Up there in his room, whispering those garbage-disposal words while he worked them into his own flesh with the skinning knife. That"s what he was doing. I was sure of it. I heard his blood pattering on the floorboards the same way that rat-spiders" blood had pattered the cement floor in the football stadium. Sure it was raining outside, but I"d heard rain and I"d heard blood and I knew the difference.
Floorboards squealed as he shifted his weight, and it didn"t take much figuring to decide that he was standing in front of his dresser mirror. It went on for an hour and then two, and I listened as the rain poured down. And when Deputy Barnes set his knife on the dresser and tried to sleep, I heard his little mewling complaints. They were much softer than the screams of those coc.o.o.ned bloodfaces, but I heard them just the same.
Stairs creaked as I climbed to the second floor in the middle of the night. Barnes came awake when I slapped open the door. A black circle opened on his b.l.o.o.d.y face where his mouth must have been, but I didn"t give him a chance to say a single word.
"I warned you," I said, and then I pulled the trigger.
When it was done, I rolled the deputy in a sheet and dragged him down the stairs. I buried him under the swing set. By then the rain was falling harder. It wasn"t until I got Barnes in the hole that I discovered I didn"t have much gas in the can I"d gotten from the boathouse. I drenched his body with what there was, but the rain was too much. I couldn"t even light a match. So I tossed a road flare in the hole, and it caught for a few minutes and sent up sputters of blue flame, but it didn"t do the job the way it needed to be done.
I tried a couple more flares with the same result. By then, Roy was disappearing in the downpour like a hunk of singed meat in a muddy soup. Large river rocks bordered the flowerbeds that surrounded the lodge, and I figured they might do the trick. One by one I tossed them on top of Roy. I did that for an hour, until the rocks were gone. Then I shoveled sand over the whole mess, wet and heavy as fresh cement.
It was hard work.
I wasn"t afraid of it.
I did what needed to be done, and later on I slept like the dead.
And now, a month later, I tossed and turned in Barnes"s bed, listening to that old swing set squeak and squeal in the wind and in my dreams.
The brittle sound of gunfire wiped all that away. I came off the bed quickly, grabbing Barnes"s .45 from the nightstand as I hurried to the window. Morning sunlight streamed through the trees and painted reflections on the gla.s.s, but I squinted through them and spotted shadows stretching across the beach below.
Bloodfaces. One with a machete and two with knives, all three of them moving like rabbits flushed by one mean predator.
Two headed for the woods near the edge of the property. A rattling burst of automatic gunfire greeted them, and the bloodfaces went to meat and gristle in a cloud of red vapor.
More gunfire, and this time I spotted muzzle flash in the treeline, just past the place where I"d stacked a cord of wood the summer before. The bloodface with the machete saw it, too. He put on the brakes, but there was no place for him to run but the water or the house.
He wasn"t stupid. He picked the house, sprinting with everything he had. I grabbed the bottom rail of the window and tossed it up as he pa.s.sed the swing set, but by the time I got the .45 through the gap he was already on the porch.
I headed for the door, trading the .45 for my shotgun on the way. A quick glance through the side window in the hallway, and I spotted a couple soldiers armed with M4 carbines breaking from the treeline. I didn"t have time to worry about them. Turning quickly, I started down the stairs.
What I should have done was take another look through that front window. If I"d done that, I might have noticed the burrowedup tunnel in the sand over Roy Barnes"s grave.
It was hard to move slowly, but I knew I had to keep my head. The staircase was long, and the walls were so tight the shotgun could easily cover the narrow gap below. If you wanted a definition of dangerous ground, that would be the bottom of the staircase. If the bloodface was close-his back against the near wall, or standing directly beside the stairwell-he"d have a chance to grab the shotgun barrel before I entered the room.
A sharp clatter on the hardwood floor below. Metallic . . . like a machete. I judged the distance and moved quickly, following the shotgun into the room. And there was the bloodface . . . over by the front door. He"d made it that far, but no further. And it wasn"t gunfire that had brought him down. No. Nothing so simple as a bullet had killed him.
