Charlotte smiled at him over the papers.
"How very Emily," he answered with deep satisfaction.
"I must write to her." Charlotte folded it up and put it back into the envelope. "I have nothing so exotic to tell her. May I relate the wretched situation here? I shall tell her about Dominic, of course. That is barely a secret."
"Yes, tell her about poor Ramsay Parmenter, if you like," he agreed. There seemed no harm in it. And Emily could keep her own counsel if need be.
Mention of Ramsay Parmenter made him think again of the notebook. The notes in it seemed to make no sense, and yet they must have done, at least to Ramsay himself. It did not matter any longer. The case was over. But he could not let his mind rest until he had done his best to understand his failure. How else could he salvage at least the wisdom to do better next time?
He picked up the book and opened it to the first entry. There was no date. It seemed to concern a fisherman, or someone whose name was Fisherman, and an ill-fated expedition, or holiday, to somewhere described as "summer-clime." The next two pages were on the same subject. Then there followed what appeared to be jottings of ideas for an essay or a sermon on life and disappointment. It did not seem very promising.
Half a dozen pages on he found a reference to "the master" and "the ringer," and a comment with an exclamation mark- "What a carillon that must have been!"-and then the question "But when?" Then: "A peal of bells, but what time? A funeral knell, a burial of other things, did the call to prayer come from that, I wonder!" And on the following page: "Poor soul!" and "But who is the walking dead?"
Charlotte looked up, her expression curious.
"Send my love to Emily," he offered.
"I will. What are you reading?"
"Ramsay Parmenter"s notebook."
"What does he say? Does it explain anything?"
"Nothing at all. It doesn"t even appear to be sense, just odd words and phrases."
"For example?"
"A whole lot about "the master" and "the ringer," different peals of bells, and the walking dead. I a.s.sume that must be metaphorical."
She smiled. "Well, it certainly isn"t literal, I hope!"
"No, of course not."
"Maybe it is metaphorical," she agreed. "Although the peals of bells sounds bland enough. Perhaps they are all notes on services and sermons and that sort of thing. I should think you have to have ideas far in advance in order to give a decent sermon every week. You can"t just hope it will come by Sat.u.r.day afternoon."
"Possibly. There were notes earlier on life and disappointment."
"Miserable subject. Perhaps he was going to say something about real values, or faith, or something?" she suggested, her pen still in the air.
"Nothing about faith so far. I"ll read some more. Don"t let me interrupt your letter to Emily."
She smiled brightly. "You mean don"t interrupt you anymore. I take your point, so subtly put."
He pulled a slight face at her and returned to Ramsay"s notebook. There was more about the fisherman. Apparently Ramsay did not like him and considered him in a sense to have been a thief, but the object stolen was not specified.
Then he returned to the master and the ringer again. The writing was becoming very jerky, as if written under great emotional pressure: "The ringer!! Where did it all begin? That was it! What a d.a.m.nable thing. The same tune played over...is that it? Oh Master, Master, what have you done? In G.o.d"s name why?"
Pitt stared at the page. There was such pa.s.sion in it. It could not possibly be written of bell ringing. No one would care so fiercely about such a thing. And why write about it? Who was the master? It did not seem to be a religious reference.
Did "ringer" mean a double, a look-alike, one person mistaken for another?
But who? There had been no questions of ident.i.ty in this case. The only people who were not members of the Parmenter family, known to each other for years, were Unity Bellwood and Dominic. And Pitt was perfectly certain about Dominic.
And that left Unity. But how did her ident.i.ty matter? What difference would it make if she were who she said or not?
Ringer...for whom? Or was it bell ringing after all?
Or Bellwood? Was it a mildly oblique way of referring to Unity Bellwood?
Master! There were Latin phrases here and there in the notes. Master...dominus..."Dominic!"
He did not realize he had spoken aloud until Charlotte looked up, her eyes wide, her brow furrowed with alarm.
"What?"
"I just understood what one of these references meant," he explained.
"What does he say?" she demanded, her own letter now totally ignored.
"I don"t know yet. I"ve only just begun to decipher it." It was not very subtle really. The notes were never meant for anyone else"s eyes, certainly not to fool Mallory or Dominic himself, or Unity.
