Black Oxen

Chapter 47

"Is he still in love with her? Are you sure he didn"t come here to ask her to marry him?"

"If he did he had his journey for his pains--although I can see that it would be a highly desirable combination from his point of view. But he"s not in love with her. I"ll stake all I know of men on that."

"You are sure?"

"As sure as that I"m alive."

"Well, I take the morning train for New York."



"Lee," said Mr. Dinwiddie impressively, "take the advice of an old man, who has seen a good deal of men and women in his day, and stay where you are until you hear from Mary. Some sort of crisis has arisen, no use blinking the fact, but if you burst in on her now, while she is Madame Zattiany, encased in a new set of triple-plated armor, you may ruin all your chances of happiness. Whatever it is let her work it out--and off--by herself. I made her promise she would not leave the country without seeing you again--for I didn"t know what might be in the wind--and when she had given her word she added that she had not the least intention of not seeing you again, and that it was quite possible she would return to the camp. If you go down you"ll spoil everything."

"I suppose I can trust you, Din, but I"ve seen plainly that you don"t want me to marry her."

"That is true enough. I want nothing less--for your sake; and Hohenhauer would be a far more suitable match for her. But I don"t believe you even question my faith----"

"No. I don"t. You"re a brick, Din. But I"m unspeakably worried--almost terrified. I have never felt that I really knew her.

She may have only imagined--but that is impossible! How in G.o.d"s name am I to sit round here for three days and twiddle my thumbs?"

"Don"t. Take one of the men and go off on a three days" tramp. Climb Mount Moose. That will give you no chance to think. All your thinking will be in your muscles."

"And suppose she should return--or telegraph me to go to her?"

"If she returns and finds you gone it"ll serve her right. And she won"t telegraph before Thursday--if she"s going to Washington. Now take my advice and don"t be a fool."

Clavering shrugged his shoulders, but he set his lips. "Very well. I won"t follow her. Nor will I forgive her in a hurry, either."

"That"s healthy. Give her a piece of your mind, have a good row, and then make it up. But let me tell you, my dear boy, that she was horrified at the thought of that man coming up here, and she only refrained from telling you of the summons, so to speak, because she wanted to spare you any anxiety. There"s no doubt in my mind that she"s as much in love with you as you are with her... . You have none, I suppose?"

"None. Particularly lately. I hadn"t told you, but I had intended, in a day or two, to ask you if you would let me have the camp for a few weeks. We intended to marry in Huntersville the day the rest of you went out."

Mr. Dinwiddie whistled. "No wonder she was furious at having her preliminary honeymoon disturbed. But if that is the case of course she"ll return. You"re more than welcome to the camp, and I"ll send whatever you need from time to time. You"ve only to command me... .

It makes it all the more comprehensible. Whatever it was that man said to her, she wanted to get over it by herself before coming back to the place where she had forgotten that Hohenhauers and politics existed. I could see how it was with her here. She looked exactly as she used to in the old days, and I don"t doubt felt like it, too. No wonder she resented being forced back into the role of Madame Zattiany, or Grafin--countess--as he calls her. You must let her thresh it out by herself."

"You believe she will come back."

"If that was your plan, I a.s.suredly do. There isn"t a spark of human affection between those two, and Mary never placed herself in any man"s power. I am more and more inclined to believe that he appealed to her for help in his mission here, whatever it is--and it"s not so difficult to guess--and that against her inclination and out of her love for Austria, she consented."

"Well, it"s no use to speculate. There"s the supper bell. I"ll decide in the morning whether I go off for a tramp or not."

LVII

Clavering slept when he first went to bed, for he was healthily tired, but he awoke suddenly at midnight with body refreshed and mind abnormally clear. He knew that he would sleep no more that night, and he put on his trousers and coat over his pyjamas, thrust his feet into bedroom slippers and went out into the living-room. There he put a log on the fire and paced up and down, not unlike a tiger round its cage.

He felt as if black bats were flying about his brain, each charged with a different portent of disaster. Once more the unreality of the whole affair overwhelmed him. How could he have been so fatuous as to believe that he had really won such a woman? He remembered his first impression: that she was on a plane above, apart. They hadn"t an interest in common, not even a memory that antedated their meeting a few short weeks ago. She had lived a life of which he knew nothing outside of European novels and memoirs. She had known nothing of any other world until he had introduced her to his friends, and he made no doubt that her interest in them was about as permanent as a highly original comedy on the stage would inspire. There was nothing, literally, between them but a mutual irresistible attraction, and that bond recognized so unerringly by both.

That bond.

Would it hold?

Had this man offered her something that would make love seem insignificant and trivial? She, who had had a surfeit of love long since? Whose eyes had looked a thousand years old until he had given her mind back its youth as the great Vienna biologist had rejuvenated her body.

He was entirely indifferent to her old love affair with Hohenhauer. It was those years of political a.s.sociation and mutual interdependence in Vienna that he feared. He had, when he first met her, appraised her as a woman to whom power was the breath of life. Ambition--in the grand manner--incarnate. She had all the appearance and the air of a woman to whom the wielding of power, however subtly, was an old story. He recalled that that terrifying suggestion of concealed ruthless forces behind those charming manners, those feminine wiles, had almost made him resolve to "avoid her like the plague." And then he had fallen madly in love with her and forgotten everything but the woman.

