"Oh, I don"t want to!" sobbed she, pressing her wet cheeks against the matron"s shoulder.
"But, Lilly love, you shall have everything you want. Kiss me, like a sweet girl, and say you will go to my beautiful home. I will give you a cage full of the prettiest canary birds you ever looked at.
Don"t you love to ride? My carriage is waiting at the door. You and Claudia will have such a nice time." Mrs. Grayson knelt beside her, and kissed her tenderly; still she clung closer to the matron.
Beulah had covered her face with her hands, and stood trembling like a weed bowed before the rushing gale. She knew that neither expostulation nor entreaty would avail now, and she resolved to bear with fort.i.tude what she could not avert. Lifting her head, she said slowly:
"If I must give up my sister, let me do so as quietly as possible.
Give her to me; then perhaps she will go more willingly. Do not force her away! Oh, do not force her!"
As she uttered these words her lips were white and cold, and the agonized expression of her face made Mrs. Grayson shiver.
"Lilly, my darling! My own precious darling!" She bent over her sister, and the little arms clasped her neck tightly, as she lifted and bore her back to the dormitory.
"You may get their clothes ready, Mrs. Williams. Rest a.s.sured, my dear Mrs. Grayson, they will go now without any further difficulty.
Of course we dislike to separate sisters, but it can"t be helped sometimes. If you like, I will show you over the asylum while the children are prepared." Miss White led the way to the schoolroom.
"I am very dubious about that little one. f.a.n.n.y, how will you ever manage two such dispositions, one all tears and the other all fire and tow?" said Mr. Grayson.
"A truce to your fears, Alfred. We shall get on charmingly after the first few days. How proud I shall be with such jewels!" Beulah sat down on the edge of the blue-curtained bed, and drew her idol close to her heart. She kissed the beautiful face, and smoothed the golden curls she had so long and so lovingly arranged, and, as the child returned her kisses, she felt as if rude hands were tearing her heart-strings loose. But she knew she must give her up. There was no effort within her power which could avail to keep her treasure, and that brave spirit nerved itself. Not a tear dimmed her eye, not a sob broke from her colorless lips.
"Lilly, my own little sister, you must not cry any more. Let me wash your face; you will make your head ache if you cry so."
"Oh, Beulah! I don"t want to go away from you."
"My darling, I know you don"t; but you will have a great many things to make you happy, and I shall come to see you as often as I can. I can"t bear to have you go, either; but I cannot help it, and I want you to go quietly, and be so good that the lady will love you."
"But to-night, when I go to bed, you will not be there to hear me say my prayers. Oh, sister! why can"t you go?"
"They do not want me, my dear Lilly; but you can kneel down and say your prayers, and G.o.d will hear you just as well as if you were here with me, and I will ask Him to love you all the more, and take care of you--"
Here a little arm stole round poor Beulah"s neck, and Claudia whispered with a sob:
"Will you ask Him to love me too?"
"Yes, Claudy; I will."
"We will try to be good. Oh, Beulah--I love you so much, so very much!" The affectionate child pressed her lips repeatedly to Beulah"s bloodless cheek.
"Claudy, if you love me, you must be kind to my little Lilly. When you see that she is sad, and crying for me, you must coax her to be as contented as possible, and always speak gently to her. Will you do this for Beulah?"
"Yes, that I will! I promise you I will, and, what is more, I will fight for her! I boxed that spiteful Charley"s ears the other day for vexing her, and I will scratch anybody"s eyes out that dares to scold her. This very morning I pinched Maggie black and blue for bothering her, and I tell you I shall not let anybody impose on her." The tears dried in her brilliant eyes, and she clinched her little fist with an exalted opinion of her protective powers.
"Claudy, I do not ask you to fight for her; I want you to love her.
Oh, love her! always be kind to her," murmured Beulah.
"I do love her better than anything in the world, don"t I, Lilly dear!" She softly kissed one of the child"s hands.
At this moment the matron entered, with a large bundle neatly wrapped. Her eyes were red, and there were traces of tears on her cheek. Looking tenderly down upon the trio, she said very gently:
"Come, my pets; they will not wait any longer for you. I hope you will try to be good, and love each other, and Beulah shall come to see you." She took Claudia"s hand and led her down the steps. Beulah lifted her sister, and carried her in her arms, as she had done from her birth, and at every step kissed her lips and brow.
