"What news? And I"m not giving up, just want to sleep in my own bed-"
"The entry checkpoints, Lawrence. You cannot do this job if you"re going to spend four hours a day in security queues. Anyway, the news.
"It wasn"t the first time he did it. I"ve been running the logs back three years and I"ve found at least a dozen streams that he tampered with. Each time he used a different technique. This was the first time we caught him. Used some pretty subtle tripwires when he did it, so he"d know if anyone ever caught on. Must have spent his whole life living on edge, waiting for that moment, waiting to bug out. Must have been a hard life. "
"What was he doing? Spying?"
"Most a.s.suredly," Gerta said. "But for whom? For the enemy? the Securitat?"
They"d considered going to the Securitat with the information, but why bother? the Order did business with the Securitat, but tried never to interact with them on any other terms. The Securitat and the Order had an implicit understanding: so long as the Order was performing excellent data-a.n.a.lysis, it didn"t have to fret the kind of overt scrutiny that prevailed in the real world. Undoubtedly, the Securitat kept satellite eyes, data-snoopers, wiretaps, millimeter radar and every other conceivable surveillance trained on each Campus in the world, but at the end of the day, they were just badly socialized geeks who"d left the world, and useful geeks at that. The Securitat treated the Order the way that Lawrence"s old bosses treated the company sysadmins: expendable geeks who no one cared about-so long as nothing went wrong.
No, there was no sense in telling the Securitat about the sixty-eight bytes.
"Why would the Securitat poison its own data-streams?"
"You know that when the Soviets pulled out of Finland, they found forty kilometers of wire-tapping wire in KGB headquarters? the building was only twelve stories tall! Spying begets spying. The worst, most dangerous enemy the Securitat has is the Securitat. "
There were Securitat vans on the street around him, going past every now and again, eerily silent engines, playing their cheerful music. He stepped back into shadow, then thought better of it and stood under a pool of light.
"OK, so it was a habit. How do I find him? No one in the sister"s building will talk to me. "
"You need to put them at their ease. Tell them the truth, that often works. "
"You know how people feel about the Order out here?" He thought of Posy. "I don"t know if the truth is going to work here. "
"You"ve been in the order for sixteen years. You"re not just some fumble-tongued outcast anymore. Go talk to them. "
"But-"
"Go, Lawrence. Go. You"re a smart guy, you"ll figure it out. "
He went. Residents were coming home every few minutes now, carrying grocery bags, walking dogs, or dragging their tired feet. He almost approached a young woman, then figured that she wouldn"t want to talk to a strange man on the street at night. He picked a guy in his thirties, wearing jeans and a huge old vintage coat that looked like it had come off the eastern front.
""Scuse me," he said. "I"m trying to find someone who used to live here. "
The guy stopped and looked Lawrence up and down. He had a handsome sweater on underneath his coat, design-y and cosmopolitan, the kind of thing that made Lawrence think of Milan or Paris. Lawrence was keenly aware of his generic Order-issued suit, a brown, rumpled, ill-fitting thing, topped with a polymer coat that, while warm, hardly flattered.
"Good luck with that," he said, then started to move past.
"Please," Lawrence said. "I"m-I"m not used to how things are around here. There"s probably some way I could ask you this that would put you at your ease, but I don"t know what it is. I"m not good with people. But I really need to find this person, she used to live here. "
The man stopped, looked at him again. He seemed to recognize something in Lawrence, or maybe it was that he was disarmed by Lawrence"s honesty.
"Why would you want to do that?"
"It"s a long story," he said. "Basically, though: I"m a monk from the Order of Reflective a.n.a.lytics and one of our guys has disappeared. His sister used to live here-maybe she still does-and I wanted to ask her if she knew where I could find him. "
"Let me guess, none of my neighbors wanted to help you. "
"You"re only the second guy I"ve asked, but yeah, pretty much. "
"Out here in the real world, we don"t really talk about each other to strangers. Too much like being a snitch. Lucky for you, my sister"s in the Order, out in Oregon, so I know you"re not all a bunch of snoops and stoolies. Who"re you looking for?"
