Probably it was.
Anne turned and looked back toward the hospital, where the window to Glen"s room was clearly visible. Perhaps this was what he had meant. Perhaps he had awakened early and seen someone-maybe even the same man she herself had just seen-slipping back into the structure"s unwelcoming shelter as dawn washed away the protective shadows of night.
Shivering in the chill of the morning, Anne hurried to her car and drove quickly away.
CHAPTER 15.
The rain began as Anne turned into the parking lot of the building Glen had always called Seattle"s ugliest. It wasn"t a point Anne was about to argue, for the building that housed the Herald Herald had been constructed in 1955, smack in the middle of one of the dullest periods in modern architectural history. Utterly devoid of any interesting features, it was a perfectly rectilinear, five-story aluminum-and-gla.s.s box, its main facade punctured only by a pair of gla.s.s doors. As if understanding that his building was architecturally unsalvageable, the designer had made no attempt to soften the structure with lawns or gardens, and the concept of "one percent for art" had still been years in the future. Anne, like the majority of the had been constructed in 1955, smack in the middle of one of the dullest periods in modern architectural history. Utterly devoid of any interesting features, it was a perfectly rectilinear, five-story aluminum-and-gla.s.s box, its main facade punctured only by a pair of gla.s.s doors. As if understanding that his building was architecturally unsalvageable, the designer had made no attempt to soften the structure with lawns or gardens, and the concept of "one percent for art" had still been years in the future. Anne, like the majority of the Herald"s Herald"s staff, had long stopped noticing the building at all, and most people who pa.s.sed it on the street weren"t even aware that it housed one of the city"s major newspapers. If and when the park that would be known as the Commons finally metamorphosed from endless talk into a reality of trees, lawns, and pathways linking Lake Union to the downtown area, the Herald Building would be razed. No one-least of all the newspaper"s employees-would miss it. staff, had long stopped noticing the building at all, and most people who pa.s.sed it on the street weren"t even aware that it housed one of the city"s major newspapers. If and when the park that would be known as the Commons finally metamorphosed from endless talk into a reality of trees, lawns, and pathways linking Lake Union to the downtown area, the Herald Building would be razed. No one-least of all the newspaper"s employees-would miss it.
Pulling into the only vacant s.p.a.ce in the lot, Anne ducked her head against the rain as she locked the car and threaded her way across the parking area, then through the first of two sets of double doors into a tiny foyer. Waving to the guard behind the scarred blond-wood counter that was the inner lobby"s single distinguishing feature, Anne brushed a few drops of water off her jacket, then pushed the second door open when the buzzer sounded. As if terrorists are just waiting to invade us, she thought as she nodded to the guard on her way to the bank of elevators opposite the doors. What makes anyone think we"re that important?
She punched at the elevator b.u.t.ton, prepared a sarcastic remark for the guard in the typical event that no car showed up within a minute, and was pleasantly surprised when one of the doors instantly slid open. The usual chaos reigned on the third floor, and it took Anne almost five more minutes just to get to her desk, what with half a dozen people commenting on her column in this morning"s edition, and half a dozen more asking about Glen. When she finally crossed the newsroom to her desk, the monitor of her computer was flashing an accusatory beacon informing her that she had twenty-three unanswered internal messages, and forty-two more in her voice mail from outside.
Square in the center of her desk, where she couldn"t possibly miss it, was a message from her editor. Scrawled in large black letters, the message was no-more-than-usually direct: SEE ME.
-VIV.
Pausing only to put her purse in the bottom drawer of her desk and hang her damp jacket on the coat tree she shared with three other reporters, Anne strode into the editor"s office, bypa.s.sing the sagging chair with the broken spring that her boss was gesturing her toward even while arguing with someone on the telephone, and helping herself to a cup of coffee. She scanned the papers scattered in front of the editor, her ability to read upside down and backward allowing her to a.s.sess that at least there were no formal complaints about her among the clutter on Vivian Andrews"s desk.
"I know what you"re doing, and I think it"s at least rude, if not illegal," the editor said as she hung up the phone. "Are you going to read everything, or do you want to sit down?"
Anne eyed the rump-sprung chair with distaste, but answered neither question. "Got your newsy little epistle," she said. "What"s up?"
