"Yes, sir." She saluted and moved off.
"Ah," he called after her, "you needn"t mention why I was unavoidably detained, eh?"
One corner of her mouth tugged upward. "I wouldn"t dream of it," she a.s.sured him fervently.
Back in close Earth orbit aboard the Triumph, a visit to his fleet surgeon revealed a hairline crack in Miles"s left scapula, a diagnosis which surprised him not at all. The surgeon treated it with electrastim and put his left arm in an excessively annoying plastic immobilizer. Miles b.i.t.c.hed until the surgeon threatened to put his entire body in a plastic immobilizer. He slunk out of sickbay as soon as she was done treating the gouge on the back of his head, before she got carried away with the obvious medical merit of the idea.
After getting cleaned up, Miles tracked down Captain Elena Bothari-Jesek, one of the triumvirate of Dendarii who knew his real ident.i.ty, the other being her husband and Miles"s fleet engineer, Commodore Baz Jesek. Elena in fact probably knew as much about Miles as he did himself. She was the daughter of his late bodyguard, and they had grown up together. She had become an officer of the Dendarii by Miles"s fiat back when he"d created them, or found them lying around, or however one wanted to describe the chaotic beginnings of this whole hideously overextended covert op. Been named an officer, rather; she had become one since then by sweat and guts and fierce study. Her concentration was intense and her fidelity was absolute, and Miles was as proud of her as if he"d invented her himself. His other feelings about her were no one"s business.
As he entered the wardroom, Elena sketched him a greeting that was halfway between a wave and a salute, and smiled her somber smile. Miles returned her a nod and slid into a seat at her table. "h.e.l.lo, Elena. I"ve got a security mission for you."
Her long, lithe body was folded into her chair, her dark eyes luminous with curiosity. Her short black hair was a smooth cap framing her face; pale skin, features not beautiful yet elegant, sculptured like a hunting wolfhound. Miles regarded his own short square hands, folded on the table, lest he lose his eye in the subtle planes of that face. Still. Always.
"Ah..." Miles glanced around the room, and caught the eye of a couple of interested techs at a nearby table. "Sorry, fellows, not for you." He jerked his thumb, and they grinned and took the hint and their coffee and clattered out.
"What sort of security mission?" she said, biting into her sandwich.
"This one is to be sealed on both ends, from both the Dendarii point of view and that of the Barrayaran emba.s.sy here on Earth. Especially from the emba.s.sy. A courier job. I want you to get a ticket on the fastest available commercial transport to Tau Ceti, and take a message from Lieutenant Vorkosigan to the Imperial Security Sector Headquarters at the emba.s.sy there. My Barrayaran commanding officer here on Earth doesn"t know I"m sending you, and I"d like to keep it that way."
"I"m... not anxious to deal with the Barrayaran command structure," she said mildly after a moment. Watching her own hands, she was.
"I know. But since this involves both my ident.i.ties, it has to be either you, Baz, or Elli Quinn. The London police have Elli under arrest, and I can"t very well send your husband; some confused underling on Tau Ceti might try to arrest him."
Elena glanced up from her hands at that. "Why were the desertion charges against Baz never dropped by Barrayar?"
"I tried. I thought I almost had them persuaded. But then Simon Illyan had a spasm of twitchiness and decided leaving the arrest warrant outstanding, if not actually pursued, gave him an extra handle on Baz in case of, er, emergencies. It also gives a little artistic depth to the Dendarii"s cover as a truly independent outfit. I thought Illyan was wrong-in fact, I told him so, till he finally ordered me to shut up on the subject. Someday, when I"m giving the orders, I"ll see that"s changed."
Her eyebrow quirked. "It could be a long wait, at your present rate of promotion-Lieutenant."
"My Dad"s sensitive to charges of nepotism, Captain." He picked up the sealed data disk he"d been pushing about one-handed on the table top. "I want you to give this into the hand of the senior military attacheacute on Tau Ceti, Commodore Destang. Don"t send it in via anyone else, because among my other suspicions is the nasty one that there may be a leak in the Barrayaran courier channel between here and there. I think the problem"s on this end, but if I"m wrong... G.o.d, I hope it isn"t Destang himself."
"Paranoid?" she inquired solicitously.
