Well, does it now? Is there really a rocket?
Hold on! he thought, and twisted, turned, sweating, eyes tight, to the wall, the fierce whisper in his teeth. Be certain-sure! You, now, who are you?
Me? he thought. My name?
Jedediah Prentiss, born 1938, college graduate 1959, licensed rocket pilot, 1971. Jedediah Prentiss . . . Jedediah Prentiss. . . .
The wind whistled his name away! He grabbed for it, yelling.
Then, gone quiet, he waited for the wind to bring his name back. He waited a long while, and there was only silence, and then after a thousand heartbeats he felt motion.
The sky opened out like a soft blue flower. The Aegean Sea stirred soft white fans through a distant wine-colored surf.
In the wash of the waves on the sh.o.r.e, he heard his name.
Icarus.
And again in a breathing whisper.
Icarus.
Someone shook his arm and it was his father saying his name and shaking away the night. And he himself lay small, half-turned to the window and the sh.o.r.e below and the deep sky, feeling the first wind of morning ruffle the golden feathers bedded in amber wax lying by the side of his cot. Golden wings stirred half-alive in his father"s arms, and the faint down on his own shoulders quilled trembling as he looked at these wings and beyond them to the cliff.
"Father, how"s the wind?"
"Enough for me, but never enough for you. . . ."
"Father, don"t worry. The wings seem clumsy now, but my bones in the feathers will make them strong, my blood in the wax will make it live!"
"My blood, my bones too, remember; each man lends his flesh to his children, asking that they tend it well. Promise you"ll not go high, Icarus. The sun or my son, the heat of one, the fever of the other, could melt these wings. Take care!"
And they carried the splendid golden wings into the morning and heard them whisper in their arms, whisper his name or a name or some name that blew, spun, and settled like a feather on the soft air.
Montgolfier.
His hands touched fiery rope, bright linen, st.i.tched thread gone hot as summer. His hands fed wool and straw to a breathing flame.
Montgolfier.
And his eye soared up along the swell and sway, the oceanic tug and pull, the immensely wafted silver pear still filling with the shimmering tidal airs channeled up from the blaze. Silent as a G.o.d tilted slumbering above French countryside, this delicate linen envelope, this swelling sack of oven-baked air would soon pluck itself free. Drafting upward to blue worlds of silence, his mind and his brother"s mind would sail with it, muted, serene among island clouds where uncivilized lightnings slept. Into that uncharted gulf and abyss where no bird-song or shout of man could follow, the balloon would hush itself. So cast adrift, he, Montgolfier, and all men, might hear the unmeasured breathing of G.o.d and the cathedral tread of eternity.
"Ah . . ." He moved, the crowd moved, shadowed by the warm balloon. "Everything"s ready, everything"s right. . . ."
Right. His lips twitched in his dream. Right. Hiss, whisper, flutter, rush. Right.
From his father"s hands a toy jumped to the ceiling, whirled in its own wind, suspended, while he and his brother stared to see it flicker, rustle, whistle, heard it murmuring their names.
Wright.
Whispering: wind, sky, cloud, s.p.a.ce, wing, fly . . .
"Wilbur, Orville? Look, how"s that?"
Ah. In his sleep, his mouth sighed.
The toy helicopter hummed, b.u.mped the ceiling, murmured eagle, raven, sparrow, robin, hawk; murmured eagle, raven, sparrow, robin, hawk. Whispered eagle, whispered raven, and at last, fluttering to their hands with a susurration, a wash of blowing weather from summers yet to come, with a last whir and exhalation, whispered hawk.
Dreaming, he smiled.
He saw the clouds rush down the Aegean sky.
He felt the balloon sway drunkenly, its great bulk ready for the clear running wind.
He felt the sand hiss up the Atlantic shelves from the soft dunes that might save him if he, a fledgling bird, should fall. The framework struts hummed and chorded like a harp, and himself caught up in its music.
Beyond this room he felt the primed rocket glide on the desert field, its fire wings folded, its fire breath kept, held ready to speak for three billion men. In a moment he would wake and walk slowly out to that rocket.
And stand on the rim of the cliff.
Stand cool in the shadow of the warm balloon.
Stand whipped by tidal sands drummed over Kitty Hawk.
And sheathe his boy"s wrists, arms, hands, fingers with golden wings in golden wax.
And touch for a final time the captured breath of man, the warm gasp of awe and wonder siphoned and sewn to lift their dreams.
And spark the gasoline engine.
And take his father"s hand and wish him well with his own wings, flexed and ready, here on the precipice.
Then whirl and jump.
Then cut the cords to free the great balloon.
Then rev the motor, prop the plane on air.
And crack the switch, to fire the rocket fuse.
And together in a single leap, swim, rush, flail, jump, sail, and glide, upturned to sun, moon, stars, they would go above Atlantic, Mediterranean; over country, wilderness, city, town; in gaseous silence, riffling feather, rattle-drum frame, in volcanic eruption, in timid, sputtering roar; in start, jar, hesitation, then steady ascension, beautifully held, wondrously transported, they would laugh and cry each his own name to himself. Or shout the names of others unborn or others long dead and blown away by the wine wind or the salt wind or the silent hush of balloon wind or the wind of chemical fire. Each feeling the bright feathers stir and bud deep-buried and thrusting to burst from their riven shoulder blades! Each leaving behind the echo of their flying, a sound to encircle, recircle the Earth in the winds and speak again in other years to the sons of the sons of their sons, asleep but hearing the restless midnight sky.
