The train was in and the conductor was waving his lantern. Whitley grasped my hand and wrung it. "Be a man, and G.o.d bless you!" he said in low tones. "And when the pinch comes again and you are tempted to the limit, just remember that there is a fellow back here in Springville who believes in you, and who will limp a little all the rest of his days if you stumble and fall and refuse to get up.
Good-night and good-by!"
VII
The Plunge
By the train which bore me away from Springville I went only far enough to put me safely beyond the possibility of stumbling upon any of the places where I had hitherto sought work; though as to that, I had little hope of escaping the relentless blacklister who had been set upon me.
About midnight I had a talk with the flagman in the smoking-car, calling myself a laborer looking for a job and asking about the prospects in the region through which we were pa.s.sing. I was told that there were swamp lands in the next county, and that the contractors who were installing systems of under-draining had been advertising for men.
Accordingly, the next morning found me in the new field, with one set of difficulties outpaced for the moment only to make room for another.
The first man I tackled was the foreman of a ditching crew, and he looked me over with a cold and contemptuous eye.
"Show yer hands!" he rasped, and when I held them out, palms upward: "On yer way, Misther Counter-hopper; "tis wor-rkin"min we"re hirin"
here this day--not anny lily-fingered dudes!"
So it was, in a disheartening number of instances; on a railroad grading force in an adjoining county, on city buildings where I asked to be taken as an unskilled helper, with a sewer contractor in another city, as a shoveler in a village brick-yard. Finally I landed a job as a stacker in a lumberyard; and now I found another of the day-laborer difficulties lying in wait for me. At the time of my commitment for trial I was in good physical condition. But the three years in prison had made me soft and flabby, a handicap which liberty--with a string tied to it--had done little to remove; and four hard days of the stacking, in which two of us were handling two-by-ten eighteen-foot joists to the top of a pile twelve feet high, finished me.
The boss grinned understandingly when he gave me my time-check for the four days.
"I thought you wouldn"t last very long at the stacking," he commented; "that"s a man"s job." Then: "Got any head for figures?"
I faced him fairly. "I can"t take a job of that kind."
"Why can"t you?"
He got the reason in a single sentence.
"Paroled man, hey? What was you in for?"
I named the charge, and did not add that it was an unjust one. I had pleaded the miscarriage of justice so many times, only to be called a liar, that it seemed useless to try to explain.
"Robbed a bank, did you? Well, I don"t know as I think any worse of you for spittin" it right out. Tryin" to brace up?"
"I"m trying to earn an honest living."
"And havin" a mighty hard time of it, I reckon--"r you wouldn"t be makin" a push at stackin" lumber with them blistered hands. Say, boy; I sort o" like your looks, and I"m goin" to give you a boost. They"re needin" a log-scaler in the sawmill. If you know figures, you can catch on in half a day. Chase your feet down to the mill foreman and tell him I sent you."
I went gladly enough, secured the new job, learned how to do it acceptably, and was temerariously happy and light-hearted for two whole weeks. Then my Nemesis found me again. In the third week I chanced to get a glimpse of a short, heavy-set man talking to a bunch of my fellow laborers. Before I could cross the mill yard to identify the stranger he turned and walked quickly away; but the sixth sense of apprehension which develops so surely and quickly in the ex-convict told me that the heavy-set man was Abel Geddis"s hired blacklister, and that I was once more on the toboggan slide.
Pay-day came at the end of the week, and when the envelopes had been given out the mill foreman took me aside.
"I"m sorry, Weyburn," he began curtly, "but I"m afraid you"ll have to be moving on. Personally, I don"t care, one way or the other, what you"ve been or where you hall from. You do your work well, and that"s all I ask of any man. But your story has got out among the hands, and that settles it. They won"t work with a convict."
When I took the long road again after this latest rebuff I knew that the fine resolution with which I had left the prison five months earlier was breaking down. The relentless pressure was doing its work, and I began to ask myself how long I could hold out as a law-abiding citizen and a victim of injustice against the belief of the world that I was neither.
The five months" wanderings had carried me the length and breadth of the State, and I had avoided only the large cities and my home neighborhood. But with the lumber company"s money in my pocket I boarded a train for the State metropolis. At the end of the experiment I was doing what the released criminal usually does at the outset--seeking an opportunity to lose myself in the crowd.
