"They gave us clothes. Gave Gave us," he muttered. "How"d you do that?" us," he muttered. "How"d you do that?"
"They gave us everything, Suegar. Come on, I"ve got to talk to Oliver again." Miles dragged Suegar off determinedly. "I wonder how much time we"ve actually got before the next chow call? Two in each twenty-four-hour cycle, to be sure, but I wouldn"t be surprised if it"s irregular, to increase your temporal disorientation-after all, it"s the only clock in here ..."
Movement caught Miles"s eye, a man running. It wasn"t the occasional flurry of someone outrunning a hostile group; this one just ran, head down, flat out, bare feet thumping the dirt in frantic rhythm. He followed the perimeter generally, except for a detour around the border of the women"s group. As he ran, he wept.
"What"s this?" Miles asked Suegar, with a nod at the approaching figure.
Suegar shrugged. "It takes you like that sometimes. When you can"t stand sitting in here any more. I saw a guy run till he died, once. Around and around and around . . ."
"Well," Miles decided, "this one"s running to us."
"He"s gonna be running away from us in a second . . ."
"Then help me catch him."
Miles. .h.i.t him low and Suegar high. Suegar sat on his chest. Miles sat on his right arm, halving his effective resistance. He must have been a very young soldier when he was captured-maybe he had lied about his age at induction-for even now he had a boy"s face, ravaged by tears and his personal eternity inside this hollow pearl. He inhaled in sobbing gasps and exhaled in garbled obscenities. After a time he quieted.
Miles leaned into his face and grinned wolfishly. "You a party animal, boy?"
"Yeah . . ." his white-rimmed eyes rolled, right and left, but no rescue approached.
"How "bout your friends? They party animals too?"
"The best," the boy a.s.serted, perhaps secretly shaken by the suspicion that he"d fallen into the hands of someone even crazier than himself. "You better clear off me, mutant, or they"ll take you apart."
"I want to invite you and your friends to a major major party," Miles chanted. "We gonna have a party tonight that"s an his-tor-i-cal event. You know where to find Sergeant Oliver, late of the 14th Commandos?" party," Miles chanted. "We gonna have a party tonight that"s an his-tor-i-cal event. You know where to find Sergeant Oliver, late of the 14th Commandos?"
"Yeah . . ." the boy admitted cautiously.
"Well, you go get your friends and report to him. You better reserve your seat aboard his ve-hic-le now, "cause if you"re not on it, you gonna be under under it. The Reformation Army is moving out. You copy?" it. The Reformation Army is moving out. You copy?"
"Copy," he gasped, as Suegar pressed his fist into the boy"s solar plexus for emphasis.
"Tell him Brother Miles sent you," Miles called as the boy staggered off, glancing nervously over his shoulder. "You can"t hide in here. If you don"t show, I"ll send the Cosmic Commandos to find you."
Suegar shook out his cramped limbs, his new used clothes. "Think he"ll come?"
Miles grinned. "Fight or flight. That one"ll be all right." He stretched himself, recaptured his original orientation. "Oliver."
In the end they had not twenty, but 200. Oliver had picked up forty-six. The running boy brought in eighteen. The signs of order and activity in the area brought in the curious-a drifter at the edge of the group had only to ask, "What"s going on?" to be inducted and promoted to corporal on the spot. Interest among the spectators was aroused to a fever when Oliver"s troops marched up to the women"s border-and were admitted within. They picked up another seventy-five volunteers instantly.
"Do you know what"s going on?" Miles asked one such, as he fed them through a short gauntlet of inspection and sent them off to one of the fourteen command groups he had devised.
"No," the man admitted. He waved an arm eagerly toward the center of the women"s group. "But I wanta go where they"re they"re go-ing . . ." go-ing . . ."
