"You"re saying what? that it"s an animal?"
"I don"t know-some kind of jellyfish?"
"Looks too solid, doesn"t it? Besides, wouldn"t you store a jellyfish in water?"
"I guess."
Rick started to reach into the cooler. Connie grabbed his wrist. "Jesus! What are you doing?"
"I thought I"d take it out so we could have a better look at it." He tugged his hand free.
"You don"t know what it is."
"I"m pretty sure it isn"t someone"s kidney."
"Granted, but you can"t just-it could be dangerous, toxic."
"Really."
"There are animals whose skin is poisonous. Haven"t you heard of Poison Dart Frogs?"
"Oh." He lowered his hand. "Fair enough." He stepped away from the cooler. "Sweetie-what is this?"
"Well, I"m pretty sure we can say what it isn"t. I doubt there"s anyone whose life depends on receiving this, and I"m pretty sure it wasn"t attached to any Mob informer. Nor was it feeding a fetus nutrients for nine months. That leaves us with-I don"t have the faintest idea. Some kind of animal."
"I don"t know."
Connie shrugged. "The world"s a big place. There are all kinds of crazy things living at the bottom of the ocean. Or it could be from someplace else-deep underground. Maybe it"s a new discovery that was being transported to a museum."
Rick grunted. "Okay. Let"s a.s.sume this was on its way to an eager research scientist. What"s our next move?"
"Another round of phone calls, I guess."
"You want to start on that, and I"ll get dinner going?"
She wasn"t hungry, but she said, "Sure."
Rick reached for the cooler. "Relax," he said as she tensed, ready to seize his arms. Steadying the cooler with his left hand, he closed it with the right. The lid snicked shut.
NO SURPRISE: SHE DREAMED ABOUT THE THING IN THE cooler. She was in Rick"s father"s room at the nursing home (even asleep, she was unable to think of him as "Gary" or "Mr. Wilson," let alone "Dad"). Rick"s father was in the green vinyl recliner by the window, his face tilted up to the sunlight pouring over him in a way that reminded Connie of a large plant feeding on light. The green Jets sweatsuit he was wearing underscored the resemblance. His eyes were closed, his lips moving in the constant murmur that had marked the Alzheimer"s overwhelming the last of his personality. In the flood of brightness, he looked younger than fifty-eight, as if he might be Rick"s young uncle, and not the father not old enough for the disease that had consumed him with the relentless patience of a python easing itself around its prey.
Connie was standing with her back to the room"s hefty dresser, the top of which was heaped with orchids, their petals eggplant and rose. The air was full of the briny smell of seaweed baking on the beach, which she knew was the flowers" scent.
Although she hadn"t noticed him enter the room, Rick was kneeling in front of his father, his hands held up and out as if offering the man a gift. His palms cupped the thing from the cooler. Its edges overflowed his hands. In the dense sunlight, the thing was even darker, more rather than less visible. If the scene in front of her were a photograph, the thing was a dab of black paint rising off its surface.
"Here," Rick said to his father. "I brought it for you." When his father did not respond, Rick said, "Dad."
The man opened his eyes and tilted his head in his son"s direction. Connie didn"t think he saw what Rick was offering him. He croaked, "Bloom."
"Beautiful," Rick said.
His father"s eyes narrowed, and his face swung toward Connie. He was weeping, tears coursing down his cheeks like lines of fire in the sunlight. "Bloom," he said.
Almost before she knew she was awake, she was sitting up in bed. Although she was certain it must be far into the night, one of those hours you only saw when the phone rang to announce some family tragedy, the digital clock insisted it was two minutes after midnight. She had been asleep for an hour. She turned to Rick and found his side of the bed empty.