"Getting more so by the minute. Having Mad Emperor Yuri in my family tree doesn"t help a bit. I"m always wondering if I"m starting to come down with his disease. Can you be paranoid about being paranoid?"
She smiled sweetly. "If anyone can, it"s you."
"Hm. Well, this particular paranoia is a cla.s.sic. I softened the language in the message to Destang-you better read it before you embark. After all, what would you think of a young officer who was convinced his superiors were out to get him?"
She tilted her head, winged eyebrows climbing. "Quite." Miles nodded. He tapped the disk with one forefinger. "The purpose of your trip is to test a hypothesis-only a hypothesis, mind you-that the reason our eighteen million marks aren"t here is that they disappeared en route. Just possibly into dear Captain Galeni"s pockets. No corroborative evidence yet, such as Galeni"s sudden and permanent disappearance, and it"s not the sort of charge a young and ambitious officer had better make by mistake. I"ve embedded it in four other theories, in the report, but that"s the one I"m hot about. You must find out if HQ ever dispatched our money."
"You don"t sound hot. You sound unhappy."
"Yes, well, it"s certainly the messiest possibility. It has a deal of forceful logic behind it."
"So what"s the hook?"
"Galeni"s a Komarran."
"Who cares? So much the more likely that you"re right, then."
I care. Miles shook his head. What, after all, were Barrayaran internal politics to Elena, who had sworn pa.s.sionately never to set foot on her hated home world again?
She shrugged, and uncoiled to her feet, pocketing the disk.
He did not attempt to capture her hands. He did not make a single move that might embarra.s.s them both. Old friends were harder to come by than new lovers.
Oh, my oldest friend.
Still. Always.
Chapter Six.
He ate a sandwich and slurped coffee for dinner in his cabin while he perused Dendarii fleet status reports. Repairs had been completed and approved on the Triumph"s surviving combat drop shuttles. And paid for, alas, the money now pa.s.sed beyond recall. Refit ch.o.r.es were all caught up throughout the fleet, downside leaves used up, spit spat and polish polished off. Boredom was setting in. Boredom and bankruptcy.
The Cetagandans had it all wrong, Miles decided bitterly. It wasn"t war that would destroy the Dendarii, it was peace. If their enemies would just stay their hands and wait patiently, the Dendarii, his creation, would collapse all on its own without any outside a.s.sistance.
His cabin buzzer blatted, a welcome interruption to the dark and winding chain of his thoughts. He keyed the comm on his desk. "Yes?"
"It"s Elli."
His hand leapt eagerly to tap the lock control. "Enter! You"re back before I"d expected. I was afraid you"d be stuck down there like Danio. Or worse, with Danio."
He wheeled his chair around, the room seeming suddenly brighter as the door hissed open, though a lumen-meter might not have registered it. Elli waved him a salute and hitched a hip over the edge of his desk. She smiled, but her eyes looked tired.
"Told you," she said. "In fact there was some talk of making me a permanent guest. I was sweet, I was cooperative, I was nearly prim, trying to convince them I wasn"t a homicidal menace to society and they really could let me back out on the streets, but I was making no headway till their computers suddenly hit the jackpot. The lab came back with ID"s on those two men I... killed, at the shuttleport."
Miles understood the little hesitation before her choice of terms. Someone else might have picked a breezier euphemism-blew away, or offed-distancing himself from the consequences of his action. Not Quinn.
"Interesting, I take it," he said encouragingly. He made his voice calm, drained of any hint of judgment. Would that the ghosts of your enemies only escorted you to h.e.l.l. But no, they had to hang about your shoulder interminably, waiting until that service was called for. Maybe the notches Danio gouged in the hilts of his weapons weren"t such a tasteless idea after all. Surely it was a greater sin to forget a single dead man in your tally. "Tell me about them."
"They turned out to be both known to and desired by the Eurolaw Net. They were-how shall I put this-soldiers of the sub-economy. Professional hit men. Locals."
Miles winced. "Good G.o.d, what have I ever done to them?"
"I doubt they were after you of their own accord. They were almost certainly hirelings, contracted by a third party or parties unknown, though I imagine we could both give it a good guess."
