Bamboo And Blood

Chapter Four.

"Inspector!" The liaison officer had a small electric heater on. That was illegal, but warm. He nodded for me to come over and share the heat. "Is this a pleasant surprise, or have you arrested someone who is going to cause us trouble of a diplomatic sort?"

"I"m on heater patrol."

"Well, you came to the right place." The lights flickered once, then went out. So did the heater. "Funny," he said, "the other day on the radio they announced that the electricity workers had overfulfilled this month"s quota."

"Perhaps they were rewarded with today off."

We stood around in the dark, wondering how long it would last this time. Sometimes it was only a few seconds; sometimes it was longer. A few people kept candles in their desks. Apparently, he wasn"t one of those. "Don"t move, Inspector," he said very softly. "If you move, you"ll dissipate the warm air. Just stand still and let it waft slowly up to the ceiling. If we"re lucky, Mr. Shin downstairs will do the same, and his heat will be arriving through the floor just as ours goes up to Miss Ban. Imagine the heat going up her legs, will you?"



"I"ll do no such thing." I thought about it for a moment, and as I did, the lights went back on. "There, back from vacation. They probably just went out to read the paper. I need a favor-only you owe me, so it really isn"t a favor. It"s more like payment."

He rubbed his face with both hands, as if he were washing something away, maybe the memory of the last time I had twisted his arm behind his back to give me information. "Very well, though I don"t recall your doing anything for me lately."

"Are you going to make me pull your cousin"s file again? Selling copper from downed electric lines is still a capital crime."

"What is it I can do for you, Inspector?"

"I need a few facts, that"s all."

He was impa.s.sive. Finally, he stirred. "If I can."

Just then the lights flickered again, but this time the heater stayed on. "It"s the wiring," he said. "The heater draws too much power. You know what they say about this ministry-more heat than light. I"ll have to jiggle something."

Maybe people said that about every ministry. "Forget the wires and the cute slogans. I need a woman."

The liaison man looked up, presumably to where Miss Ban sat. "You"ll have to get in line, Inspector."

"No, I need information on a woman, a particular woman. She worked in the emba.s.sy in Pakistan until recently. Or possibly her husband did. One of them did, anyway. Before that she was in New York." Admittedly, I still didn"t know for sure she had even been in Pakistan, but I felt as sure as I could be based on nothing more than a hunch. What I needed was a piece of paper that had it down in black and white. It did no harm to offer up what I thought I knew. If I was wrong, this man would be happy to say so. If I was wrong, I wanted him to smirk and jump in to correct me before he had a chance to realize that maybe it wasn"t something he was supposed to do. It was different with the old general. They were like two trees that reacted differently to the same breeze.

"She has a name, I a.s.sume."

I wrote it down and pushed it over the desk. He looked, then blew out a puff of air. "A person of interest, apparently. Someone already came and took away her file."

"You saw it before it disappeared?"

"I didn"t read it."

"You looked at it; it happened to open as you were retrieving it, and you happened to see something?"

"Some files have clasps on them. This one didn"t."

I nodded. "What about the husband?"

"That will take me a while. It"s hard to search files when the lights go on and off."

"Give me a call when you find something. If you don"t call, I"ll be back when you don"t expect me, and I might have some wire cutters with me next time." He recoiled slightly. "Find a flashlight somewhere in this building. There"s enough light to see the files with that. Maybe Miss Ban can help."

He looked up at the ceiling, but I couldn"t see his expression because the lights flickered again and then gave way to the dark. I saw myself out.

10.

"Are you actually so at ease with yourself, Inspector? I wonder if you are; or is it that you are as completely empty as always, void of all feeling?" My old friend the acting chief of personnel sat in my office. She didn"t have the air of someone who had the hots for me. Her question might have been the start of a late-night argument, just like old times, but it was only noon. It should have been a warning when she called and said she needed to come over. So why did I ignore the warning, the ominous tingle in my spine? Maybe I was distracted by the glare of the sun off the snow on the street outside my window. If I had been wearing my sungla.s.ses, the glare wouldn"t have bothered me. If I"d had on my sungla.s.ses when she walked in and sat down, I could have looked directly in her face and she couldn"t have seen into my soul, where I was surprised to discover she still lurked. I would have had time to stop myself, to keep my mouth shut. "Me? Ill at ease?" I turned and did the only thing I could. I laughed.

She smiled, and I suddenly remembered she had several. One of them was real, pure starlight and moonbeams. This wasn"t it. "Happy to see me again so soon?" She could keep her tone eerily even, the same calm surface that killer sharks love to cruise beneath. She did it before she ripped you apart, tore huge chunks out of your existence before you had time to shout for help. Even now, when her tone was so deadly flat, her face was round and her cheeks dimpled. The smile might be unreal, but the dimples weren"t. The dimples killed me. They were mantraps.