There was no reason for her heart to start pounding. Rick stayed up late all the time, watching Nightline or Charlie Rose. For the seven years Connie had known him, he had been a light sleeper, p.r.o.ne to insomnia, a tendency that had worsened with his father"s unexpected and sudden decline. She had sought him out enough times in the beginning of their relationship to be sure that there was no cause for her to leave the bed. She would find him on the couch, bathed in the TV"s glow, a bag of microwave popcorn open on his lap. So prepared was she for him to be there that, when she reached the bottom of the stairs and discovered the living room dark, something like panic straightened her spine. "Rick?" she said. "Honey?"
Of course he was in the kitchen. She glimpsed him out of the corner of her eye the same instant he said, "I"m in here." By the streetlight filtering through the window, she saw him seated at the kitchen table, wearing a white T-shirt and boxers, his arms on the table, his hands on the keyboard of his father"s laptop, which was open and on. The cooler, which he had pushed back to make room for the computer, appeared to be closed. (She wasn"t sure why that detail made her heart slow.) She walked down the hallway to him, saying, "Couldn"t sleep, huh?"
"Nah." His eyes did not leave the computer screen.
"You"re like this every time we visit your Dad."
"Am I? I guess so."
She rubbed his back. "You"re doing all you can for him. It"s a good place."
"Yeah."
On the laptop"s screen, a reddish sphere hung against a backdrop of stars. Connie recognized the painting from the NASA website, and the next picture Rick brought up, of a rough plane spread out under a starry sky, at the center of which a cl.u.s.ter of cartoonishly fat arrows identified a handful of the dots of light as the sun and planets of the solar system. A third image showed eight green circles arranged concentrically around a bright point, all of it inside one end of an enormous red ellipse.
The screen after that was a photo of a ma.s.sive stone monument, a rectangular block stood on its short end, another block laid across its top to form a T-shape. The front of the tall stone was carved with a thick line that descended from high on the right to almost the bottom of the left, where it curved back right again; in the curve, a representation of a four-legged animal Connie could not identify crouched. The image that followed was another painting, this one of a trio of circular structures set in the lee of a broad hill, the diameter of each defined by a thick wall, the interior stood with T-shaped monoliths like the one on the previous screen.
Rick sped through the next dozen screens, long rows of equations more complex than any Connie had encountered in her college math cla.s.s, half of each line composed of symbols she thought were Greek but wasn"t sure. When he came to what appeared to be a list of questions, Rick stopped. Connie could read the first line: 12,000 year orbit coincides with construction of Gobekli Tepe: built in advance of, or in response to, seeding?
Oh G.o.d, Connie thought. She said, "You want to come to bed?"
"I will. You go ahead."
"I don"t want you sitting up half the night feeling guilty."
He paused, then said, "It isn"t guilt."
"Oh? What is it?"
He shook his head. "I had a dream."
Her mouth went dry. "Oh?"
He nodded. "I was sitting here with my Dad. We were both wearing tuxedoes, and the table had been set for some kind of elaborate meal: white linen tablecloth, candelabra, china plates, the works. It was early in the morning-at least, I think it was, because the windows were pouring light into the room. The plates, the cutlery, the gla.s.ses-everything was shining, it was so bright. For a long time, it felt like, we sat there-here-and then I noticed Dad was holding his fork and knife and was using them to cut something on his plate. It was this," he nodded at the cooler, "this thing. He was having a rough time. He couldn"t grip the cutlery right; it was as if he"d forgotten how to hold them. His knife kept slipping, sc.r.a.ping on the plate. The thing was tough; he really had to saw at it. It was making this noise, this high-pitched sound that was kind of like a violin. It was bleeding, or leaking, black, syrupy stuff that was all over the plate, the knife, splattering the tablecloth, Dad"s shirt. Finally, he got a piece of the thing loose and raised it to his mouth. Only, his lips were still trembling, you know, doing that silent mumble, and he couldn"t maneuver the fork past them. The piece flopped on the table. He frowned, speared it with his fork again, and made another try. No luck. The third time, the piece hit the edge of the table and bounced off. That was it. He dropped the cutlery, grabbed the thing on his plate with both hands, and brought it up. His face was so eager. He licked his lips and took a huge bite. He had to clamp down hard, pull the rest away. There was a ripping noise. The thing"s blood was all over his lips, his teeth, his tongue; his mouth looked like a black hole."
