As the words replayed over and over in my head, it felt like everything suddenly fell into place, and I knew the true nature of why I was there. Virgo allowed Salt to take me because he had a job to do."Oh my G.o.d," I said, my voice strained and erratic. "I know why I"m here now. You"re going to f.u.c.king kill me, aren"t you?" Jumping to my feet, I moved further away from him. "That"s why he let you take me. You"re supposed to kill me, Virgo wants me dead."
My stomach coiled up with knots as thick and heavy as chain. Grabbing my stomach, I bent forward, doing my best to keep my stomach from decorating the floor. "f.u.c.k, I don"t feel good. I"m going to be sick."
"What—no,"he said, his lids lowering as he shook his head. "I"m not going to kill you, Jessie. That"s not why you"re here."
"Don"t lie to me, do not f.u.c.king lie to me!" Raising my voice, I was almost screaming. "It all makes sense now, all of it." Dragging my nails through my hair, I was inhaling short gasps of air as my body shivered and my limbs went numb. "I thought I was ready for this, I even thought I wanted it at one point. . ." Pausing, my eyes shot open as I stared at Salt. "But I don"t, that"s why I wrote you that note, I"m not ready, I"m not—"
Cutting me off, Salt darted to my side, curling strong hands around my arms. "Jessie!" he snapped, giving me a little shake. "I"m not going to kill you, I swear. Look at me, look at me my flower." Lifting his hands to my face, he cupped my cheeks, holding my head in place.
And then it happened.
Tears.
They came, they flowed, they fell freely as if a dam had been demolished and there was nothing holding them back.
"I don"t want to die, Salt."
"And you"re not going to," he said, holding his eyes steady on mine. "That"s not why I took you, that"s not why I brought you here."
Sniffling, my eyes were blurry, causing his face to morph and cloud over. "Then why am I here?"
"I told you I could give you things. But, I"m not a monster and I can"t grant wishes. You wrote me a note, a note I can"t fulfill. I can give you something else, something you didn"t ask for, but I want to give you. If you"re not ready, I"ll understand. "
"I don"t know what you mean. What are you giving me?"
Thinning his lips, his eyes dulled. Wiping the water off my cheeks, Salt softly licked his lips. My heart jumped inside my chest as he peered deep into my soul, looking past the scars, seeing through the sh.e.l.l I had built around myself.
"Look at you," he said, running his fingers around my swollen eye. Smiling lightly, his eyes took note of all the other damage to my body. With the pads of his fingers, he softly touched the torn skin on the side of my arm.
Sucking in a gulp of air, I pulled myself together. "I"m fine, it"s nothing." Wiping more tears off my face, I forced a smirk. "It could have been worse."
"You shouldn"t think that way. What was done to you is wrong, you don"t deserve to be hurt like this."
"Yeah, well, that"s how this s.h.i.t goes." Rubbing the side of my neck with my hand, I moved it down my back and cringed.
"What is it?" he asked, manipulating my body and turning me around. "Is it your back?" Lifting my shirt, I could feel him examining me. "Stay right here, give me one second."
"What? What do you see?"
He didn"t answer, walking away and going into the bathroom. I could hear him sifting through a drawer, moving items around. Reaching around I tried to feel my back and see if I could tell what was wrong.
My entire body f.u.c.king hurt since Blue dragged me down the steps, so picking one injury out from another was almost impossible. Hitting a rough patch, my skin buzzed, causing me to huff under my breath.
f.u.c.k, I felt that.
Salt came out of the bathroom, carrying a small pouch, his gaze serious and set on my back. "Turn into the light for me." Following his directions, I twisted around. "Lean forward."
"What are you doing? What"s wrong?"
"Just stay still." I felt his hands as they pulled on my skin, stretching it tight. "Let me know if it hurts too much."
Nodding, I watched him the best I could from over my shoulder. His face was still, working diligently on something I couldn"t see. I could feel light tugs on my back and something sharp sticking me.
"Can you tell me what you"re doing?"
Glancing up at me, Salt grinned. "I"m playing doctor. This might sting a bit." Winking, he splashed my skin with liquid.
Sucking in air through my teeth, I pinched my eyes closed.
"You alright?" he asked.
"I"m fine." Opening my eyes, I clutched the wood shelf under the window, forcing the pain to flow from my fingers into the wood. "Are you almost done?"
"Yeah, almost." Laying out a white towel, he pushed my shoulders forward more.