"I must content myself with a tacit compliance, if I can obtain no other. I am really uneasy to talk with you; not, believe me, from officiousness nor impertinence, but from a persuasion I may be able to promote your happiness. You won"t speak, I see? And you judge perfectly right; for the less you disclaim, the less I shall torment you. Permit me, therefore, to take for granted that you are already aware I am acquainted with the state of your heart."
Camilla, trembling, had now no wish but to fly; she fastened her eyes upon the door, and every thought was devoted to find the means of escape.
"Nay, nay, if you look frightened in sober sadness, I am gone. But shall I think less, or know less, for saying nothing? It is not speech, my dear Miss Tyrold, that makes detections: It only proclaims them."
A sigh was all the answer of Camilla: though, a.s.sured, thus, she had nothing to gain by flight, she forced herself to stay.
"We understand one another, I see, perfectly. Let me now, then, as unaffectedly go on, as if the grand explanation had been verbally made.
That your fancy, my fair young friend, has. .h.i.t upon a tormentor, I will not deny; yet not upon an ingrate; for this person, little as you seem conscious of your power, certainly loves you."
Surprised off all sort of guard, Camilla exclaimed, "O no!--O no!"
Mrs. Arlbery smiled, but went on. "Yes, my dear, he undoubtedly does you that little justice; yet, if you are not well advised, his pa.s.sion will be unavailing; and your artlessness, your facility, and your innocence, with his knowledge, nay, his very admiration of them, will operate but to separate you."
Glowing with opposing yet strong emotions at these words, the countenance of Camilla asked an explanation, in defiance of her earnest desire to look indifferent or angry.
"You will wonder, and very naturally, how such attractions should work as repulses; but I will be plain and clear, and you must be candid and rational, and forgive me. These attractions, my dear, will be the source of this mischief, because he sees, by their means, that you are undoubtedly at his command."
"No, madam! no, Mrs. Arlbery!" cried Camilla, in whose pride now every other feeling was concentrated, "he does not, cannot see it!--"
"I would not hurt you for the world, my very amiable young friend; but pardon me if I say, that not to see it--he must be blinder than I imagine him!--blinder than ... to tell you the truth, I am much inclined to think any of his race."
Confounded, irritated, and wounded, Camilla remained a moment silent, and then, though scarce articulately, answered: "If such is your opinion ... at least he shall see it ... fancy it, I mean ... no more!..."
"Keep to that resolution, and you will behold him ... where he ought to be ... at your feet."
Irresistibly, though most unwillingly, appeased by this unexpected conclusion, she turned away to hide a blush in which anger had not solely a place, and suffered Mrs. Arlbery to go on.
"There is but one single method to make a man of his ruminating cla.s.s know his own mind: give him cause to fear he will lose you. Animate, inspirit, inspire him with doubt."
"But why, ma"am," cried Camilla, in a faltering voice; "why shall you suppose I will take any method at all?"
"The apprehension you will take none is the very motive that urges me to speak to you. You are young enough in the world to think men come of themselves. But you are mistaken, my dear. That happens rarely; except with inflamed and hot-headed boys, whose pa.s.sions are in their first innocence as well as violence. Mandlebert has already given the dominion of his to other rulers, who will take more care of his pride, though not of his happiness. Attend to one who has travelled further into life than yourself, and believe me when I a.s.sert, that his bane, and yours alike, is his security."
With a colour yet deeper than ever, Camilla resentfully repeated, "Security!"
"Nay, how can he doubt? with a situation in life such as his...."
"Situation in life! Do you think he can ever suppose that would have the least, the most minute weight with me?"
"Why, it would be a very shocking supposition, I allow! but yet, somehow or other, that same sordid thing called money, does manage to produce such abundance of little comforts and pretty amus.e.m.e.nts, that one is apt ... to half suspect ... it may really not much add to any matrimonial aversion."
