The captain handed him the bottle jerkingly. "You heard what I said. Through the chest."
Parkhill muttered to himself.
"Now," said the captain.
They spread again, walking and then running, and then walking on the hot hillside places where there would be sudden cool grottoes that smelled of moss, and sudden open blasting places that smelled of sun on stone.
I hate being clever, thought the captain, when you don"t really feel clever and don"t want to be clever. To sneak around and make plans and feel big about making them. I hate this feeling of thinking I"m doing right when I"m not really certain I am. Who are we, anyway? The majority? Is that the answer? The majority is always holy, is it not? Always, always; just never wrong for one little insignificant tiny moment, is it? Never ever wrong in ten million years? He thought: What is this majority and who are in it? And what do they think and how did they get that way and will they ever change and how the devil did I get caught in this rotten majority? I don"t feel comfortable. Is it claustrophobia, fear of crowds, or common sense? Can one man be right, while all the world thinks they are right? Let"s not think about it. Let"s crawl around and act exciting and pull the trigger. There, and there!
The men ran and ducked and ran and squatted in shadows and showed their teeth, gasping, for the air was thin, not meant for running; the air was thin and they had to sit for five minutes at a time, wheezing and seeing black lights in their eyes, eating at the thin air and wanting more, tightening their eyes, and at last getting up, lifting their guns to tear holes in that thin summer air, holes of sound and heat.
Spender remained where he was, firing only on occasion.
"d.a.m.ned brains all over!" Parkhill yelled, running uphill.
The captain aimed his gun at Sam Parkhill. He put it down and stared at it in horror. "What were you doing?" he asked of his limp hand and the gun.
He had almost shot Parkhill in the back.
"G.o.d help me."
He saw Parkhill still running, then falling to lie safe.
Spender was being gathered in by a loose, running net of men. At the hilltop, behind two rocks, Spender lay, grinning with exhaustion from the thin atmosphere, great islands of sweat under each arm. The captain saw the two rocks. There was an interval between them of some four inches, giving free access to Spender"s chest.
"Hey, you!" cried Parkhill. "Here"s a slug for your head!"
Captain Wilder waited. Go on, Spender, he thought. Get out, like you said you would. You"ve only a few minutes to escape. Get out and come back later. Go on. You said you would. Go down in the tunnels you said you found, and lie there and live for months and years, reading your fine books and bathing in your temple pools. Go on, now, man, before it"s too late.
Spender did not move from his position.
"What"s wrong with him?" the captain asked himself.
The captain picked up his gun. He watched the running, hiding men. He looked at the towers of the little clean Martian village, like sharply carved chess pieces lying in the afternoon. He saw the rocks and the interval between where Spender"s chest was revealed.
Parkhill was charging up, screaming in fury.
"No, Parkhill," said the captain. "I can"t let you do it. Nor the others. No, none of you. Only me." He raised the gun and sighted it.
Will I be clean after this? he thought. Is it right that it"s me who does it? Yes, it is. I know what I"m doing for what reason and it"s right, because I think I"m the right person. I hope and pray I can live up to this.
He nodded his head at Spender. "Go on," he called in a loud whisper which no one heard. "I"ll give you thirty seconds more to get away. Thirty seconds!"
The watch ticked on his wrist. The captain watched it tick. The men were running. Spender did not move. The watch ticked for a long time, very loudly in the captain"s ears. "Go on, Spender, go on, get away!"
The thirty seconds were up.
The gun was sighted. The captain drew a deep breath. "Spender," he said, exhaling.
He pulled the trigger.
All that happened was that a faint powdering of rock went up in the sunlight. The echoes of the report faded.
The captain arose and called to his men: "He"s dead."
The other men did not believe it. Their angles had prevented their seeing that particular fissure in the rocks. They saw their captain run up the hill, alone, and thought him either very brave or insane.
The men came after him a few minutes later.
They gathered around the body and someone said, "In the chest?"
The captain looked down. "In the chest," he said. He saw how the rocks had changed color under Spender. "I wonder why he waited. I wonder why he didn"t escape as he planned. I wonder why he stayed on and got himself killed."
"Who knows?" someone said.
Spender lay there, his hands clasped, one around the gun, the other around the silver book that glittered in the sun.
Was it because of me? thought the captain. Was it because I refused to give in myself? Did Spender hate the idea of killing me? Am I any different from these others here? Is that what did it? Did he figure he could trust me? What other answer is there?
None. He squatted by the silent body.
