Strong selfish desire and the hope of an evil reward was at the bottom of them all. Truly, when a man ruins himself simply to gratify his ruling pa.s.sion, the lover deserves little more credit than the gambler.
But the present case was widely different. She had not a shadow of a claim on Alan"s service or forbearance.
Though he seemed to see no merit in a single act of duty, she knew right well what it had cost him to destroy the supposed evidence of her shame; and now, instead of expecting thanks, he was reproaching himself for having misjudged her while believing his own eyes. As she thought on these things, Nina"s hard battered heart grew fresh and young again. Not a single unholy element mingled in the tenderness of her grat.i.tude; but, if time and place had not forbidden, she would scarcely have confined her demonstrations to a covert pressure of Wyverne"s hand.
"Forgive you?" she said, piteously. "It drives me wild to hear you speak so. I would give up every friend I have in the world to keep _you_. The best of them would not have done half as much for me. And we can never be friends--really. My unhappy name has dragged you down like a millstone; don"t attempt to deceive yourself; you must hate the sound of it now and always. Ah, do try to believe me. I would submit to any pain, or penance, or shame, and not think it hard measure, if I could only give you back what you have lost through me."
In despite of his exasperation, the sweet voice fell soothingly on Alan"s ear. A man need not greatly glorify himself for having simply acted up to his notions of right and honour; nevertheless, appreciation in the proper quarter must be gratifying to all except the _very_ superior natures. Many are left among us still who "do good by stealth,"
but the habit of "blushing to find it known" is antiquated to a degree.
So, as he listened, Wyverne"s mood softened; and he began quite naturally to play the part of consoler, trying to prove to Nina that she had been an innocent instrument throughout, and that if the conspirators had been foiled in this instance, they would surely have found some other engine to work out the same result.
"But it was such base, cruel treachery," she said, trembling with pa.s.sion. "Will you not try to trace it, for my sake if not for your own?
You must have some suspicions. If I were a man, and could act and move freely, I should never sleep soundly till I was revenged."
Wyverne answered very slowly, and, as he spoke, his face hardened and darkened till it might have been carved in granite.
"You may spare the spur; there is no fear of my sleeping over it. I"m not made of wax or snow, to be moulded like this into a puppet for their profit or pleasure, and I owe you a vengeance besides. Yes, I have suspicions; I"ll make them certainties, if I live. Your never having got my note, telling you of my burning the first of the two letters, gives me a clue. They may double as they like, they won"t escape, if I once fairly strike the trail. Now, we will never speak of this again till--I give you _the name_."
The change of Alan"s character dated from that night; most of his friends noticed it before long. He was never morose or sullen, but always moody, and absent, and pre-occupied; without exactly avoiding society, he found himself alone, unwontedly often, and solitude did him far more harm than good. To speak the truth, his credit as a pleasant companion began sensibly to decline. A Fixed Idea, even if it be as rosy as Hope, interferes sadly with a man"s social merits; if it chance to be sombre or menacing in hue, the influence is simply fatal to conviviality.
But autumn and winter pa.s.sed, and it was spring again, before Wyverne could set his foot on more solid ground than vague surmises. He felt certain that Lady Mildred had countenanced, if not directed, the plot--the note having miscarried from Dene was strong evidence--but he was equally sure that her delicate hands were clear of the soil of actual fraud. Who had been the working instrument? For a moment his thoughts turned to Max Vavasour, but he soon rejected this idea, remembering that the latter was not in England that Christmas-tide; besides which, he could not fancy his cousin superintending the practical details of a vulgar forgery; he would far sooner have suspected Clydesdale, but there was not the faintest reason, so far, to connect the Earl with foul play. So he went groping on, for months, in the twilight, without advancing a step, growing more gloomy and discontented every day. It was a curious chance that put him on the right scent at last.
An Inn of Court is not exactly the spot one would select for setting a "trap to catch a sunbeam;" a wholesome amount of light and air is about as much as one can expect to find in such places; heavy, grave decorum pervades them, very fittingly; but it may be doubted if any quarter of a populous city, respectable in its outward seeming, has a right to be so depressingly dull and dingy, as is the Inn of Gray; the spiders of all sorts, who lurk thereabouts, had best not keep the flies long in their webs, or the victims would scarce be worth devouring.
