"... I"m just coming up to it now. Looks like..."
It was soft to the prodding tip of his staff. He waited for the lightning, which flashed again in a few seconds.
"Never mind trying to contact Amling anymore." The body was quite naked; it could have been here a day or an hour. Derron stood over it, describing the situation as best he could. Human robbers might have stolen a staff and even a cheap pectoral wedge, but would they have taken a friar"s habit?
He bent to touch the deep scratch mark that cut across the road beneath the body. No medieval tool had made that ruler-straight slice through stone; quite likely it had been carved by the same cybernetic limb that had removed the back of Amling"s head.
"Ops, I think it"s marked the boundary of the safety zone for us. To let us know that it knows about it."
"Yes, yes, you may be right, Odegard, but never mind that now. You just move in close to Vincento quickly. Protect yourself."
He was moving that way already, walking backward and holding his staff like a rifle while all his senses probed as best they could the rainy night through which he had just pa.s.sed. Not that all his alertness would do him any good, if the enemy was out there and able to strike.
But Derron lived. After a hundred paces he turned and walked normally ahead, once more making good time. The berserker had killed casually, in pa.s.sing, leaving its mark like some defiant human outlaw. And then it had gone on to its more pressing business here.
By the time Derron had reached the place where the road bent sharply to the left toward the washed-out bridge, the lightning had gone on over the horizon; he felt rather than saw the bulk of the hill and its cathedral ahead of him and above. But nearer, close by the side of the road, he could make out the monastery"s high wall, the tumbled stones of what had been an arched gateway, and the remnants of a broken gate. And when he stood before the gateway he could distinguish, just inside, a coach that he knew must be Vincento"s, standing deserted in a puddle. From the shelter of a cloister came the gentle mumbling and grunting of load-beasts. Derron paused only a moment before plodding on through the gate and across a soggy garth toward what looked like the main entrance of the main building, which was a sprawling one-story structure.
He made no effort to be quiet, and the dark doorway before him promptly emitted a challenge. "Who"s there? Stand and give your name!"
The dialect was one that Derron had expected to run into. He stopped in his tracks and, as the beam of a lantern flicked out at him, he answered. "I am Valzay of Mosnar, mathematicus and scholar. From the coach and animals I see here, I judge that you within are honest men. And I have need of shelter."
"Step for"ard, then," said the wary male voice that had challenged him. A door creaked, and behind the door the lantern retreated.
Derron advanced slowly, displaying hands empty save for an innocent staff. When he had gotten in out of the rain, the door was shut behind him, and the lantern brightened. He found himself in what must have been the common room of the monastery. Facing him stood a pair of soldiers, one armed with a crude pistol and the other with a short sword; judging by their patchwork uniforms, they were members of one of the mercenary companies that were now multiplying in this war-torn land.
When they could see his gentleman"s clothes more plainly, the soldiers" manner became more or less respectful. "Well, sir, how d"you come to be a-wanderin" afoot and alone?"
He scowled and swore, wringing water from his cloak. He related how his skittish load-beast, scared by lightning, had run off with his light sulky. A plague was too good for that animal! If he could catch it in the morning, he"d have some of its hide off in narrow strips, they could bet on that! With whip-cracking vehemence he shook water from his broad-brimmed hat.
Derron had an effortless feel and skill for acting when there was a need for it, and these lines had been well rehea.r.s.ed. The soldiers chuckled, relaxed most of their vigilance, and became willing to chat. There was, they said, plenty of room for another boarder here, because the proprietary monks had all cleared out long ago. The place was no tavern with girls and ale, worse luck, and even firewood was in short supply, but the roof did keep the rain off. Yes, they were from a mercenary company, one that was now in the pay of the Holy Temple. Their captain, with the bulk of his men, was now in Oibbog across the river.
"And if the cap"n can"t do no more"n wave to us for the next couple days, why, that"s all right with us, hey what?"
For all the jocularity, they still maintained a minimal professional suspicion of Derron-he might conceivably be a scout for some well-organized band of brigands-and so they did not tell him how many soldiers had been caught on this side of the torrent when the bridge they had been guarding collapsed.
