Anne spread her fingers wide and wiggled them as if she were typing at an invisible keyboard. "Show me a reporter who wouldn"t like to rip the cover off a conspiracy that sent an innocent man to the electric chair. I mean, we"re talking Pulitzer Prize here, Mark."
The detective eyed her speculatively, trying to gauge how much of what she"d just said was meant seriously and how much was merely intended to rile him. "Does that mean you"re planning to keep chasing this one?" he asked.
Anne opened her mouth to answer, then realized she didn"t know what she was going to do. Three hours earlier, before she"d heard from Rita Alvarez, it would have been an easy call: given what Kraven had said in their last conversation, she"d at least have to give it one more shot. Because if Kraven hadn"t been lying, and she could prove it, there undoubtedly would would be a Pulitzer in it for her. Not to mention a huge book contract, probably a movie, and a new job with a salary that would make her current paycheck look like a kid"s allowance. Now, though, everything was different. In just those few minutes she"d talked to Rita, all her priorities had changed. "I don"t know if I"ll chase the story or not," she finally replied to the detective"s question. "It"s all going to depend on Glen"s situation. It may be that I"ll take a leave of absence." be a Pulitzer in it for her. Not to mention a huge book contract, probably a movie, and a new job with a salary that would make her current paycheck look like a kid"s allowance. Now, though, everything was different. In just those few minutes she"d talked to Rita, all her priorities had changed. "I don"t know if I"ll chase the story or not," she finally replied to the detective"s question. "It"s all going to depend on Glen"s situation. It may be that I"ll take a leave of absence."
An incredulous grin spread over the detective"s face. "You? Give me a break, Anne-when it comes to working a story, you"re no different from me when I have a tough case. The h.e.l.l with hours, the h.e.l.l with food, the h.e.l.l with sleep, and the h.e.l.l with the family, too."
Anne"s first reaction to Blakemoor"s words was to mount an immediate and aggressive counterattack: "Maybe that"s why Patsy left you. At least my marriage is still very much intact, thank you." Blakemoor winced, and Anne immediately regretted her words. "I"m sorry," she said. "That really wasn"t fair." As she thought about it, she realized just how unfair it truly was. After all, it wasn"t she who had to hold dinner for Glen every night. Often it was exactly the opposite, or even worse-sometimes during the last few months it was Heather and Kevin waiting for both their parents, or eating alone while both adult Jefferses grabbed a bite in their offices. If she wanted to be completely honest about it, Blakemoor hadn"t been far off the mark at all-she did did tend to shut everything else out when she was working on a story. The one that had ended today had occupied nearly all her attention for most of the last five years. tend to shut everything else out when she was working on a story. The one that had ended today had occupied nearly all her attention for most of the last five years.
Suddenly she had a chilling thought: If she hadn"t been so consumed with the Kraven case, would she have seen Glen"s heart attack coming? But how could she have? It had simply come out of the blue!
Or had it?
She cast her mind back over the last few days, then the last few weeks and months. How long had it been since she and Glen had simply taken an evening off together, let alone a whole weekend? Usually one or the other-if not both of them-were working. His birthday had gone uncelebrated, as had their anniversary three months ago. If she"d become too engrossed in her work even to celebrate some of the most important landmarks in her life, how could she expect to be aware of her husband"s health?
Should she have seen the heart attack coming? Should she have found signs of it in Glen"s face? Were there stress lines she hadn"t even noticed, or a tiredness she"d ignored? A leaden weight of guilt began to settle over her as more and more questions formed in her mind, questions to which she had no easy answers.
"Hey, Jeffers, come on," Mark Blakemoor said as if reading her thoughts. "What happened to Glen wasn"t your fault. You haven"t treated him the way I treated Patsy. Jesus, there were times when she didn"t see me for days at a time."
"And have I been in Seattle the last few days?" Anne asked, her voice edged with self-accusatory sarcasm. "Oh G.o.d, Mark, I keep thinking I should have seen it coming, that I should have realized he was working too hard and made him slow down."
"That would have been the pot calling the kettle black," Blakemoor remarked. But his face wore a smile.
For the rest of the flight, Mark Blakemoor managed to keep the subject of conversation off both Richard Kraven and Glen Jeffers"s heart attack. The only subject left that came readily to mind was his own divorce, and to his surprise, he found himself telling Anne everything about it. What surprised him most was that by the time the plane landed in Seattle, he"d discovered two things: the divorce had been just as much Patsy"s fault as his own, despite his ex-wife"s insistence that she"d been a wronged woman; and that he could talk to Anne Jeffers about anything that came into his mind. He"d never felt that way about a woman before, and as he followed Anne off the plane at Sea-Tac airport, he wondered what it meant.
