"You don"t suppose they worry their little heads with a.n.a.lysis, do you?
Somebody started the idea and the rest followed like sheep. No doubt it had its real origin in the young men who did the fighting and saw their comrades do the dying, and all the kudus carried off by the old men who ran no risks. They are very bitter. And women generally take their cues from men, little as they suspect it. However, whatever the cause, here it is, and what to do about it I"ve no more idea than you; but I should think it would be a good idea for Jim to take her abroad for a year."
"I don"t see Jim giving up his clubs and sports, and tagging round the world after a flapper. He never took himself very seriously as a parent ... still, he is really alarmed... . Are you going to marry Marian Lawrence?"
"Do you think I"d engage myself to any one without telling you first of all?"
"Better not. Are you in love with her?"
"No."
"I"m told you were devoted to her at one time. That was one of the times when I saw little or nothing of you."
"I"ve been devoted to quite a number of girls, first and last, but there"s really been nothing in it on either side. I know what you"re driving at. Shoot."
"Yes, Jim said he told you. Well, I"ve changed my mind. Janet"s a little fool, perhaps worse. Not half good enough for you and would devil the life out of you before you got rid of her in self-defence.
Let her hoe her own row. How about that writing person, Gora Dwight, you and Din are always talking about?"
"Never been the ghost of a flirtation. She"s all intellect and ambition. I enjoy going there for I"m almost as much at home with her as I am with you."
"Ha! Harmless. I hope she"s as flattered as I am. There remains Anne Goodrich. She"s handsome, true to her traditions in every way--Marian Lawrence is a hussy unless I"m mistaken and I usually am not--she has talent and she has cultivated her mind. She will have a fortune and would make an admirable wife in every way for an ambitious and gifted man. More pliable than Marian, too. You"re as tyrannical and conceited as all your s.e.x and would never get along with any woman who wasn"t clever enough to pretend to be submissive while twisting you round her little finger. I rather favor Anne."
Clavering was beginning to feel uneasy. What was she leading up to?
Who next? But he replied with a humorous smile:
"Dearest Lady Jane! Why are you suddenly determined to marry me off?
Are you anxious to get rid of me? Marriage plays the very devil with friendships."
"Only for a year or so. And I really think it is time you were settling yourself. To tell you the truth I worry about you a good deal. You"re a sentimental boy at heart and chivalrous and impressionable, although I know you think you"re a seasoned old rounder. Men are children, the cleverest of them, in a scheming woman"s hands."
"But I don"t know any scheming women and I"m really not as irresistible as you seem to think. Besides, I a.s.sure you, I have fairly keen intuitions and should run from any unprincipled female who thought it worth while to cast her nets in my direction."
"Intuitions be d.a.m.ned. They haven"t a chance against beauty and finesse. Don"t men as clever as yourself make fools of themselves over the wrong woman every day in the week? The cleverer a man is the less chance he has, for there"s that much more to play on by a cleverer woman. It would be just like you to fall in love with a woman older than yourself and marry her----"
"For G.o.d"s sake, Jane, cut out my fascinating self! It"s a subject that bores me to tears. Fire away about Janet. How long"s she been shut up? What will Jim do next? I"ll do my best to persuade him to take her round the world. He"d enjoy it himself for there are clubs in every port and some kind of sport. I"ll look him up tomorrow."
Mrs. Oglethorpe gave him a sharp look but surrendered. When he shouted "Jane" at her in precisely the same tone as he often exploded "Jim" to her son, she found herself suddenly in a mood to deny him nothing.
x.x.xII
They went up to her sitting-room to spend the rest of the evening. It was a large high room overlooking the park and furnished in ma.s.sive walnut and blood-red brocade: a room as old-fashioned and ugly as its mistress but comfortable withal. On a table in one corner was an immense family Bible, very old, and recording the births, marriages, and deaths of the Van den Poeles from the time they began their American adventures in the seventeenth century. On another small table in another corner was a pile of alb.u.ms, the lowest containing the first presentments of Mrs. Oglethorpe"s family after the invention of calotype photography. These alb.u.ms recorded fashion in all its stages from 1841 down to the sport suit, exposed legs and rolled stockings of Janet Oglethorpe; a photograph her grandmother had sworn at but admitted as a curiosity.