He did not ask, of course, but he gathered there were not many.
In answer to a question he did ask, one of the soldiers said, "Naw, no one but the old gentleman as owns the coach, and his servant an" his driver. And a pair o" friars. Plenty empty cells, sir, so take your pick. One"s about as damp as the next."
Derron murmured his thanks and then, with some brief a.s.sistance from the lantern, groped his way down a vaulted pa.s.sage lined with doorless cells and into one of these, which was pointed out to him as unoccupied. Built against the cell"s rear wall was a wooden bunk frame that had not yet been ripped out for firewood. Derron sat down to pull off his squelching boots, while the lantern"s light receded once more down the pa.s.sage and vanished.
His boots off and tipped to drain, Derron stretched out on the wooden frame, the knapsack under his head, a dry garment from the knapsack over him for cover, his staff within easy reach. He did not yet have the feeling of having achieved his goal and returned to Oibbog. Amling"s death seemed a bit unreal.
Neither could he quite grasp the fact that Vincent Vincento in the living flesh was somewhere within a few meters of him, that one of the founding fathers of the Modern world might even be the author of the snore that now drifted faintly down the pa.s.sage.
Lying on his wooden bed, Derron reported briefly to Operations, bringing them up to the minute on his progress so far; then, genuinely tired, he found himself drifting toward sleep. The sound of rain was lulling, and there was nothing he could do about getting a look at Vincento until the morning. Even as his consciousness dulled, it struck him as mildly odd that his thoughts were occupied neither with his mission for Operations nor his private mission of return. Not with the staggering fact of time travel, or the loss of Amling, or the menace of the berserker. Simply with the fading sound of diminishing rain and the freshness of the infinite clean atmosphere around him. It was the theme of resurrection....
He was jarred out of the beginning of sleep when Operations put a throbbing behind his right ear. He came wide awake at once, with only a mild start, and tucked his carven wedge symbol closer under his chin.
"Odegard, we"re starting to read through some of this blurring on the screens. We can count fourteen lifelines in or near that monastery-temple complex. One of them, of course, is your own. Another is Vincento"s. Another one seems to be an unborn child"s line; you know how they show on a screen in dots and dashes."
Derron shifted his position slightly on the creaking wooden rack; he felt oddly comfortable and snug, hearing the last dripping of the rain outside. He mused subvocally, "Let"s see. Me, Vincento, his two servants, and the two soldiers I"ve seen. That makes six. And they said there were two friars. Eight, which would leave six more unaccounted for. Probably four more soldiers and a camp follower who"s picked up a little dotted line she won"t want to carry. Wait a minute, though-that one soldier did say something about there being no girls here. Anyway, I suppose your idea is that one of the apparent people I find here will have no lifeline showing on your screens-meaning he or she is really our hypothetical berserker-android."
"That"s our idea, yes."
"Tomorrow I can count noses and... Wait." .
In the darkness of the entrance to Derron"s cell, a shape of lesser blackness became discrete with movement. The figure of a hooded friar, utterly faceless in the gloom, came a half-step into the cell before halting abruptly.
Derron froze, recalling the hooded robe missing from Amling"s corpse. His hand moved to his staff and gripped it tightly. But he would not dare to use his weaponry without being very sure of his target. Even then, at this close range, the staff would be torn from his hands and broken before he could aim it --- Only an instant had pa.s.sed since the hooded figure had entered. Now it muttered a few indistinguishable words, which might have been an apology for entering the wrong cell. And in another moment it had withdrawn into the blackness, as noiselessly as it had come.
Derron remained half-risen on one elbow, still gripping his useless weapon. He told Operations what had just happened.
"It won"t dare kill you there, remember. Be very sure before you fire."
"Understand." Slowly he stretched out again. But all comfort had gone with the last of the rain, and resurrection was a lie.
When Vincento was awakened by a touch, and found himself in darkness, bedded amid damp straw with bare stone walls close about him, he knew a moment of sinking terror. The worst had already happened, and he lay in the Defenders" dungeon. The terror was deepened when he saw the faceless monk-hooded figure bending over him. He could see it by the moonlight which now filtered through the tiny window-evidently the rain was over.