I"ve got to live up to this, he thought. I can"t let him down now. If he figured there was something in me that was like himself and couldn"t kill me because of it, then what a job I have ahead of me! That"s it, yes, that"s it. I"m Spender all over again, but I think before I shoot. I don"t shoot at all, I don"t kill. I do things with people. And he couldn"t kill me because I was himself under a slightly different condition.
The captain felt the sunlight on the back of his neck. He heard himself talking: "If only he had come to me and talked it over before he shot anybody, we could have worked it out somehow."
"Worked what out?" said Parkhill. "What could we have worked out with his likes?"
There was a singing of heat in the land, off the rocks and off the blue sky. "I guess you"re right," said the captain. "We could never have got together. Spender and myself, perhaps. But Spender and you and the others, no, never. He"s better off now. Let me have a drink from that canteen."
It was the captain who suggested the empty sarcophagus for Spender. They had found an ancient Martian tomb yard. They put Spender into a silver case with waxes and wines which were ten thousand years old, his hands folded on his chest. The last they saw of him was his peaceful face.
They stood for a moment in the ancient vault. "I think it would be a good idea for you to think of Spender from time to time," said the captain.
They walked from the vault and shut the marble door.
The next afternoon Parkhill did some target practice in one of the dead cities, shooting out the crystal windows and blowing the tops off the fragile towers. The captain caught Parkhill and knocked his teeth out.
THE BURNING MAN.
THE RICKETY FORD CAME ALONG A ROAD that plowed up dust in yellow plumes which took an hour to lie back down and move no more in that special slumber that stuns the world in mid-July. Far away, the lake waited, a cool-blue gem in a hot-green lake of gra.s.s, but it was indeed still far away, and Neva and Doug were bucketing along in their barrelful of red-hot bolts with lemonade slopping around in a thermos on the back seat and deviled-ham sandwiches fermenting on Doug"s lap. Both boy and aunt sucked in hot air and talked out even hotter.
"Fire-eater," said Douglas. "I"m eating fire. Heck, I can hardly wait for that lake!"
Suddenly, up ahead, there was a man by the side of the road.
Shirt open to reveal his bronzed body to the waist, his hair ripened to wheat color by July, the man"s eyes burned fiery blue in a nest of sun wrinkles. He waved, dying in the heat.
Neva tromped on the brake. Fierce dust clouds rose to make the man vanish. When the golden dust sifted away his hot yellow eyes glared balefully, like a cat"s, defying the weather and the burning wind.
He stared at Douglas.
Douglas glanced away, nervously.
For you could see where the man had come across a field high with yellow gra.s.s baked and burned by eight weeks of no rain. There was a path where the man had broken the gra.s.s and cleaved a pa.s.sage to the road. The path went as far as one could see down to a dry swamp and an empty creek bed with nothing but baked hot stones in it and fried rock and melting sand.
"I"ll be d.a.m.ned, you stopped!" cried the man, angrily.
"I"ll be d.a.m.ned, I did," Neva yelled back. "Where you going?"
"I"ll think of someplace." The man hopped up like a cat and swung into the rumble seat. "Get going. It"s after us! The sun, I mean, of course!" He pointed straight up. "Git! Or we"ll all go mad!"
Neva stomped on the gas. The car left gravel and glided on pure white-hot dust, coming down only now and then to careen off a boulder or kiss a stone. They cut the land in half with racket. Above it, the man shouted: "Put"er up to seventy, eighty, h.e.l.l, why not ninety!"
Neva gave a quick, critical look at the lion, the intruder in the back seat, to see if she could shut his jaws with a glance. They shut.
And that, of course, is how Doug felt about the beast. Not a stranger, no, not hitchhiker, but intruder. In just two minutes of leaping into the red-hot car, with his jungle hair and jungle smell, he had managed to disingratiate himself with the climate, the automobile, Doug, and the honorable and perspiring aunt. Now she hunched over the wheel and nursed the car through further storms of heat and backlashes of gravel.
Meanwhile, the creature in the back, with his great lion ruff of hair and mint-fresh yellow eyes, licked his lips and looked straight on at Doug in the rearview mirror. He gave a wink. Douglas tried to wink back, but somehow the lid never came down.
"You ever try to figure-" yelled the man.
"What?" cried Neva.
"You ever try to figure," shouted the man, leaning forward between them "-whether or not the weather is driving you crazy, or you"re crazy already?"
It was a surprise of a question, which suddenly cooled them on this blast-furnace day.
"I don"t quite understand-" said Neva.