I saw the thing that had done the job, instantly remembering the sounds I"d heard during the night-the sc.r.a.pes and scrabbles I"d mistaken for nesting birds scratching in the chimney. The far wall of the room was plastered with bits of carved skin, each one of them scarred over with words, and each of those words had been skinned from the thing that had burrowed out of Roy Barnes"s corpse.
That thing crouched in a patch of sunlight by the open door, naked and raw, exposed muscles alive with fresh slashes that wept red as it leaned over the dead bloodface. A clawed hand with long nails like skinning knives danced across a throat slashed to the bone. The demon didn"t look up from its work as it carved the corpse"s flesh with quick, precise strokes. It didn"t seem to notice me at all. It wrote one word on the dead kid"s throat . . . and then another on his face . . . and then it slashed open the bloodface"s shirt and started a third.
I fired the shotgun and the monster bucked backwards. Its skinning knife nails rasped across the doorframe and dug into the wood. The thing"s head snapped up, and it stared at me with a headful of eyes. Thirty eyes, and every one of them was the color of muddy water. They blinked, and their gaze fell everywhere at once-on the dead bloodface and on me, and on the words pasted to the wall.
Red lids blinked again as the thing heaved itself away from the door and started toward me.
Another lid snapped opened on its chin, revealing a black hole.
One suck of air and I knew it was a mouth.
I fired at the first syllable. The thing was blasted back, barking and screaming as it caught the door frame again, all thirty eyes trained on me now, its splattered chest expanding as it drew another breath through that lidded mouth just as the soldiers outside opened fire with their M4s.
Bullets chopped through flesh. The thing"s lungs collapsed and a single word died on its tongue. Its heart exploded. An instant later, it wasn"t anything more than a corpse spread across a puddle on the living room floor.
"Hey, Old School," the private said. "Have a drink."
He tossed me a bottle, and I tipped it back. He was looking over my shotgun. "It"s mean," he said, "but I don"t know. I like some rock "n" roll when I pull a trigger. All you got with this thing is rock."
"You use it right, it does the job."
The kid laughed. "Yeah. That"s all that matters, right? Man, you should hear how people talk about this s.h.i.t back in the Safe Zone. They actually made us watch some lame-a.s.s stuff on the TV before they choppered us out here to the sticks. Scientists talking, ministers talking . . . like we was going to talk these things to death while they was trying to chew on our a.s.ses."
"I met a scientist once," the sergeant said. "He had some guy"s guts stuck to his face, and he was down on his knees in a lab chewing on a dead janitor"s leg. I put a bullet in his head."
Laughter went around the circle. I took one last drink and pa.s.sed the bottle along with it.
"But, you know what?" the private said. "Who gives a s.h.i.t, anyway? I mean, really?"
"Well," another kid said. "Some people say you can"t fight something you can"t understand. And maybe it"s that way with these things. I mean, we don"t know where they came from. Not really. We don"t even know what they are."
"s.h.i.t, Mendez. Whatever they are, I"ve cleaned their guts off my boots. That"s all I need to know."
"That works today, Q, but I"m talking long term. As in: what about tomorrow, when we go nose-to-nose with their daddy?"
None of the soldiers said anything for a minute. They were too busy trading uncertain glances.
Then the sergeant smiled and shook his head. "You want to be a philosopher, Private Mendez, you can take the point. You"ll have lots of time to figure out the answers to any questions you might have while you"re up there, and you can share them with the rest of the cla.s.s if you don"t get eaten before nightfall."
The men laughed, rummaging in their gear for MRE"s. The private handed over my shotgun, then shook my hand. "Jamal Quinlan," he said. "I"m from Detroit."
"John Dalton. I"m the sheriff around here."
It was the first time I"d said my own name in five months.
It gave me a funny feeling. I wasn"t sure what it felt like.
Maybe it felt like turning a page.
The sergeant and his men did some mop-up. Mendez took pictures of the lodge, and the b.l.o.o.d.y words pasted to the living room wall, and that dead thing on the floor. Another private set up some communication equipment and they bounced everything off a satellite so some lieutenant in DC could look at it. I slipped on a headset and talked to him. He wanted to know if I remembered any strangers coming through town back in May, or anything out of the ordinary they might have had with them. Saying yes would mean more questions, so I said, "No, sir. I don"t."