The rain... Of course, he was still on his way to the Holy City, his trial was still to come! The intensity of his relief was such that Vincento accepted almost with courtesy his being awakened. "What do you want?" he muttered, sitting up on his shelf of a bed and pulling his traveling rug closer about his shoulders.
His manservant Will slept on, a huddled mound on the dark floor.
The visitor"s hooded face could not be seen. The visitor"s voice was a sepulchral whisper. "Messire Vincento, you are to come alone to the cathedral tomorrow morning. At the crossways of nave and transepts you will receive good news from your friends in high places."
He tried to digest this. Could it be that Nabur or perhaps Belam wanted to send him some secret rea.s.surance of leniency? That was possible. More likely, this was some Defenders" trickery. A man summoned to trial was not supposed to discuss the matter with anyone.
"It will be good news, Messire Vincento. Come alone, and be willing to wait if you are not met at once.
The crossways of nave and transepts. And do not seek to learn my name or see my face."
Vincento maintained his silence, determined to commit himself to nothing. And his visitor, satisfied that the message had been delivered, melted away into the night.
When Vincento awakened the next time, it was from a pleasant dream. He had been back in his own villa,-on the estate that had been provided for him by the senate of his city, safe in his own bed with his mistress"s warm body solid and comforting beside him. In reality the woman had been gone for some time-women no longer meant very much- but the estate was still there. If only they would let him return to it in peace!
This time he had been aroused by a touch of a different sort-the touch on his face of a shaft of morning sunlight, which came striking into his cell from the high thin window of the cell across the corridor. As he lay recalling with curiosity his strange midnight visitor, making sure in his own mind that that had been no dream, the sun shaft was already moving slowly away from his face. And instantly that motion made it a golden pendulum of subtle torture, driving all other thoughts from his mind.
The pendulum he really faced was that of choice. His mind could swing one way, tick, and meet in foresight the shame of swallowed truth and swallowed pride, all the humiliation of an enforced recanting.
And if he swung his thoughts the other way, took, there they confronted the breaking agony of the boot or the rack or the slower destruction in a buried cell.
It was not a dozen years since the Defenders had burned Onadroig alive in the Great Square of the Holy City. Of course Onadroig had been no scientist, but rather a poet and a philosopher. The consensus these days among scholars was that he must have also been a madman, an utter fanatic who had walked into a fire rather than give over his theories. And what theories had possessed him! He had believed that the Holy One had been no more than a magician; that the chief of devils would one day be saved; that there were infinite worlds in s.p.a.ce, that the very stars were peopled.
Neither in the Scriptures nor in nature could the least justification for any of these absurd ideas be found-so Belam and the other Defenders had argued, indefatigably but fruitlessly trying to change Onadroig"s mind during the seven years" imprisonment that had preceded his burning as an incorrigible heretic.
To Vincento himself, the crude physical torture was a remote threat only. He or any other reputable scholar would have to show very deliberate, and prolonged stubbornness before the Defenders would employ any such methods against him. But the threat would be in the background, all the same. At his trial he would be formally threatened with torture, perhaps even shown the instruments. All ritual, no more. But it was not impossible that it should come to that. They would say, with genuine unhappiness, that a defendant who absolutely refused to yield to all milder methods of persuasion forced them to take harsh measures, for the good of his immortal soul and the protection of the Faith.
So-his pendulum of choice was imaginary. He had no real choice but to recant. Let the sun move any way they wanted it to. Let it go whirling around the globe in an insane yearly spiral, to please the arrogant, shortsighted fools who thought they had already read all the secrets of the universe in a few dusty pages of the Holy Writings.
Lying on his back, Vincento raised a hand veined with ropy vessels against the slow-swiveling torture blade of the sun. But the sun would not be stopped in its motion by any man"s hand. It mocked him all the more, making bright translucent wax of the old bones and flesh of his fingers.