Now the references took on a very different meaning. It made excellent sense...sense that chilled him and sent a coldness running through his mind till it seemed almost like a physical thing in the warm, familiar room. He would tell Charlotte nothing of it yet.
He read on. It was inescapable now. Ramsay believed Dominic to have known Unity in the past. The references to tragedy were easy to see, although not specifically what it had been, only that its nature was personal and inspired a deep guilt in one or both of them. Ramsay concluded that Unity had lost Dominic for some time, perhaps years, and on discovering where he was, had sought the position in Brunswick Gardens solely in order to follow him there. Thinking again of the urgency of her application for the position, when her qualifications were so high, that was not difficult to believe.
There was a very clear mention of blackmail in order to force Dominic to reestablish the old relationship between them, regardless of his wishes, which, since he had run away in the first place, it was safe to presume he did not want.
There were brief, rather jagged notes, Ramsay"s writing becoming less even, far less controlled, as if his hand had shaken and he had gripped the pen too hard. There were occasional scratches and blots. They expressed fear not only in the words but in the black, spiky letters on the page. Ramsay thought Dominic had killed Unity rather than allow her to break up his new life with its public respect and hope of dignity and gentle progress towards acceptance and advancement.
He had not intended anyone else to read this. To judge from the different tones of the ink, even different colors in some places, it had been written over a s.p.a.ce of time. There was no reason to doubt it had been written contemporarily with the events themselves. Pitt could not escape the conviction that Ramsay had genuinely thought Dominic guilty of Unity"s death, and it had caused him pain and a deep and terrible sense of his own failure. If he had considered his own death, it would not have been from guilt over Unity but from despair because his life had seemed to him devoid of purpose or success. Everything he had attempted had turned to ashes. Dominic was the last blow, and the worst. There were undeniable accents of the desire to escape, to find an end, becoming stronger. Pitt could not evade them.
He closed the book with the chill inside him consuming.
The room around him was so comfortable it jarred against his inner misery, making him more acutely conscious of the world of difference between the physical and the reality of the mind and the heart. The flames flickered gently in the hearth, sending a wavering light onto Charlotte"s skirt, her arms and shoulder and cheek. It made her hair almost copper and shadowed the hollow of her neck. Her hands moved rhythmically as she wrote. There was no sound but the clock on the mantelpiece, the flames and the movement of her pen over the paper, and the very faint burning of the gas lamp. It was all so familiar, comfortable, a trifle worn with use. Some of the things had been secondhand, part of someone else"s life before theirs, but probably just as loved. He took the safety of it all for granted. He had always been happy here. There were no dark-nesses, no regrets.
As if sensing his stillness, Charlotte looked up.
"What is it? What have you found now?"
"I"m not completely sure," he prevaricated.
She was not to be so easily put off. "Well, what is it you think?"
"I think perhaps Ramsay Parmenter was not guilty of pushing Unity down the stairs ..." he said slowly, watching her face.
She understood. "Then who was?" she said hesitantly, her eyes on his.
"It"s only a thought." He was being evasive.
She was not to be put off.
"Why? What has he written in that book?" she demanded.
"It"s all in a kind of code, not very obscure if you understand that he"s using a sort of dog Latin, puns and so on ..."
"Thomas!" Now her voice was sharp. "You are frightening me. Is it so bad you can"t bring yourself to be honest with me?"
"Yes ..." he said quietly.
Her face paled. She stared at him with hollow eyes. "Dominic?"
"Yes." He had thought he would get some kind of satisfaction from being able to show her Dominic"s weakness, but now that he had not only the chance but no escape from the necessity, there was nothing but sadness. And he felt it not only for her but within himself as well. He had believed the letter of grat.i.tude in Ramsay"s desk, and it had brought him surprising warmth.
"What does it say?" Charlotte pressed. "What does Ramsay say that makes you think it was Dominic? Couldn"t he be wrong? Or trying to put blame from himself?" There was no accusation in her voice or in her eyes. She knew he was not enjoying it this time. She was only looking for escape.
He opened the book and read out the first relevant pa.s.sage to her. Her schoolroom Latin was quite quick enough to understand.
