When they reached the west entrance again she turned and looked up the aisle again.
"And the Rood!" she said. "Even Christ crucified is gone. Then, in G.o.d"s name what is left?" And her eyes turned fiercely for a moment on the Rector.
"At least courtesy and Christian kindness is left, madam," he said sternly.
She dropped her eyes and went out; and Isabel and Anthony followed, startled and ashamed. But Mary had recovered herself as she came on to the head of the stone stairs, beside which the stump of the churchyard cross stood; standing there was the same tall, slender woman whose back they had seen through the window, and who now stood eyeing Mary with half-dropped lids. Her face was very white, with hard lines from nose to mouth, and thin, tightly compressed lips. Mary swept her with one look, and then pa.s.sed on and down the steps, followed by Isabel and Anthony, as the Rector came out, locking the church door again behind him.
As they went up the green, a shrill thin voice began to scold from over the churchyard wall, and they heard the lower, determined voice of the minister answering.
"They are at it again," said Anthony, once more.
"And what do you mean by that, Master Anthony?" said Mistress Corbet, who seemed herself again now.
"She is just a scold," said the lad, "the village-folk hate her."
"You seem not to love her," said Mary, smiling.
"Oh! Mistress Corbet, do you know what she said--" and then he broke off, crimson-faced.
"She is no friend to Catholics, I suppose," said Mary, seeming to notice nothing.
"She is always making mischief," he went on eagerly. "The Rector would be well enough but for her. He is a good fellow, really."
"There, there," said Mary, "and you think me a scold, too, I daresay.
Well, you know I cannot bear to see these old churches--well, perhaps I was--" and then she broke off again, and was silent.
The brother and sister presently turned back to the Dower House; and Mary went on, and through the Hall straight into the Italian garden where Mistress Margaret was sitting alone at her embroidery.
"My sister has been called away by the housekeeper," she explained, "but she will be back presently."
Mary sat down and took up the little tawny book that lay by Lady Maxwell"s chair, and began to turn it over idly while she talked. The old lady by her seemed to invite confidences.
"I have been to see the church," said Mary. "The Rector showed it to me.
What a beautiful place it must have been."
"Ah!" said Mistress Margaret "I only came to live here a few years ago; so I have never known or loved it like my sister or her husband. They can hardly bear to enter it now. You know that Sir Nicholas" father and grandfather are buried in the Maxwell chapel; and it was his father who gave the furniture of the sanctuary, and the images of Our Lady and Saint Christopher that they burned on the green."
"It is terrible," said Mary, a little absently, as she turned the pages of the book.
Mistress Margaret looked up.
"Ah! you have one of my books there," she said. "It is a little collection I made."
Miss Corbet turned to the beginning, but only found a seal with an inscription.
"But this belonged to a nunnery," she said.
"Yes," said Mistress Margaret, tranquilly, "and I am a nun."
Mary looked at her in astonishment.
"But, but," she began.
"Yes, Mistress Corbet; we were dispersed in "38; some entered the other nunneries; and some went to France; but, at last, under circ.u.mstances that I need not trouble you with, I came here under spiritual direction, and have observed my obligations ever since."
"And have you always said your offices?" Mary asked astonished.
"Yes, my dear; by the mercy of G.o.d I have never failed yet. I tell you this of course because you are one of us, and because you have a faithful heart." Mistress Margaret lifted her great eyes and looked at Mary tenderly and penetratingly.
"And this is one of your books?" she asked.
"Yes, my dear. I was allowed at least to take it away with me. My sister here is very fond of it."
Mary opened it again, and began to turn the pages.
"Is it all in your handwriting, Mistress Torridon?"
"Yes, my child; I continued writing in it ever since I first entered religion in 1534; so you see the handwriting changes a little," and she smiled to herself.
"Oh, but this is charming," cried Mary, intent on the book.
"Read it, my dear, aloud."
Mary read:
"Let me not rest, O Lord, nor have quiet, But fill my soul with spiritual travail, To sing and say, O mercy, Jesu sweet; Thou my protection art in the battail.
Set thou aside all other apparail; Let me in thee feel all my affiance.
Treasure of treasures, thou dost most avail.
Grant ere I die shrift, pardon, repentance."
Her voice trembled a little and ceased.
"That is from some verses of Dan John Lydgate, I think," said Mistress Margaret.
"Here is another," said Mary in a moment or two.
"Jesu, at thy will, I pray that I may be, All my heart fulfil with perfect love to thee: That I have done ill, Jesu forgive thou me: And suffer me never to spill, Jesu for thy pity."
"The nuns of Hampole gave me that," said Mistress Margaret. "It is by Richard Rolle, the hermit."
"Tell me a little," said Mary Corbet, suddenly laying down the book, "about the nunnery."
"Oh, my dear, that is too much to ask; but how happy we were. All was so still; it used to seem sometimes as if earth were just a dream; and that we walked in Paradise. Sometimes in the Greater Silence, when we had spoken no word nor heard one except in G.o.d"s praise, it used to seem that if we could but be silent a little longer, and a little more deeply, in our hearts as well, we should hear them talking in heaven, and the harps; and the Saviour"s soft footsteps. But it was not always like that."
"You mean," said Mary softly, "that, that--" and she stopped.
"Oh, it was hard sometimes; but not often. G.o.d is so good. But He used to allow such trouble and darkness and noise to be in our hearts sometimes--at least in mine. But then of course I was always very wicked.
But sitting in the nymph-hay sometimes on a day like this, as we were allowed to do; with just tall thin trees like poplars and cypresses round us: and the stream running through the long gra.s.s; and the birds, and the soft sky and the little breeze; and then peace in our hearts; and the love of the Saviour round us--it seemed, it seemed as if G.o.d had nothing more to give; or, I should say, as if our hearts had no more s.p.a.ce."