Lawrence felt a rush of grat.i.tude for this man. "Anja Krotosky, number 11-J?"
"Oh," the man said. "Well, yeah, I can see why you"d have a hard time with the neighbors when it comes to old Anja. She was well-liked around here, before she went. "
"Where"d she go? When?"
"What"s your name, friend?"
"Lawrence. "
"Lawrence, Anja went. Middle of the night kind of thing. No one heard a thing. The CCTVs stopped working that night. Nothing on the drive the next day. No footage at all. "
"Like she skipped out?"
"They stopped delivering flyers to her door. There"s only one power stronger than direct marketing. "
"The Securitat took her?"
"That"s what we figured. Nothing left in her place. Not a stick of furniture. We don"t talk about it much. Not the thing that it pays to take an interest in. "
"How long ago?"
"Two years ago," he said. A few more residents pushed past them. "Listen, I approve of what you people do in there, more or less. It"s good that there"s a place for the people who don"t-you know, who don"t have a place out here. But the way you make your living. I told my sister about this, the last time she visited, and she got very angry with me. She didn"t see the difference between watching yourself and being watched. "
Lawrence nodded. "Well, that"s true enough. We don"t draw a really sharp distinction. We all get to see one another"s stats. It keeps us honest. "
"That"s fine, if you have the choice. But-" He broke off, looking self-conscious. Lawrence reminded himself that they were on a public street, the cameras on them, people pa.s.sing by. Was one of them a snitch? the Securitat had talked about putting him away for a month, just for logging them. They could watch him all they wanted, but he couldn"t look at them.
"I see the point. " He sighed. He was cold and it was full autumn dark now. He still didn"t have a room for the night and he didn"t have any idea how he"d find Anja, much less zbigkrot. He began to understand why Anomalies were such a big deal.
He"d walked 18, 453 steps that day, about triple what he did on campus. His heart rate had spiked several times, but not from exertion. Stress. He could feel it in his muscles now. He should really do some biofeedback, try to calm down, then run back his lifelogger and make some notes on how he"d reacted to people through the day.
But the lifelogger was gone and he barely managed twenty-two seconds his first time on the biofeedback. His next ten scores were much worse.
It was the hotel room. It had once been an office, and before that, it had been half a hotel-room. There were still scuff-marks on the floor from where the wheeled office chair had dug into the scratched lino. The false wall that divided the room in half was thin as paper and Lawrence could hear every snuffle from the other side. The door to Lawrence"s room had been rudely hacked in, and weak light shone through an irregular crack over the jamb.
The old New Yorker Hotel had seen better days, but it was what he could afford, and it was central, and he could hear New York outside the window-he"d gotten the half of the hotel room with the window in it. The lights twinkled just as he remembered them, and he still got a swimmy, vertiginous feeling when he looked down from the great height.
The clerk had taken his photo and biometrics and had handed him a tracker-key that his pan was monitoring with tangible suspicion. It radiated his ident.i.ty every few yards, and in the elevator. It even seemed to track which part of the minuscule room he was in. What the h.e.l.l did the hotel do with all this information?
Oh, right-it shipped it off to the Securitat, who shipped it to the Order, where it was processed for suspicious anomalies. No wonder there was so much work for them on campus. Multiply the New Yorker times a hundred thousand hotels, two hundred thousand schools, a million cabs across the nation-there was no danger of the Order running out of work.
The hotel"s network tried to keep him from establishing a secure connection back to the Order"s network, but the Order"s countermeasures were better than the half-a.s.sed ones at the hotel. It took a lot of tunneling and wrapping, but in short measure he had a strong private line back to the Campus-albeit a slow line, what with all the jiggery-pokery he had to go through.
Gerta had left him with her file on zbigkrot and his activities on the network. He had several known a.s.sociates on Campus, people he ate with or playing on intramural teams with, or did a little extreme programming with. Gerta had bulk-messaged them all with an oblique query about his personal life and had forwarded the responses to Lawrence. There was a mountain of them, and he started to plow through them.