One of the alb.u.ms was devoted to the friends of Mrs. Oglethorpe"s youth, and Mary Ogden occupied the place of honor. Clavering had once derived much amus.e.m.e.nt looking over these old alb.u.ms and listening to Mrs. Oglethorpe"s running and often sarcastic comment; but although he had recalled to mind this photograph the night Mr. Dinwiddie had been so perturbed by the stranger"s resemblance to the flame of his youth, he had, himself, been so little interested in Mary Ogden that it had not occurred to him to disinter that old photograph of the eighties and examine it in detail. He turned his back squarely on it tonight, although he had a misgiving that it was not Janet who had inspired Mrs.
Oglethorpe"s singular note.
On one wall was a group of daguerreotypes, hideous but rare and valuable. An oil painting of James Oglethorpe, long dead, hung over the fireplace; an amiable looking gentleman with long side-whiskers sprouting out of plump cheeks, a florid complexion, and the expression of a New Yorker who never shirked his civic obligations, his chairmanships of benevolent inst.i.tutions, nor his port. Opposite was another oil painting of young James taken at the age of twelve, wearing a sailor suit and the surly expression of an active boy detained within walls while other boys were shouting in the park. Beside it was a water color of Janet at the age of two, even then startlingly like her grandmother. She had been Mrs. Oglethorpe"s favorite descendant until the resemblance had become too accentuated by modern divagations.
Clavering did not extend himself on the sofa tonight but drew a leather chair (built for Mr. Oglethorpe) to the small coal grate, which inadequately warmed the large room. Mrs. Oglethorpe, like many women of her generation, never indulged her backbone save in bed, and she seated herself in her own ma.s.sive upright chair not too close to the fire. She had made a concession to time in the rest of the house, which was lighted by electricity, but the gas remained in her own suite, and the room was lit by faint yellow flames struggling through the ground-gla.s.s globes of four-side brackets. The light from the coals was stronger, and as it fell on her bony austere old face with its projecting beak, Clavering reflected that she needed only a broomstick. He really loved her, but a trained faculty works as impersonally as a camera.
He smoked in silence and Mrs. Oglethorpe stared into the fire. She, too, was fond of her cigar, but tonight she had shaken her head as Hawkins had offered the box, after pa.s.sing the coffee. Her face no longer looked sardonic, but relaxed and sad. Clavering regarded her with uneasy sympathy. Would it be possible to divert her mind?
"Lady Jane," he began.
"I wish you would call me Jane tonight. I wouldn"t feel so intolerably old."
"Of course I"ll call you Jane, but you"ll never be old. What skeleton have you been exhuming?" He was in for it and might as well give her a lead.
"It"s Mary Ogden," she said abruptly and harshly.
"Oh--I wondered how you felt about it. You certainly have been splendid----"
"What else could I do? She was the most intimate friend of my youth, the only woman I ever had any real affection for. I had already seen her and recognized her. I suppose she has told you that I went there and that she treated me like an intruding stranger. But I knew she must have some good reason for it--possibly that she was here on some secret political mission and had sworn to preserve her incognito. I knew she had been mixed up in politics more than once. I thought I was going mad when I saw her, but I never suspected the truth. The light was dim and I took for granted that some one of those beauty experts had made a mask for her, or ripped her skin off--I hardly knew what to think, so I concluded not to think about it at all, and succeeded fairly well in dismissing it from my mind. I was deeply hurt at her lack of confidence in me, but I dismissed that, too. After all it was her right. I do as I choose, why shouldn"t she? And I remembered that she always did."
Here Clavering stirred uneasily.