He also found himself wondering exactly how strong Anne"s own marriage was. If she should ever be single- Jerking his own reins up short, Mark Blakemoor tried to banish the thought from his mind. It was already planted, though, and he knew it wasn"t going to go away. So what was he going to do now? Fall in love with another man"s wife?
Swell! Just f.u.c.king Just f.u.c.king swell! swell!
CHAPTER 9.
The taxi pulled up in front of the Group Health Hospital entrance on Sixteenth East, and Anne, distracted, fished money out of her wallet to cover the fare and a tip.
"Thanks, ma"am," the driver said in an accent so thick she could barely understand him. "I hope whatever"s wrong will be better real soon."
Nodding her own thanks, Anne lifted her suitcase, hurried through the main entrance, then asked for the Coronary Unit.
"You want Critical Care," a man in a red jacket replied. "Down the hall, first elevators on the right, then left on the third floor. You can"t miss it."
As she stepped off the elevator into the third floor lobby, Anne found herself surrounded by a color she instantly recognized as "flesh," the long discontinued and totally unmissed hue the crayon people had apparently thought resembled the skin tone of some race of men that neither she nor anyone else had ever seen. The peculiar shade of the walls was set off by a faintly deco white trim, a depressingly inst.i.tutional decor which Anne knew her husband would detest-if he were well enough even to notice it. Then she was in an anteroom outside the closed double doors to the Critical Care Unit, facing a sign instructing her to use the red phone in the waiting area. Before she could even look around for a.s.sistance, she heard Heather"s voice: "Mom? In here!"
A second later Anne was hugged in a three-way embrace with both her children. "How is he?" she asked. "What have they told you?"
"He"s going to be okay," Heather said. "They"ve got him hooked up to about a billion machines, but the doctor says it"s mostly just to watch him."
As the pent-up tension in her body was suddenly released, Anne sank exhausted onto one of the chairs that sat next to the door. There, on a table a few feet from her, was the red phone the sign had mentioned. Now that she knew Glen was out of danger, she grinned at Kevin. "You asked for the President when you picked up that phone, didn"t you?"
Kevin blushed as he nodded. "Couldn"t help it," he admitted.
"I wanted to kill him," Heather said, glaring at her brother. "Daddy could have been dying in there, and he was making jokes!" jokes!"
"He wasn"t dying," dying," Kevin protested. "Come on, Heather, gimme a break! It"s not like..." Kevin protested. "Come on, Heather, gimme a break! It"s not like..."
Leaving her children to settle the argument themselves, Anne picked up the red phone, identified herself, and was told to let herself through the double doors to the unit and come to the nurses"s station.
"Your husband"s in 308," the nurse said. "He"s awake, but don"t expect him to say much, and try not to stay too long, all right? He really needs to sleep."
The door to the room was open, but Anne hesitated for a moment before she went in, trying to prepare for what she might find inside. Then she took a deep breath, put on the best smile she could muster, and tried to think of something light to greet Glen with. Her words died on her lips as she crossed the threshold. The man who lay in the bed was barely recognizable as her husband.
His face was gray and his whole body appeared to have sunk in upon itself. And Heather was right-tubes and wires were everywhere. An IV needle was taped to one arm, his chest was nearly covered with electrodes, and on the wall around the bed, CRT displays seemed to be monitoring every function of his body. With just a cursory glance Anne could read her husband"s pulse rate, his respiratory rate, and his temperature. There were myriad other data as well, indecipherable and worrisome to Anne: if he was truly out of danger, why were they watching him so carefully?
She moved closer to the bed, and his eyes flickered open, looked right through her as if she weren"t there at all, then focused. His lips worked, then barely audible words emerged from them. "Maybe I better go back to houses," he whispered. "I guess high rises don"t agree with me."
Anne"s eyes flooded with tears of relief, and she moved close to the bed, leaned down and kissed Glen"s forehead. "What are you doing? Do you have any idea of how badly you scared me?"
"You?" Glen complained. "What about me? There I was, having the worst attack of acrophobia in history, and then wham! Dropped like a rock!"
Anne stared at him. "Acrophobia?" she echoed. "Since when do you have acrophobia?"
"Since this morning, I guess," Glen told her. "It started on about the fifth floor, and just kept getting worse the higher I went."