Mr. and Mrs. Grayson were standing at the front door; they both looked pleased, as Lilly had ceased crying, and the carriage door was opened to admit them.
"Ah, my dears, now for a nice ride; Claudia, jump in," said Mr.
Grayson, extending his hand to a.s.sist her. She paused, kissed her kind matron, and then approached Beulah. She could not bear to leave her, and, as she threw her arms around her, sobbed out:
"Good-by, dear, good Beulah. I will take care of Lilly. Please love me, and ask G.o.d for me too." She was lifted into the carriage with tears streaming over her face.
Beulah drew near to Mrs. Grayson, and said in a low but imploring tone:
"Oh, madam, love my sister, and always speak affectionately to her, then she will be good and obedient. I may come to see her often, may I not?"
"Certainly," replied the lady, in a tone which chilled poor Beulah"s heart. She swallowed a groan of agony, and, straining the loved one to her bosom, pressed her lips to Lilly"s.
"G.o.d bless my little sister, my darling, my all!" She put the child in Mr. Grayson"s extended arms, and only saw that her sister looked back appealingly to her. Miss White came up and said something which she did not hear, and, turning hastily away, she went up to the dormitory, and seated herself on Lilly"s vacant bed. The child knew not how the hours pa.s.sed; she sat with her face buried in her hands, until the light of a candle flashed into the darkened chamber, and the kind voice of the matron fell on her ear.
"Beulah, will you try to eat some supper? Do, dear."
"No, thank you, I don"t want anything."
"Poor child, I would have saved you all this had it been in my power; but, when once decided by the managers, you know I could not interfere. They disliked to separate you and Lily, but thought that, under the circ.u.mstances, it was the best arrangement they could make. Beulah, I want to tell you something, if you will listen to me." She seated herself on the edge of the bed, and took one of the girl"s hands between both hers.
"The managers think it is best that you should go out and take a situation. I am sorry I am forced to give you up, very sorry, for you have always been a good girl, and I love you dearly; but these things cannot be avoided, and I hope all will turn out for the best.
There is a place engaged for you, and Miss White wishes you to go to-morrow. I trust you will not have a hard time. You are to take care of an infant, and they will give you six dollars a month besides your board and clothes. Try to do your duty, child, and perhaps something may happen which will enable you to turn teacher."
"Well, I will do the best I can. I do not mind work, but then Lilly- -" Her head went down on her arms once more.
"Yes, dear, I know it is very hard for you to part with her; but remember, it is for her good. Mr. Grayson is very wealthy, and of course Lilly and Claudy will have--"
"And what is money to my--" Again she paused abruptly.
"Ah, child, you do not begin to know! Money is everything in this world to some people, and more than the next to other poor souls.
Well, well, I hope it will prove for the best as far as you are concerned. It is early yet, but maybe you had better go to bed, as you are obliged to leave in the morning."
"I could not sleep."
"G.o.d will help you, dear child, if you try to do your duty. All of us have sorrows, and if yours have begun early, they may not last long. Poor little thing, I shall always remember you in my prayers."
She kissed her gently, and left her, hoping that solitude would soothe her spirits. Miss White"s words rang in the girl"s ears like a knell. "She will soon be perfectly satisfied away from you."
Would she? Could that idolized sister learn to do without her, and love her new friends as fondly as the untiring one who had cradled her in her arms for six long years? A foreboding dread hissed continually, "Do you suppose the wealthy and fashionable Mrs.
Grayson, who lives in that elegant house on ---- street, will suffer her adopted daughter to a.s.sociate intimately with a hired nurse?"
Again the light streamed into the room. She buried her face deeper in her ap.r.o.n.
"Beulah," said a troubled, anxious voice.
"Oh, Eugene!" She sprang up with a dry sob, and threw herself into his arms.
"I know it all, dear Beulah; but come down to Mrs. Williams" room; there is a bright fire there, and your hands are as cold as ice. You will make yourself sick sitting here without even a shawl around you." He led her downstairs to the room occupied by the matron, who kindly took her work to the dining room, and left them to talk unrestrainedly.