"It"s called a handkerchief," Fellgair said. "One day-in the not-so-distant future, I hope-the best people will use these instead of sleeves to wipe their faces."
She did as he suggested, although it struck her that st.u.r.dy doeskin would do a much better job than this lacy little cobweb. Still, it was very pretty; perhaps the best people"s noses didn"t leak so much when they cried.
When she held it out to him, he examined the crumpled mess with obvious distaste. "Keep it. Please. Perhaps you"ll start a trend in your village." He shifted his examination to her face and sighed. "You"re not one of those women who weeps beautifully, are you?"
"If the sight offends you, you may rescind our bargain."
"On the contrary, I find red noses erotic." He waggled his long tongue at her in such a parody of lewdness that she had to smile. "Much better."
"Thank you."
"You do have a low threshold for compliments."
"I meant for telling me about Keirith."
"Ah. Well. It pleases me to please you."
And that, of course, was why she was here: to serve his pleasure. Before sunset, she must lie with him. Allowing her to see Rowan, telling her about Keirith . . . these were simply his form of foreplay. He would never be so crude as to throw her to the ground and mount her. He wasn"t Jurl. But it surprised her that he should think such gestures necessary. He was a G.o.d, after all. He could make her desire him, just as he had all those years ago. Knowing that Keirith was safe, knowing that he would protect Darak, she would offer herself willingly and consider the price cheap.
"Why do you want me?" Her face grew warm under his scrutiny, but she forced herself to add, "You could have any woman in the world. Younger women. Prettier women."
The kind of women who knew instinctively what handkerchiefs were for. Women who looked beautiful when they wept. Women with soft voices and softer bodies, their bellies unmarred by stretch marks, their b.r.e.a.s.t.s high and firm.
Instead of mocking her, his expression became thoughtful. "I admire your courage and your fierceness. The marks on your belly testify to the pain of childbirth. Your b.r.e.a.s.t.s, to the children you"ve suckled. Your fingertips . . ." He took her hand and turned it over, one claw lightly caressing the green-tinged tips. ". . . to the years of handling the plants that heal your people. And if your hair is streaked with white and occasionally less than tidy . . ." The dexterous claws moved. A leaf fluttered to the ground. ". . . it bespeaks the battles you have fought and survived."
The golden eyes filled her vision, as hot as the Summerlands sun. And then they vanished as he pressed a gentle kiss to her cheek. His whiskers still tickled.
"Come. We"ll find Rowan. And later, I"ll show you other sights. There are many wonders in the world, Griane. I am only one."
The mocking smile returned. Before she could reply, he tightened his grip on her hand. Again, the world dissolved, only to re-form moments later as time and s.p.a.ce stuttered to a halt. The blur of color and light solidified into images: a circle of trees around her, bare earth beneath her toes, and in front of her, a ma.s.sive wall of wood that she recognized as the trunk of the great oak under whose roots she had once slept.
The shadows were as deep as ever beneath the oak"s branches, the leaves fluttered as gently in the slight breeze. But there was was something different: the luminosity of the runneled bark, the shimmering intensity of the green leaves. The spirit of the Oak-Lord now dwelled within the tree, sheltering here after his defeat at Midsummer. A living, immortal presence imbuing the tree with his power, filling the clearing with an energy so vital it made her skin p.r.i.c.kle. Warmth suffused her as if she"d drunk too much elderberry wine. Nay, not wine, but the water of the Summerlands, filling her with strength and peace. something different: the luminosity of the runneled bark, the shimmering intensity of the green leaves. The spirit of the Oak-Lord now dwelled within the tree, sheltering here after his defeat at Midsummer. A living, immortal presence imbuing the tree with his power, filling the clearing with an energy so vital it made her skin p.r.i.c.kle. Warmth suffused her as if she"d drunk too much elderberry wine. Nay, not wine, but the water of the Summerlands, filling her with strength and peace.
She rested her cheek against one of the roots that arched high over her head, wanting to be closer to the source of that peace. Then she heard the rustle of leaves and the creak of branches and looked up.