He started by compiling stats on them-length, vocabulary, number of paragraphs-and then started with the outliers. The shortest ones were polite shrugs, apologies, don"t have anything to say. The long ones-whew! they sorted into two categories: general whining, mostly from noobs who were still getting accustomed to the way of the Order; and protracted complaints from old hands who"d worked with zbigkrot long enough to decide that he was incorrigible. Lawrence sorted these quickly, then took a glance at the median responses and confirmed that they appeared to be largely unhelpful generalizations of the sort that you might produce on a co-worker evaluation form-a proliferation of null adjectives like "satisfactory," "pleasant," "fine. "
Somewhere in this haystack-Lawrence did a quick word-count and came back with 140, 000 words, about two good novels" worth of reading-was a needle, a clue that would show him the way to unravel the Anomaly. It would take him a couple days at least to sort through it all in depth. He ducked downstairs and bought some groceries at an all-night grocery store in Penn Station and went back to his room, ready to settle in and get the work done. He could use a few days" holiday from New York, anyway.
> About time Zee Big Noob did a runner. He never had a moment"s happiness here, and I never figured out why he"d bother hanging around when he hated it all so much.
> Ever meet the kind of guy who wanted to tell you just how much you shouldn"t be enjoying the things you enjoy? the kind of guy who could explain, in detail, *exactly* why your pa.s.sions were stupid? that was him.
> "Brother Antony, why are you wasting your time collecting tin toys? they"re badly made, unlovely, and represent, at best, a history of slave labor, starting with your cherished "Made in Occupied j.a.pan, " tanks. Christ, why not collect rape-camp macrame while you"re at it?" He had choice words for all of us about our pa.s.sions, but I was singled out because I liked to extreme program in my room, which I"d spent a lot of time decorating. (See pic, below, and yes, I built and sanded and mounted every one of those shelves by hand) (See magnification shot for detail on the joinery. Couldn"t even drive a nail when I got here) (Not that there are any nails in there, it"s all precision-fitted tongue and groove) (holy moley, lasers totally rock) > But he reserved his worst criticism for the Order itself. You know the litany: we"re a cult, we"re brainwashed, we"re dupes of the Securitat. He was convinced that every instrument in the place was feeding up to the Securitat itself. He"d mutter about this constantly, whenever we got a new stream to work on-"Is this your lifelog, Brother Antony? Mine? the number of flushes per s.h.i.tter in the west wing of campus?"
> And it was no good trying to reason with him. He just didn"t acknowledge the benefit of introspection. "It"s no different from them," he"d say, jerking his thumb up at the ceiling, as though there was a Securitat mic and camera hidden there. "You"re just flooding yourself with useless information, trying to find the useful parts. Why not make some predictions about which part of your life you need to pay attention to, rather than spying on every process? You"re a spy in your own body. "
> So why did I work with him? I"ll tell you: first, he was a s.h.i.t-hot programmer. I know his stats say he was way down in the 78th percentile, but he could make every line of code that *I* wrote smarter. We just don"t have a way of measuring that kind of effect (yes, someone should write one; I"ve been noodling with a framework for it for months now).
> Second, there was something dreadfully fun about listening him light into *other* people, *their* ridiculous pa.s.sions and interests. He could be incredibly funny, and he was incisive if not insightful. It"s shameful, but there you have it. I am imperfect.
> Finally, when he wasn"t being a d.i.c.k, he was a good guy to have in your corner. He was our rugby team"s fullback, the baseball team"s shortstop, the tank on our MMOG raids. You could rely on him.
> So I"m going to miss him, weirdly. If he"s gone for good. I wouldn"t put it past him to stroll back onto campus someday and say,"What, what? I just took a little French Leave. Jesus, overreact much?"