"Oh, no. The Cetagandan Emba.s.sy is sub-contracting my a.s.sa.s.sination now? I suppose it makes sense: Galeni said they were understaffed. But do you realize-" he rose and began to pace in his agitation, "this means I could be attacked again from any quarter. Anywhere, any time. By totally un-personally-motivated strangers."
"A security nightmare," she agreed.
"I don"t suppose the police were able to trace their employer?"
"No such luck. Not yet, anyway. I did direct their attention to the Cetagandans, as candidates for the motive leg of any method-motive-opportunity triangle they may try to put together."
"Good. Can we make anything of the method and opportunity parts ourselves?" Miles wondered aloud. "The end results of their attempt would seem to indicate they were a trifle under-prepared for their task."
"From my point of view their method looked like it came awfully d.a.m.n close to working," she remarked. "It suggests, though, that opportunity might have been their limiting factor. I mean, Admiral Naismith doesn"t just go into hiding when you go downside, tricky as it would be to find one man among nine billion. He literally ceases to exist anywhere, zip! There was evidence these guys had been hanging around the shuttleport for some days waiting for you."
"Ugh." His visit to Earth was quite spoiled. Admiral Naismith was, it appeared, a danger to himself and others. Earth was too congested. What if his a.s.sailants next tried to blow up a whole tubeway car or restaurant to reach their target? An escort to h.e.l.l by the souls of his enemies was one thing, but what if he were standing beside a cla.s.s of primary-school children next round?
"Oh, by the way, I did see Private Danio when I was downside," Elli added, examining a chipped fingernail. "His case is coming up for judicial review in a couple of days, and he asked me to ask you to come."
Miles snarled under his breath. "Oh, sure. A potentially unlimited number of total strangers are trying to off me, and he wants me to schedule a public appearance. For target practice, no doubt."
Elli grinned, and nibbled her fingernail off evenly. "He wants a character witness by someone who knows him."
"Character witness! I wish I knew where he hid his scalp collection; I"d bring it just to show the judge. Sociopath therapy was invented for people like him. No, no. The last person he wants for a character witness is someone who knows him." Miles sighed, subsiding. "Send Captain Thorne. Betan, got a lot of cosmopolitan savoir faire, should be able to lie well on the witness stand."
"Good choice," Elli applauded. "It"s about time you started delegating some of your work load."
"I delegate all the time," he objected. "I am extremely glad, for instance, that I delegated my personal security to you."
She flipped up a hand, grimacing, as if to bat away the implied compliment before it could land. Did his words bite? "I was slow."
"You were fast enough." Miles wheeled and came to face her, or at any rate her throat. She had folded back her jacket for comfort, and the arc of her black T-shirt intersected her collarbone in a kind of abstract, aesthetic sculpture. The scent of her-no perfume, just woman-rose warm from her skin.
"I think you were right," she said. "Officers shouldn"t go shopping in the company store-"
Dammit, thought Miles, I only said that back then because I was in love with Baz Jesek"s wife and didn"t want to say so-better to never say so- "-it really does distract from duty. I watched you, walking toward us across the shuttleport, and for a couple of minutes, critical minutes, security was the last thing on my mind."
"What was the first thing on your mind?" Miles asked hopefully, before his better sense could stop him. Wake up man, you could fumble your whole future in the next thirty seconds.
Her smile was rather pained. "I was wondering what you"d done with that stupid cat blanket, actually," she said lightly.
"I left it at the emba.s.sy. I was going to bring it," and what wouldn"t he give to whip it out now, and invite her to sit with him on the edge of his bed? "but I had some other things on my mind. I haven"t told you yet about the latest wrinkle in our tangled finances. I suspect-" dammit, business again, intruding into this personal moment, this would-be personal moment. "I"ll tell you about that later. Right now I want to talk about us. I have to talk about us."
She moved back from him slightly; Miles amended his words hastily, "and about duty." She stopped retreating. His right hand touched her uniform collar, turned it over, slid over the smooth cool surface of her rank insignia. Nervous as lint-picking. He drew his hand back, clenched it over his breast to control it.
"I... have a lot of duties, you see. Sort of a double dose. There"s Admiral Naismith"s duties, and there"s Lieutenant Vorkosigan"s duties. And then there"s Lord Vorkosigan"s duties. A triple dose."
Her eyebrows were arched, her lips pursed, her eyes blandly inquiring; supernal patience, yes, she"d wait for him to make an a.s.s of himself at his own pace. His pace was becoming headlong.