"Nor does anyone!" The man smelled like a lion house. His thin arms hung over and down between them, nervously tying and untying an invisible string. He moved as if there were nests of burning hair under each armpit. "Day like today, all h.e.l.l breaks loose inside your head. Lucifer was born on a day like this, in a wilderness like this," said the man. "With just fire and flame and smoke everywhere," said the man. "And everything so hot you can"t touch it, and people not wanting to be touched," said the man.
He gave a nudge to her elbow, a nudge to the boy.
They jumped a mile.
"You see?" The man smiled. "Day like today, you get to thinking lots of things." He smiled. "Ain"t this the summer when the seventeen-year locusts are supposed to come back like pure holocaust? Simple but mult.i.tudinous plagues?"
"Don"t know!" Neva drove fast, staring ahead.
"This is the summer. Holocaust just around the bend. I"m thinking so swift it hurts my eyeb.a.l.l.s, cracks my head. I"m liable to explode in a fireball with just plain disconnected thought. Why-why-why-"
Neva swallowed hard. Doug held his breath.
Quite suddenly they were terrified. For the man simply idled on with his talk, looking at the shimmering green fire trees that burned by on both sides, sniffing the rich hot dust that flailed up around the tin car, his voice neither high nor low, but steady and calm now in describing his life: "Yes, sir, there"s more to the world than people appreciate. If there can be seventeen-year locusts, why not seventeen-year people? Ever thought of that?"
"Never did," said someone.
Probably me, thought Doug, for his mouth had moved like a mouse.
"Or how about twenty-four-year people, or fifty-seven-year people? I mean, we"re all so used to people growing up, marrying, having kids, we never stop to think maybe there"s other ways for people coming into the world, maybe like locusts, once in a while, who can tell, one hot day, middle of summer!"
"Who can tell?" There was the mouse again. Doug"s lips trembled.
"And who"s to say there ain"t genetic evil in the world?" asked the man of the sun, glaring right up at it without blinking.
"What kind of evil?" asked Neva.
"Genetic, ma"am. In the blood, that is to say. People born evil, growed evil, died evil, no changes all the way down the line."
"Whew!" said Douglas. "You mean people who start out mean and stay at it?"
"You got the sum, boy. Why not? If there are people everyone thinks are angel-fine from their first sweet breath to their last pure declaration, why not sheer orneriness from January first to December, three hundred sixty-five days later?"
"I never thought of that," said the mouse.
"Think," said the man. "Think."
They thought for above five seconds.
"Now," said the man, squinting one eye at the cool lake five miles ahead, his other eye shut into darkness and ruminating on coal-bins of fact there, "listen. What if the intense heat, I mean the really hot hot heat of a month like this, week like this, day like today, just baked the Ornery Man right out of the river mud. Been there buried in the mud for forty-seven years, like a d.a.m.n larva, waiting to be born. And he shook himself awake and looked around, full grown, and climbed out of the hot mud into the world and said, "I think I"ll eat me some summer.""
"How"s that again?"
"Eat me some summer, boy, summer, ma"am. Just devour it whole. Look at them trees, ain"t they a whole dinner? Look at that field of wheat, ain"t that a feast? Them sunflowers by the road, by golly, there"s breakfast. Tarpaper on top that house, there"s lunch. And the lake, way up ahead, Jehoshaphat, that"s dinner wine, drink it all!"
"I"m thirsty, all right," said Doug.
"Thirsty, h.e.l.l, boy, thirst don"t begin to describe the state of a man, come to think about him, come to talk, who"s been waiting in the hot mud thirty years and is born but to die in one day! Thirst! Ye G.o.ds! Your ignorance is complete."
"Well," said Doug.
"Well," said the man. "Not only thirst but hunger. Hunger. Look around. Not only eat the trees and then the flowers blazing by the roads but then the white-hot panting dogs. There"s one. There"s another! And all the cats in the country. There"s two, just pa.s.sed three! And then just glutton-happy begin to why, why not, begin to get around to, let me tell you, how"s this strike you, eat people? I mean-people! Fried, cooked, boiled, and parboiled people. Sunburned beauties of people. Old men, young. Old ladies" hats and then old ladies under their hats and then young ladies" scarves and young ladies, and then young boys" swim-trunks, by G.o.d, and young boys, elbows, ankles, ears, toes, and eyebrows! Eyebrows, by G.o.d, men, women, boys, ladies, dogs, fill up the menu, sharpen your teeth, lick your lips, dinner"s on!"
"Wait!" someone cried.
Not me, thought Doug. I said nothing.
"Hold on!" someone yelled.
It was Neva.