"That"s a nice idea," said the hunter. "But how many of us have that much sense? Most of us don"t have brains enough to leave a party when the gin runs out. We hang around."
"We hang around," I said, "and what a shame."
We ordered some more beer.
The hunter drank half the gla.s.s and wiped his mouth.
"So what can you do about wrong graves?" he said.
"Treat them as if they didn"t exist," I said. "And maybe they"ll go away, like a bad dream."
The hunter laughed once, a kind of forlorn cry. "G.o.d, you"re crazy. But I like listening to crazy people. Blow some more."
"That"s all," I said.
"Are you the Resurrection and the Life?" said the hunter.
"No."
"You going to say Lazarus come forth?"
"No."
"What then?"
"I just want, very late in the day," I said, "to choose right places, right times, right graves."
"Drink that drink," said the hunter. "You need it. Who in h.e.l.l sent you?"
"Me," I said. "I did. And some friends. We all chipped in and picked one out of ten. We bought that truck out on the street and I drove it across country. On the way I did a lot of hunting and fishing to put myself in the right frame. I was in Cuba last year. Spain the summer before. Africa the summer before that. I got a lot to think about. That"s why they picked me."
"To do what, to do what, G.o.ddammit?" said the hunter urgently, half wildly, shaking his head. "You can"t do anything. It"s all over."
"Most of it," I said. "Come on."
I walked to the door. The hunter sat there. At last, examining the fires lit in my face by my talking, he grunted, got up, walked over, and came outside with me.
I pointed at the curb. We looked together at the truck parked there.
"I"ve seen those before," he said. "A truck like that, in a movie. Don"t they hunt rhino from a truck like that? And lions and things like that? Or at least travel in them around Africa?"
"You remember right."
"No lions around here," he said. "No rhino, no water buffalo, nothing."
"No?" I asked.
He didn"t answer that.
I walked over and touched the open truck.
"You know what this is?"
"I"m playing dumb from here on," said the hunter. "What is it?"
I stroked the fender for a long moment.
"A Time Machine," I said.
His eyes widened and then narrowed and he sipped the beer he was carrying in one large hand. He nodded me on.
"A Time Machine," I repeated.
"I heard you," he said.
He walked out around the safari truck and stood in the street looking at it. He wouldn"t look at me. He circled the truck one entire round and stood back on the curb and looked at the cap on the gas tank.
"What kind of mileage you get?" he said.
"I don"t know yet."
"You don"t know anything," he said.
"This is the first trip," I said. "I won"t know until it"s over."
"What do you fuel a thing like that with?" he said.
I was silent.
"What kind of stuff you put in?" he asked.
I could have said: Reading late at night, reading many nights over the years until almost morning, reading up in the mountains in the snow or reading at noon in Pamplona, or reading by the streams or out in a boat somewhere along the Florida coast. Or I could have said: All of us put our hands on this Machine, all of us thought about it and bought it and touched it and put our love in it and our remembering what his words did to us twenty years or twenty-five or thirty years ago. There"s a lot of life and remembering and love put by here, and that"s the gas and the fuel and the stuff or whatever you want to call it; the rain in Paris, the sun in Madrid, the snow in the high Alps, the smoke off the guns in the Tyrol, the shine of light off the Gulf Stream, the explosion of bombs or explosions of leaped fish, that"s the gas and the fuel and the stuff here; I should have said that, I thought it, but I let it stay unsaid.
The hunter must have smelled my thought, for his eyes squinted up and, telepath that he was from long years in the forest, chewed over my thinking.
Then he walked over and did an unexpected thing. He reached out and . . . touched . . . my Machine.
He laid his hand on it and left it there, as if feeling for the life, and approving what he sensed beneath his hand. He stood that way for a long time.
Then he turned without a word, not looking at me, and went back into the bar and sat drinking alone, his back turned toward the door.
I didn"t want to break the silence. It seemed a good time to go, to try.
I got in the truck and started the motor.
What kind of mileage? What kind of fuel? I thought. And drove away.
I kept on the road and didn"t look right or left and I drove for what must have been an hour, first this direction and then that, part of the time my eyes shut for full seconds, taking a chance I might go off and get hurt or killed.
And then, just before noon, with the clouds over the sun, suddenly I knew it was all right.
I looked up at the hill and I almost yelled.
The grave was gone.
I drove down into a little hollow just then and on the road ahead, wandering along by himself, was an old man in a heavy sweater.
I idled the safari truck along until I was pacing him as he walked. I saw he was wearing steel-rimmed gla.s.ses and for a long moment we moved together, each ignoring the other until I called his name.
He hesitated, and then walked on.
I caught up with him in the truck and said again, "Papa."
He stopped and waited.
I braked the car and sat there in the front seat.
"Papa," I said.
He came over and stood near the door.
"Do I know you?"
"No. But I know you."
He looked me in the eyes and studied my face and mouth. "Yes. I think you do."
"I saw you on the road. I think I"m going your way. Want a lift?"
"It"s good walking this time of day," he said. "Thanks."
"Let me tell you where I"m going," I said.
He had started off but now stopped and, without looking at me, said, "Where?"
"A long way," I said.
"It sounds long, the way you tell it. Can"t you make it shorter?"
"No. A long way," I said. "About two thousand six hundred days, give or take some days, and half an afternoon."
He came back and looked into the car.
"Is that how far you"re going?"
"That"s how far."
"In which direction? Ahead?"
"Don"t you want to go ahead?"
He looked at the sky. "I don"t know. I"m not sure."
"It"s not ahead," I said. "It"s back."
His eyes took on a different color. It was a subtle shift, a flex, like a man stepping out from the shade of a tree into sunlight on a cloudy day.
"Back."
"Somewhere between two thousand and three thousand days, split half a day, give or take an hour, borrow or loan a minute, haggle over a second," I said.
"You really talk," he said.
"Compulsive," I said.
"You"d make a lousy writer," he said. "I never knew a writer yet was a good talker."
"That"s my albatross," I said.
"Back?" He weighed the word.
"I"m turning the car around," I said. "And I"m going back down the road."
"Not miles but days?"
"Not miles but days."
"Is it that kind of car?"
"That"s how it"s built."
"You"re an inventor then?"
"A reader who happens to invent."
"If the car works, that"s some car you got there."
"At your service," I said.
"And when you get where you"re going," said the old man, putting his hand on the door and leaning and then, seeing what he had done, taking his hand away and standing taller to speak to me, "where will you be?"
"January 10, 1954."
"That"s quite a date," he said.
"It is, it was. It can be more of a date."
Without moving, his eyes took another step out into fuller light.