"You"re familiar with Admiral Naismith"s duties. But they"re the least of my troubles, really. Admiral Naismith is subordinate to Lieutenant Vorkosigan, who exists only to serve Barrayaran Imperial Security, to which he has been posted by the wisdom and mercy of his Emperor. Well, his Emperor"s advisors, anyway. In short, Dad. You know that story."
She nodded.
"That business about not getting personally involved with anyone on his staff may be true enough for Admiral Naismith..."
"I"d wondered, later, whether that... incident in the lift tube might have been some kind of test," she said reflectively.
This took a moment to sink in. "Eugh! No!" Miles yelped. "What a repulsively lowdown, mean and scurvy trick that would have been-no. No test. Quite real."
"Ah," she said, but failed to rea.s.sure him of her conviction with, say, a heartfelt hug. A heartfelt hug would be very rea.s.suring just now. But she just stood there, regarding him, in a stance uncomfortably like parade rest.
"But you have to remember, Admiral Naismith isn"t a real man. He"s a construct. I invented him. With some important parts missing, in retrospect."
"Oh, rubbish, Miles." She touched his cheek lightly. "What is this, ectoplasm?"
"Let"s get back, all the way back, to Lord Vorkosigan," Miles forged on desperately. He cleared his throat and with an effort dropped his voice back into his Barrayaran accent. "You"ve barely met Lord Vorkosigan."
She grinned at his change of voice. "I"ve heard you do his accent. It"s charming if, um, rather incongruous."
"I don"t do his accent, he does mine. That is-I think-" he stopped, tangled. "Barrayar is bred in my bones."
Her eyebrows lifted, their ironic tilt blunted by her clear good will. "Literally, as I understand it. I shouldn"t think you"d thank them, for poisoning you before you"d even managed to get born."
"They weren"t after me, they were after my father. My mother-" considering just where he was attempting to steer this conversation, it might be better to avoid expanding upon the misfired a.s.sa.s.sination attempts of the last twenty-five years. "Anyway, that kind of thing hardly ever happens any more."
"What was that out there on the shuttleport today, street ballet?"
"It wasn"t a Barrayaran a.s.sa.s.sination."
"You don"t know that," she remarked cheerfully.
Miles opened his mouth and hung, stunned by a new and even more horrible paranoia. Captain Galeni was a subtle man, if Miles had read him aright. Captain Galeni could be far ahead down any linked chain of logic of interest to him. Suppose he was indeed guilty of embezzlement. And suppose he had antic.i.p.ated Miles"s suspicions. And suppose he"d spotted a way to keep money and career both, by eliminating his accuser. Galeni, after all, had known just when Miles was to be at the shuttleport. Any local dealer in death that the Cetagandan emba.s.sy could hire, the Barrayaran emba.s.sy could hire just as readily, just as covertly. "We"ll talk about that-later-too," he choked.
"Why not now?"
"BECAUSE I"M-" he stopped, took a deep breath, "trying to say something else," he continued in a small, tightly contained voice.
There was a pause. "Say on," Elli encouraged.
"Um, duties. Well, just as Lieutenant Vorkosigan contains all of Admiral Naismith"s duties, plus others of his own, so Lord Vorkosigan contains all of Lieutenant Vorkosigan, plus duties of his own. Political duties separate from and overarching a lieutenant"s military duties. And, um... family duties." His palm was damp; he rubbed it un.o.btrusively on the seam of his trousers. This was even harder than he"d thought it would be. But no harder, surely, than someone who"d had her face blown away once having to face plasma fire again.
"You make yourself sound like a Venn diagram. "The set of all sets which are members of themselves" or something."
"I feel like it," he admitted. "But I"ve got to keep track somehow."
"What contains Lord Vorkosigan?" she asked curiously. "When you look in the mirror when you step out of the shower, what looks back? Do you say to yourself, Hi, Lord Vorkosigan?"
I avoid looking in mirrors.... "Miles, I guess. Just Miles."
"And what contains Miles?"
His right index finger traced over the back of his immobilized left hand. "This skin."
"And that"s the last, outer perimeter?"
"I guess."
"G.o.ds," she muttered. "I"ve fallen in love with a man who thinks he"s an onion."