Miles cut the admissions off at 200 total in deference to Tris"s growing nervousness at this infiltration of her borders, and promptly turned the courtesy into a card in his own hand in their still-continuing strategy debate. Tris wanted to divide her group in the usual way, half for the attack, half to maintain home base and keep the borders from collapsing. Miles was insisting on an all-out effort.
"If we win, you won"t need guards anymore."
"What if we lose?"
Miles lowered his voice. "We don"t dare lose. This is the only time we"ll have surprise on our side. Yes, we can fall back-re-group-try again-I for one am prepared-no, compelled-to keep trying till it kills me. But after this, what we"re trying to do will be fully apparent to any counter-group, and they"ll have time to plan counter-strategies of their own. I have a particular aversion to stalemates. I prefer winning wars to prolonging them."
She sighed, momentarily drained, tired, old. "I"ve been at war a long time, y"know? After a while even losing a war can start to look preferable to prolonging it."
He could feel his own resolve slip, sucked into the vortex of that same black doubt. He pointed upwards, dropping his voice to a rasping whisper. "But not, surely, to those those b.a.s.t.a.r.ds." b.a.s.t.a.r.ds."
She glanced upwards. Her shoulders straightened. "No. Not to those . . ." She took a deep breath. "All right, chaplain. You"ll get your all-out effort. Just once . . ."
Oliver returned from a circuit of the command groups and squatted beside them. "They"ve got their orders. How many"s Tris contributing to each group?"
"Commandant Tris," Miles quickly corrected for her as her brows beetled. "It"s gonna be an all-out shot. You"ll get every walking body in here."
Oliver made a quick calculation in the dirt with his finger for a stylus. "That"ll put about fifty in each group-ought to be enough . . . matter of fact, what say we set up twenty groups? It"ll speed distribution when we get the lines set up. Could make the difference between bringing this off, and not."
"No," Miles cut in quickly as Tris began to nod agreement. "It has to be fourteen. Fourteen battle groups make fourteen lines for fourteen piles. Fourteen is-is a theologically significant number," he added as they stared doubtfully at him.
"Why?" asked Tris.
"For the fourteen apostles," Miles intoned, tenting his hands piously.
Tris shrugged. Suegar scratched his head, started to speak-Miles speared him with a baleful glance, and he stilled.
Oliver eyed him narrowly. "Huh." But he did not argue further.
Then came the waiting. Miles stopped worrying about his uppermost fear-that their captors would introduce the next food pile early, before his plans were in place-and started worrying about his second greatest fear, that the food pile would come so late he"d lose control of his troops and they would start to wander off, bored and discouraged. Getting them all a.s.sembled had made Miles feel like a man pulling on a goat with a rope made of water. Never had the insubstantial nature of the Idea seemed more self-apparent.
Oliver tapped him on the shoulder and pointed. "Here we go . . ."
A side of the dome about a third of the way around the edge from them began to bulge inward.
The timing was perfect. His troops were at the peak of readiness. Too perfect . . . the Centagandans had been watching all this, surely they wouldn"t miss an opportunity to make life more difficult for their prisoners. If the food pile wasn"t early, it had to be late. Or ...
Miles bounded to his feet, screaming. "Wait! Wait! Wait for my order!"
His sprint groups wavered, drawn toward the antic.i.p.ated goal. But Oliver had chosen his group commanders well-they held, and held their groups, and looked to Oliver. They had had been soldiers once. Oliver looked to Tris, flanked by her lieutenant Beatrice, and Tris looked to Miles, angrily. been soldiers once. Oliver looked to Tris, flanked by her lieutenant Beatrice, and Tris looked to Miles, angrily.
"What is it now? We"re gonna lose our advantage . , ." she began, as the general stampede throughout the camp started toward the bulge.
"If I"m wrong," Miles moaned, "I"m going to kill myself-wait, dammit! On my order. I can"t see-Suegar, give me a boost-" He clambered up on the thin man"s shoulders and stared toward the bulge. The force wall had only half twinkled out when the first distant cries of disappointment met his straining ears. Miles"s head swivelled frantically. How many wheels within wheels-if the Ceta-gandans knew, and he knew they knew, and they knew he knew they knew, and ... He cut off his internal gibber as a second bulge began, on the opposite side of the camp from the first.