Connie waited for him to continue. When he didn"t, she said, "And?"
"That was it. I woke up and came down here. There was nothing on TV, so I thought I"d get out Dad"s laptop and... It"s like a connection to him, to how he used to be, you know? I mean, I know he was already pretty bad when he was working on this stuff, but at least he was there."
"Huh." Connie considered relating her own dream, decided instead to ask, "What do you think your dream means?"
"I don"t know. I dream about my Dad a lot, but this..."
"Do you-"
"What if it"s from another planet?"
"What?"
"Maybe the dream"s a message."
"I don"t-"
"That would explain why there"s no record of it, anywhere, why none of the museums knows anything about it."
"That doesn"t make any sense," Connie said. "If this thing were some kind of alien, you"d expect it"d be all over the news."
"Maybe it"s dangerous-or they aren"t sure if it"s dangerous."
"So they pack it into a cooler?"
"They"re trying to fly under the radar."
"I don"t know-that"s so low, it"s underground."
"Or... what if a couple of guys found it-somewhere, they were out hunting or fishing or something-and they decided to take it with them in the cooler they"d brought for their beers?"
"Then why the red cross on the cooler? What about the sticker?"
"Coincidence-they just happened to take that cooler."
"I could-look, even if that is the case, if a couple of hunters came upon this thing, I don"t know, fresh from its meteorite, and emptied out their oddly decorated cooler so they could be famous as the first guys to encounter E.T., how does that help us know what to do?"
"We could call NASA."
"Who what? would send out the Men in Black?"
"I"m serious!" Rick almost shouted. "This is serious! Jesus! We could be-we have-why can"t you take this seriously?" He turned to glare at her as he spoke.
"Rick-"
"Don"t "Rick" me."
Connie inhaled. "Honey-it"s late. We"re tired. Let"s not do this, okay? Not now. I"m sorry if I"m not taking this seriously. It"s been a long day. Whatever it is, the thing in the cooler"ll keep until we get some sleep. If you want, we can call NASA first thing in the morning. Really-I swear."
"I-" She readied herself for the next phase of his outburst, then, "You"re right," Rick said. "You"re right. It has been a long day, hasn"t it?"
"Very. I can"t believe you aren"t exhausted."
"I am-believe me, I"m dead on my feet. It"s just, this thing-"
"I understand-honest, I do. Why don"t you come up to bed? Maybe once you lie down-"
"All right. You go up. I just need a minute more."
"For what?" she wanted to ask but didn"t, opting instead to drape her arms over his shoulders and press her cheek against his neck. "Love you," she said into his skin.
"Love you, too."
Her heart, settled after its earlier gallop, broke into a trot again as she padded down the hall to the stairs. The sight of Rick, once more staring at the computer screen, did nothing to calm it, nor did her lowering herself onto the bed, drawing the covers up. If anything, the thoroughbred under her ribs charged faster. She gazed at the bedroom ceiling, feeling the mattress resound with her pulse. Was she having a panic attack? Don"t think about it, she told herself. Concentrate on something else.
Rick. What else was there besides him at the table, his fingers resting on the keyboard"s sides, sifting through his father"s last, bizarre project? Not the most rea.s.suring behavior; although it was true: each monthly pilgrimage to his father left him unsettled for the rest of that day, sometimes the next. No matter how many times she told him that his Dad was in the best place, that the home provided him a quality of care they couldn"t have (not to mention, his father"s insurance covered it in full), and no matter how many times Rick answered, "You"re right; you"re absolutely right," she knew that he didn"t accept her reasoning, her rea.s.surance. In the past, thinking that anger might help him to articulate his obvious guilt, she had tried to pick a fight with him, stir him to argument, but he had headed the opposite direction, descended into himself for the remainder of the weekend. She had suggested they visit his Dad more often, offered to rearrange her work schedule so that they could go up twice a month, even three times. What good was being store manager, she"d said, if you couldn"t use it to your advantage? Albany wasn"t that far, and there were supposed to be good restaurants there; they could make a day of it, spend time with his father and have some time for themselves, too.