All the conversations we"d ever had came back at me. On our walk the other day, I only remembered a few things, s.n.a.t.c.hes of emotions. Now, with her sitting so close, everything was accessible. I frantically rewound all the tapes in my head, trying to remember with precision, to wade through the flood of memory onto something solid, to someplace where I couldn"t see her dimples. She didn"t help; she just sat and looked into my eyes. Walking beside the river, putting our steps in rhyme, I didn"t really have to look at her. Anyway, she had been all business. Mostly all business. But now she was across from me, looking into my eyes. She read everything. Nothing escaped her. That was always the problem. That"s probably why they put her in personnel.

There had been a time when I considered poking them out, my eyes, so she couldn"t read me. It was the only solution that I could think of short of killing myself, which I didn"t want to do at the time. Now this. First the Man with Three Fingers reappears, and now this. I should have done it; I should have poked my eyes out when I had the chance.

"No," I said and should have left it at that, but with her, I couldn"t leave things. When she sat there, dimples and all, I was compelled. "I mean, yes, of course I"m happy to see you." I hoped that was all my eyes were saying. "Yes and no." I was talking too much. "No, I"m not empty. I just learned to let go."

"Really? And where did you learn that? After all those years, where did you learn that?"

"Self-taught. Maybe it comes with age." I stared at my hands. They seemed familiar, which was a relief. "You look good. It"s nice to see you again. So soon, I mean. Twice in so short a time."

"You"re a liar. I could always tell when you lied to me, especially when you were talking to your hands."

"You make it sound like it happened a lot."

"It was constant, only you didn"t know it because you had no idea who you were then. And that"s putting it nicely."

"And now?"

She stood up and moved closer, right next to me; I could feel myself filling and emptying again, like a minor star pulsing in a faraway corner of the universe.

"You just stopped." She was barely whispering. "All of a sudden, you never got in touch. It was like you had died."

"I was, sort of, dying. It was death, in a way." I didn"t mean to whisper, too, but what else could I do? How can you talk normally when someone like her is leaning so close? "I thought about calling, but you know I don"t have a phone in my apartment. I didn"t know what to do."

"Your office doesn"t have a phone?" She moved back and looked at my desk. I felt my face get hot. We used to talk a lot while I was at the office. I"d shut the door, and Pak didn"t interrupt. If he pa.s.sed by when I was on the phone, he"d listen for just a moment and then walk away. He never mentioned it.

"Private calls." My voice was returning little by little, but my face was still flushed, probably my ears, too. "They don"t want us to make private calls from the office. You know that, it"s in the handbook that your section puts out. Only official matters are supposed to take place on official phones. That"s the rule." I sounded like the book of regulations that sat on the floor behind my chair. "Anyway, what we had to say to each other in those days was n.o.body else"s business."

"So what was the other day?"

"That was official."

She didn"t respond. Then came the question I hoped she wouldn"t ask. "How close were we?"

I knew what she wanted. She wanted me to say we had almost made it, almost crossed the bridge in one sweeping, final move. She wanted to hear that we could have done it. "Close," I said.

A soft moan escaped her lips. Can a man dissolve? I looked away and considered how difficult and yet how useful it might be suddenly to become nothing more than smoke. When I looked back, she was at the door. She turned for a moment, long enough for one final word.

"b.a.s.t.a.r.d." It seemed to be her word for me these days. It wasn"t a word I liked her to say. I"d have to tell her that, if I ever saw her again.

I turned the word over in my mind a few times before I realized my phone was ringing. It was the liaison man from the Foreign Ministry. "Where have you been? I"ve tried calling and calling. We could meet for a couple of minutes, it might be interesting."

"Hot air?"

"Enough. Miss Ban is making pleasurable sounds upstairs."

"If the car starts, I"ll be there in twenty minutes."

"Otherwise?"

"Give my regards to Miss Ban."

11.

I drove out the front gate. An old lady and a small girl were on the sidewalk across the street. They walked alongside each other, their paces matched by the bow of time. For a while they held hands, then the child moved ahead, just a short burst of energy, a few steps alone, enough to make the case. She stopped and waited for the old lady to move up beside her. They started, paces matched again. Both looked ahead; the girl reached her hand up, the grandmother put her hand out. They walked like that for several steps, hands reaching for each other, not searching, sure that the s.p.a.ce between them was nothing, that it was not permanent. Finally, one of them, you couldn"t tell which, moved the extra centimeter; maybe it was both, but I didn"t think so. They were joined and walked on-neither hurrying, neither lagging.

The car sat idling for another minute as I watched them. Which of them would not survive the winter? I hated the question. I despised myself for asking it.

One of the gate guards walked up and looked in the window. "Problem?"

"Nothing for you," I said and turned into the street.

Chapter Four.

"No one in the building knew her. There is no record of the file. It never existed."