Vivian Andrews burrowed into the mess on her desk and pulled out a copy of that morning"s paper, neatly opened and folded to expose Anne"s article. Tapping it meaningfully with one brightly polished fingernail, she gazed steadily at Anne. "As you can see, I pa.s.sed this through exactly as you dictated it last night. Now, given that you"re back from the execution, and given that "dead men tell no tales," as I believe the saying goes, just how much longer are you planning to chase this particular wild goose, and when may I expect you to begin working on something that might be considered news?" She leaned back in her chair and regarded Anne archly. "Oh, and by using the word "news," I"m suggesting you might want to find a story that occurred within, say, the last six months?" The questioning inflection at the end of her remark was always a clue that Vivian was not feeling particularly patient.
"How long will you give me?" Anne countered.
Vivian Andrews placed the tips of her fingers together, resting her chin on them as she thought it over. "Not much," she decided. "They"re cutting budgets again, and we"re stretched tight already." Then, as her own eyes caught a few of the words Anne had dictated last night, she relented slightly. "Do you really think something"s missing? Something you can find, I mean?"
Anne dropped into the chair, wincing as the broken spring jabbed at her hip. "The execution is over, and there aren"t going to be any more trials," she reminded her editor. "And Mark Blakemoor says they"re closing the files, which means there"s no reason for them not to let me see everything they"ve got."
Vivian Andrews weighed the pros and cons quickly. The loss of a few more days of Anne"s time was far outweighed by the number of papers they"d sell if the reporter actually came up with something new. "Okay," she agreed. "A few days. But if you don"t come up with something, it"s over. Agreed?"
"Agreed."
Anne was already halfway out the door when Vivian Andrews spoke again. "Anne? How"s Glen doing?"
Anne turned back. "Pretty well, I guess, all things considered."
"I heard they almost lost him."
Anne tried to put up a facade of bravado, but didn"t quite succeed. "The important thing is that they didn"t. He"s going to be okay. It"s just going to take some time."
Vivian nodded in sympathy. "If you need a leave-" she began, but Anne quickly shook her head.
"I don"t think so. At least I don"t right now. But I"ll keep it in mind. When Glen comes home from the hospital, I might just take a few days. Okay?"
"Okay," Vivian agreed. "And keep me informed, Anne. About your story, and about Glen, too."
"Thanks, Viv," Anne replied. "I"ll do that."
Back at her desk, Anne began going through the internal messages, most of which could safely be ignored. After she"d responded to the last of those requiring an answer, she picked up her phone and punched in the access to her voice mail.
Most of what she heard was just as inconsequential as the stuff that had been in her electronic mail-suggestions for stories, questions about things she"d written, pleas for her to give a mention to one cause or another, some of them good, some of them not so good.
Toward the end of the long series of recordings, there were several responses to her article this morning.
Again, some of them good, some not so good.
One, the last one, was disturbing.
It was a woman"s voice, and it sounded strained.
"I got to talk to you," it said. "He killed my son! I know he did, but n.o.body listens! "Cause we"re Indians, no one listens!"
There was a name and a garbled address, but though she played it over and over, Anne couldn"t quite make it out.
She spent the rest of the day at the police department, beginning her search through the boxes of files that Mark Blakemoor and Lois Ackerly brought to the storage rooms even while she worked.
To her surprise, Mark Blakemoor came downstairs in mid-morning to find out how she was doing, then showed up again at noon, this time with sandwiches and a couple of c.o.kes.
"Anything in particular you"re looking for?" he asked as Anne tore the wrapper off a pastrami on rye and hungrily bit into the thick sandwich.
Chewing hard, Anne shrugged and signaled him to wait until she"d swallowed. "I don"t know," she said. Then, remembering the garbled message on her voice mail that morning, she frowned again. "Do you remember any reports of a Native American boy?" With the skills she"d honed in her years of reporting, she repeated the message verbatim.
Mark Blakemoor gazed at her. "That"s all? Just "He killed my son, but n.o.body listens"?"
"That"s all."
A resigned sigh emerged from Mark Blakemoor"s chest as he recalled the hundreds-thousands-of calls he"d fielded over the years of investigating the Richard Kraven murders. How was he supposed to remember just one? Still, if it would help Anne out..."Tell you what," he offered. "I"ve got some time this evening. Maybe if I go through the logs, something will jog my memory."