On the floor, Will stirred sluggishly in his rug coc.o.o.n. Vincento barked him awake and chased him outside to rouse the coachman, Rudd, who slept beside the beasts-Rudd to look at the river"s level, Will to make some tea and get a little food ready for breakfast. Vincento had had the foresight to provision his coach well.
Left alone, he began the slow, humiliating process of getting his aging bones unlimbered and ready for what the day might bring. In recent years his health had been poor, and now each day began with a cautious testing of sensation. But he was not sick now, only old. And, yes, he was afraid.
By the time Will came to inform him that a fire and hot tea were ready in the monastery"s common room, Vincento was ready to step forth. Somewhat to his surprise, he discovered when he entered the common room that another wayfarer had arrived during the night, a youngster who introduced himself as Valzay of the distant land of Mosnar.
Valzay, as he put it himself, made a modest claim to scholarship. Hearing this, Vincento studied him more carefully. But, for a wonder, the youngster was decently respectful, seeming to regard Vincento with genuine if restrained awe, and murmuring that even in his distant homeland Vincento"s discoveries were known and praised.
Vincento acknowledged all this with pleased nods, meanwhile sipping his breakfast tea and wondering if this youth was the bearer of the good news he was supposed to hear this morning from someone in the cathedral. Might it after all be a word of hope from Nabur? He scowled. No, he would not let himself hope, like a va.s.sal, for another man"s kindness, not even when the other was the Vicar of the Holy One himself. He straightened his back. Anyway, he was not going to rush up the hill to the temple at once.
Rudd came to report that the river was no longer rising, but was still too high and dangerous for anyone to think of trying to ford it here. In one more day it would probably be safe.
So Vincento took his time at finishing his tea and consuming a little food. He left word with Rudd to take some- food to the two friars and then strolled leisurely out into the sunshine to warm his bones. If he came late to his trial, there were plenty of witnesses here to tell the reason. Let the Defenders inveigh against the river, if they liked. No doubt the torrent, in deference to their superior knowledge of the Holy Writings, would dry up. No doubt all of nature would do their bidding; it was likely the ruined bridge here would rebuild itself if they came to threaten the stones with torture.
But no, away with such thoughts; he must begin to practice his humility. He called to Will to fetch him his writing materials from the coach and then went out through the broken gate to sit alone in the sun beside the road, with one tumbled block of stone for a bench and another for a table. He might as well put his time to use, start writing his statement of recantation to present during the trial.
Of course, the accused was not supposed to know why he had been summoned. Probably the Defenders" first question would be whether or not he had any idea of what he had been charged with. No doubt such an opening sometimes brought unsuspected crimes bursting to light from guilty lips, but in Vincento"s case there could hardly be any doubt of the reason for his summons. It had been fifteen years since Belam"s warning injunction, which Vincento himself had since managed almost to forget. Other scholars before and since had talked of the heliocentric hypothesis with impunity and had used it in their published calculations. But when the Defenders" summons came, Vincento realized that he had bitterly antagonized men who were in high places and who never forgot anything.
The first paper he pulled from his portable escritoire was the old letter of injunction from Defender Belam. Involuntarily, Vincento"s eye went at once to the words, "no proof of our globe"s motion exists, as I believe, since none has been shown to me."
No proof. Vincento wiped at his forehead with a tremulous hand. Now, with mortal fear to enforce bleak clarity of thought, he could see that the arguments he had conjured from tides and sunspots really proved nothing at all about the motions of sun and planets. The truth about those motions had become apparent to him before he had ever thought of the need for proving it. He had looked long through telescopes and he had thought long and deeply about what he saw. With eyes and mind he had weighed the sun, he had grasped at stars and planets and comets, and truth had come through some inward door, like a revelation.
His enemies who cried him down were, of course, far lesser men than he. They were stupid and blind in their refusal, or their inability, to see what he showed them as the truth. And yet he knew that those who were to sit as his judges were shrewd enough logicians when they set themselves to think within their formal rules. If only there were some firm proof, simple and incontrovertible, that he might set before them... Oh, what would he not give for that! His mind ached, his fists clenched, his very guts contracted at the thought. If he had one solid simple proof he would risk all, he would dare anything, to confront and confound his enemies with it, to rub their long arrogant noses in the truth!