Plenty of the notes ran in this direction, but this was the most articulate. Lawrence read it through three times before adding it to the file of useful stuff. It was a small pile. Still, Gerta kept forwarding him responses. The late responders had some useful things to say: > He mentioned a sister. Only once. A whole bunch of us were talking about how our families were really supportive of our coming to the Order, and after it had gone round the whole circle, he just kind of looked at the sky and said, "My sister thought I was an idiot to go inside. I asked her what she thought I should do and she said, "If I was you, kid, I"d just disappear before someone disappeared me. "" Naturally we all wanted to know what he meant by that. "I"m not very good at bulls.h.i.tting, and that"s a vital skill in today"s world. She was better at it than me, when she worked at it, but she was the kind of person who"d let her guard slip every now and then. "
Lawrence noted that zbigkrot had used the past-tense to describe his sister. He"d have known about her being disappeared then.
He stared at the walls of his hotel room. The room next door was occupied by at least four people and he couldn"t even imagine how you"d get that many people inside-he didn"t know how four people could all stand in the room, let alone lie down and sleep. But there were definitely four voices from next door, talking in Chinese.
New York was outside the window and far below, and the sun had come up far enough that everything was bright and reflective, the cars and the buildings and the glints from sungla.s.ses far below. He wasn"t getting anywhere with the docs, the sister, the datastreams. And there was New York, just outside the window.
He dug under the bed and excavated his boots, recoiling from soft, dust-furred old socks and worse underneath the mattress.
The Securitat man pointed to Lawrence as he walked past Penn Station. Lawrence stopped and pointed at himself in a who-me? gesture. The Securitat man pointed again, then pointed to his alcove next to the entrance.
Lawrence"s pan didn"t like the Securitat man"s incursions and tried to wipe itself.
"Sir," he said. "My pan is going nuts. May I put down my arms so I can tell it to let you in?"
The Securitat man acted as though he hadn"t heard, just continued to wave his hands slowly over Lawrence"s body.
"Come with me," the Securitat man said, pointing to the door on the other side of the alcove that led into a narrow corridor, into the bowels of Penn Station. The door let out onto the concourse, thronged with people shoving past each other, disgorged by train after train. Though none made eye contact with them or each other, they parted magically before them, leaving them with a clear path.
Lawrence"s pan was not helping him. Every inch of his body itched as it nagged at him about the depredations it was facing from the station and the Securitat man. This put him seriously on edge and made his heart and breathing go crazy, triggering another round of warnings from his pan, which wanted him to calm down, but wouldn"t help. This was a bad failure mode, one he"d never experienced before. He"d have to file a bug report.
Some day.
The Securitat"s outpost in Penn Station was as clean as a dentist"s office, but with mesh-reinforced windows and locks that made three distinct clicks and a soft hiss when the door closed. The Securitat man impersonally shackled Lawrence to a plastic chair that was bolted into the floor and then went off to a check-in kiosk that he whispered into and prodded at. There was no one else in evidence, but there were huge CCTV cameras, so big that they seemed to be throwbacks to an earlier era, some paleolithic ancestor of the modern camera. These cameras were so big because they were meant to be seen, meant to let you know that you were being watched.
The Securitat man took him away again, stood him in an interview room where the cameras were once again in voluble evidence.
"Explain everything," the Securitat man said. He rolled up his mask so that Lawrence could see his face, young and hard. He"d been in diapers when Lawrence went into the Order.
And so Lawrence began to explain, but he didn"t want to explain everything. Telling this man about zbigkrot tampering with Securitat data-streams would not be good; telling him about the disappearance of Anja Krotoski would be even worse. So-he lied. He was already so stressed out that there was no way the lies would register as extraordinary to the sensors that were doubtless trained on him.
He told the Securitat man that he was in the world to find an Order member who"d taken his leave, because the Order wanted to talk to him about coming back. He told the man that he"d been trying to locate zbigkrot by following up on his old contacts. He told the Securitat man that he expected to find zbigkrot within a day or two and would be going back to the Order. He implied that he was crucial to the Order and that he worked for the Securitat all the time, that he and the Securitat man were on the same fundamental mission, on the same team.
The Securitat man"s face remained an impa.s.sive mask throughout. He touched an earbead from time to time, c.o.c.king his head slightly to listen. Someone else was listening to Lawrence"s testimony and feeding him more material.