Fellgair was right. They looked just the same to her, that strange amalgam of tree and human, their faces grooved and rough, their green hands serrated like leaves. Her gaze flitted from the spiky needles that capped the pine-man"s head to the mottled silver of the birch-woman"s belly to-Maker spare her blushing face-the large acorns that swung between the oak-man"s legs.
And then she spied two eyes of Midsummer green. Smooth gray lips pursed in a knothole of surprise. A thick bead of sap hung suspended on one cheek. Nine delicate fingers reached out to touch her hair. Among the fading white blossoms at her wrist, Griane spied a circlet of bright red hair. Laughing in spite of the tears that blurred her vision, she flung herself into Rowan"s strong arms.
There were advantages to traveling with a G.o.d. Fellgair interrupted her clumsy sign language to interpret for her. To her ears, he spoke the tribal tongue, but his words apparently made sense to the tree-folk. There was much leaf fluttering during the tale of her journey through the First Forest, but when she told them about Tinnean, it was as if a great storm blew through. She had to describe his transformation twice before they calmed.
Of course, the story of the boy who became a tree had more impact than her endless chatter about Darak and the children and her life in a village they had never seen. But they listened attentively and Rowan, at least, seemed to understand her anguish when she explained what had happened to Keirith.
When her voice finally ran down, Rowan touched her hair again. Lounging against a root, Fellgair said, "She"s wondering about the white streaks. Why this change happens now instead of in the autumn when leaves change their color." His brief explanation of aging provoked more leaf fluttering. "Rowan asks what you are becoming."
"Becoming?"
"Aging is not a process they understand. Change is. Rowan is becoming more human. So she wonders what the nature of your change is."
"What should I tell her?"
Fellgair shrugged. "Tell her what you like."
"But if the tree-folk are becoming more human, won"t they die one day? I wouldn"t want to frighten them."
"Here, there is no death. There"s a slight dimming of the life-force when the Oak-Lord returns to the One Tree, but only if he was destroyed-or if the balance of nature was irreparably damaged-would the creatures of the Summerlands die."
"But the Oak-Lord"s spirit is immortal. He"s a G.o.d. He can"t die."
"Who told you that?"
"I don"t know. Struath, I suppose."
Fellgair rolled his eyes. "Ah, the beloved shaman. Strong, secretive, and woefully misinformed. We"re immortal in the sense that we neither age nor change, but we are not indestructible. Anything that is created can be destroyed. Even me."
In a few sentences, he had changed her entire conception of the world. Yet it had existed thus since the Beginning. And would continue to exist as long as nothing happened to-how did Fellgair put it?-irreparably damage the balance of nature.
"How should I answer Rowan?" Fellgair asked.
"Tell her that I"ll continue to change. My hair will grow whiter and my face will become grooved like an elder. And one day, my . . . my heartwood will become a b.u.t.terfly and leave the coc.o.o.n of my body and fly to a place like the Summerlands. And I"ll live there forever. Unless I want to spin another coc.o.o.n."
"What an appalling mix of metaphors," Fellgair murmured.
"Well, I"m not a Memory-Keeper, am I? Tell her whatever you want."
"Very well."
"Except that I"m going to die."
"Fine."
"Or become infirm."
Fellgair closed his eyes. His lips moved. She was quite certain he wasn"t praying. But he simply told Rowan that the changes she had observed were natural to humans and occurred more quickly in their kind than in the tree-folk. When Rowan accepted his explanation with a small nod, Fellgair rose, licked the tip of his brush twice, and announced, "Now we must leave you."
"So soon?"
"It"s nearly midday."
She hadn"t realized so much time had pa.s.sed. Much as she wanted to linger, she was wary of testing Fellgair"s patience.
The tree-folk moved closer. She patted a barky arm, stroked a drooping catkin. When they turned their backs, she feared she had offended them. Then she realized they were forming a protective circle that excluded the Trickster.
She peered between Rowan and the oak-man. Fellgair still wore a pleasant smile, but his brush swished back and forth with more vigor than usual.
"Griane?"