"What did you see, then?" It was amazing how much heat one little heater could put out. The only problem was, in order to avoid overloading the wires, he had rearranged things in the wall socket; the lights had to be off. In the morning, there was probably enough daylight coming in the window to read by; now, in the afternoon, I could barely see his face, except when he moved into the glow of the heater.

"Must have been a phantom, a place holder. It wasn"t for her. It was for her husband. That"s a guess, and I"m not going beyond that."

"This is why I came out of my office, drove through the snow, and sit here in the dark? For you to tell me you"re not going beyond telling me you don"t have anything?" I reached in my back pocket and pulled out a pair of wire cutters.

"So, forget I told you," he said quickly. "Don"t think about it. We"ll find something else." Upstairs, Miss Ban walked across her office. For a lithe woman, she had a heavy tread. The liaison officer looked at the ceiling. "She"s been restless the past few days. It"s not like her. Usually she just sits."

"What does she do?

"Some sort of research."

"Right, research. How come she has her own office?"

"I guess someone doesn"t want her disturbed." He poured a cup of hot water for himself. "You want some?"

I did, but I didn"t want to give the impression that a cup of hot water was a subst.i.tute for what I really needed from him. "Let"s get back to the file." I put the cutters into my jacket pocket, where they would be visible. He bit his lower lip, calculating how much room he had to wriggle.

"Nonfile," he said.

"Nonfile. You have many of those, or are they kept in a nonfile room?"

The liaison man looked up at the ceiling. I followed his gaze. "Maybe I"ll pay a call on Miss Ban."

2.

"Miss Ban, I am Inspector O from the Ministry of Public Security. I would like to talk to you."

She stood in the doorway to her office, giving no sign that she was prepared to step aside. "You"ll have to make an appointment through normal channels, Inspector. You shouldn"t even be on this floor."

"Pardon me?" I couldn"t remember why I imagined her as lithe. I should have trusted my instincts. Her footsteps sounded like someone solid, and now I saw why. She was tall, solid as a rock. Not fat, not heavy, just very solid. I knew elite guards who didn"t have her build. Maybe that"s why she had this job shuffling phony files. She looked like she ate small men. "I"m not here to vacation. I"m on a.s.signment, and I need to talk to you. I don"t make "appointments" when I question people. You can consider yourself lucky you weren"t ordered to appear at my office."

"I"ll do that. Consider myself lucky. If that"s all, I"m especially busy right now. Come back some other time, maybe in a month or two, when it"s warmer. I look forward to spring, don"t you, Inspector?" She smiled with her mouth, only it wasn"t anything that warmed the heart. It was a serious warning, and I could tell she was a serious woman. She parted her hair in the middle, not a little to one side, but right down the center line so it looked like it was done with a machine. Maybe it was. Maybe they made such machines and she had been issued one in order to make it clear she wasn"t fooling around, she was serious, and if you didn"t think so, just look at that part in her long black hair. As soon as I left, she would phone in a complaint, and the guard at the front door of the building would be given orders to keep me out. He wouldn"t try very hard, but I didn"t need the extra ha.s.sle.

"On second thought, Miss Ban, let"s just say I"m drawn to you. Let"s just say I"m lonely, and you"re lonely, and it"s warm in here. Can I come in and share the warmth? Is that a problem?"

"Nothing personal, Inspector," she said and shut the door. I thought she might open it again, but she didn"t. It was uncomfortable standing in the corridor, too similar to the meat lockers I had to visit during one investigation of a butcher who dealt in counterfeit loin. I normally don"t wear my hat inside of buildings, but this corridor was testing the limits. I tried the handle, but it was locked. I thought of kicking the door in, but the amount of explaining and hours of meetings that would result from a complaint about destroying part of the Foreign Ministry building were more than I wanted to endure, much less Pak"s looks of disbelief each time he glanced in my office over the next few months. Besides, she didn"t look like a woman who was impressed by a man who kicked in doors.

I knocked once. "I"ll be back, darling." I figured the last word would rocket the others along the corridor up from their desks, ears against their doors. There was a short, throaty laugh from inside, the sort of laugh a woman of Miss Ban"s frame supports easily. When I got back to the liaison man"s office, he was gone. So was the heater.

"He"s out. Visitors from afar," a man said as he walked past me and into the next room. After a moment, he reappeared. "That one"-he pointed at the liaison man"s door-"has a heater." He looked in the room. "He must have taken it, but he has one. It sucks electricity all day long."

"You trying to tell me something?"

"He"s not supposed to have it, is he?"

"What makes you think I"m interested?"

"Nothing." The man"s face was gaunt. "n.o.body is interested in anything anymore. So, good, we"ll all freeze to death, everyone but him, if we don"t starve first." He looked at me closely, his eyes ablaze with something, not fear exactly. I couldn"t tell whether he wanted to take back the words, or be a.s.sured that I had heard him.

"You have a family?"

He nodded.

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