Some such thoughts as these were in Wyverne"s mind as he wandered through the grim quadrangle, one cold evening towards the end of March, looking for "Humphrey and Gliddon"s" chambers. The firm had an evil name; men said, that if it was difficult to find out their den, it was twice as hard to escape from it without loss of plumage. Alan"s temper had certainly changed for the worse, but his good-nature stood by him still; so, when a comrade wrote from the country, to beg him to act as proxy in a delicate money transaction with the aforesaid attorneys, he a.s.sented very willingly, and was rather glad to have something to employ his afternoon. He had just come up from his hunting quarters, where the dry, dusty ground rode like asphalte, and scent was a recollection of the far past.
After some trouble he lighted on the right staircase. Raw and murky as the outer atmosphere might be, it was pure aether compared to that of the low-browed office into which the visitor first entered; at any hour or season of the year, you could fancy that room maintaining a good, steady, condensed dusk of its own, in which fog, and smoke, and dust, had about equal shares. Two clerks sat there, writing busily. The one nearest the door--a thick-set, sullen man, past middle age--looked up as Alan came in, and stretching out a grimy hand, said, in a dull, mechanical voice,
"Your card, sir, if you please--Sir Alan Wyverne wishes to see Mr.
Humphrey."
It was evidently the formula of reception in that ominous ante-chamber.
The other clerk had not lifted his head when the door opened; but he started violently when he heard the name, so as nearly to upset the inkstand in which he chanced to be dipping his pen, and turned round with a sort of terror on his haggard, ruined face. It might have been a very handsome face once, but the wrinkled, flaccid flesh had fallen away round the hollow temples and from under the heavy eyes; the complexion was unhealthy, pale, and sodden; the features pinched and drawn, to deformity; the lines on the forehead were like trenches, and the abundant dark hair was, not sprinkled, but streaked and patched, irregularly, with grey.
But, at the first glance, Wyverne recognised the face of a very old friend; he recognised it the more easily because, when he saw it last, it wore almost the same wild, scared look--on the memorable Derby day when "Cloanthus" swept past the stand, scarcely extended, the two leading favourites struggling vainly to reach his quarters.
All his self-command was needed to enable him to suppress the exclamation that sprang to his lips; but he rarely made a mistake when it was a question of tact or delicacy. He followed his conductor into the next room, silently; it chanced to be vacant at that moment; then Alan laid his hand on the clerk"s shoulder, as he stood with averted eyes, shaking like an aspen, and said, in tones carefully lowered--
"My G.o.d! Hugh Crichton--you here?"
"Hush," the other answered, in a lower whisper still; "that"s not my name now. You wouldn"t spoil my last chance, if you could help it? If you want to see me, wait five minutes after you leave this place, and I"ll come to you in the square."
"I"ll wait, if it"s an hour," Wyverne said, and so pa.s.sed into the inner room without another word. His business was soon done; even Humphrey and Gliddon could find no pretext for detaining clients who came with money in their hand. Alan did not exchange a glance with either of the occupants of the clerks"-room as he went out; he breathed more freely when he was in chill March air again. As he walked up and down the opposite side of the square, which was nearly deserted, his thoughts were very pitiful and sad.
Hardly a year pa.s.ses without the appearance of one or more comets in society; none of these have sparkled more briefly and brilliantly than Hugh Crichton. Everybody liked, and many admired him, but the world had hardly begun to appreciate his rare and versatile talents, when he shot down into the outer darkness. He had friends who would have helped him if they could, but all trace of him was lost, and none could say for certain whether he lived or no.
Wyverne had not waited many minutes, when a bent, shrunken figure came creeping slowly, almost stealthily, towards him, keeping well in the shadow of the buildings. In another moment, Alan was grasping both his ancient comrade"s hands, with a cordial, honest gripe, that might have put heart and hope into the veriest castaway.
"Dear old Hugh! how glad I am to light on you again, though you are so fearfully changed. Why, they said you had died abroad."
"No such luck," the other answered, with a dreary laugh. "I did go abroad, and stayed there till I was nearly starved; then I came back.
