For a moment Ralph stood, wondering and uncertain. Then there came into his mind a sudden resolution to speak to them, to tell them who he was, and why and how he was here, and ask them to help him. He started forward, but they were already pa.s.sing out at the door. He pushed hurriedly by several people in his effort to overtake them, but the man who stood there punching tickets stopped him.
"Where"s your ticket, sonny?" he asked.
"I ain"t got any," replied Ralph.
"Then you can"t get out here."
"But I want to find Mrs. Burnham."
"Who"s Mrs. Burnham?"
"The lady"t just went out."
"Has she got a ticket for you?"
"No, but she"d give me money to get one--I think."
"Well, I can"t help that; you can"t go out Come, stand aside! you"re blocking up the way."
The people, crowding by, pushed Ralph back, and he went and sat down on the bench again.
The bell rang, the conductor shouted "All aboard!" and the train moved off.
Ralph"s eyes were full of tears, and his heart was very heavy. It was not so much because he was friendless and without money that he grieved, but because his mother,--his own mother,--had pa.s.sed him by in his distress and had not helped him. She had been so close to him that he could almost have put out his hand and touched her dress, and yet she had swept by, in her haste, oblivious of his presence. He knew, of course, that, if he had spoken to her, or if she had seen and known him, she would gladly have befriended him. But it was not her a.s.sistance that he wanted so much as it was her love. It was the absence of that sympathy, that devotion, that watchful care over every step he might take, that motherly instinct that ought to have felt his presence though her eyes had been blinded; it was the absence of all this that filled his heart with heaviness.
But he did not linger long in despair; he dashed the tears from his eyes, and began to consider what he should do. He thought it probable that there would be a later train; and it was barely possible that some one whom he knew might be going up on it. It occurred to him that Sharpman had said he would be busy in Wilkesbarre all day. Perhaps he had not gone home yet; if not, he might go on the next train, if there was one. It was worth while to inquire, at any rate.
"Yes," said the door-keeper, in answer to Ralph"s question, "there"ll be another train going up at eleven thirty-five."
"Do you know Mr. Sharpman?" asked the boy, timidly.
"Mr. who?"
"Mr. Sharpman, the lawyer from Scranton."
"No, I don"t know him,--why?"
"Oh, I didn"t know but you might know w"ether he"d gone home or not; but, of course, if you don"t know "im you couldn"t tell."
"No, I don"t know anything about him," said the man, stretching himself on the bench for a nap.
Ralph thought he would wait. Indeed, there was nothing better for him to do. It was warm here, and he had a seat, and he knew of no other place in the city where he could be so comfortable. The clock on the wall informed him that it was eight in the evening. He began to feel hungry. He could see, through a half-opened door, the tempting array of food on the lunch-counter in another room; but he knew that he could get none, and he tried not to think of eating. It was very quiet now in the waiting-room, and it was not very long before Ralph fell to dozing and dreaming. He dreamed that he was somewhere in deep distress, and that his mother came, looking for him, but unable to see him; that she pa.s.sed so close to him he put out his hand and touched her; that he tried to speak to her and could not, and so, unaware of his presence, she went on, leaving him alone in his misery.
The noise of persons coming into the room awoke him, finally, and he sat up and rubbed his eyes and looked around him. He saw, by the clock on the wall, that it was nearly train time. The escaping steam from the waiting engine could already be heard outside. People were buying tickets and making their way hurriedly to the platform; but, among all those who came in and went out, Ralph could not discover the familiar face and figure of Sharpman, nor, indeed, could he see any one whom he knew.
After the pa.s.sengers had all gone out, the door-keeper called Ralph to him.
"Find your man?" he asked.
"Do you mean Mr. Sharpman?"
"Yes."
"No, he didn"t come in. I guess he went home before."
The door-keeper paused and looked thoughtful. Finally he said:--
"You want to go to Scranton?"
"Yes, that"s where I live."
"Well, I"ll tell you what you do. You git onto that train, and when Jim Coleman--he"s the conductor--when he comes around to punch your ticket, you tell him I said you were to be pa.s.sed. Now you"ll have to hurry; run!"
The kind-hearted door-keeper saw Ralph leap on to the train as it moved slowly out, and then he turned back into the waiting-room.
"Might as well give the lad a lift," he said to a man who stood by, smiling; "he looked awful solemn when the last train before went and left him. Jim won"t put him off till he gits to Pittston, anyway."
Ralph found a vacant seat in the car and dropped into it, breathless and excited. His good luck had come to him all in a moment so, that it had quite upset him.
He did not just understand why the door-keeper"s word should be good for his pa.s.sage, but the conductor would know, and doubtless it was all right.
The train went rumbling on through the darkness; the lamps, hanging from the ceiling, swayed back and forth; the people in the car were very quiet,--some of them, indeed, were already asleep.
By and by, the conductor came in, a slender, young-looking man, with a good-natured face. He greeted several of the pa.s.sengers pleasantly, and came down the aisle, punching tickets to the right and left, till he reached the seat where Ralph was.
"Ticket?" he asked.
"I ain"t got any," said the boy.
"What"s the reason?"
"W"y, I lost all my money, an" I couldn"t buy one, an" I couldn"t see n.o.body"t I knew, an" the man"t tended door, he said tell you to pa.s.s me up."
The conductor smiled, as he recognized a familiar scheme of the kind-hearted door-keeper, but he said, trying to speak sternly:--
"The man had no right to tell you that. Our rules are very strict. No one can ride without a ticket or a pa.s.s. Where do you want to go?"
"To Scranton; I live there," said Ralph, his voice faltering with apprehension.
"Well, I suppose I ought to stop the train and put you off."
Ralph looked out through the car window, at the blackness outside, and his face took on a look of fear.
"I"m very sorry," he said, "I"m awful sorry. I wouldn"t "a" got on if I"d "a" known it. Do you think you"ve _got_ to put me off--right away?"
The conductor looked out through the window, too.
"Well," he said, "it"s pretty dark, and I hate to stop the train between stations. I guess I"ll have to let you ride to Pittston, anyway. You"ll get out there, won"t you? it"s the first stop."
"Oh, yes! I"ll get out there," said Ralph, much relieved, settling back into his seat as the conductor left.