"Uncle," she said, "you know I always want to talk to you. And, as for the right to ask, you have the right to ask anything of me at any time.
And I should have told you, of my own accord, by and by. Mr. Pearson and I have not quarreled; but I think--I think it best that I should not see him again."
"You do? Not see him--any more--at all? Why, Caroline!"
"Not for a long, long time, at least. It would only make it harder--for him; and it"s of no use."
Captain Elisha sighed again. "I guess I understand, Caroline. I presume likely I do. He--he asked somethin" of you--and you couldn"t say yes to him. That was it, I suppose. Needn"t tell me unless you really want to, you understand," he added, hastily.
"But I do. I ought to tell you. I should have told you before, and perhaps, if I had, he would not have ... Uncle Elisha, Mr. Pearson asked me to be his wife."
The captain gave no evidence of surprise.
"Yes," he replied, gravely, "I judged that was it. And you told him you couldn"t, I suppose. Well, dearie, that"s a question n.o.body ought to answer but the one. She"s the only one that knows what that answer should be, and, when other folks interfere and try to influence, it generally means trouble. I"m kind of disappointed; I"ll own up to that.
I think Jim is a fine, honest, able young man, and he"d make a good husband, I"m sure. And, so far as his business, or profession, or whatever you call it, goes, he"s doin" pretty well and sartin to do better. Of course, "twa"n"t that that kept you from--"
"Uncle Elisha! Am _I_ so rich that I should--"
"There! there, my girl! I know "twa"n"t that, of course. I was only thinkin" out loud, that"s all--tryin" to find reasons. You didn"t care for him enough, I suppose. Caroline, you don"t care for anybody else, do you? You don"t still care for that other feller, that--"
"Uncle!" she sprang up, hurt and indignant. "How can you?" she cried.
"How could you ask that? What must you think of me?"
"Please, Caroline," he protested; "please don"t. I beg your pardon. I was a fool! I knew better. Don"t go. Tell me the real reason. Sit down again and let"s talk this out. Do sit down! that"s it. Now tell me; was it that you couldn"t care for Jim enough?"
She hesitated.
"Was it?" he repeated.
"I--I like Mr. Pearson very much. I respect and admire him."
"But you don"t love him. I see. Well," sadly, "there"s another one of my dreams gone to smash. However, you did just right, dearie. Feelin" that way, you couldn"t marry him, of course."
He would have risen now, and she detained him.
"That was not the reason," she said, in a low tone.
"Hey?" he bent toward her. "What?" he cried. "That wa"n"t the reason, you say? You do care for him?"
She was silent.
"Do you?" he repeated, gently. "And yet you sent him away. Why?"
She faltered, tried to speak, and then turned away. He put his arm about her and stroked her hair.
"Don"t you cry, dearie," he begged. "I won"t bother you any more. You can tell me some other time--if you want to. Or you needn"t tell me at all. It"s all right; only don"t cry. "Cause if you do," with sudden determination, "I shall cry, too; and, bein" as I ain"t used to the exercise, I may raise such a row that Annie"ll send for the constable.
You wouldn"t want that to happen, I know."
This unexpected announcement had the desired effect; Caroline laughed hysterically and freed herself from his arm.
"I mustn"t be so silly," she said. "I had made up my mind to tell you everything, and I shall. My not caring for Mr. Pearson was not my reason for refusing him. The reasons were two--you and Steve."
"Me and Steve? What in the world have we got to do with it?"
"Everything. He would marry me, poor as I am; and perhaps I--perhaps I should say yes if things were different. Oh, there is no use my deceiving you, or trying to deceive myself! I know I should say yes, and be very, very happy. But I can"t! and I won"t! I _won"t_!"
"But why? And where, for mercy"s sake, do Steve and I come in?"
"Uncle Elisha, I suppose you think I have been perfectly satisfied to let you take care of me and of my brother, and give us a home and all that we needed and more. No doubt you thought me selfish enough to be contented with that and go on as I am--as we are--living on your bounty.
You had reason to think so. But I have not been contented with that, nor has Steve. He and I have made our plans, and we shall carry them out. He will leave college in two years and go to work in earnest. Before that time I shall be ready to teach. I have been studying with just that idea in view."
"Good land! Why, no, you ain"t! You"ve been studyin" to help me and Annie run this house."
"That was only part of it--the smallest part. I haven"t told you before, Uncle, but one of the Domestic Science teachers at the University is a girl I used to know slightly. She is going to be married next year, and, if all goes well, I may be appointed to her position when she leaves. I have a conditional promise already. If I am, why, then, you see, I shall really be earning my own living; you will not have to give up your own home and all your interests there to make me comfortable: you can--"
"Here! here!" Captain Elisha put in, desperately; "don"t talk so ridiculous, Caroline. I ain"t givin" up anything. I never was more happy than I"ve been right here with you this summer. I"m satisfied."
"I know, but I am not. And neither is Steve. He and I have planned it all. His salary at first will be small, and so will mine. But together we can earn enough to live somehow and, later on, when he earns more, perhaps we may be able to repay a little of all that you have given us.
We shall try. _I_ shall insist upon it."
"Caroline Warren, is _that_ the reason you sent Jim away? Did you tell him that? Did you tell him you wouldn"t marry him on account of me?"
"No, of course I did not," indignantly. "I told him--I said I must not think of marriage; it was impossible. And it is! You _know_ it is, Uncle Elisha!"
"I don"t know any such thing. If you want to make me happy, Caroline, you couldn"t find a better way than to be Jim Pearson"s wife. And you would be happy, too; you said so."
"But I am not thinking of happiness. It is my duty--to you and to my own self-respect. And not only that, but to Steve. Someone must provide a home for him. Neither he nor I will permit you to do it a day longer than is necessary. I am his sister and I shall not leave him."
"But you won"t have to leave him. Steve"s future"s all fixed. I"ve provided for Steve."
"What do you mean?"
"What I say." The captain was very much excited and, for once, completely off his guard. "I"ve had plans for Steve all along. He"s doin" fust-rate in that broker"s office, learnin" the trade. Next summer he"ll have another whack at it and learn more. When he"s out of college I"m goin" to turn over your dad"s seat on the Stock Exchange to him. Not give it to him, you know--not right off--but let him try; and then, if he makes a good fist at it, he"ll have it permanent. Steve"s got the best chance in the world. He couldn"t ask much better, seems to me. You ain"t got to fret yourself about Steve."
He paused, almost out of breath. He had been speaking rapidly so as to prevent interruption. Caroline"s astonishment was too great for words, just then. Her uncle anxiously awaited her reply.
"You see, don"t you?" he asked. "You understand. Steve"s goin" to have the chance to make a good livin" at the very thing he declares he"s set on doin". I ain"t told him, and I don"t want you to, but it"s what I"ve planned for him and--"
"Wait! wait, Uncle, please! The Stock Exchange seat? Father"s seat? I don"t see.... I don"t understand."
"Yes, yes!" eagerly; "your pa"s seat. I"ve meant it for Steve. There"s been chances enough to sell it, but I wouldn"t do that. "Twas for him, Caroline; and he"s goin" to have it."
"But I don"t see how.... Why, I thought--"
The door of the dining room opened. Annie appeared on the threshold.
"Dinner is served," she announced.
"Be right there, Annie. Now you see that you ain"t got to worry about Steve, don"t you, Caroline?"