London"s the best hiding place, after all; and if you have hands and brain, you can always earn enough to buy bread, and spirits, and tobacco. I"ve been in this place more than a year; I get a pound a week, and I think of "striking" soon for an advance of five shillings. They won"t lose me if they can help it; I save them a clerk, at least; old Gliddon never asked me another question after he saw me write a dozen lines. My work is all indoors, that"s one comfort; they haven"t asked me to serve a writ yet; my senior--you saw him--the man with a strong cross of the bull about the head--does all that business, and likes it. But the firm don"t trust me much, and they would be more unpleasant still, if they knew "Henry Carstairs" was a false name. No one has much interest now in hunting me down; it"s old friends" faces I"ve always been afraid of meeting. But I did think that none of our lot would ever have set foot in that den, and I had got to fancy myself safe. You didn"t come on your own affairs, Alan, I know. I had an extra grog the night I heard you had fallen in for Castle Dacre. I rather think I am glad to see you, after all."
He jerked out the sentences in a nervous, abrupt way, perpetually glancing round, as if he were afraid of being watched; he was so manifestly ill-at-ease that Wyverne had not the heart to keep him there; besides it was cruelty to expose the emaciated frame, so thinly clad, a minute longer than was necessary, to the keen evening air.
"Why, Hugh, of course you"re glad to see me," Alan said, forcing himself to speak cheerily; "the idea of doubting about it! But it"s too cold to stand chattering here. I"m staying at the Clarendon: you"ll come at seven, sharp, won"t you? We"ll dine in my rooms, quite alone, and have a long talk about old days, and new ones, too. I"ll have thought of something better for you by that time, than this infernal quill-driving."
Hugh Crichton hesitated visibly for a few seconds, and appeared to make up his mind, with a sudden effort, to something not altogether agreeable.
"Thank you: you"re very good, Alan. Yes, I"ll come, the more because I"ve something on my mind that I ought to tell you; but I should never have had the pluck to look you up, if you had not found me. I hope your character at the Clarendon can stand a shock; it will be compromised when they hear such a scare-crow ask for your rooms. I can"t stay a moment longer, but I"ll be punctual."
He crept away with the same weak, stealthy step, and his head seemed bent down lower than when he came.
Nevertheless, when, at the appointed hour, the guest sat down opposite his host, the contrast was not so very striking. The office-drudge was scarcely recognisable; he seemed to freshen and brighten up wonderfully, in an atmosphere that had once been congenial. Even so, those bundles of dried twigs that Eastern travellers bring home, and enthusiasts call "Roses of Sharon" (such Roses!), expand under the influence of warmth and moisture, so as to put forth the feeble semblance of a flower. The black suit was terribly threadbare, and hung loosely round the shrunken limbs, but it adapted itself to the wearer"s form, with the easy, careless grace for which Hugh Crichton"s dress had always been remarkable; his neck-tie was still artistic in its simplicity, and the hair swept over his brow with the old cla.s.sic wave; his demeanour bore no trace of a sojourn in Alsatia, and a subtle refinement of manner and gesture clung naturally to the wreck of a gallant gentleman. Some plants you know--not the meanest nor the least fragrant--flourish more kindly in the crevices of a ruin than in the richest loam.
It was a pleasant dinner, on the whole, though not a very lively one; for Alan had too much tact to force conviviality. Crichton ate sparingly, but drank deep; he did not gulp down his liquor, though, greedily, but rather savoured it with a slow enjoyment, suffering his palate to appreciate every shade of the flavour; the long, satisfied sigh that he could not repress as he set down empty the first beaker of dry champagne, spoke volumes.
They drew up to the fire when the table was cleared, and they were left alone. Wyverne rose suddenly, and leant over towards his companion with a velvet cigar-case in his hand, that he had just taken from the mantelpiece.
"You must tell me your story for the last few years," he said; "but put that case in your pocket before you begin. There are some regalias in it, of the calibre you used to fancy, and--a couple of hundreds, in notes, to go on with. You dear, silly old Hugh! Don"t shake your head and look scrupulous. Why, I won thrice as much of you at _ecarte_ in the week before that miserable Derby, and you never asked for your revenge.
