“Well?”
I met her eyes and let out a deep sigh. There was absolutely no way I could explain myself and not sound like I’d lost my mind. “Okay, yes, I signed for them.”
She stared at me, her chest heaving and her fists balled so tightly that her knuckles were white. “And?”
“And . . . I threw them away.” As I stood facing her, I realized that I deserved every bit of her anger. I was being unfair. I was offering her nothing but still standing in the way of someone who could possibly make her happy.
“You are f**king unbelievable,” she growled through clenched teeth. I knew she was doing everything she could to keep from lunging across the room and pummeling me. “Explain to me why you would do that.”
Here was the part I didn’t know how to answer. “Because . . .” I scratched the back of my head. I hated that I’d let myself get into this situation. “Because I don’t want you to go out with Joel.”
“Of all the asinine, chauvinistic—who in the h.e.l.l do you think you are? Just because we’ve had s.e.x does not mean you get to make decisions in my life. We aren’t a couple, we aren’t dating. h.e.l.l, we don’t even like each other!” she yelled.
“You think I don’t know that? It doesn’t make any sense, okay? But when I saw those flowers . . . come on, they were f**king roses!”
She looked as if she were ready to have me committed somewhere. “Are you on some sort of medication? What does the fact that they were roses have to do with anything?”
“You hate roses!” When I said this, her face fell, eyes soft and dark. I rambled on. “I just saw them and reacted. I didn’t stop and think about it. Just the thought of him touching you . . .” My fists clenched at my sides and my voice trailed off as I tried to regain my composure. I was getting angrier by the second: at myself for being weak and letting my emotions get out of hand, again, and at her for having this f**king inexplicable hold on me.
“Okay, look,” she said, taking a calming breath. “I’m not saying I agree with what you did, but I understand . . . to a point.”
My eyes flew to her in shock.
“I would be lying if I said I haven’t been feeling similarly possessive,” she said reluctantly.
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Did she actually just admit to me that she felt this way too?
“But that doesn’t change the fact that you lied to me. You lied right to my face. I might think you’re an arrogant a.s.s**le most of the time, but you’ve always been someone I trusted to be honest with me.”
I flinched. She was right.
“I’m sorry.” My apology hung in the air, and I wasn’t sure which of us was more surprised by it.
“Prove it.” She looked at me so calmly, not an ounce of emotion visible in her features. What did she mean? Then, it hit me. Prove it. We couldn’t speak through words, because words only led to trouble. But this? This is what we were, and if she would give me this one chance to make up for what I’d done, I’d take it.
I hated her so much in that moment. I hated that she was right and I was wrong, and I hated that she was forcing me to make a choice. I hated how much I wanted her, most of all.
I closed the distance between us, wrapping my hand around the back of her neck. I pulled her to me, meeting her gaze as I drew her mouth to mine. There was an unspoken challenge there. Neither of us would back down or admit that this—whatever this was—was beyond our control.
Or maybe both of us just had.
The moment our lips touched, I was overtaken by a familiar buzz coursing through my body.
My hands fisted deeply into her hair, forcing her head back, to take everything I pressed into her. This might be for her, but I was d.a.m.n sure going to control it. Pressing my body to hers, I groaned at the way each of her curves fit against me. I wanted this need to go away, to be satisfied and move on; but each time I felt her, it was better than I remembered.
Falling to my knees, I grasped her hips and pulled her closer, my lips moving across the waist of her pants. Lifting her shirt up, I kissed each inch of visible skin, enjoying the tensing of her muscles as I explored. I looked up at her, hooking my fingers into the waistband. Her eyes were closed and she was biting her lower lip. I felt my c**k harden in antic.i.p.ation of what I was about to do.
I pulled her pants down her thighs, goose b.u.mps breaking out over her skin as I trailed my fingers down her legs. Her hands went to my hair and pulled roughly, and I groaned as I looked back up at her. I traced the edge of the delicate satin of her lingerie, stopping at the thin straps on her hips. “These are almost too pretty to ruin,” I said, wrapping one strap around each hand.
“Almost.” With a quick tug they broke easily, allowing me to pull the pink material away and stuff it into my pocket.
A sense of urgency took over me then, and I quickly freed one of her legs, placing it over my shoulder and kissing along the soft skin of her inner thigh.
“Oh, s.h.i.t,” she said on an exhale, running her hands into my hair. “Oh, s.h.i.t, please.”
As I first nuzzled and then slowly licked along her c.l.i.t, she gripped my hair tightly, moving her hips against my mouth. Unintelligible words fell from her lips in a hoa.r.s.e whisper, and seeing her come undone so completely made me realize she was as helpless against this as I was. She was p.i.s.sed at me, so p.i.s.sed that part of her probably wanted to hook her leg around my neck and strangle me, but at least she was letting me give her something that was, in many ways, so much more intimate than simple f**king. I was on my knees, but she was vulnerable and bare.