to meetin to-day?"
"Yes, I did," said Phillis.
"Why, t"aint fit for a n.i.g.g.e.r to hoe corn in, its as big as a hay-stack."
"Have you tried it on?" asked Phillis.
"T"aint no use," said Bacchus, "I can tell by de looks."
"I"m sorry you don"t like it," said Phillis.
"Like it," said Bacchus, contemptuously, "why, if it twasn"t for the trouble of going to my chist, I"d wear one of my old ones. Cuss de ruffles, I wish you"d cut "em off."