Miles"s arm flung out, pointing toward it like a man rolling dice. "There! There! Go, go go!"
Tris caught on then, whistling and shooting him a look of startled respect, before whirling and dashing off to double-time the main body of their troops after the sprint groups. Miles slithered off Suegar and started limping after.
He glanced back over his shoulder, as the rolling grey ma.s.s of humanity crashed up against the opposite side of the dome and reversed itself. He felt suddenly like a man trying to outrun a tidal wave. He indulged himself with one brief antic.i.p.atory whimper, and limped faster.
One more chance to be mortally wrong-no. His sprint groups had reached the pile, and the pile was really there. Already they were starting to break it down. The support troops surrounded them with a wall of bodies as they began to spread out along the perimeter of the dome. The Cetagandans had outfoxed themselves. This time.
Miles was reduced from the commander"s eagle overview to the grunt"s worm"s-eye as the tidal wave overtook him. Someone shoved him from behind, and his face hit the dirt. He thought he recognized the back of the surly Pitt, vaulting over him, but he wasn"t certain- surly Pitt would have stepped on, not over him. Suegar yanked him up by the left arm, and Miles bit back a scream of pain. There was enough howling already.
Miles recognized the running boy, squaring off with another tough. Miles shoved past him with a shouted reminder-"You"re supposed to be yelling Get in line", Get in line", NOT NOT Get f.u.c.ked! . . . Get f.u.c.ked! . . . The signal always gets degraded in combat," he muttered to himself. "Always . . ." The signal always gets degraded in combat," he muttered to himself. "Always . . ."
Beatrice materialized beside him. Miles clung to her instantly. Beatrice had personal s.p.a.ce, her own private perimeter, maintained even as Miles watched, by a casual elbow to somebody"s jaw with a quite sickening crack. If he tried that, Miles reflected enviously, not only would he smash his own elbow, but his opponent"s nipple would probably be quite undamaged. Speaking of nipples, he found himself face to-well, not face-confronting the redhead. He resisted the urge to cuddle into the soft grey fabric covering home base with a contented sigh on the grounds that it would certainly get both his arms broken. He uncrossed his eyes and looked up into her face.
"C"mon," she said, and dragged him off through the mob. Was the noise level dropping? The human wall of his own troops parted just enough to let them squeeze through.
They were near the exit point of the chow line. It was working, by G.o.d it was working. The fourteen command groups, still bunched rather too closely along the dome wall-but that could be improved next run-were admitting the hungry supplicants one at a time. The expediters kept the lines moving at top speed, and channeled the already-supplied along the perimeter behind the human shield wall in a steady stream, to flow back out into the larger camp at the edge of the mob. Oliver had put his toughest-looking bravos to work in pairs, patrolling the outflow and making sure no one"s rat bar was taken by force.
It was a long time since anyone here had had a chance to be a hero. Not a few of the newly-appointed policemen were approaching their work with great enthusiasm-maybe some personal grudges being worked off there-Miles recognized one of the burly surlys p.r.o.ne beneath a pair of patrollers, apparently getting his face beaten in. Miles, remembering what he was about, tried not to find music in the meaty thunks of fist on flesh.
Miles and Beatrice and Suegar bucked the stream of rat bar-clutching prisoners back toward the distribution piles. With a slightly regretful sigh, Miles sought out Oliver and dispatched him to the exit to restore order among his order-keepers.
Tris had the distribution piles and their immediate lines under tight control. Miles congratulated himself on having the women hand out the food. He had definitely tuned into a deep emotional resonance there. Not a few of the prisoners even muttered a sheepish "thank you" as their rat bars were shoved into their hands, and so did the ones in line behind them, when their turns came.
