"That you are cured."
"Yes, I must believe that."
"Pardon me--not so much believe it, as you must understand it and understand why it is so. Every orthodox Christian is ready to state glibly that G.o.d is All, but they never act as if they believed it and that is the chief difference between members of churches and Christian Scientists."
"Why does every one hate Christian Science so before they understand it?"
"Christian Science is like a large crystal bowl full of the pure water of life. Left alone it simply sparkles in the sunlight of G.o.d"s smile.
But if you bring to it the alkali of ignorance and the acid of prejudice, this clear water becomes the vehicle of a most energetic boiling and fizzing. But when it has a.s.similated the two foreign ingredients the residue sinks to the bottom harmlessly, the water clarifies itself by its reflected power, and the crystal bowl resumes its placid, sparkling aspect."
"I understand," said Carolina, "that I must have caused that commotion rather often, for I used to hate Christian Science so vigorously and I hated Mrs. Eddy so intensely that I used to rejoice at every adverse criticism of her or her work, and I used to go to the trouble (when I never would have bothered to make a sc.r.a.p-book) of cutting things out of the papers, and mailing them to my friends. I deliberately put myself out in order to hate it more adequately!"
"I know," said Mrs. G.o.ddard. "Isn"t it strange, when you look back on it in the light of your new understanding and your healing?"
"Ye-es," said Carolina, dubiously, "but to be quite truthful, I am afraid I am not cured of all my prejudice yet!"
"Let it go," said Mrs. G.o.ddard. "It will pa.s.s of itself. Don"t fret about it. Now tell me about yourself. You know we do not dwell upon our ailments, mental or physical, but if you state them to me, as your physician I can work more intelligently."
"Oh," sighed Carolina, "what is there not the matter with me! Where shall I begin?"
"Let it console you to know in advance that there is a remedy in Divine Science for everything. "Not a sparrow falleth"--you remember! The table of comfort for every woe is spread before you in the presence of your enemies. Fear neither them nor to partake freely of G.o.d"s gifts.
The more eagerly you come and the more you partake of the feast Divine Love spreads, the more generously G.o.d will pour out His blessings upon you."
Thus encouraged Carolina told her suspicions of the fate of Guildford and of Colonel Yancey, without, however, mentioning him by name, until, led on by Mrs. G.o.ddard"s sympathetic manner, she threw her whole soul into the recital of her own and Mrs. Winchester"s loss, and of how she had hoped to restore Guildford.
Occasionally Mrs. G.o.ddard interrupted her to ask a pertinent question.
It gave Carolina a feeling of comfort to realize her new friend"s mentality. Carolina, was so accustomed to knowing people of capacity and brilliant intelligence that her mind reached after such naturally.
"Guildford is not lost to you," said Mrs. G.o.ddard, just as Rosemary had.
"It will be restored to you, and you will be able to make good Mrs.
Winchester"s loss. You must have harmony in your life. That is your right--your G.o.d-bestowed right. You are an heir of G.o.d"s boundless affluence. It is a crime for one of G.o.d"s little ones to be poor, or neglected, or sick, or forsaken. Not to believe this is to doubt His promises, which are sure, and to limit His power, which is limitless.
"We do not know the way, nor must we make laws nor dictate means. But G.o.d is even now preparing the broad highway which shall lead your feet straight to the gates of Guildford. Let Him find you humble, grateful, and ready for the blessing. Don"t fret. Don"t worry. Don"t be anxious. "Be still, and know that I am G.o.d!""
For her only reply Carolina bowed her face upon her hands, and burst into an uncontrollable fit of weeping.
Mrs. G.o.ddard made no effort to check or comfort her, except by thought.
When she had finished, Mrs. G.o.ddard nodded her head, saying:
"That did you good. Now for your physical self! Was the hip broken?"
"Yes, and set by six of the best surgeons in New York. Doctor Colfax is the most hopeful, but even he says that if ever I grow strong enough to leave off crutches, I shall limp all my life."
Mrs. G.o.ddard smiled.
"Doctor Colfax is one of the best men I ever knew. His left hand knows not what his right hand does in the way of charity, and his whole life, instead of being devoted to ama.s.sing a fortune, is given up to the healing of mankind."
"Why, I thought Scientists did not like doctors!" cried Carolina.
"We admire their intentions. Who could fail to? Among them are some of the n.o.blest characters I have ever known in any walk of life."
"But," cried Carolina, alarmed by this praise, "you don"t believe that what he says is true? Why, Rosemary a.s.sured me--"
"And I a.s.sure you no less than Rosemary," said Mrs. G.o.ddard, "that G.o.d is able and willing to heal all such as repent of their sins and come to Him with an humble and contrite heart. You are the best judge of whether your heart is right toward your enemies. Can you bring yourself to love this man who has defrauded you of your inheritance? If not, you have no right to expect G.o.d to restore it to you. Now think this over while I give you a treatment."
Carolina watched her in so great a surprise that she forgot to think over her grievance against Colonel Yancey. Mrs. G.o.ddard leaned her elbow on the arm of her chair, and pressed the tips of her fingers lightly against her closed eyes as if in silent prayer. Her lovely face framed in large ripples of iron-gray hair, her gown of silvery gray, her figure still youthful in its curves, her slender, spiritual hands, her earnest voice, and tender, helpful manner, formed so beautiful an image in Carolina"s mind, and she longed so ardently to model herself upon the spirit she represented, that tears welled to her eyes when she contrasted her own att.i.tude with Mrs. G.o.ddard"s, and when she recalled herself with a start, to the subject of Colonel Yancey, she found to her surprise that his importance had so diminished that he had receded into the background of her thought, and the thing she most ardently desired was not Guildford, but to put herself right with G.o.d, her Father!