"You don"t have to do that-" Anne began, but Mark silenced her with a gesture.
"If I don"t do it, you will, and at least I know where the logs are and what to look for." Before Anne could respond, he spoke again: "h.e.l.l, at least it"ll keep my beer intake down for a night, right?"
There was a plaintive ring to his voice that made the last of Anne"s polite objections to his working overtime die on her lips. If he wanted to do it for her, why not? "I"d offer to give you a hand, but with Glen in the hospital-"
"It"s okay," Blakemoor a.s.sured her. "In fact, why don"t I get started right now?"
For the rest of the hour the two of them searched through boxes, Mark Blakemoor hunting for the telephone logs, Anne scanning the file folders for a name, a notation-whatever might catch her eye.
When he finally emerged from the storage area at one-thirty, covered with dust and sneezing more than he had since he"d left the Midwest twenty-two years before, Mark realized he"d enjoyed his sandwich in the bas.e.m.e.nt with Anne Jeffers more than any other lunch he"d had in recent memory.
Anne, on the other hand, didn"t give the lunch another thought. She hadn"t noticed that all the time they were together, going through the boxes, the detective had kept glancing at her out of the corner of his eye, just like some high school kid with a crush on the prom queen.
CHAPTER 16.
The long spring day was finally fading into night, and as dusk settled over the city beyond the hospital"s windows, Glen Jeffers grew more anxious. All day he"d drifted between a fitful sleep that gave him no real rest, and a drowsy kind of wakefulness that never left his mind unfogged. As he gazed out the window, watching people move up and down the sidewalk two stories below, and lights come on in the apartment buildings across the street, he had the strange sensation that time had somehow twisted around: as the rest of the world drifted toward the end of the day, he was only now coming fully awake. Unless he could convince the nurse to give him something to send him back to sleep, he was certain he would lie awake all night.
Anne had come to visit him; so had the kids.
For some reason-a reason he couldn"t quite figure out-he felt disconnected from them. It was the drugs, of course; once he was finished with them, he"d be back to himself. But today when the kids had come in after school, he found it hard to concentrate on what they were saying, hard to pretend interest in the fight Kevin had had with Justin Reynolds, or the new CD Heather had bought that afternoon. What was the name of the group? Crippled Chicken? Something like that.
While he was pondering the possible hidden meanings of the names of rock bands and poking at the tray of food they"d brought in at exactly six o"clock, Anne arrived. He"d had to concentrate to follow her conversation, as his mind kept veering off to other places.
Or, more specifically, one other place.
The nightmare he"d had early this morning, when Anne had come in on her way to work.
The dream was still vivid in his memory, and had never been far from his consciousness all day. It kept reaching out to him whenever he drifted into the fringes of sleep, threatening to draw him once more into its dark terrors.
When Gordy Farber had come in an hour ago, Glen told him about the dream, and it hadn"t taken the heart specialist long to come up with an explanation: "Well, I"m not a psychiatrist, but I"ve had a lot of experience with people in your situation. You"ve had a heart attack, which makes you feel helpless. And what could be a better symbol of helplessness than a little boy hiding in the dark from a threatening father?"
"But my father wasn"t threatening," Glen objected. "In fact, my dad was so modern he never even spanked me! Said spanking was child abuse way back when everyone else was still using the belt every day!"
Farber"s brows arched into an expression of exaggerated envy. "Wish my my dad had thought that way-he was a big one for the "spare the rod and spoil the child" routine, except his bark always turned out to be far worse than his bite." The doctor"s features a.s.sumed a more serious mien. "But what your dad was like doesn"t really make much difference, because we"re not talking about reality here. We"re talking about dreams and symbols." His gaze shifted to the array of tubes and wires attached to his patient. "As for the electrodes your father was hooking up to you, I don"t know if you"ve noticed, but you"re sprouting more wires and tubes than a high school science fair project." He"d grinned as another thought came to him. "Hey, maybe dad had thought that way-he was a big one for the "spare the rod and spoil the child" routine, except his bark always turned out to be far worse than his bite." The doctor"s features a.s.sumed a more serious mien. "But what your dad was like doesn"t really make much difference, because we"re not talking about reality here. We"re talking about dreams and symbols." His gaze shifted to the array of tubes and wires attached to his patient. "As for the electrodes your father was hooking up to you, I don"t know if you"ve noticed, but you"re sprouting more wires and tubes than a high school science fair project." He"d grinned as another thought came to him. "Hey, maybe I"m I"m the father figure in the dream. After all, who could be more fatherly to you than your doctor right now?" the father figure in the dream. After all, who could be more fatherly to you than your doctor right now?"