Nyah! Miles thought upward to the bland and silent dome. Miles thought upward to the bland and silent dome. You don"t have the monopoly on psychological warfare any more, you b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. We"re gonna reverse your peristalsis, and I hope you barf your bowels out- You don"t have the monopoly on psychological warfare any more, you b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. We"re gonna reverse your peristalsis, and I hope you barf your bowels out- An altercation at one of the food piles interrupted his meditations. Miles"s lip curled with annoyance as he saw Pitt in the middle of it. He limped hastily toward it.
Pitt, it appeared, had repaid his rat bar not with a "thank you" but with a leer, a jeer, and a filthy remark. At least three of the women within hearing were trying to rip him apart, without success; he was big and beefy and had no inhibitions about fighting back. One of the females, not much taller than Miles himself, was knocked back in a heap and didn"t get up again. In the meantime, the line was jammed, and the smooth civilized flow of would-be diners totally disrupted. Miles cursed under his breath.
"You, you, you, and-you," Miles tapped shoulders, "grab that guy. Get him out of here-back to the dome wall-"
Miles"s draftees were not terribly pleased with their a.s.signment, but by this time Tris and Beatrice had run up and led the attack with rather more science. Pitt was seized and pulled away, behind the lines. Miles made sure the rat bar distribution pile was running again before turning his attention to the savage, foul-mouthed Pitt. Oliver and Suegar had joined him by this time.
"I"m gonna rip the b.a.s.t.a.r.d"s b.a.l.l.s off," Tris was saying. "I command-"
"A military command," Miles interrupted. "If this one is accused of disorderly conduct, you should court martial him."
"He is a rapist and a murderer," she replied icily. "Execution"s too good for him. He"s got to die slowly." slowly."
Miles pulled Suegar aside. "It"s tempting, but I feel real uneasy about handing him over to her just now. And yet . . . real uneasy. Why is that?"
Suegar eyed him respectfully. "I think you"re right. You see, there"s -there"s too many guilty."
Pitt, now in a foaming fury, spotted Miles. "You! You little c.u.n.t-licking wimp-you think they they can protect you?" He jerked his head toward Tris and Beatrice. "They ain"t got the muscle. We"ve run "em over before and we"ll run "em over again. We wouldn"ta lost the d.a.m.n war if we"d had real soldiers-like the Barrayarans. They didn"t fill their army with c.u.n.ts and c.u.n.t-lickers. And they ran the Cetagandans right off their planet-" can protect you?" He jerked his head toward Tris and Beatrice. "They ain"t got the muscle. We"ve run "em over before and we"ll run "em over again. We wouldn"ta lost the d.a.m.n war if we"d had real soldiers-like the Barrayarans. They didn"t fill their army with c.u.n.ts and c.u.n.t-lickers. And they ran the Cetagandans right off their planet-"
"Somehow," Miles growled, drawn in, "I doubt you"re an expert in the Barrayarans" defense of their homeworld in the First Cetagandan War. Or you might have learned something-"
"Did Tris make you an honorary girl, mutant?" jeered Pitt in return. "It wouldn"t take much-"
Why am I standing here bandying words with this low-life crazy? Miles asked himself as Pitt raved on. Miles asked himself as Pitt raved on. No time. Let"s finish it. No time. Let"s finish it.
Miles stepped back and folded his arms. "Has it occurred to any of you yet that this man is clearly a Cetagandan agent?"
Even Pitt was shocked to silence.
