Expecting to hear of a piece of misconduct on the part of the household servants, she hurried forth, and found that she had to traverse the whole s.p.a.ce of the lawn up to the tuliptree. Colonel Halkett and Mr.
Romfrey had resumed their seats. The colonel stood up and bowed to her.
Mr. Romfrey said: "One question to you, ma"am, and you shall not be detained. Did not that man Shrapnel grossly insult you on the day you called on him to see Captain Beauchamp about a couple of months before the Election?"
"Look at me when you speak, ma"am," said Beauchamp.
Rosamund looked at him.
The whiteness of his face paralyzed her tongue. A dreadful levelling of his eyes penetrated and chilled her. Instead of thinking of her answer she thought of what could possibly have happened.
"Did he insult you at all, ma"am?" said Beauchamp.
Mr. Romfrey reminded him that he was not a cross-examining criminal barrister.
They waited for her to speak.
She hesitated, coloured, betrayed confusion; her senses telling her of a catastrophe, her conscience accusing her as the origin of it.
"Did Dr. Shrapnel, to your belief, intentionally hurt your feelings or your dignity?" said Beauchamp, and made the answer easier:
"Not intentionally, surely: not... I certainly do not accuse him."
"Can you tell me you feel that he wounded you in the smallest degree?
And if so, how? I ask you this, because he is anxious, if he lives, to apologize to you for any offence that he may have been guilty of: he was ignorant of it. I have his word for that, and his commands to me to bear it to you. I may tell you I have never known him injure the most feeble thing--anything alive, or wish to."
Beauchamp"s voice choked. Rosamund saw tears leap out of the stern face of her dearest now in wrath with her.
"Is he ill?" she faltered.
"He is. You own to a strong dislike of him, do you not?"
"But not to desire any harm to him."
"Not a whipping," Mr. Culbrett murmured.
Everard Romfrey overheard it.
He had allowed Mrs. Culling to be sent for, that she might with a bare affirmative silence Nevil, when his conduct was becoming intolerable before the guests of the house.
"That will do, ma"am," he dismissed her.
Beauchamp would not let her depart.
"I must have your distinct reply, and in Mr. Romfrey"s presence:--say, that if you accused him you were mistaken, or that they were mistaken who supposed you had accused him. I must have the answer before you go."
"Sir, will you learn manners!" Mr. Romfrey said to him, with a rattle of the throat.
Beauchamp turned his face from-her.
Colonel Halkett offered her his arm to lead her away.
"What is it? Oh, what is it?" she whispered, scarcely able to walk, but declining the colonel"s arm.
"You ought not to have been dragged out here," said he. "Any one might have known there would be no convincing of Captain Beauchamp. That old rascal in Bevisham has been having a beating; that"s all. And a very beautiful day it is!--a little too hot, though. Before we leave, you must give me a lesson or two in gardening."
"Dr. Shrapnel--Mr. Romfrey!" said Rosamund half audibly under the oppression of the more she saw than what she said.
The colonel talked of her renown in landscape-gardening. He added casually: "They met the other day."
"By accident?"
"By chance, I suppose. Shrapnel defends one of your Steynham poaching vermin."
"Mr. Romfrey struck him?--for that? Oh, never!" Rosamund exclaimed.
"I suppose he had a long account to settle."
She fetched her breath painfully. "I shall never be forgiven."
"And I say that a gentleman has no business with idols," the colonel fumed as he spoke. "Those letters of Shrapnel to Nevil Beauchamp are a scandal on the name of Englishman."
"You have read that shocking one, Colonel Halkett?"
"Captain Baskelett read it out to us."
"He? Oh! then..." She stopped:--Then the author of this mischief is clear to me! her divining hatred of Cecil would have said, but her humble position did not warrant such speech. A consideration of the lowliness necessitating this restraint at a moment when loudly to denounce another"s infamy with triumphant insight would have solaced and supported her, kept Rosamund dumb.
She could not bear to think of her part in the mischief.
She was not bound to think of it, knowing actually nothing of the occurrence.
Still she felt that she was on her trial. She detected herself running in and out of her nature to fortify it against accusations rather than cleanse it for inspection. It was narrowing in her own sight. The prospect of her having to submit to a further interrogatory, shut it up entrenched in the declaration that Dr. Shrapnel had so far outraged her sentiments as to be said to have offended her: not insulted, perhaps, but certainly offended.
And this was a generous distinction. It was generous; and, having recognized the generosity, she was unable to go beyond it.
She was presently making the distinction to Miss Halkett. The colonel had left her at the door of the house: Miss Halkett sought admission to her private room on an errand of condolence, for she had sympathized with her very much in the semi-indignity Nevil had forced her to undergo: and very little indeed had she been able to sympathize with Nevil, who had been guilty of the serious fault of allowing himself to appear moved by his own commonplace utterances; or, in other words, the theme being hostile to his audience, he had betrayed emotion over it without first evoking the spirit of pathos.
"As for me," Rosamund replied, to some comforting remarks of Miss Halkett"s, "I do not understand why I should be mixed up in Dr.
Shrapnel"s misfortunes: I really am quite unable to recollect his words to me or his behaviour: I have only a positive impression that I left his house, where I had gone to see Captain Beauchamp, in utter disgust, so repelled by his language that I could hardly trust myself to speak of the man to Mr. Romfrey when he questioned me. I did not volunteer it.
I am ready to say that I believe Dr. Shrapnel did not intend to be insulting. I cannot say that he was not offensive.
You know, Miss Halkett, I would willingly, gladly have saved him from anything like punishment."
"You are too gentle to have thought of it," said Cecilia.
"But I shall never be forgiven by Captain Beauchamp. I see in his eyes that he accuses me and despises me."
"He will not be so unjust, Mrs. Culling."