But since in fact he had nothing to support this mood of glorious defiance, it soon pa.s.sed. The truth was, he was old and afraid and he was going to recant.
Slowly he got out pen and ink and blank paper; slowly he began his first draft. From time to time he paused, sitting with closed eyes in the sun, trying not to think.
Derron counted seven soldiers around the breakfast fire, and he found each of them overjoyed to accept a swallow of brandy from his traveling flask and willing enough to talk. No, there was no one he had not seen in the monastery or the cathedral, or anywhere nearer than the town across the river. Not that they knew of, and they would know.
When he was alone in the privy a few minutes later, Derron did some subvocal mumbling. "Operations?"
"Time Ops here."
Maybe the Commander never had to sleep, but Derron himself was sufficiently tired and strained to dispense with military courtesy. "Count the lifelines here again. I make it just thirteen of us. If you can make it twelve, then one of my smiling companions has clockwork for guts. But if you come out with fourteen again, then either there"s some bandit or deserter lurking in a corner I haven"t seen or you"re misreading your screens. I think that dotted line at least is a mistake in interpretation; I consider it unlikely that any of us here is pregnant, since we"re all men."
"We"ll recheck right away. You know how tricky screen interpretation can be sometimes." Time Ops"
tone was quietly apologetic, which was somehow more disturbing to Derron than a chewing-out would have been. It meant that his position here was now considered so vital that Operations would bend every effort to make things go more smoothly for him.
The soldiers, after finishing their morning meal and emptying Derron"s brandy flask, had for the most part settled down to serious loafing. Rudd, Vincento"s coachman, was leading his load-beasts forth in search of gra.s.s. Following the animals through the gate, Derron located Vincento, sitting peacefully alone and apart with his writing materials. Well and good.
Remembering his imaginary load-beast and sulky, Derron put on an exasperated expression and strolled along the road toward the ruined bridge, scanning the fields in all directions as if in search of his missing property.
At the bridge stump were the two friars, gray cowls thrown back from their unremarkable heads.
Judging by their gestures and a word or two that floated Derron"s way, they were talking of ways in which the bridge might someday be rebuilt. Derron knew that within a year to two there would indeed be new arches of stone spanning the river here. And those arches would still be standing solidly more than three hundred years later, when a young postgraduate history student would come striding over them on a hiking tour, the girl he loved striding just as eagerly beside him. Both of them would be enthusiastic about seeing for the first time the ancient town and the famed cathedral of Oibbog. The river would look much different then, gentler, of course, and there would be more trees along its banks. While the stones of the ancient Empire road would still look much the same...
"May the Holy One give you a good day, esteemed sir!" It was the stouter of the two friars whose voice broke in upon Derron"s reverie.
The interruption was welcome. "Good day to you also, reverend Brothers. Does the river still rise?"
The thinner friar had a loving face. In hands that seemed all bone and tendon, he was weighing a small chunk of masonry, as if he meant to start this minute to rebuild the bridge. "The river falls now, sir. How does the course of your life go, up or down?"
The falsehood about beast and buggy seemed dreary and unnecessary. "That can hardly be an easy question for any man to answer."
Derron was spared any further probing for the moment, as the attention of both friars had been distracted. Seven or eight of the local peasantry had materialized out of mud and distance and were plodding their barefoot way along the drying bank of the torrent toward the bridge stump. One man walking in front of the others proudly swung a string of large and silvery fish, fresh enough to be still twitching and twisting.
A few paces away from the edge of the pavement, the peasants halted. Together they bowed rather perfunctorily in Derron"s direction; he was not dressed finely enough to overawe anyone and he was obviously not the person the peasants had come to see.
The man who carried the fish began talking to the friars, in a low tone at first but raising his voice as the others began almost at once to interrupt him. In a few moments they were all squabbling over who had the right to speak first and whose was the right of disposal of the fish. They had come to strike a bargain.
Would the holy brothers accept the biggest and freshest of this fine catch ("From me!" "No, from me, Holy Brother, it was my fish line!") and in return say some potent prayers for the giver"s crops?
