"Chuck . . .?"
Willis"s head jerked. His seash.e.l.l radio whispered in his ear. "Willis! Clive calling. You"re late for dinner. I know where you are. I"m coming down. Chuck-"
Willis thumped his ear. The voice cut off.
"Quick, Mr. Shaw! Can you-well-run?"
"Can Icarus fall from the Sun? Jump! I shall pace you with these spindly cricket legs!"
They ran.
Taking the corkscrew staircase instead of the air-tube, they looked back from the top platform in time to see Clive"s shadow dart into that tomb where Shaw had died but to wake again.
"Willis!" cried his voice.
"To h.e.l.l with him," said Willis.
Shaw beamed. "h.e.l.l? I know it well. Come. I"ll show you around!"
Laughing, they jumped into the feather-tube and fell up.
This was the place of stars.
Which is to say the one place in all the ship where, if one wished, one could come and truly look at the Universe and the billion billion stars which poured across it and never stopped pouring, cream from the mad dairies of the G.o.ds. Delicious frights or outcrops, on the other hand, if you thought it so, from the sickness of Lord G.o.d Jehovah turned in his sleep, upset with Creation, and birthing dinosaur worlds spun about satanic suns.
"It"s all in the thinking," observed Mr. Shaw, sidling his eyes at his young consort.
"Mr. Shaw! You can read minds?"
"Poppyc.o.c.k. I merely read faces. Yours is clear gla.s.s. I glanced just now and saw Job afflicted, Moses and the Burning Bush. Come. Let us look at the Deeps and see what G.o.d has been up to in the ten billion years since He collided with Himself and procreated Vastness."
They stood now, surveying the Universe, counting the stars to a billion and beyond.
"Oh," moaned the young man, suddenly, and tears fell from his eyes. "How I wish I had been alive when you were alive, sir. How I wish I had truly known you."
"This Shaw is best," retorted the old man, "all of the mincemeat and none of the tin. The coattails are better than the man. Hang to them and survive."
s.p.a.ce lay all about, as vast as G.o.d"s first thought, as deep as His primal breathing.
They stood, one of them tall, one short, by the scanning window, with a fine view of the great Andromeda Nebula whenever they wished to focus it near with a touch of the b.u.t.ton which made the Eye magnify and suck things close.
After a long moment of drinking stars, the young man let out his breath.
"Mr. Shaw . . .? Say it. You know what I like to hear."
"Do I, my boy?" Mr. Shaw"s eyes twinkled.
All of s.p.a.ce was around them, all of the Universe, all of the night of the celestial Being, all the stars and all the places between the stars, and the ship moving on its silent course, and the crew of the ship busy at work or games or touching their amorous toys, so these two were alone with their talk, these two stood viewing the Mystery and saying what must be said.
"Say it, Mr. Shaw."
"Well, now . . ."
Mr. Shaw fixed his eyes on a star some twenty light-years away.
"What are we?" he asked. "Why, we are the miracle of force and matter making itself over into imagination and will. Incredible. The Life Force experimenting with forms. You for one. Me for another. The Universe has shouted itself alive. We are one of the shouts. Creation turns in its abyss. We have bothered it, dreaming ourselves to shapes. The void is filled with slumbers; ten billion on a billion on a billion bombardments of light and material that know not themselves, that sleep moving and move but finally to make an eye and waken on themselves. Among so much that is flight and ignorance, we are the blind force that gropes like Lazarus from a billion-light-year tomb. We summon ourselves. We say, O Lazarus Life Force, truly come ye forth. So the Universe, a motion of deaths, fumbles to reach across Time to feel its own flesh and know it to be ours. We touch both ways and find each other miraculous because we are One."
Mr. Shaw turned to glance at his young friend.
"There you have it. Satisfied?"
"Oh, yes! I-"
The young man stopped.
Behind them, in the viewing-cabin door, stood Clive. Beyond him, they could hear music pulsing from the far cubicles where crewmen and their huge toys played at amorous games.
"Well," said Clive, "what goes on-?"
"Here?" interjected Shaw, lightly. "Why, only the confounding of two energies making do with puzzlements. This contraption-" he touched his own breast, "speaks from computerized elations. That genetic conglomeration-" he nodded at his young friend, "responds with raw, beloved, and true emotions. The sum of us? Pandemonium spread on biscuits and devoured at high tea."
Clive swiveled his gaze to Willis.
"d.a.m.n, you"re nuts. At dinner you should have heard the laughter! You and this old man, and just talk! they said. Just talk, talk! Look, idiot, it"s your stand-watch in ten minutes. Be there! G.o.d!"
And the door was empty. Clive was gone.
Silently, Willis and Mr. Shaw floated down the drop-tube to the storage pit beneath the vast machineries.
The old man sat once again on the floor.
"Mr. Shaw." Willis shook his head, snorting softly. "h.e.l.l. Why is it you seem more alive to me than anyone I have ever known?"
