She gathered the thing up, but of course mother had to come in just then and they met in the doorway. She saw it all in one glance, and she s.n.a.t.c.hed the card out of my hand.
"From H----!" she read. "Take them out, Hannah, and throw them away. No, don"t do that. Put them on the Servant"s table." Then, when the door had closed, she turned to me. "Just one more ridiculous Episode of this kind, Barbara," she said, "and you go back to school--Xmas or no Xmas."
I will say this. If she had shown the faintest softness, I"d have told her the whole thing. But she did not. She looked exactly as gentle as a macadam pavment. I am one who has to be handled with Gentleness. A kind word will do anything with me, but harsh treatment only makes me determined. I then become inflexable as iron.
That is what happened then. Mother took the wrong course and threatened, which as I have stated is fatal, as far as I am concerned. I refused to yeild an inch, and it ended in my having my dinner in my room, and mother threatening to keep me home from the Party the next night. It was not a threat, if she had only known it.
But when the next day went by, with no more flowers, and nothing aparently wrong except that mother was very dignafied with me, I began to feel better. Sis was out all day, and in the afternoon Jane called me up.
"How are you?" she said.
"Oh, I"m all right."
"Everything smooth?"
"Well, smooth enough."
"Oh, Bab," she said. "I"m just crazy about it. All the girls are."
"I knew they were crazy about something."
"You poor thing, no wonder you are bitter," she said. "Somebody"s coming. I"ll have to ring off. But don"t you give in, Bab. Not an inch.
Marry your Heart"s Desire, no matter who b.u.t.ts in."
Well, you can see how it was. Even then I could have told father and mother, and got out of it somehow. But all the girls knew about it, and there was nothing to do but go on.
All that day every time I thought of the Party my heart missed a beat.
But as I would not lie and say that I was ill--I am naturaly truthful, as far as possible--I was compelled to go, although my heart was breaking.
I am not going to write much about the party, except a slight discription, which properly belongs in every Theme.
All Parties for the school set are alike. The boys range from knickerbockers to college men in their Freshmen year, and one is likely to dance half the evening with youngsters that one saw last in their perambulaters. It is rather startling to have about six feet of black trouser legs and white shirt front come and ask one to dance and then to get one"s eyes raised as far as the top of what looks like a particularly thin pair of tree trunks and see a little boy"s face.
As this Theme is to contain discription I shall discribe the ball room of the club where the eventful party occurred.
The ball room is white, with red hangings, and looks like a Charlotte Russe with maraschino cherries. Over the fireplace they had put "Merry Christmas," in electric lights, and the chandaliers were made into Christmas trees and hung with colored b.a.l.l.s. One of the b.a.l.l.s fell off during the Cotillion, and went down the back of one of the girl"s dresses, and they were compelled to up-end her and shake her out in the dressing room.
The favors were insignifacant, as usual. It is not considered good taste to have elaberate things for the school crowd. But when I think of the silver things Sis always brought home, and remember that I took away about six Christmas Stockings, a toy Baloon, four Whistles, a wooden Canary in a cage and a box of Talc.u.m Powder, I feel that things are not fair in this World.
Hannah went with me, and in the motor she said:
"Oh, Miss Barbara, do be careful. The Familey is that upset."
"Don"t be a silly," I said. "And if the Familey is half as upset as I am, it is throwing a fit at this minute."
We were early, of course. My mother beleives in being on time, and besides, she and Sis wanted the motor later. And while Hannah was on her knees taking off my carriage boots, I suddenly decided that I could not go down. Hannah turned quite pale when I told her.
"What"ll your mother say?" she said. "And you with your new dress and all! It"s as much as my life is worth to take you back home now, Miss Barbara."
Well, that was true enough. There would be a Riot if I went home, and I knew it.
"I"ll see the Stuard and get you a cup of tea," Hannah said. "Tea sets me up like anything when I"m nervous. Now please be a good girl, Miss Barbara, and don"t run off, or do anything foolish."
She wanted me to promise, but I would not, although I could not have run anywhere. My legs were entirely numb.
In a half hour at the utmost I knew all would be known, and very likely I would be a homless wanderer on the earth. For I felt that never, never could I return to my Dear Ones, when my terrable actions became known.
Jane came in while I was sipping the tea and she stood off and eyed me with sympathy.
"I don"t wonder, Bab!" she said. "The idea of your Familey acting so outragously! And look here" She bent over me and whispered it. "Don"t trust Carter too much. He is perfectly in fatuated with Leila, and he will play into the hands of the enemy. BE CAREFUL."
"Loathesome creature!" was my response. "As for trusting him, I trust no one, these days."
"I don"t wonder your Faith is gone," she observed. But she was talking with one eye on a mirror.
"Pink makes me pale," she said. "I"ll bet the maid has a drawer full of rouge. I"m going to see. How about a touch for you? You look gastly."
"I don"t care how I look," I said, recklessly. "I think I"ll sprain my ankle and go home. Anyhow I am not allowed to use rouge."
"Not allowed!" she observed. "What has that got to do with it? I don"t understand you, Bab; you are totaly changed."
"I am suffering," I said. I was to.
Just then the maid brought me a folded note. Hannah was hanging up my wraps, and did not see it. Jane"s eyes fairly bulged.
"I hope you have saved the Cotillion for me," it said. And it was signed. H----!
"Good gracious," Jane said breathlessly. "Don"t tell me he is here, and that that"s from him!"
I had to swallow twice before I could speak. Then I said, solemnly:
"He is here, Jane. He has followed me. I am going to dance the Cotillion with him although I shall probably be disinherited and thrown out into the World, as a result."
I have no recollection whatever of going down the staircase and into the ballroom. Although I am considered rather brave, and once saved one of the smaller girls from drowning, as I need not remind the school, when she was skating on thin ice, I was frightened. I remember that, inside the door, Jane said "Courage!" in a low tence voice, and that I stepped on somebody"s foot and said "Certainly" instead of apologizing. The shock of that brought me around somewhat, and I managed to find Mrs.
Adams and Elaine, and not disgrace myself. Then somebody at my elbow said:
"All right, Barbara. Everything"s fixed."
It was Carter.
"He"s waiting in the corner over there," he said. "We"d better go through the formalaty of an introduction. He"s positively twittering with excitement."
"Carter" I said desparately. "I want to tell you somthing first. I"ve got myself in an awful mess. I----"
"Sure you have," he said. "That"s why I"m here, to help you out. Now you be calm, and there"s no reason why you two can"t have the evening of your young lives. I wish _I_ could fall in Love. It must be bully."
"Carter----!"