The Securitat man scooted his chair closer to Lawrence, leaned in close, searching his face. "We don"t have any record of this Krotoski person," he said. "I advise you to go home and forget about him. "
The words were said without any inflection at all, and that was scariest of all-Lawrence had no doubt about what this meant. There were no records because Zbigniew Krotoski was erased.
Lawrence wondered what he was supposed to say to this armed child now. Did he lay his finger alongside of his nose and wink? Apologize for wasting his time? Everyone told him to listen before he spoke here. Should he just wait?
"Thank you for telling me so," he said. "I appreciate the advice. " He hoped it didn"t sound sarcastic.
The Securitat man nodded. "You need to adjust the settings on your pan. It reads like it"s got something to hide. Here in the world, it has to accede to lawful read attempts without hesitation. Will you configure it?"
Lawrence nodded vigorously. While he"d recounted his story, he"d imagined spending a month in a cell while the Securitat looked into his deeds and history. Now it seemed like he might be on the streets in a matter of minutes.
"Thank you for your cooperation. " the man didn"t say it. It was a recording, played by hidden speakers, triggered by some unseen agency, and on hearing it, the Securitat man stood and opened the door, waiting for the three distinct clicks and the hiss before tugging at the handle.
They stood before the door to the guard"s niche in front of Penn Station and the man rolled up his mask again. This time he was smiling an easy smile and the hardness had melted a little from around his eyes. "You want a tip, buddy?"
"Sure. "
"Look, this is New York. We all just want to get along here. There"s a lot of bad guys out there. They got some kind of beef. They want to f.u.c.k with us. We don"t want to let them do that. You want to be safe here, you got to show New York that you"re not a bad guy. That you"re not here to f.u.c.k with us.
We"re the city"s protectors, and we can spot someone who doesn"t belong here the way your body can spot a cold-germ. The way you"re walking around here, looking around, acting-I could tell you didn"t belong from a hundred yards. You want to avoid trouble, you get less strange, fast. You get me?"
"I get you," he said. "thank you, sir. "Before the Securitat man could say any more, Lawrence was on his way.
The man from Anja"s building had a different sweater on, but the new one-bulky wool the color of good chocolate-was every bit as handsome as the one he"d had on before. He was wearing some kind of citrusy cologne and his hair fell around his ears in little waves that looked so natural they had to be fake. Lawrence saw him across the Starbucks and had a crazy urge to duck away and change into better clothes, just so he wouldn"t look like such a f.u.c.king hayseed next to this guy. I"m a New Yorker, he thought, or at least I was. I belong here.
"Hey, Lawrence, fancy meeting you here!" He shook Lawrence"s hand and gave him a wry, you-and-me-in-it-together smile. "How"s the vision quest coming?"
"Huh?"
"The Anomaly-that"s what you"re chasing, aren"t you? It"s your little rite of pa.s.sage. My sister had one last year. Figured out that some guy who travelled from Fort Worth to Portland, Oregon every week was actually a fictional construct invented by cargo smugglers who used his seat to plant a series of mules running heroin and cash. She was so proud afterwards that I couldn"t get her to shut up about it. You had the holy fire the other night when I saw you. "
Lawrence felt himself blushing. "It"s not really "holy"-all that religious stuff, it"s just a metaphor. We"re not really spiritual. "
"Oh, the distinction between the spiritual and the material is pretty arbitrary anyway. Don"t worry, I don"t think you"re a cultist or anything. No more than any of us, anyway. So, how"s it going?"
"I think it"s over," he said. "Dead end. Maybe I"ll get an easier Anomaly next time. "
"Sounds awful! I didn"t think you were allowed to give up on Anomalies?"
Lawrence looked around to see if anyone was listening to them. "this one leads to the Securitat," he said. "In a sense, you could say that I"ve solved it. I think the guy I"m looking for ended up with his sister. "
The man"s expression froze, not moving one iota. "You must be disappointed," he said, in neutral tones. "Oh well. " He leaned over the condiment bar to get a napkin and wrestled with the dispenser for a moment. It didn"t cooperate, and he ended up holding fifty napkins. He made a disgusted noise and said, "Can you help me get these back into the dispenser?"