"Why, my dear young friend," replied the old man, gently, "what you warm your hands at are Ideas, eh? I am a walking monument of concepts, scrimshaws of thought, electric deliriums of philosophy and wonder. You love concepts. I am their receptacle. You love dreams in motion. I move. You love palaver and jabber. I am the consummate palaverer and jabberer. You and I, together, masticate Alpha Centauri and spit forth universal myths. We chew upon the tail of Halley"s Comet and worry the Horsehead Nebula until it cries a monstrous Uncle and gives over to our creation. You love libraries. I am a library. Tickle my ribs and I vomit forth Melville"s Whale, Spirit Spout and all. Tic my ear and I"ll build Plato"s Republic with my tongue for you to run and live in. You love Toys. I am a Toy, a fabulous plaything, a computerized-"
"-friend," said Willis, quietly.
Mr. Shaw gave him a look less of fire than of hearth.
"-friend," he said.
Willis turned to leave, then stopped to gaze back at that strange old figure propped against the dark storage wall.
"I-I"m afraid to go. I have this fear something may happen to you."
"I shall survive," replied Shaw tartly, "but only if you warn your Captain that a vast meteor shower approaches. He must shift course a few hundred thousand miles. Done?"
"Done." But still Willis did not leave.
"Mr. Shaw," he said, at last. "What . . . what do you do while the rest of us sleep?"
"Do? Why, bless you. I listen to my tuning fork. Then, I write symphonies between my ears."
Willis was gone.
In the dark, alone, the old man bent his head. A soft hive of dark bees began to hum under his honey-sweet breath.
Four hours later, Willis, off watch, crept into his sleep-cubicle.
In half-light, the mouth was waiting for him.
Clive"s mouth. It licked its lips and whispered: "Everyone"s talking. About you making an a.s.s out of yourself visiting a two-hundred-year-old intellectual relic, you, you, you. Jesus, the psychomed"ll be out tomorrow to X-ray your stupid skull!"
"Better that than what you men do all night every night," said Willis.
"What we do is us."
"Then why not let me be me?"
"Because it"s unnatural." The tongue licked and darted. "We all miss you. Tonight we piled all the grand toys in the midst of the wild room and-"
"I don"t want to hear it!"
"Well, then," said the mouth, "I might just trot down and tell all this to your old gentleman friend-"
"Don"t go near him!"
"I might." The lips moved in the shadows. "You can"t stand guard on him forever. Some night soon, when you"re asleep, someone might-tamper with him, eh? Scramble his electronic eggs so he"ll talk vaudeville instead of Saint Joan? Ha, yes. Think. Long journey. Crew"s bored. Practical joke like that, worth a million to see you froth. Beware, Charlie. Best come play with us."
Willis, eyes shut, let the blaze out of him.
"Whoever dares to touch Mr. Shaw, so help me G.o.d, I"ll kill!"
He turned violently on his side, gnawing the back of his fist.
In the half-dark, he could sense Clive"s mouth still moving.
"Kill? Well, well. Pity. Sweet dreams."
An hour later, Willis gulped two pills and fell stunned into sleep.
In the middle of the night he dreamed that they were burning good Saint Joan at the stake and, in the midst of burning, the plain-potato maiden turned to an old man stoically wrapped around with ropes and vines. The old man"s beard was fiery red even before the flames reached it, and his bright blue eyes were fixed fiercely upon Eternity, ignoring the fire.
"Recant!" cried a voice. "Confess and recant! Recant!"
"There is nothing to confess, therefore no need for recantation," said the old man quietly.
The flames leaped up his body like a mob of insane and burning mice.
"Mr. Shaw!" screamed Willis.
He sprang awake.
Mr. Shaw.
The cabin was silent. Clive lay asleep.
On his face was a smile.
The smile made Willis pull back, with a cry. He dressed. He ran.
Like a leaf in autumn he fell down the air-tube, growing older and heavier with each long instant.
The storage pit where the old man "slept" was much more quiet than it had a right to be.
Willis bent. His hand trembled. At last, he touched the old man.
"Sir-?"
There was no motion. The beard did not bristle. Nor the eyes fire themselves to blue flames. Nor the mouth tremble with gentle blasphemies . . .
"Oh, Mr. Shaw," he said. "Are you dead, then, oh G.o.d, are you really dead?"
The old man was what they called dead when a machine no longer spoke or tuned an electric thought or moved. His dreams and philosophies were snow in his shut mouth.
Willis turned the body this way and that looking for some cut, wound, or bruise on the skin.
He thought of the years ahead, the long traveling years and no Mr. Shaw to walk with, gibber with, laugh with. Women in the storage shelves, yes, women in the cots late at night, laughing their strange taped laughters and moving their strange machined motions, and saying the same dumb things that were said on a thousand worlds on a thousand nights.
"Oh, Mr. Shaw," he murmured at last. "Who did this to you?"
Silly boy, whispered Mr. Shaw"s memory voice. You know.
I know, thought Willis.
He whispered a name and ran away.
"d.a.m.n you, you killed him!"
Willis seized Clive"s bedclothes, at which instant Clive, like a robot, popped wide his eyes. The smile remained constant.
"You can"t kill what was never alive," he said.
"Son of a b.i.t.c.h!"
He struck Clive once in the mouth, after which Clive was on his feet, laughing in some strange wild way, wiping blood from his lips.
"What did you do to him?" cried Willis.