The soldiers moved north that afternoon. When they were gone, I boxed up food from the pantry and some medical supplies. Then I got a gas can out of the boathouse and dumped it in the living room. I sparked a road flare and tossed it through the doorway on my way out.
The place went up quicker than my house in town. It was older. I carried the box over to the truck, then grabbed that bottle the soldiers had pa.s.sed around. There were a few swallows left. I carried it down to the dock and looked back just in time to see those birds dart from their nest in the chimney, but I didn"t pay them any mind.
I took the boat out on the lake, and I finished the whiskey, and after a while I came back.
Things are getting better now. It"s quieter than ever around here since the soldiers came through, and I"ve got some time to myself. Sometimes I sit and think about the things that might have happened instead of the things that did. Like that very first day, when I spotted that monster in the Chrysler"s trunk out on County Road 14 and blasted it with the shotgun-the gas tank might have exploded and splattered me all over the road. Or that day down in the dark under the high school football stadium- those rat-spiders could have trapped me in their web and spent a couple months sucking me dry. Or with Roy Barnes-if he"d never seen those books in the backseat of that old sedan, and if he"d never read a word about lesser demons, where would he be right now?
But there"s no sense wondering about things like that, any more than looking for explanations about what happened to Barnes, or me, or anyone else. I might as well ask myself why the thing that crawled out of Barnes looked the way it did or knew what it knew. I could do that and drive myself crazy chasing my own tail, the same way Barnes did with all those maybe"s and what if"s.
So I try to look forward. The rules are changing. Soon they"ll be back to the way they used to be. Take that soldier. Private Quinlan. A year from now he"ll be somewhere else, in a place where he won"t do the things he"s doing now. He might even have a hard time believing he ever did them. It won"t be much different with me.
Maybe I"ll have a new house by then. Maybe I"ll take off work early on Friday and push around a shopping cart, toss steaks and a couple of six packs into it. Maybe I"ll even do the things I used to do. Wear a badge. Find a new deputy. Sort things out and take care of trouble. People always need someone who can do that.
To tell the truth, that would be okay with me.
That would be just fine.
An Eldritch Matter.
Adam Niswander
Adam Niswander is the author of the Lovecraftian novels Adam Niswander is the author of the Lovecraftian novels The Charm The Charm (Integra, 1993) and (Integra, 1993) and The Serpent Slayers The Serpent Slayers (Integra, 1994), the first two of a series of novels set in the Southwest. The third and fourth novels of the series, (Integra, 1994), the first two of a series of novels set in the Southwest. The third and fourth novels of the series, The Hound Hunters The Hound Hunters and and The War of the Whisperers The War of the Whisperers, appeared in 2008 and 2009 from Hippocampus Press. His short stories have appeared in numerous magazines and anthologies.
*am terribly confused.
I am not the adventurous type, if you know what I mean.I like things to be a little dull, as a matter of fact.Yesterday, my life was normal and perhaps a bit predictable, and I was happy. My wife loved me, my children looked up to me, I had a good job, and all the people we knew seemed to like me-to like us. The bills were paid on time, the house was a real home, and the biggest uncertainty in my life was not knowing if my wife would choose to prepare pork chops or spaghetti for our supper.
Then, this morning, while waiting for the bus, I happened to look down and saw a little metal disk on the curb. You wouldn"t think something as silly as a hunk of cheap pot-metal could mess up your life, would you?
It didn"t look like anything all that unusual to me at the time. It was just a disk of white metal with an engraved sort of tentacled-something surrounding a big red eye in the middle. I picked it up, looked at it, and figured my son, Arnie, would find it interesting. I put it in my pocket and promptly forgot about it.
When I arrived at the office, I grabbed a cup of coffee in the lobby kiosk and took the elevator to the eighth floor. I went straight to my desk, settled in, and began to begin work on a proposal that is due by the end of the week. The client is important, representing a big percentage of our total business.