Up, yet farther up, higher, higher! A spring tide, a summer flood, an unending river of wings!
A bell rang softly.
No, he whispered, I"ll wake in a moment. Wait . . .
The Aegean slid away below the window, gone; the Atlantic dunes, the French countryside, dissolved down to New Mexico desert. In his room near his cot stirred no plumes in golden wax. Outside, no wind-sculpted pear, no trapdrum b.u.t.terfly machine. Outside only a rocket, a combustible dream, waiting for the friction of his hand to set it off.
In the last moment of sleep someone asked his name.
Quietly, he gave the answer as he had heard it during the hours from midnight on.
"Icarus Montgolfier Wright."
He repeated it slowly so the questioner might remember the order and spelling down to the last incredible letter.
"Icarus Montgolfier Wright.
"Born: nine hundred years before Christ. Grammar school: Paris, 1783, High school, college: Kitty Hawk, 1903. Graduation from Earth to Moon: this day, G.o.d willing, August 1, 1971. Death and burial, with luck, on Mars, summer 1999 in the Year of Our Lord."
Then he let himself drift awake.
Moments later, crossing the desert tarmac, he heard someone shouting again and again and again.
And if no one was there or if someone was there behind him, he could not tell. And whether it was one voice or many, young or old, near or very far away, rising or falling, whispering or shouting to him all three of his brave new names, he could not tell, either. He did not turn to see.
For the wind was slowly rising and he let it take hold and blow him all the rest of the way across the desert to the rocket which stood waiting there.
DEATH AND THE MAIDEN.
FAR OUT IN THE COUNTRY beyond the woods, beyond the world, really, lived Old Mam, and she had lived there for ninety years with the door locked tight, not opening for anyone, be it wind, rain, sparrow tapping or little boy with a pailful of crayfish rapping. If you scratched at her shutters, she called through: "Go away, Death!"
"I"m not Death!" you might say.
But she"d cry back, "Death, I know you, you come today in the shape of a girl. But I see the bones behind the freckles!"
Or someone else might knock.
"I see you, Death!" would cry Old Mam. "In the shape of a scissors-grinder! But the door is triple-locked and double-barred. I got flypaper on the cracks, tape on the keyholes, dust mops up the chimney, cobwebs in the shutters, and the electricity cut off so you can"t slide in with the juice! No telephones so you can call me to my doom at three in the dark morning. And I got my ears stuffed with cotton so I can"t hear your reply to what I say now. So, Death, get away!"
That"s how it had been through the town"s history. People in that world beyond the wood spoke of her and sometimes boys doubting the tale would heave chunks against the roof slates just to hear Old Mam wail, "Go on, good-bye, you in black with the white, white face!"
And the tale was that Old Mam, with such tactics, would live forever. After all, Death couldn"t get in, could he? All the old germs in her house must have long since given up and gone to sleep. All the new germs running through the land with new names every week or ten days, if you believed the papers, couldn"t get in past the bouquets of rock moss, rue, black tobacco and castor bean at every door.
"She"ll bury us all," said the town "way off where the train ran by.
"I"ll bury them all," said Old Mam, alone and playing solitaire with Braille-marked cards, in the dark.
And that"s how it was.
Years pa.s.sed without another visitor, be it boy, girl, tramp or traveling man, knocking at her door. Twice a year a grocery clerk from the world beyond, seventy himself, left packages that might have been birdseed, could have been milk-bone biscuit, but were almost certainly stamped into bright steel cans with yellow lions and red devils inked on the bright wrappers, and trod off over the choppy sea of lumber on the front porch. The food might stay there for a week, baked by the sun, frozen by the moon; a proper time of antisepsis. Then, one morning, it was gone.
Old Mam"s career was waiting. She did it well, with her eyes closed and her hands clasped and the hairs inside her ears trembling, listening, always ready.
So she was not surprised when, on the seventh day of August in her ninety-first year, a young man with a sunburned face walked through the wood and stood before her house.
He wore a suit like that snow which slides whispering in white linen off a winter roof to lay itself in folds on the sleeping earth. He had no car; he had walked a long way, but looked fresh and clean. He carried no cane to lean on and wore no hat to keep off the stunning blows of the sun. He did not perspire. Most important of all, he carried only one thing with him, an eight-ounce bottle with a bright-green liquid inside. Gazing deeply into this green color, he sensed he was in front of Old Mam"s house, and looked up.
He didn"t touch her door. He walked slowly around her house and let her feel him making the circle.
Then, with his X-ray eyes, he let her feel his steady gaze.
"Oh!" cried Old Mam, waking with a crumb of graham cracker still in her mouth. "It"s you! I know who you came as this time!"
"Who?"
"A young man with a face like a pink summer melon. But you got no shadow! Why"s that? Why?"
"People are afraid of shadows. So I left mine back beyond the wood."
"So I see, without looking."
"Oh," said the young man with admiration. "You have Powers."
"Great Powers, to keep you out and me in!"
The young man"s lips barely moved. "I won"t even bother to wrestle you."
But she heard. "You"d lose, you"d lose!"
"And I like to win. So-I"ll just leave this bottle on your front stoop."
He heard her heart beating fast through the walls of the house.
"Wait! What"s in it? Anything left on my property, I got a right to know!"
"Well," said the young man.
"Go on!"
"In this bottle," he said, "is the first night and the first day you turned eighteen."
"What, what, what!"
"You heard me."
"The night I turned eighteen . . . the day?"
"That"s it."