"The evidence is plain," Miles went on forcefully, raising his voice so all bystanders could hear. "He is a ringleader in your disruption. By example and guile he has corrupted the honest soldiers around him, set them one against another. You were Marilac"s best. The Cetagandans could not count on your fall. So they planted a seed of evil among you. Just to make sure. And it worked-wonderfully well. You never suspected-"
Oliver grabbed Miles"s ear and muttered, "Brother Miles-I know this guy. He"s no Cetagandan agent. He"s just one of a whole lot of-"
"Oliver," Miles hissed back through clenched teeth, "shut up." "shut up." And continued in his clearest parade-ground bellow, "Of course he"s a Cetagandan spy. A mole. And all this time you thought this was something you were doing to And continued in his clearest parade-ground bellow, "Of course he"s a Cetagandan spy. A mole. And all this time you thought this was something you were doing to yourselves." yourselves."
And where the devil does not exist, Miles thought to himself, Miles thought to himself, it may become expedient to invent him. it may become expedient to invent him. His stomach churned, but he kept his face set in righteous rage. He glanced at the faces around him. Not a few were as white as his must be, though for a different reason. A low mutter rose among them, partly bewildered, partly ominous. His stomach churned, but he kept his face set in righteous rage. He glanced at the faces around him. Not a few were as white as his must be, though for a different reason. A low mutter rose among them, partly bewildered, partly ominous.
"Pull off his shirt," Miles ordered, "and lay him down on his face. Suegar, give me your cup."
Suegar"s plastic cup had a jagged point along its broken edge. Miles sat on Pitt"s b.u.t.tocks, and using the point as a stylus scratched the words CETA SPY.
across Pitt"s back in large print. He dug deep and ruthlessly, and the blood welled. Pitt screamed and swore and bucked.
Miles scrambled to his feet, shaking and breathless from more than just the physical exertion.
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"Now," he ordered, "give him his rat bar and escort him to the exit."
Tris"s teeth opened in objection, clicked back down. Her eyes burned into Pitt"s back as he was hustled off. Her gaze turned rather more doubtfully to Miles, as she stood on one side of him and Oliver on the other.
"Do you really think he was a Cetagandan?" she asked Miles lowly. "No way," scoffed Oliver. "What the h.e.l.l"s the charade all about, Brother Miles?"
"I don"t doubt Tris"s accusation of his other crimes," said Miles tightly. "You must know. But he couldn"t be punished for them without dividing the camp, and so undermining Tris"s authority. This way, Tris and the women have their revenge without half the men being set against them. The commandant"s hands are clean, yet justice is done on a criminal, and a hard case who would doubtless be stockade bait outside is removed from under our feet. Furthermore, any like-minded souls are handed a warning they can"t ignore. It works on every level."
Oliver"s face had grown expressionless. After a silent moment he remarked, "You fight dirty, Brother Miles."
"I can"t afford to lose." Miles shot him a black look from beneath his own lowered brows. "Can you?"
Oliver"s lips tightened. "No."
Tris made no comment at all.
Miles personally oversaw the delivery of rat bars to all those prisoners too sick or weak or beaten to have attempted the chow line.
Colonel Tremont lay too still upon his mat, curled up, staring blankly. Oliver knelt and closed the drying, fixed eyes. The colonel might have died anytime in the last few hours.
"I"m sorry," said Miles sincerely. "Sorry I came so late."
"Well ..." said Oliver, "well . . ."
He stood, chewing on his lip, shook his head, and said no more. Miles and Suegar, Tris and Beatrice helped Oliver carry the body, mat, clothes, cup and all, to the rubbish pile. Oliver shoved the rat bar he had reserved under the dead man"s arm. No one attempted to strip the corpse after they had turned away, although another one stiffening there had already been so robbed, lying naked and tumbled.
They stumbled across Pitt"s body shortly thereafter. The cause of death was most probably strangulation, but the face was so battered that its empurpling was not a certain clue.
Tris, squatting beside it, looked up at Miles in slow re-estimation. "I think you may be right about power after all, little man."
"And revenge?"
"I thought I could never get my fill of it," she sighed, contemplating the thing beside her. "Yeah . . . that too."
"Thank you." Miles prodded the body with his toe. "Make no mistake, that that is a loss for our side." is a loss for our side."