Jobs were notably harder to find in the great city, though police headquarters, where I reported myself, placed no obstacles in my way so far as I know; took no note of me in any fashion, as I was afterward led to believe. That the hired traducer would follow and find me I made no doubt; but by this time I was becoming so inured to this peculiar hardship that I refused to cross bridges until I came to them, and was at times even able to forget, in the discouragements of other hardships, that I was a marked man.
In the search for means to keep body and soul together it was easy to forget. Day labor offered only now and then, and in my increasing physical unfitness I could not hold my own against the trained muscles of seasoned roustabouts, porters and freight-handlers. Worse still, the physical deterrent grew by what it fed upon--or by the lack of feeding. Part of the time I couldn"t get enough to eat; and there were cold and bl.u.s.tering nights when I had not the few cents which would have given me a bed in a cheap lodging-house.
It was in this deepest abyss in the valley of disheartenment that I met a former prison-mate named Kellow; a forger whose time of release from the penitentiary coincided nearly with my own. The meeting was wholly by chance. I was crossing one of the city bridges at night, pointing for one of the river warehouses where I hoped to find a tramp"s lodging and shelter from the bitter wind, when I walked blindly into a man coming in the opposite direction. The recognition was instant and mutual.
Like myself, Kellow had been a "trusty," and under certain relaxations of the rule of silence in the prison we had talked and an acquaintance of a sort had slowly grown and ripened. In this intimacy, which I had striven to hold at arm"s length, I had come to know the forger as a criminal of the most dangerous breed; a man of parts and of some education, but wholly lacking in the moral sense; a rule-keeper in prison only because he was shrewd enough to appreciate the fact that he was bringing the day of release nearer by piling up "good-conduct" time.
"Well, pinch me! Look who"s here!" was his greeting when we met on the bridge.
For a silent moment it was I who did the looking. Kellow had grown a pair of curling black mustaches since his release; he was well-dressed, erect and alert, and was smoking a cigar the fragrance of which made me sick and faint with an attack of the long-denied tobacco hunger.
"You"re out, too, are you?" I managed to say at last, shivering in the cold blast which came sweeping up the river.
"Three months, and then some," he returned jauntily. "I"m collecting a little on the old debt now, and doing fairly well at it, thank you."
"The old debt?" I queried.
"Yep; the one that the little old round world owes every man: three squares, a tailor, a bed and a pocket-roll."
"You look as if you had acquired all four," I agreed, setting my jaw to keep my teeth from chattering.
"Sure I have; and you look as if you hadn"t," he countered. And then: "What"s the matter? Just plain hard luck? Or is it the parole scare?"
"Both," I admitted.
He shot me a quick look.
"I can put you onto a dead sure thing, if you"re game for it. Let"s hunt us a warm place and chew it over."
The place was the back room of an all-night saloon in the slum quarter beyond the bridge. It was warm, stiflingly warm and close, after the outdoor blast and chill, and it reeked like a sty. Kellow kicked out a chair for me and drew up one for himself on the opposite side of the small round card-table over which a single gas-jet hissed and sizzled, lighting the tiny box of a place with a sickly yellow glare.
"What"ll it be?" he asked, when the waiter came in.
"A piece of bread and meat from the lunch counter, if you don"t mind,"
I said; and then, in an apology for which I instantly despised myself: "Liquor doesn"t agree with me lately; it--it would gag me."
Kellow ordered whiskey for himself, and after the waiter was gone he stared at me contemptuously.
"So it"s come to that, has it?" he derided. "You"re so d.a.m.ned hungry you"re afraid to put a drop of bug-juice under your belt. You"re a fool, Weyburn. I know what you"ve been doing, just as well as if you"d told me the whole story. Also, I"ll believe now what I didn"t believe while we were in "stir"; you were pinched for something you didn"t do."
"Well?" I said, neither affirming nor denying. The free lunch had come and I was falling upon it like a famished wolf. I hadn"t a penny in my pockets, and the bread and meat stood for breakfast, dinner and supper combined.
Kellow swallowed his whiskey at a gulp and stood the empty gla.s.s bottom upward on the table.
"Been trying the honest lay, I suppose--handing in your name and number wherever you went?" he suggested.
I nodded, adding that there was nothing else to be done, as I saw it.