"When she came to me here last Tuesday and told me the whole truth I felt as if I were listening to a new chapter out of the Bible, but on the whole I was rather pleased than otherwise. I had never been jealous of her when we were young, for I was married before she came out, and she was so lovely to look at that I was rather grateful to her than otherwise. After her marriage I used to meet her every few years in Europe up to some three or four years before the outbreak of the war, and it often made me feel melancholy as I saw her beauty going ... until there was nothing left but her style and her hair.
But nothing else was to be expected. Time is a brute to all women... . So, while she sat here in this room so radiantly beautiful and so exquisitely and becomingly dressed, and leaning toward me with that old pleading expression I remembered so well; when she wanted something and knew exactly how to go to work to get it; and looking not a day over thirty--well, while she was here I felt young again myself and I loved her as much as ever and felt it a privilege to look at her. I arranged a luncheon promptly to meet several of her old friends and put a stop to the clacking that was going on--I had been called up eight times that morning... . I could have boxed your ears, but of course it was a natural enough thing to do, and you had no suspicion... . Well, as soon as she had gone I wrote to twelve women, giving them a bare sketch of the truth, and sent the notes off in the motor. And then--I went and looked at myself in the gla.s.s."
She paused, and Clavering rose involuntarily and put his hand on her shoulder.
"Never mind, Jane," he said awkwardly. "What does it matter? You are you and there"s only one of the kind. After all it"s only one more miracle of Science. You could do it yourself if you liked."
"I? Ha! With twenty-three grandchildren. I may be a fool but I"m not a d.a.m.n fool, as James used to say. What good would it do me to look forty? I had some looks left at that age but with no use for them as women go. I"d have less now. But Mary was always lucky--a daughter of the G.o.ds. It"s just like her d.a.m.ned luck to have that discovery made in her time and while she is still young enough to profit by it, besides being as free as when she was Mary Ogden. Now, G.o.d knows what devilment she"ll be up to. What she wants she"ll have and the devil take the consequences." She patted his hand. "Go and sit down, Lee.
I"ve a good deal more to say."
Clavering returned to his seat with no sense of the old chair"s comfort, and she went on in a moment.
"The unfairness of it as I looked at that old witch in the gla.s.s that had reflected my magnificent youth, seemed to me unendurable. I had lived a virtuous and upright life. I knew d.a.m.ned well she hadn"t. I had done my duty by the race and my own and my husband"s people, and I had brought up my sons to be honorable and self-respecting men, whatever their failings, and my daughters in the best traditions of American womanhood. They are model wives and mothers, and they have made no weak-kneed concessions to these degenerate times. They bore me but I"d rather they did that than disgrace me. Mary never had even one child, although her husband must have wanted an heir. I have lived a life of duty--duty to my family traditions, my husband, my children, my country, and to Society: she one of self-indulgence and pleasure and excitement, although I"m not belittling the work she did during the war. But n.o.blesse oblige. What else could she do? And now, she"ll be at it again. She"ll have the pick of our young men--I don"t know whether it"s all tragic or grotesque. She"ll waste no time on those men who loved her in her youth--small blame to her. Who wants to coddle old men? They"ve all got something the matter with "em... .
But she"ll have love--love--if not here--and thank G.o.d, she"s not remaining long--then elsewhere and wherever she chooses. Love! I too once took a fierce delight in making men love me. It seems a thousand years ago. What if I should try to make a man fall in love with me today? I"d be rushed off by my terrified family to a padded cell."
