And I wish you to have some post about the Court; I must see what it is to be."
Anthony"s heart began to sink again as he watched the Queen"s face as she sat tapping a foot softly and looking on the floor as she talked. Those lines of self-will about the eyes and mouth surely meant something.
Then she looked up, still with her cheek on her right hand.
"You do not thank me, Mr. Norris."
Anthony made a great effort; but he heard his own voice quiver a little.
"I thank your Grace for your kindly intentions toward me, with all my heart."
The Queen seemed satisfied, and looked down again.
"As to the oath, I will not ask you to take it formally, if you will give me an a.s.surance of your loyalty."
"That, your Grace, I give most gladly."
His heart was beating again in great irregular thumps in his throat; he had the sensation of swaying to and fro on the edge of a precipice, now towards safety and now towards death; it was the cruellest pain he had suffered yet. But how was it possible to have some post at Court without relinquishing the exercise of his priesthood? He must think it out; what did the Queen mean?
"And, of course, you will not be able to say ma.s.s again; but I shall not hinder your hearing it at the Amba.s.sador"s whenever you please."
Ah! it had come; his heart gave a leap and seemed to cease.
"Your Grace must forgive me, but I cannot consent."
There was a dead silence; when Anthony looked up, she was staring at him with the frankest astonishment.
"Did you think, Mr. Norris, you could be at Court and say ma.s.s too whenever you wished?" Her voice rang harsh and shrill; her anger was rising.
"I was not sure what your Grace intended for me."
"The fellow is mad," she said, still staring at him. "Oh! take care, take care!"
"Your Grace knows I intend no insolence."
"You mean to say, Mr. Norris, that you will not take a pardon and a post at Court on those terms?"
Anthony bowed; he could not trust himself to speak, so bitter was the reaction.
"But, see man, you fool; if you die as a traitor you will never say ma.s.s again either."
"But that will not be with my consent, your Grace."
"And you refuse the pardon?"
"On those terms, your Grace, I must."
"Well----" and she was silent a moment, "you are a fool, sir."
Anthony bowed again.
"But I like courage.--Well, then, you will not be my servant?"
"I have ever been that, your Grace; and ever will be."
"Well, well,--but not at Court?"
"Ah! your Grace knows I cannot," cried Anthony, and his voice rang sorrowfully.
Again there was silence.
"You must have your way, sir, for poor Minnie"s sake; but it pa.s.ses my understanding what you mean by it. And let me tell you that not many have their way with me, rather than mine."
Again hope leapt up in his heart. The Queen then was not so ungracious.
He looked up and smiled--and down again.
"Why, the man"s lips are all a-quiver. What ails him?"
"It is your Grace"s kindness."
"I must say I marvel at it myself," observed Elizabeth. "You near angered me just now; take care you do not so quite."
"I would not willingly, as your Grace knows."
"Then we will end this matter. You give me your a.s.surance of loyalty to my person."
"With all my heart, madam," said Anthony eagerly.
"Then you must get to France within the week. The other too--Buxton--he loses his estate, but has his life. I am doing much for Minnie"s sake."
"How can I thank your Grace?"
"And I will cause Sir Richard to give it out that you have taken the oath. Call him in."
There was a quick gasp from the priest; and then he cried with agony in his voice:
"I cannot, your Grace, I cannot."
"Cannot call Sir Richard! Why, you are mad, sir!"
"Cannot consent; I have taken no oath."
"I know you have not. I do not ask it."
Elizabeth"s voice came short and harsh; her patience was vanishing, and Anthony knew it and looked at her. She had dropped her hand, and it was clenching and unclenching on her knee. Her stick slipped on the polished boards and fell; but she paid it no attention. She was looking straight at the priest; her high eyebrows were coming down; her mouth was beginning to mumble a little; he could see in the clear sunlight that fell on her sideways through the tall window a thousand little wrinkles, and all seemed alive; the lines at the corners of her eyes and mouth deepened as he watched.
"What a-Christ"s name do you want, sir?"