Of course, she would go with him. He held Darak"s life in his hands. But it puzzled her that he would ask so politely when he had the power to force the tree-folk to stand aside. Perhaps the Summerlands hindered his ability to make mischief. She doubted this place would encourage visits from the Unmaker"s son.
"Griane."
"I"m coming."
She hugged Rowan hard, repeating all the useless things people say when they don"t want to say good-bye. Even if they couldn"t understand the words-Fellgair refused to translate-she hoped they would understand the sincerity of her voice and her gestures.
Rowan touched her cheek. Griane took the delicate hand and kissed the nine fingers one by one. Then she slipped out of the circle to take her place beside Fellgair. The last thing she saw before the clearing melted away was Rowan pressing her fingertips to her lips.
Fellgair was true to his promise. He showed her many wonders, both within the Summerlands and without. He allowed her to peep through portals at snow-clad mountains that extended from horizon to horizon, their peaks so high they were obscured by windswept clouds. She looked into deep canyons of rock striped all the colors of sunset, across endless hills of golden sand that rippled like waves. She hovered over sprawling cities of stone and tiny villages of snow and ice. She saw women dressed in cloth so sheer it revealed every curve of their bodies, and others bundled in so many furs that only their dark eyes were visible.
And then he gave her still greater joy by leading her through the Summerlands and teaching her about its plants. He pointed out ones she recognized like sundew and red-shank, without ever realizing they could be used to dye wool. He gently uprooted unfamiliar ones and offered them to her with an explanation of their healing properties. She repeated his instructions out loud to imprint them on her memory and darted from plant to plant, demanding information that he always provided with an indulgent smile.
When her hands overflowed with her bounty, he conjured another handkerchief, much larger than the first, so she could carry her precious sprigs. When she grew weary of walking, he whisked her back to the waterfall so she could drink and be restored. And when she clasped his white-ruffed cheeks between her palms and kissed him soundly on the lips, he pressed one hand to his heart, groaned ecstatically, and collapsed on the gra.s.s at her feet.
"Oh, Fellgair, I never expected . . . it was more than I ever . . ." She dropped to her knees beside him. "Thank you."
"You"re welcome." He raised himself on his elbow, squinting against the brilliance of the afternoon sun. "There is something else I would show you. But I"m not certain it will please you."
Her smile faded. "Darak. Is he ill? Or hurt? Or-"
"It"s not Darak I planned to show you, but Faelia. But if you wish to see him-"
"What"s happened to Faelia?"
"Nothing. Yet. Stop spluttering. She"s fine. But something might happen today that will . . . change things."
"What? What will happen?"
With one claw, he sliced open the air in front of her. She caught a glimpse of brown and green before he grasped both edges of the sky and peeled it back, revealing a dense forest that hung suspended between the summit of the waterfall and the pool. A thin mist obscured the vista, yet bright shafts of sunlight slanted through the trees.
"The mist is my doing. It allows us to watch without being seen, to speak without being heard."
"But where . . . ?" The words trailed off. At first, she thought it was one of the Watchers, but the trees were far smaller than those of the First Forest. Then she saw a flash of red among the greens and browns.
Faelia took three steps forward and froze. Griane stifled a cry at the sight of the bow. Was it Keirith"s old one or had she crafted it herself? And why, why had she flouted the tribe"s law to hunt with it?
Her daughter"s face was intent, her eyes fixed on something Griane could not see. As she watched, Faelia took three more steps and froze again, as motionless as the trees around her. In one fluid movement, she brought the bow up, drew the bowstring back to her cheek, and released. In a blur of motion, she drew another arrow from her quiver, nocked it and released again.
Her triumphant shout broke the stillness. She raced out of sight, but with a quick gesture, Fellgair shifted the scene to follow her. Faelia knelt beside a small doe, fingers stroking the long neck, lips moving in a prayer too soft for Griane to hear. The doe"s flanks heaved once, twice, and fell still.
Why had Fellgair shown her this? So she could put a stop to Faelia"s hunting before anyone else found out?
Something moved in the shadows behind Faelia. Griane tensed, but Fellgair"s hand came down on her shoulder. "Wait."