The very idea of such a suspicion offended Camilla beyond all else that had pa.s.sed; Mrs. Arlbery appeared to her indelicate, unkind, and ungenerous, and regretting she had ever seen, and repenting she had ever known her, she sunk upon a chair in a pa.s.sionate burst of tears.
Mrs. Arlbery embraced her, begged her pardon a thousand times; a.s.sured her all she had uttered was the effect of esteem as well as of affection, since she saw her too delicate, and too inexperienced, to be aware either of the dangers or the advantages surrounding her; and that very far from meaning to hurt her, she had few things more at heart than the desire of proving the sincerity of her regard, and endeavouring to contribute to her happiness.
Camilla thanked her, dried her eyes, and strove to appear composed; but she was too deeply affected for internal consolation: she felt herself degraded in being openly addressed as a love-sick girl; and injured in being supposed, for a moment, capable of any mercenary view. She desired to be excused going out, and to have the evening to herself; not on account of the expence of the play; she had again wholly forgotten her poverty; but to breathe a little alone, and indulge the sadness of her mind.
Mrs. Arlbery, unfeignedly sorry to have caused her any pain, would not oppose her inclination; she repeated her apologies, dragged from her an a.s.surance of forgiveness, and went down stairs alone to a summons from Sir Sedley Clarendel.
The first moments of her departure were spent by Camilla in the deepest dejection; from which, however, the recollection of her father, and her solemn engagement to him, soon after awakened her. She read again his injunctions, and resolving not to add to her unhappiness by any failure in her duty, determined to make her appearance with some spirit before Mrs. Arlbery set out.
"My dear Clarendel," cried that lady, as she entered the parlour, "this poor little girl is in a more serious plight than I had conjectured. I have been giving her a few hints, from the stores of my worldly knowledge, and they appear to her so detestably mean and vulgar, that they have almost broken her heart. The arrival of this odious Mandlebert has overthrown all our schemes. We are cut up, Sir Sedley! completely cut up!"
"O, indubitably to a degree!" cried the Baronet, with an air of mingled pique and conceit; "how could it be otherwise? Exists the wight who could dream of compet.i.tion with Mandlebert!"
"Nay, now, my dear Clarendel, you enchant me. If you view his power with resentment, you are the man in the world to crumble it to the dust. To work, therefore, dear creature, without delay."
"But how must I go about it? a little instruction, for pity!"
"Charming innocent! So you don"t know how to try to make yourself agreeable?"
"Not in the least! I am ignorant to a redundance."
"And were you never more adroit?"
"Never. A goth in grain! Witless from the first _muling in my nurse"s arms_!"
"Come, come, a truce for a moment, with foppery, and answer me seriously; Were you ever in love, Clarendel? speak the truth. I am just seized with a pa.s.sionate desire to know."
"Why ... yes ..." answered he, pulling his lips with his fingers, "I think--I rather think ... I was once."
"O tell! tell! tell!"
"Nay, I am not very positive. One hears it is to happen; and one is put upon thinking of it, while so very young, that one soon takes it for granted. Define it a little, and I can answer you more accurately. Pray, is it any thing beyond being very fond, and very silly, with a little touch of melancholy?"
"Precise! precise! Tell me, therefore, what it was that caught you.
Beauty? Fortune? Flattery? or Wit? Speak! speak! I die to know!"
"O, I have forgotten all that these hundred years! I have not the smallest trace left!"
"You are a terrible c.o.xcomb, my dear Clarendel! and I am a worse myself for giving you so much encouragement. But, however, we must absolutely do something for this fair and drooping violet. She won"t go even to the play tonight."
"Lovely lily! how shall we rear it? Tell her I beg her to be of our party."
"You beg her? My dear Sir Sedley! what do you talk of?"
"Tell her "tis my entreaty, my supplication!"
"And you think that will make her comply?"
"You will see."
"Bravo, my dear Clarendel, bravo! However, if you have the courage to send such a message, I have not to deliver it: but I will write it for you."
She then wrote,