"He"s a thousand times cleverer than I am."
"Yes, he"s so clever that he"s distrustful. Now, for instance, he"d never believe in a woman like me."
"Oh--" he began, in a tone of energetic protest.
"No, he wouldn"t," she interrupted, quietly. "To the end of time he would judge me by the past. He would label me "woman to beware of" and my most innocent actions, my most impulsive attempts to show forth my true and better self he would entirely misinterpret, brilliant man though he is. Nigel, believe me, we women know!"
"But, then, surely you must dislike Isaacson very much!"
"On the contrary, I like him."
"I can"t understand that."
"I don"t require of him any of the splendid things that--well, that I do require of you, because I could never care for him. If he were to play me false, even if he were to hate me a thousand times more than he does, it wouldn"t upset me, because I could never care for him."
"You think Isaacson hates you!" he exclaimed.
He had forgotten the gold of the sunset, the liquid gold of the river.
He saw only her, thought only of what she was saying, thinking.
"Nigel, tell me the truth. Do you think he likes me?"
He looked down.
"He doesn"t know you. If he did--"
"If he did, it would make not a bit of difference."
"I think it would; all the difference."
She smilingly shook her head.
"I should always wear my label, "woman to beware of." But what does it matter? I"m not married to him. If I were, ah, then I should be the most miserable woman on earth--now!"
He sat down close to her in another beehive chair.
"Ruby, why did you say "now" like that?"
"Oh," she spoke in a tone of lightness that sounded a.s.sumed, "because now I"ve lived in an atmosphere not of mistrust. And it"s spoilt me completely."
He felt within him a glow strong and golden as the glow of the sunset.
At last she had forgotten their painful scene in the garden. He had fought for and had won her soul"s forgetfulness.
"I"m glad," he said, with the Englishman"s almost blunt simplicity--"I"m glad. I wish Isaacson knew."
She felt as if she frowned, but not a wrinkle came on her forehead.
"I didn"t tell you," he added, "but I wrote to Isaacson the other day."
"Did you?"
Her hands met in her lap, and her fingers clasped.
"Yes, I sent him quite a good letter. I told him we were going up the Nile in Baroudi"s boat, and how splendid you were looking, and how immensely happy we were. I told him we were going to cut all the travellers, and just live for our two selves in the quiet places where there are no steamers and no other dahabeeyahs. And I told him how magnificently well I was."
"Oh, treating him as the great Doctor, I suppose!"
She unclasped her hands, and took hold of the rudimentary arms of her chair.
"No. But I felt expansive--riotously well--when I was writing, and I just stuck it down with all the rest."
"And the rest?"
She leaned forward a little, as if she wanted to see the sunset better, but soon she looked at him.
"Oh, I let him understand just how it is between you and me. And I told him about the dahabeeyah, what a marvel it is, and about Baroudi, and how Ibrahim put Baroudi up to the idea of letting it to us."
"I see."
"How these chairs creak!" he said. "Yours is making a regular row."
She got up.
"You aren"t going down again?"
"No. Let us walk about."
"All right."
He joined her and they began slowly to pace up and down, while the gold grew fainter in the sky, fainter upon the river. She kept silence, and perhaps communicated her wish for silence to him, for he did not speak until the sunset had faded away, and the world of water, green flats, desert, and arid hills grew pale in the pause before the afterglow. Then at last he said:
"What is it, Ruby? What are you thinking about so seriously?"
"I don"t know."
She looked at him, and seemed to take a resolve.
"Yes, I do."
"Have I said something that has vexed you? Are you vexed at my writing to Isaacson to tell him about our happiness?"
"Not vexed, no. But somehow it seems to take off the edge of it a little. But men don"t understand such things, so it"s no use talking of it."
"But I want to understand everything. You see, Isaacson is my friend.
Isn"t it natural that I should let him know of my happiness?"
"Oh, yes, I suppose so. Never mind. What does it matter?"
"You dislike my having written to him?"