He had divined even before these last miraculous days that she had looked upon love with abhorrence for almost half as many years as he had lived, an abhorrence rooted in a profound revulsion of body and mind and spirit. For nearly twenty years that revulsion had endured and eaten into the very depths of her being... . He had a sudden blaze of enlightenment. She had frequently alluded to that Lodge of hers in the Dolomites and their sojourn there together, but always in the terms of romance... . She had never given him a glance of understanding... . And she had put off the wedding until the last possible moment... . If she had really been as eager as himself she would have left her power of attorney with Trent and started for Austria six weeks ago. Or the papers could have been sent to her to sign, if her signature were imperative... . And in spite of the fact that everybody had taken the engagement for granted, she had, with wholly insufficient reasons,--as he saw, now that he was removed from the influence of her plausible and dominating self,--refused to announce it. Could it be that in the depths of her mind--unadmitted by her consciousness--she had never intended to marry him? Was that old revulsion paramount? ... Sixteen years! ... A long time, and nothing in life is more corroding than habit.

Perhaps--as long as they were down there in New York. But not up here.

That he would be willing to swear. There had been another revolution, involuntary perhaps, but the stronger for that; and every shackle that memory and habit can forge had dropped from her. She had been youth incarnate. The proof was in her joyful consent to marry him immediately and remain in the mountains ... and then her complete surrender of the future into his hands... . She had during those three brief days loved him wholly, and without a shadow in her soul.

But now? Whatever had happened, she was not Mary Ogden tonight, hastening to New York, nor would she be when in her own house on the morrow. She might hate Hohenhauer, but his mere presence would have made the past live again. She must have known when she went down that mountain that even with her strong will and powers of self-delusion, things could not be quite the same again. Not even if she had returned with Dinwiddie. Why in heaven"s name had she been so mad as to go?

She could have sent Hohenhauer a peremptory refusal to see him and then gone off on a camping trip that could have lasted until he gave up the game. She must have been mad--mad.

And he did not believe for a moment that she had gone to Washington.

She had gone home to think--think.

And if he followed Dinwiddie"s advice and remained here she might think too long. And if he followed and insisted upon seeing her, the result might be more fatal still. He knew nothing of those personalities she may have concealed from him. For all he knew she might have depths in her nature as black as the bottomless pit.

And G.o.d only knew what the man had said to her... . Should he let her fight it out by herself? What in heaven"s name should he do?

Whatever happened, this divine interval, like some exquisitely adjusted musical instrument, had been hopelessly jarred out of tune. He almost hoped she would not return. Let it remain a perfect memory... .

They could marry in New York and return here, when she was his wife... . If he had not already lost her... . What in G.o.d"s name was the thing for him to do? He"d go mad if he stayed here, and if he went he might regret it for the rest of his days. Why could not light be vouchsafed him?

Gora.

Fortunately he knew her room for he had carried up her luggage. He ran lightly up the stairs and tapped on her door. A startled sleepy voice answered. He opened the door and put in his head.

"Come downstairs at once, Gora," he said peremptorily. "I must talk to you."

She came down in a moment, clad in a scarlet kimono, her hair hanging in thick braids. With her large round forehead exposed she looked not unlike a gnome, but curiously young.

"What on earth is the matter, Clavey?" she asked as she pushed her chair as close to the fire as possible. "It has something to do with this sudden trip of Mary"s, I suppose. Mr. Dinwiddie said she had been called to New York on important business, and the others accepted the explanation as a matter of course; but I"ll confess I wondered."

Clavering, still too nervous to sit down, jerked out the whole story, omitting only the old love affair with the man who had exercised so strong an influence on Mary Zattiany"s later life.

"You see," he concluded, "there are two things: Austria had taken the place in her affections that women of her age generally concentrate on human beings--it became almost a sacrament. And then--for nearly twenty years she had hated everything in men but their minds. s.e.x was not only dead but a detestable memory. After that rejuvenescence she had never cast a thought to loving any man again. That mental habit, at least, was fixed. When I met her she was a walking intellect... .

I thought I had changed all that ... up here I had not a doubt left ... but now ... I don"t know... . Put that cold-blooded mind of yours on it and tell me what to do."

"Let me think a minute, Clavey."

As he resumed his restless march, Gora sent her mind travelling out of the mountains and far to the south, and tried to penetrate the brain of Mary Zattiany. She could not visualize her in the bed of a casual hotel or sitting in the chair of a parlor car, so she skipped the interval and saw her next day in that intimate room of hers upstairs; the room, a.s.suredly, where she would think out her problem.

Gora had studied Madame Zattiany with all the avidity of the artist for a rare human theme, and she believed that she knew her as well as Clavering did, if not better. She had also not failed to observe Prince Hohenhauer"s picture, and had read the accompanying text with considerable interest, an interest augmented, not unnaturally, by his exceeding good looks. That same day she had met a Viennese at dinner who had talked of him with enthusiasm and stated definitely that he was the one hope of Austria.

Gora Dwight was a very ambitious woman and revelled in the authority that fame and success had brought her. She was also as disillusioned in regard to men as any unmarried woman could be; although quite aware that if she had lacked a gift to entice her emotions to her brain, she no doubt would even now be looking about for some man to fall in love with. But her pride was spared a succession of humiliating anti-climaxes, and she had learned, younger than most women, or even men, that power, after s.e.x has ceased from troubling, is the dominant pa.s.sion in human nature.

And Madame Zattiany was twenty years older than herself, and had drained the jewelled chalice to the dregs. And for many years more she had enjoyed power, revelled in it, looked forward, Gora made no doubt, to a greater and greater exercise of it. Power had become the master pa.s.sion of her life.

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