I had been sitting there only minutes when, without warning, I felt a terrible stabbing pain on my right thigh. It was excruciating . . . as if something had taken a bite out of me, or some giant insect had stabbed me with a stinger. I jumped up and slapped at the spot, hopping around, but the pain did not abate. It burned.
And it began to spread.
And I fell to the floor.
I was yelling by now.
Several of my co-workers came to see what all the ruckus was about. Despite my obvious suffering, no one could see anything wrong. Whatever was attacking me was covered by my clothing, and my flailing gyrations kept everyone at least an arm"s length away. The pain was like a palpable thing, like a flame that crawled up my leg leaving agony in its path.
And it seemed there was nothing I could do about it, no way I could alleviate it.
Bob Shaw had knelt by me and was trying to ask me what was wrong.
"What is it, Thompson?"
And I felt . . . well, some . . . weird . . . thing. Even through the pain, my right leg suddenly didn"t feel like a leg at all, really. It felt kind of . . . well, boneless. And as I clutched at it through my trouser leg, my fingers didn"t find anything solid. I moved my left hand down to my knee, but I didn"t feel a knee. It felt the same as the upper part of my leg, and curiously not solid. And the feeling was crawling up and down my leg simultaneously. It scared the c.r.a.p out of me!
If I had been yelling in pain before, now I was screaming in terror. I looked down and discovered my shoe had come off. My sock was still on, but the foot inside it was horribly shapeless-and by now my entire right leg was curved in a very unnatural way.
My co-workers had pulled back away from me.
I heard Bob Shaw on the phone. "No, I don"t know what"s wrong with him," he shouted, "but send an ambulance right away. The man is dying!"
But the pain was not through with me yet. It spread across my groin, scalding like acid. I can"t even begin to describe my horror as it pa.s.sed through my genitalia and then into my left leg, once again racing down and feeling as if it was burning my bones away.
I could not stop screaming.
The speed with which it spread through me seemed to be increasing. In moments, my left leg, like my right, was strangely limp, and I found I could no longer hold myself upright. I flopped backward just as the pain and burning began to climb up my spine.
I began to be racked by spasms that set my legs thrashing about, but they no longer bore much resemblance to legs. They rippled and squirmed, they seemed to slither across the floor. My right sock had now slipped completely off and the obscenely pink flesh it had revealed did not resemble a foot. There were no signs of toes or nails, or ankles and soles, only a featureless fleshy tube tapering gracelessly to a rounded tip. Worse, it had begun to itch mercilessly.
By now, the siren could be heard on the street below and the screech of tires braking on asphalt. I hoped the paramedics would hurry.
My co-workers, my office-mates, had backed as far away as they could, and panic spread among them.
"Oh G.o.d! Look! His skin is writhing."
"What"s happening to him?"
"It"s like his bones are melting!"
"Do you think it could be catching?"That last question sent some of them fleeing to the elevators and the rest strained to back yet further away.
I wanted to sit up and gain control of myself, but I could not. The strange tide of transformation continued unabated and the pain seemed to be increasing. I fear my yelling had degenerated into bursts of sound that hardly resembled anything human. I was exhausted, my throat raw from screaming at the top of my voice. My cries now were more a harsh bleating and moaning.
Strangely, no matter how my body was being changed, I could feel my heart steadily beating. It was a hypnotic rhythm that was at once petrifying and weirdly rea.s.suring.
The feeling of something coursing through me had now reached my neck and shoulders, and spread rapidly into my arms. I was still thrashing about, but it was as if I had been trapped inside my head and was being forced to watch as everything about me-everything that went into my concept of me-was irrevocably changed.
Then, suddenly-mercifully-the pain stopped.
And I looked over to see my left hand, which had been flailing uncontrollably, and saw no hand at all. My eyes grew wider as I stared in terror. It looked as if some giant pink worm was crawling out of my coat-sleeve.
There was a commotion over by the door and three paramedics came bustling through, pushing people aside. Two maneuvered a gurney and the third carried the medical bag. But even as they approached, I felt/heard/guessed the final transformation occur. My head sank back squishily and I knew that my skull had just gone the way of the rest of the bones in my body.