At the moment that this thought formulated in her mind, a flood of divine peace poured over her whole spirit, and for the first time the pain of her bereavement lessened, and then gently pa.s.sed into nothingness.
G.o.d her Father! A G.o.d of infinite tenderness and love! One who loved her even as her own dear father had loved! One who was not responsible for all the evil which had descended upon her! One who owed her only love and protection, and a tenderness such as she had received in its highest earthly form from her father.
In vain Carolina struggled to deify G.o.d above her earthly father. She had loved him in so large and deep and broad a manner that she could only realize her new G.o.d by comparing Him to her father. And Divine Science had sent this new interpretation of G.o.d to her to take the place in her sore heart of the ever-present aching sense of her great loss.
When Mrs. G.o.ddard ended her treatment and opened her eyes, she sat for a moment in silent contemplation of the transfigured face before her.
Carolina"s beauty, as she thus, for the first time, beheld the face of her Father, was almost unearthly. It was as that of the angels in heaven.
A wave of generous thanksgiving and rejoicing swept over the soul of her pract.i.tioner, for she knew that she had been permitted to be the instrument in G.o.d"s hands of healing a soul which had been sick unto death. Carolina"s bodily healing took second place in her thought, yet her confidence was sound that that was even now being accomplished.
When Carolina met her eyes, she smiled. She had found peace.
"Now, dear child, I want to leave with you the ninety-first Psalm. Read it with your new thought in mind, and you will realize that you never have even apprehended it before. Remember, too, that you are not alone any more. You are cradled in Divine Love, for G.o.d is both Mother and Father to His children. "The eternal G.o.d is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms!""
Mrs. G.o.ddard bent and kissed the girl, and Carolina, usually so reserved, laid her flowerlike face against the older woman"s cheek in a silence too deep for words.
"Remember, dear, to call on me by day or night exactly as if I were Doctor Colfax, for I am your physician now. But deny your error as soon as it makes its appearance and you won"t need to send for me. I will come of my own accord every day and help you in your studies. Now I must go. Rosemary and I love you already. Both Divine and human love are pouring in upon you in such a manner that you shall not be able to receive it. Good-bye and G.o.d bless you, my dear!"
CHAPTER IX.
THE TRIAL OF FAITH
To understand Carolina"s complete and instant acceptance of the doctrines of Christian Science in addition to her healing, it is necessary to take a more intimate view of her character.
A person of little or no understanding, or of little or no depth, would naturally have accepted the boon of restored health, whether she ever went any further in the doctrine or not. But Carolina was different.
To her the blessing was in a change of thought. Marvellous as she felt her healing to be, her greatest gain was in the peace and happiness which descended upon her like a garment.
To be sure she had been in a desperate plight, both physically and spiritually, when this wonderful hand was stretched out to her in her darkness and despair, yet many to whom it reaches out refuse its grasp simply from a blind prejudice. Having ears, they hear not, nor will they when they might. It argues a particularly lovely spirit to be able to accept so freely and gladly. Carolina was not free from prejudice. Far from it. But she was not stupid. Aside from a clear, spiritual understanding, to be able to accept Christian Science demonstrates no small degree of mentality, clearness of perception, and a capacity for higher education. The Science of Metaphysics does not appeal to fools, and only wise men pursue it. Christian Science is the only religion which calls in any dignified way upon a man"s brain. All the others stuff one"s intelligence with cotton wool, bidding the questioner not to question but believe. Believe what his ordinary human intelligence repudiates. "If you don"t understand all of me," says popular religion, "skip what you don"t understand and go on to the next. If you keep on long enough you will find something that you can believe without any trouble. Let that satisfy you. Forget the rest."
But when a metaphysical interpretation of the Scriptures comes along saying: "Ask any question you will and I will give you an answer that will satisfy the best brains and highest order of intelligence among you, for the day of blind belief is past, and the day of understanding is at hand," then the highest compliment which can be paid to the mentality of the most brilliant man and woman, is to say: "They are Christian Scientists."
There may be--there are, many erratic minds attracted by Christian Science, but there are no complete and utter fools among its followers, for the mere fact that a man has sense enough to grope after the very best, instead of being satisfied with that which never completely satisfied the mentality of any man or woman of real intelligence, is an evidence that some degree of wit must be entangled in the meshes of his foolishness. While on the other hand it is doubtful if there ever was a forty-year old sect in the knowledge of man which numbered the mult.i.tude of brilliant minds which are within the annals of Christian Science.
Carolina, all her life, had been, not only surrounded by, but familiar with the best. Her father"s and mother"s brilliance and good taste had drawn around them many of the finest minds in Europe, so that the girl"s mentality was as ripe for the highest form of religion as it was of literature or art.
She plunged into the study of it with all the ardour of an enthusiastic intelligence, and heaved a sigh of relief when she realized that at last she had found a dignified religion, free from every form of superst.i.tion, from all material symbols, and, above all, one which made it possible intelligently to obey the command, "Be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you" (1 Peter iii. 15).