No, no, Rick had said. It wasn"t fair for her to have to rework the schedule (arriving at which she"d compared to the circus act where the clown spins the plates on the ends of all the poles he"s holding while balancing his unicycle on the highwire). It wasn"t as if his Dad would know the difference, anyway.
He might not, Connie had said, but you will.
It was no good, though; Rick"s mind had been made up before their conversation had started. He had never admitted it, but Connie was sure he was still traumatized by his father"s last months of-you couldn"t call it lucidity, exactly, since what he would call to yell at Rick about was pretty insane. Gary Wilson had been an astronomer, his most recent work an intensive study of the dwarf planets discovered beyond Neptune in the first decade of the twenty-first century: Eris, Sedna, and Orcus were the names she remembered. From what she understood, his research on the surface conditions on these bodies was cutting-edge stuff; he had been involved in the planning for a probe to explore some of them. Plenty of times, she and Rick had arrived at his apartment to take him to dinner, only to find him seated at his desk, staring at his computer monitor, at a painting of one or the other of the dwarf planets. At those moments, he had seemed a million miles away, further, as far as one of the spheres he studied. Hindsight"s clarity made it obvious he was experiencing the early effects of Alzheimer"s, but the spells had always broken the moment Rick shook him and said, "Dad, it"s us," and it had been easier to accept her father-in-law"s a.s.surance that he had merely been daydreaming.
Not until his behavior became more erratic did it dawn on them that Rick"s father might not be well. His attention had been focused on one dwarf planet, Sedna, for months. Connie had sat beside him at the Plaza diner as he flipped over his mat and drew an asterisk in the center of it which he surrounded with a swirl of concentric circles, all of which he placed at one end of a great oval. "This is Sedna"s...o...b..t," he had said, jabbing his pen at the oval. "Twelve thousand years, give or take a few hundred. Over the next couple of centuries, it will be as close to us as it"s been during the whole of recorded history. The last time it was this near, well..."
"What?" Rick had said.
"You"ll see," his father had declared.
They hadn"t, though, not directly. One of Rick"s father"s friends at the state university had phoned after a presentation during which the extent of Gary Wilson"s breakdown had become manifest. Connie had heard the lecture, herself, in person, on the phone, and in a long, rambling voicemail. She considered herself reasonably well-educated in a hold-your-own-at-Trivial-Pursuit kind of way, but Rick"s father"s discussion strained her comprehension. Almost thirteen thousand years ago, a comet had burst over the Great Lakes-yes, that was a controversial claim, but how else to explain the high levels of iridium, the nano-diamonds? The glaciers were already in retreat, you see; it was the right time, if you could measure time in centuries-millennia. This was when the Clovis disappeared-wiped out, or a.s.similated in some way, it was hard to say. You wouldn"t think a stone point much of a threat, but you"d be surprised. The drawings at Lascaux-well, never mind them. It"s what happens at Gobekli Tepe that"s important. Those curves on the stones-has anyone thought of mapping them onto Sedna"s...o...b..t? The results-as for the shape of the monuments, those giant T"s, why, they"re perches, for the messengers.
And so on. The thing was, while Rick"s father was propounding this lunatic hodgepodge of invention, he sounded as reasonable, as kindly, as he ever had. Perhaps that was because she hadn"t challenged him in the way that Rick did, told him that his ideas were crazy, he was flushing his career down the toilet. Confronted by his son"s strenuous disbelief, Gary flushed with anger, was overtaken by storms of rage more intense than any she had witnessed in the seven years she had known him. He would stalk from their house and demand that Connie drive him home, then, once home, he would call and harangue Rick for another hour, sometimes two, until Rick reached his boiling point and hung up on him.