"Well--Jane----"
"Don"t "well Jane" me! You"d jump out of the window if I suddenly began to make eyes at you. I could rely on your manners. You wouldn"t laugh until you struck the gra.s.s and then you"d be arrested for disturbing the peace. Well--don"t worry. I"m not an old a.s.s. But I"m a terribly bewildered old woman. It seems to me there has been a crashing in the air ever since she sat in that chair... . Growing old always seemed to me a natural process that no arts or dodges could interrupt, and any attempt to arrest the processes of nature was an irreverent gesture in the face of Almighty G.o.d. It was immoral and irreverent, and above all it showed a lack of humor and of sound common sense. The world, my candid grandchild tells me, laughs at the women of my generation for their old-fashioned "cut." But we have our code and we have the courage to live up to it. That is one reason, perhaps, why growing old has never meant anything to me but reading-spectacles, two false teeth, and weak ankles. It had seemed to me that my life had been pretty full--I never had much imagination--what with being as good a wife as ever lived--although James was a pompous bore if there ever was one--bringing eight children into the world and not making a failure of one of them, never neglecting my charities or my social duties or my establishments. As I have grown older I have often reflected upon a life well-spent, and looked forward to dying when my time came with no qualms whatever, particularly as there was precious little left for me to do except give parties for my grandchildren and blow them up occasionally. I never labored under the delusion that I had an angelic disposition or a perfect character, but I had always had, and maintained, certain standards; and, according to my lights, it seemed to me that when I arrived at the foot of the throne the Lord would say to me "Well done, thou good and faithful servant." The only thing I ever regretted was that I wasn"t a man."
She paused and then went on in a voice that grew more raucous every moment. "That was later. It"s a long time since I"ve admitted even to myself that there was a period--after my husband"s death--when I hated growing old with the best of them. I was fifty and I found myself with complete liberty for the first time in my life; for the elder children were all married, and the younger in Europe at school. I had already begun to look upon myself as an old woman... . But I soon made the terrible discovery that the heart never grows old. I fell in love four times. They were all years younger than myself and I"d have opened one of my veins before I"d have let them find it out. Even then I had as little use for old men as old men have for old women. Whatever it may be in men, it"s the young heart in women. I had no illusions. Fifty is fifty. My complexion was gone, my stomach high, and I had the face of an old war horse. But--and here is the d.a.m.ned trick that nature plays on us--I hoped--hoped--I dreamed--and as ardently as I ever had dreamed in my youth, when I was on the look-out for the perfect knight and before I compromised on James Oglethorpe, who was handsome before he grew those whiskers and got fat--yes, as ardently as in my youth I dreamed that these clever intelligent men would look through the old husk and see only the young heart and the wise brain--I knew that I could give them more than many a younger woman. But if beauty is only skin deep the skin is all any man wants, the best of "em. They treated me with the most impeccable respect--for the first time in my life I hated the word--and liked my society because I was an amusing caustic old woman. Of course they drifted off, either to marry, or because I terrified them with my sharp tongue: when I loved them most and felt as if I had poison in my veins. Well, I saved my pride, at all events.
"By the time you came along I had sworn at myself once for all as an old fool, and, in any case, I would hardly have been equal to falling in love with a brat of twenty-two."
She seized the stick that always rested against her chair and thumped the floor with it. "Nevertheless," she exclaimed with savage contempt, "my heart is as young today as Mary Ogden"s. That is the appalling discovery I have made this week. I"d give my immortal soul to be thirty again--or look it. Why in heaven"s name did nature play us this appalling dirty trick?"
"But Jane!" He felt like tearing his hair. What was Mary Zattiany"s tragedy to this? Ba.n.a.lities were the only refuge. "Remember that at thirty you were in love with your husband and bent on having a family----"
"I meant thirty and all I know now... . I"m not so d.a.m.n sure I"d have tried to make myself think I was in love with James--who had about as much imagination as a gra.s.shopper and the most infernal mannerisms.
I"d have found out what love and life meant, that"s what! And when I did I"d have sent codes and traditions to the devil."
"Oh, no, you would not. If you"d had it in you you"d have done it, anyhow. All women of your day were not virtuous--not by a long sight.
I"ll admit that your best possibilities have been wasted; I"ve always thought that. You have a terrific personality and if you were at your maturity in this traditionless era you"d be a great national figure, not a mere social power. But nature in a fit of spite launched you too soon and the cast-iron traditions were too strong for you. It was the epoch of the submerged woman."