Anne shook her head reprovingly. "Then why did you keep going up? Oh, never mind, I know-it"s your building, and that"s that. How do you feel?"
Glen made a move to shrug, gave it up, and managed a wan smile. "Like I got run over by a bus. One of those big ones, too. Not your ordinary bus, but one of those new double ones..." He groped for the word, couldn"t find it in his drug-fogged mind, and gave up. "What do they call them?"
"Articulated."
Glen nodded weakly, and his eyes closed. Anne opened her mouth as if to speak, then changed her mind as the nurse appeared in the open door and gave her a look that clearly said she"d been there long enough.
Sighing, Anne bent over and gently kissed Glen"s lips. "Go to sleep, darling," she whispered. "Just go to sleep, and get well. I"ll be back in a little while." Straightening up, she followed the nurse out of the room. "Where can I find his doctor?"
The nurse glanced at her watch. "He should be coming in for rounds in half an hour, but I"ll call him." Picking up the phone on her desk, she punched in four digits, spoke for a moment, then smiled at Anne. "If you"d like to take a seat in the family room, Dr. Farber will be up in five minutes."
Anne found her way out of the CCU, and as she came back into the waiting room, Heather and Kevin finally stopped their bickering. "What did Dad say?" Kevin demanded. "Did you see him?"
"He said if you don"t do exactly as I tell you every second he"s in the hospital, he"ll have your hide when he gets out."
Kevin"s eyes rolled scornfully as he turned to his sister. "He must"ve been asleep."
Anne sighed. "Well, you can"t blame your old mother for trying." Then, as she remembered how Glen had looked when she went into his room, she felt her tears welling up. This time she didn"t even try to hold them back. "He said he felt like he"d been hit by a bus," she told her children, her voice quavering. "He said-" Then she choked on her own words and dropped onto the sofa. "He"s going to be all right," she said, making herself sound as positive as she possibly could. "He"s going to be fine, and in a few days-"
"Mrs. Jeffers?" a voice interrupted her. Anne looked up to see a white-coated man with a stethoscope hanging around his neck standing in the doorway. He had dark hair, deep blue eyes, and wore a look of perfect confidence.
But he couldn"t have been more than twenty-five years old.
"I"m thirty-seven," he told her as he crossed the room to offer her his hand. "And I"m really a doctor, too. I mean, a real doctor, not an intern. And the stethoscope is to keep at least a few people from mistaking me for an orderly. I"m Gordy Farber."
"Anne Jeffers," Anne replied automatically. "And these are-"
"I already met the kids," Farber told her. "Why don"t we sit down so I can tell you what we"re dealing with here. Unless you"d rather do it in my office?"
Anne shook her head, dropped back onto the sofa, and tried to follow the complicated medical terms that flowed from his tongue as easily as water from a tap. Finally, when he saw how confused Anne was, Farber turned and winked at Kevin. "Want to tell your mom what"s wrong with your dad?"
"A myocardial infarction," Kevin promptly replied. "That"s what the doctors call a heart attack."
"That"s exactly right," Farber said, reaching into his pocket and pulling out a five dollar bill. "And since you got it right the first time, you get to take your sister to the cafeteria and buy a couple of milk shakes." Only when Heather had taken her brother out of the room did Farber turn back to Anne. "It was the kind of heart attack we used to call "a real doozy" back in medical school," he said. "However, your husband has a lot going for him. Not only is he relatively young, but he"s in excellent shape, he"s very strong, and he had a very good team of paramedics working for him."
Anne suddenly had a feeling that Glen had had a much closer call than she"d been told about. "How bad was it?" she asked.
"About as bad as they come," Gordy Farber replied. Long ago he"d learned that most people could deal with pretty much anything, as long as they didn"t think things were being hidden from them. "They almost lost him in the ambulance. It was touch and go for a few minutes, but they got him back."
Anne sucked in her breath in a sharp gasp. "Lost him?" she echoed. "You mean ...?" She left the question hanging, then steeled herself to learn as much as she could. She was a reporter, wasn"t she? She"d never left a question hanging in her life. "How close was it?" she asked, and her tone told Gordy Farber that she wanted to hear all of it.
"He stopped breathing, and his heart stopped beating," he told her. "We got him back but it was a very close call."
Anne remembered Glen"s inability to remember the word "articulated," and all the fear she"d felt that day came rushing back to her. "My G.o.d," she breathed. "Is he-is his brain ...?"
This time she couldn"t bring herself to finish the question.