You should have it now if either you or I were in cue for play.
Seriously--I want you to feel at ease before you begin to talk; I want you to feel that your troubles are over, and that you never need go near that awful _guet-a-pens_ again. I"ve got a permanent arrangement in my head, that will suit you, I hope, and set you right for ever and a day.
Hugh, you know if our positions were reversed, I should ask you for help just as frankly as I expect you will take it from me."
Crichton shivered all over, worse than he had done out in the cold March evening.
"Put the case down," he said hoa.r.s.ely. "It will be time enough to talk about that and your good intentions half-an-hour hence. I"ll tell you what I have been doing, if you care to hear."
Now, though the story interested Wyverne sincerely, it would be simple cruelty to inflict it on you; with very slight variations, it might have applied to half the _viveurs_ that have been ruined during the last hundred years. Still, not many men could have listened unmoved to such a tale, issuing from the mouth of an ancient friend. When he had come to a certain point in his story, the speaker paused abruptly.
"Poor Hugh!" Alan said. "How you must have suffered. Take breath now; I"m certain your throat wants moistening, and the claret has been waiting on you this quarter of an hour. It"s my turn to speak; I"m impatient to tell you my plan. The agent at Castle Dacre is so wonderfully old and rheumatic, that it makes one believe in miracles when he climbs on the back of his pony. I would give anything to have a decent excuse for pensioning him off. I shall never live there much, and the property is so large, that it ought to be properly looked after. If you don"t mind taking care of a very dreary old house, there"s 800 a year, and unlimited lights and coals, (they used to burn about ten tons a week, I believe,) and all the snipe and fowl you like to shoot, waiting for you. I shall be the obliged party if you"ll take it; for it will ease my conscience, which at present is greatly troubled. The work is not so hard, and you"ve head enough for anything."
Not pleasure or grat.i.tude, but rather vexation and confusion showed themselves in Crichton"s face.
"Can"t you have patience!" he muttered, irritably. "Didn"t I ask you to wait till you had heard all? There"s more, and worse, to tell; though I don"t know, yet, how much harm was done."
He went on to say, that about the time when things were at the worst with him, he had stumbled upon Harding Knowles; they had been contemporaries at Oxford, and rather intimate. Harding did not appear to rejoice much at the encounter; though he must have guessed at the first glance the strait to which his old acquaintance was reduced, he made no offer of prompt a.s.sistance, but asked for Crichton"s address, expressing vague hopes of being able to do something for him; Hugh gave it with great reluctance, and only under a solemn promise of secrecy. He did not the least expect that Knowles would remember him, and was greatly surprised when the latter called some five or six weeks afterwards.
Harding"s tone was much more cordial than it had been at their first meeting; he seemed really sorry at having failed, so far, in finding anything that would suit Crichton, and actually pressed him to borrow 10--or more if it was required--to meet present emergencies. An instinctive suspicion almost made Hugh refuse the loan; he felt as if he would rather be indebted to any man alive than to the person who offered it; but he was so fearfully "hard up" that he had not the courage to decline. Knowles came again and again, with no ostensible object except cheering his friend"s solitude, and each time was ready to open his purse. "We must get you something before long, and then you can repay me," he would say. Crichton availed himself of these offers more than once, moderately; he began to think that he had done his benefactor great injustice, and looked for his visits eagerly; indeed, few _causeurs_, when he chose to exert himself, could talk more pleasantly than Knowles.
One evening the conversation turned, apparently by chance, to old memories of college days.
"That was the best managed thing we ever brought off," Harding said at last, "when we made Alick Drummond carry on a regular correspondence with a foreign lady of the highest rank, who was madly in love with him.
How did we christen the Countess? I forget. But I remember the letters you wrote for her; the delicate feminine character was the most perfect thing I ever saw. Have you lost that talent of imitating handwriting? It must have been a natural gift; I never saw it equalled."
"Write down a sentence or two," Hugh replied; "I"ll show you if I have lost the knack."
He copied them out on two similar sheets of paper, and gave the three to Knowles after confusing them under the table: the latter actually started, and the admiration that he displayed was quite sincere: the _fac similes_, indeed, were so miraculously like the original, that it was next to impossible to distinguish them.