The end, when it came, had come quickly: she had been amazed at the speed with which Rick"s father had been convinced to accept early retirement and a place in an a.s.sisted living facility. There had been a brief period of days, not even a full week, during which he had returned to something like his old self. He had signed all the papers necessary to effect his departure from the college and his relocation to Morrison Hills. He had spoken to Rick and Connie calmly, with barely a mention of Sedna"s impending return. Two days after he settled into his new, undersized room, Gary had suffered a catastrophic event somewhere in his brain that the doctors refused to call a stroke, saying the MRI results were all wrong for that. (Frankly, they seemed mystified by what had happened to him during the night.) Whatever its name, the occurrence had left him a few steps up from catatonic, intermittently responsive and usually in ways that made no sense. There was talk of further study, of sub-specialists being brought in, possible trips to hospitals in other states, but nothing, as yet, had come to pa.s.s. Connie doubted any of it would. There were more than enough residents of the facility who could and did vocalize their complaints, and less than enough staff to spare on a man whose tongue was so much dead weight.
Harrowing as Rick"s father"s decline had been, she supposed she should be grateful that it had not stretched out longer than it had. From talking with staff at Morrison, she knew that it could take years for a parent"s worsened condition to convince them/their family that something had to be done. At the same time, though, Rick had been ambivalent about his father entering a.s.sisted living. There was enough room in the house for him: he could have stayed in the downstairs bedroom and had his own bathroom. But neither of them was available for-or, to be honest, up for-the task of caring for him. Rick"s consent to his father"s move had been conditional; he had insisted and Connie had agreed that they would re-evaluate the situation in six months. Their contract had been rendered null and void by Gary"s collapse, which had left him in need of a level of care far beyond that for which either of them was equipped. However irrational the sentiment might be, Connie knew that Rick took his father"s crash as a rebuke from the universe for having agreed to send him away in the first place.
Connie didn"t realize she had crossed over into sleep again until she noticed that the bedroom"s ceiling and walls had vanished, replaced by a night sky br.i.m.m.i.n.g with stars. Her bed was sitting on a vast plane, dimly lit by the stars" collective radiance. Its dark red expanse was stippled and ridged, riven by channels; she had the impression of dense mud. That and cold: although she could not feel it on her skin, she sensed that wherever this was was so cold it should have frozen her in place, her blood crystallized, her organs chunks of ice.
To her left, a figure was progressing slowly across the plane. It was difficult to be sure, but it looked like a man, dressed in black. Every few steps, he would pause and study the ground in front of him, occasionally crouching and poking it with one hand. Connie watched him for what might have been a long time. Her bed, she noticed, was strewn with orchids, their petals eggplant and rose. At last, she drew back the blanket, lowered herself onto the red mud, and set out toward him.
She had expected the mud to be ice-brittle, but while it was firm under her feet, it was also the slightest bit spongy. She wasn"t sure how this could be. A glance over her shoulder showed the bed and its cargo of flowers unmoved. While she was still far away from him, she saw that the man ahead of her was wearing a tuxedo, and that he was Rick"s father. She was not surprised by either of these facts.
In contrast to her previous dream of him, Gary Wilson stood tall, alert. He was following a series of depressions in the plane"s surface, each a concave dip of about a foot, maybe six feet from the one behind it. At the bottom of the depressions, something dark shone through the red mud. When he bent to prod one, he licked his finger clean afterwards. Connie could feel his awareness of her long before she drew near, but he waited until she was standing beside him to say, "Well?"
"Where is this?"
"Oh, come now," he said, disappointment bending his voice. "You know the answer to that already."
She did. "Sedna."
He nodded. "The nursery."
"For those?" She pointed at the depression before him.
"Of course."