Glen knew the explanation made a lot of sense. The nightmare"s fear made sense, for what could be more terrifying than a heart attack? Even now he could remember the panic he"d felt as that band tightened around his chest, the pain shot up his arm, and the blackness closed around him. But although the explanation fit perfectly, Glen had a nagging feeling there was something else-that the terror he"d felt from the dream went beyond the fear he experienced when the "incident"-as Gordy Farber insisted on calling it-had occurred.
The incident. He kept going back over the whole experience. It wasn"t a complete blackout, for he remembered being awake for a while in the ambulance. After all, if he wasn"t awake at least part of the time, how had he been able to hear the paramedics talking? And he had had heard them; even now he could clearly remember their voices. heard them; even now he could clearly remember their voices.
"Put it up to three hundred joules and hit him again."
"That"s the way."
"Try again at three-sixty."
"Joules." That was an electrical term. Someone had said to "put it at three hundred joules and hit him again."
When it struck, the truth crashed into Glen"s consciousness like surf hurling against a rocky cliff. He hadn"t been awake at all.
He"d been dead. He"d been dead, and the paramedics had been fighting to make his heart begin beating again, to make him start breathing again.
Glen felt an icy sweat break out on his skin, and for a moment he was afraid he might have a second heart attack. He reached for the buzzer to summon the nurse, but the wave of terror eased, and he let his hand drop back onto the thin blanket that covered him.
He hadn"t died, and he wasn"t going to.
But it had been close. A lot closer than he"d realized until just that moment.
Was that why he"d felt different today? Disconnected? Was that why he"d had a hard time concentrating on what Anne and his children had been saying?
He lay back on the pillows and turned to gaze out the window as he thought about it. Of course he felt different now-how could he not? When you come that close to dying- His thought broke off as he spotted someone on the street below, the shadowy figure of a man moving along the rain-slicked sidewalk across the street, and for a moment had the feeling he knew him. But then, when the man looked up-almost as if he"d felt Glen watching him-his face was briefly illuminated by the yellow glow of a streetlight and Glen realized he"d been wrong.
The man was a stranger, someone he was certain he"d never seen before.
A moment later the man looked away again and quickly disappeared into the shadows of the street.
CHAPTER 17.
All day long the fantasy had been growing inside the man, and all day long the pressure to act on the fantasy had been building. When it got to the point where he was starting to feel like he might explode, the man decided to go for a walk. At least he could breathe some fresh air, and in the dark he"d be by himself.
No one would recognize him.
No one would ask him questions.
But even going outside didn"t work, for he wasn"t on the sidewalk more than thirty seconds before he felt someone watching him.
When he looked around, sure enough, someone was staring at him out of one of the windows of the hospital.
Maybe he ought to just go up there and pull the guy"s plug. Wouldn"t that be something? Just to walk into the room, tell the guy off, then jerk the plugs out of the wall and watch him die?
Yes, just watch him die!
In the cool damp of the evening the man felt a shiver go through him, a chill that wasn"t brought on by the weather at all.
It was brought on by the fantasy that had been growing in his mind until he finally knew he was going to act on it.
But not with the guy in the hospital room. Not where there would be lights, and people, and he would be caught so soon he wouldn"t even get to enjoy what he"d done.
The man walked on up the sidewalk, finally cutting over a block, then zigzagged north and west until he finally came to Broadway. A lot of lights there, and a lot of people, but it didn"t matter because he fit right in with the rest of the crowd. Broadway was humming with people tonight, but that was good, for it meant he would be only one more anonymous face in the crowd. He threaded his way along the sidewalk, ignoring the teenage panhandlers with their green hair, black lipstick, and pierced lips, brows, and ears.
When he saw the person he was looking for, he would know.
Two men holding hands came toward him. The man"s eyes fixed angrily on them, but at the last second he stepped aside to let them pa.s.s, only to turn and glower at them once again when he heard them laughing as they walked away.