"Go on," she said huskily.
He obeyed, reading the second and the third, right through to the last.
"Does that have to mean he was right?" she asked.
"No. But it does mean he can"t have done it himself."
She did not mention Mallory, but it hung unspoken between them, possible, but only a hope, too fragile to cling to.
"What are you going to do?" she said at last.
"I"m not sure."
Again she sat silently for several moments. The fire settled down, flames brilliant as it consumed the unburnt coal, then sinking again. Pitt reached forward for the tongs and put on half a dozen more pieces.
"You can"t leave it," she said at last. "Even if we didn"t have to know, you can"t allow Ramsay Parmenter to be blamed for something he didn"t do."
"He is dead," he pointed out.
"His family isn"t. Clarice isn"t. Anyway, don"t you have to know? I shall always be afraid it was Dominic. Maybe it isn"t. Isn"t the truth better, whatever it is?"
"Not always."
She put her pen and ink away, even though the letter was unfinished. She lifted her feet and tucked them beside her on the sofa. It was a position she adopted when she was cold, frightened, or deeply miserable.
"Even so, I think you had better find out all you can. You can look...can"t you?"
"Yes. There"s enough in Ramsay"s notebook to start."
"Tomorrow?"
"I suppose so."
She said nothing else, but hugged her arms around herself and shivered.
Pitt set out with Ramsay"s notebook in his coat pocket. It made the right side bulge and hang crookedly, but that hardly mattered. He walked rapidly. Now that he had determined to do it there was no point in hesitating. It was raining quite hard, although over the roofs to the west there were gleaming patches of blue in the sky..."enough to make trousers for one sailor," as his mother used to say.
He took a cab to Maida Vale, back to the house in Hall Road.
"I don"t know anything about it," Morgan said fiercely. She was dressed in green and white and looked quaintly regal with a crown of leaves in her hair. She was quite unself-conscious of any absurdity. As before, they were in her studio, cluttered with canvases, but this time the light was flat, draining the color, and rain beat against the windows. She had been painting before he came in, but there were only greens and yellows on her palette, which now sat on a stool a yard away.
"I have never heard of Unity Bellwood," she denied. "And we have had no tragedy here, except Jenny"s death, and you already know all about that." Her face darkened. "You did not need to have sent your man behind my back to ask the boy. That was devious."
Pitt smiled at her naive indignation; it was the only sensible reaction.
"Why are you laughing at me?" she demanded, but he could see in her eyes that she half understood. "I don"t discuss other people"s affairs, least of all with police," she went on. "It is not wrong to protect people from inquisitive strangers, it is wrong not to. It is part of the nature of friendship not to betray, especially whatever you think or fear might be a weakness." Her light blue eyes were clear. Whatever she knew or suspected, at least this sentiment was honest.
"Do you place the interests of your friends before those of others?" he asked, leaning his weight against the mantel.
"Of course," she replied, staring at him.
"Always?"
She did not answer.
"Does it matter how little your friend loses, or how much the other person does? Is your friend always right, no matter the issue or the price?"
"Well...no ..."
"Dominic"s embarra.s.sment against Ramsay Parmenter"s life? What about your own morality? Do you have a faith to yourself as well?"
Her neck stiffened. "Of course I do. Is it Ramsay Parmenter"s life?"
"No. It is just a question, to see where your judgment is."
"Why do you pick Ramsay Parmenter?" She did not believe him, and it was clear in her face.
"His life is not in the balance. He is already dead."
That jolted her. The color faded from her skin, leaving her looking tired. "If he"s dead, why do you need to know?"
"Can"t you guess?"
"Are you trying to say Dominic killed him?" She was very white now. "I don"t believe that!" But the raw edge to her voice showed that she could not dismiss it from her mind so completely.
"Where was he living before he was here?" he pressed. "You must know. He didn"t appear from nowhere. He had clothes, belongings, letters, at least acquaintances. He always dressed well. What about his tailor? Where did his money come from? Or did you keep him?"
She flushed. "No, I did not keep him! I don"t know all those things. I didn"t ask. We don"t ask questions of one another. It is part of friendship, and trust."
"Did he leave anything behind when he went to Icehouse Wood?"