"Things look very good right now," Gordy Farber told her. "He"s stable, and the next day or so will tell the tale. If there are no further incidents, I think his prognosis for a full recovery is excellent."
"And if there is is another...incident?" Anne asked. another...incident?" Anne asked.
Gordy Farber spread his fingers noncommittally. "We"ll cross that bridge if and when we come to it. For now, the important thing is that he"s doing very well, given what happened to him, and in spite of how he looks, he"s already a whole lot better than he was when they brought him in this morning." He stood up, handing her a pamphlet he"d produced from the pocket of his white coat. "I"ll tell you what. Why don"t you read this while I go check on my patients. As soon as I finish my rounds, I"ll do my best to answer any questions you may have."
Anne took the pamphlet, her eyes focusing only on the two major words in its t.i.tle: Heart Attack. Nodding mutely, she sank back against the harsh material of the small sofa. She sat silently holding the pamphlet for a few minutes, trying to adjust herself to the fact of Glen"s heart attack. Only two days ago-only this morning, really-he"d been so strong, so healthy, so...alive.
And today he"d nearly died.
Once again she thought of him lying in the hospital bed, his face ashen, his body connected to the monitors, looking weak and helpless. What if he didn"t get better? What if he had another-what was it Dr. Farber had called it?
Incident.
But it wasn"t any mere "incident"; it was a myocardial infarction-a heart attack-and another one would undoubtedly kill him.
What would she do if that happened? How would she cope with it? A terrible wave of loneliness and despair washed over her. She was afraid she might cry again, but steeled herself against it. Falling apart was the last thing she needed right now.
She opened the pamphlet, but the words made no sense to her. For right now, she couldn"t deal with it. Right now she had to do something else, something that would take her mind off Glen, if only for a few minutes.
It was only then that she remembered the man who had not survived this terrible day. Richard Kraven.
The man she had watched die in the electric chair only hours earlier. And about whom she should already have written and filed a story. Grasping at work as a way to keep the terrible fear of losing Glen at bay, Anne Jeffers concentrated on constructing a story in her head.
A story of death, but at least not of Glen"s death.
By the time Gordy Farber returned to the waiting room, Anne had not only composed the story in her mind, but called the paper and dictated it into her voice mailbox.
Now, the story filed, she turned her attention back to her husband and listened calmly as the doctor told her what she could expect.
As she listened, her resolve took hold: she would deal with it.
No matter what it took, Glen would not die.
She wouldn"t let him.
CHAPTER 10.
The Experimenter lay in near darkness, the walls of his room only faintly illuminated by the pale glow of the streetlamps outside. Though he lay still, he was not asleep, although he knew that soon he would have to sleep.
But not yet. Right now, he wanted to hear the report just one more time.
His fingers stroked the smooth plastic of the remote control, and he could almost imagine that the satiny texture was that of skin.
The skin of one of his subjects.
So long.
It had been so long since he"d dared let himself even think about conducting another experiment, but now it would be safe again.
Safe, at least for a while.
His forefinger pressed gently on one of the control b.u.t.tons, and the volume on the television rose just enough so he could hear the anchorman"s voice: "Topping our stories today, Richard Kraven was executed yesterday at noon, Eastern Daylight Time, dying in the electric chair only hours after his final appeals for a new trial were denied. According to Seattle Herald Seattle Herald reporter Anne Jeffers, the last person to talk with Kraven before he died, he expressed no remorse for what he"d done, even at the eleventh hour, continuing to proclaim his innocence despite the ma.s.sive evidence presented in his trial...." reporter Anne Jeffers, the last person to talk with Kraven before he died, he expressed no remorse for what he"d done, even at the eleventh hour, continuing to proclaim his innocence despite the ma.s.sive evidence presented in his trial...."
The Experimenter, lying in the darkness, could barely suppress a gloating chuckle, and fleetingly wished there were someone he could share the joke with. Still, it wouldn"t be long before the whole world understood his joke.
How long had it been since he had carried out the last experiment?
So long ago he had almost forgotten how it felt to see the look in his subjects" eyes when they began to feel sleepy and he a.s.sured them that they mustn"t worry, that all was going to be well.
He could remember more clearly the keening whine of the saw as it cut through their sterna, and his fingers moved reflexively as he recalled the warm pleasure of sinking his hands deep within the thoracic cavity, slipping them between the two warm ma.s.ses of the lungs, closing them around the strongly beating hearts....
The Experimenter uttered an all but inaudible groan of remembered pleasure.