A large paw rested against the trunk of a birch. The tree"s branches drooped, yellow catkins reaching out to return the caress. The leaves of the neighboring trees fluttered as if they, too, sought the creature"s touch. Faelia"s head came up and her hand moved to the quiver. She scanned the trees but apparently saw nothing for she turned back to the doe.
A dark form emerged into a shaft of sunlight. Griane gasped as she beheld the wide-spreading antlers, the green leaves cascading over a chest as ma.s.sive and furry as a bear"s.
Hernan. The Forest-Lord. Protector of wild things and lord of the hunt. Darak claimed the G.o.d had led him back to the grove, but he"d been out of his mind with fever and she had never really believed it. The delicate feathers on his legs trembled with every step, a shivering display of blue and brown, tawny and gold. Darak had said nothing about those or the large, webbed feet that moved silently through the thick mulch of dead leaves. But he had described the feel of Hernan"s warm paw cupping the back of his neck. Those paws looked strong enough to break Faelia"s neck like a twig, but the Forest-Lord seemed content to observe her.
"Why can"t she see him?"
"Because he doesn"t wish her to. She"s too young for such a vision."
She had warned Darak about encouraging Faelia. How would they ever turn her from this path now?
A giant paw rose and Griane"s breath caught, but the Forest-Lord simply laid it atop Faelia"s head. She moaned, a woman"s sound of pleasure. Then her eyes went wide. She scrambled to her feet and whirled around, but the G.o.d had already blended into the shadows. A hot blush stained her throat and cheeks. She muttered something under her breath and drew her dagger to butcher the doe.
Fellgair pulled the portal closed and held up a hand to forestall her furious questions. "He would not have harmed her. But he has offered his blessing."
"I don"t want his blessing. I want him to leave my daughter alone."
"It"s too late for that. Faelia is a hunter like her father. To try and turn her from this path would be as cruel as . . ."
"As what? What?"
"As attempting to turn Darak from his," Fellgair concluded, his voice gentle.
"But I didn"t . . . Darak chose to become a Memory-Keeper. Even you encouraged him."
"I sent a dream to Old Sim. Who offered Darak a choice. Which Darak accepted. It"s taken him nearly half his life to understand that he made the wrong choice. No man who abandons his life-path can be truly happy."
Vehement denials rose to her lips and died. She had seen Darak bring down a doe in the First Forest with one shot to the heart, remembered the fierce joy on his face, the exuberance of his embrace. When, in all his years as Memory-Keeper, had she ever seen such exultation?
"Has he been so . . . so miserable all these years?"
"You know he hasn"t."
It helped to hear Fellgair confirm that. Darak loved her. And the children. He"d been happy with them-and unhappy with himself. A part of her had always recognized the truth, but she had thrust it away, fearing that if he went back to the forest, she would lose him.
"They will need more than your love when they return, Griane. They will need your acceptance."
She nodded, her heart pounding. Not "if" they returned but "when." They were both coming back to her.
"There"s more."
"Is it . . . bad?"
For a long moment, Fellgair hesitated. Then he sliced open the sky once again. This time, she saw two men standing on a beach. Although their backs were turned to her, she recognized Darak at once. A soft whimper escaped her as he turned toward the other man. He looked exhausted. His clothes hung on him. But he was alive, thank the Maker. Alive and unharmed.
The other man continued staring out to sea, his shoulders slumped. Compared to Darak, he looked positively frail. Although he wore the tunic and breeches of a raider, his hair was very short, little more than a cap of dark fuzz.
Darak was speaking with some urgency, and she longed to hear what he was saying. But it was the hunger on his face that shocked her, a naked longing that he masked immediately when the other man glanced up at him.
"Who is he?" she whispered.
His spa.r.s.e hair had made her conclude the man was Darak"s age, but he was young and smooth-cheeked. He kept shaking his head until Darak seized his shoulders. Then his eyes squeezed shut and an expression of despair came over his face. Darak pulled him close. Slowly, the younger man"s arms came up and he rested his cheek against Darak"s chest.
They were still standing there, locked in each other"s arms, when Fellgair pulled the portal shut.