Derron turned away from what promised to become a nasty quarrel among the peasants, to see that Vincento was still sitting alone. And it was then that the full sunlit view of the Cathedral of Oibbog caught him almost by surprise.
The narrowed tip of the central spire held its gilded symbolic wedge two hundred and sixty feet above the flattened hilltop. The stones of tower and wall, of arch and flying b.u.t.tress, were rich clear gray, almost shining in the morning light. Inside, he knew, the stained-gla.s.s windows along the eastern wall would be like living flame. If fragile gla.s.s and spire had risen from the dust, then surely she too must be alive, not only alive but somewhere near where he might reach her. At the moment the resurrected reality before him held more conviction than any rein of logic. At any second now, her voice might call to him, he might be able to reach out and touch...
There was a splash nearby. The stout friar was wearing a caricature expression of anger, disappointment, and surprise, while the thinner one stood with a hand stretched out over the water. A big fish now jumped and splashed again; one of the slippery catch had evidently escaped.
... touch her warm and living skin. Now even a detail that he had somehow forgotten, the way her hair moved sometimes in the wind, came back to him with the visual clarity of something seen only a minute ago.
Derron"s feet took him away from the bridge stump and back along the road. He noted dutifully with half his mind that Vincento still sat alone in the sun. But Derron did not go back to the monastery. The hill raised the mighty cathedral before him, and he began steadily to climb.
Brother Jovann kept looking sadly at the peasants, even as he seemed to address his words to the splasher in the water. "Brother Fish, I have set you at liberty not because we do not need food, but so you may be able to praise G.o.d, who sends all blessings-the fish to the angler and freedom to the fish."
Sorrowfully, Jovann shook his head at the peasants. "We men so often forget to give thanks when they are due, so often we spend our energy instead in trying to get ahead of one another!"
The fish splashed, and leaped, and splashed again. It was as if the pain of the hook, or the time spent gilling air-or something else-had driven it quite mad.
Jovann looked down with new distress upon this watery uproar. "Be still now, Brother Fish! Enough!
Live in the water, not the painful air. Give praise and thanks as a fish may naturally do!"
The splashing stopped. The last ripples and foam were swept away downstream.
Silence hung in the air. Every peasant"s hands were raised in the wedge sign, and they darted their eyes at one another as if they would have liked to take to their heels in flight, but did not dare. Brother Saile was gaping as blankly as any of the fish, while he swung his eyes from Jovann to the river and back again.
Jovann beckoned Saile away and said to him, "I am going apart for an hour, to pray to the Holy One to cleanse me of anger and pride. And also for these poor men"s crops. Do you likewise." And Saile was left still staring, as Jovann walked slowly away alone, on up the road toward the monastery"s gate.
As Derron climbed the steps that switchbacked up the face of the cathedral hill, the irrational sense of his love"s presence faded, leaving him with only the bitter certainty of her permanent loss. It crossed his mind that at this moment in time her genes were scattered in the chromosomes of some two thousand ancestors. That was as close as he could come to her today, the closest he would ever be able to come.
He knew that a solid palisade of paradox loops would forever bar him from revisiting the days of her life, what he thought of as the time of his own youth.
The truth was that he had never forgiven her for dying, for being helplessly killed with all the other millions, for her crime of emptying his world. Maybe forgiving her was what he had come back to Oibbog to try to do. So, he told himself, do it. Do whatever is necessary to end it now, today. Get it all over with somehow, out of your system once and for all, so that you can be some good to yourself and to someone else again.
By now the roof of the monastery had fallen below the level of his climbing feet. When he looked back he saw the valley spreading out, flood-ravaged now and wilder in its beauty than he remembered it, but still essentially the same. At a turn on the stairs he pa.s.sed a sapling and with a pang of realization he knew that in three hundred years this slender stem would be a gnarled and mighty trunk, with heavy branches to shade out the summer sun. And beside it he would stand with her, looking out over the valley, the two of them choosing a hill for themselves-that hill there, oh G.o.d, though no trees grew on it now!-where one day they intended to build their home and raise the pair of kids they meant to have.